a journey of self discovery thru sex and self gratification. Rated R

SWEETEST THINGS I NEVER SAID

sideTwo: someone to feed my appetite

Jesus Reyes opens up about his Red-Y or Not experience.

Red-Y or Not 

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On Mother's Day, it was only right to celebrate our mothers and the woman who gave birth to us. Thank you, Loaiza...a woman who we are honored to call MOM,

Red-Y Or Not Podcast

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A guided meditation to develop the process of letting go of those things that no longer serve.

Letting Go - Guided Meditation

Ashtavakra Samhita Self Exploration Meditation by Ekta Bathija
1-I AM NOT I

Ashtavakra I - Self Exploration: 1-I AM NOT I by Ekta Bathija

Ashtavakra Samhita Self Exploration Meditation by Ekta Bathija
2-Is this real or was that real

Ashtavakra I - Self Exploration: 2-Is this real or was that real by Ekta Bathija

Ashtavakra Samhita Self Exploration Meditation by Ekta Bathija
Chapter 2 - Verse 5 - 2-Swapna Nidra Gnyana Sadhana reveals Ashtavakra Samhita wisdom

Ashtavakra IV - SE: Ch 2 - Verse 5 - 2-Swapna Nidra Gnyana Sadhana reveals Ashtavakra Samhita wisdom

This recipe is an invitation to be, and to be with nature. Made possible through the experiment of raking and embodied listening, this recipe for “Feeling into Healing,” is composed of fieldnotes and soundscapes interwoven through the genius of sound designer Rascal Miles. It unfolds as a dialogue between body and environment. Each gesture—breathing, noticing, listening, feeling—becomes method and meditation.

Not a dish but a cultivated atmosphere: an alchemy of presence where internal satisfaction and rupture meet. As part of Erotic Rupture, it extends a practice of intimacy with the more-than-human, holding space for awareness to emerge through relation.

Feeling into Healing: A Recipe {Erotic Rupture Series}

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Lyrics:

It’s the way she blinks her eyes at me,
Cannot help but smile and think she might ask me, 
“Is it working?” I plead to my laugh, “We
Cannot mess this up, I see a life,” that’s weak,

Or so it seems, because she’s walked away,
But now I know it’s better, we love, but gotta hate,
And I know that’s the truth, enough, a lot to say,
Guess I’ll find her on Snap, and move to Lana Rey,

*calling sound* Well that played real unexpected,
I think I need to sit down, ‘cause she’s ’bouta weapon-
-ize her position in my head, lunged at second,
Then climbed up to the first, I’m real stunned, a blessing,

Or maybe not, I can really never tell,
I think this can go only south, I’m nearly better self
Indulging in fiction, it’s silly whether hell
Ends up rising where I’m at, or I’m giddy ‘til it sells,

Either way, I don’t think I’d like it,
‘Cause they’re all below the hips, while I sing my type in,
I’m waiting for her, but she’s kissed like I can’t,
And I won’t bother to try, ‘cause spending time’s my sin,

Or so it feels, ‘cause nobody relates,
I’m the only one in town whose soul-body awaits
In a little backyard with no buddies to waste,
And a door wide closed with no cutting to base-

-s

is this to be? (prod. Rezzy) - Single

is this to be? (prod. Rezzy)

This conversation explores the journey of self-awareness, authenticity, and personal growth, emphasiSing open dialogue, reflection, and integration. It touches on frameworks like Crucial Conversations, astrology, and Spiral Dynamics to understand oneself and others, including how consciousness develops through different levels and the shadows present at each stage. A central theme is the interplay of masculinity and femininity, and how rigid, binary thinking around gender roles—particularly within societal and spiritual contexts—can create suffering, limit expression, and trigger deep frustration. The discussion also examines the tension between deep thinking and action, the pitfalls of performative spirituality, and the liberation that comes from embracing vulnerability, being seen, and prioritising authenticity over validation. Ultimately, it underscores that growth is a daily practice of small, courageous steps toward alignment, connection, and integrated understanding of both self and others.

ABOUT ASHLEIGH BOEHM

Ashleigh Boehm is currently re‑imagining how she works with women, bringing fresh approaches to her holistic transformation, NLP coaching, and eating‑psychology expertise. Follow her on Instagram to stay updated as she rolls out the next evolution of her programs. She has a background in nutrition and over 12 years in fitness and mindset work, Ashleigh has guided women through breaking free from perfectionism, external validation, and dieting. Her prior signature work explores masculinity, femininity, self‑trust, and shadow integration, helping women reclaim their voice, embody authenticity, and express their true worth both internally and externally. Using tools from Crucial Conversations, Spiral Dynamics, and astrology, she equips her clients for the daily practice of courageous, aligned action. 

CONNECT with ASHLEIGH

https://www.instagram.com/iamashleighboehm/

LINKS MENTIONED

Zach Bush Authenticity Reel: https://www.instagram.com/reel/DJ1rgIVRqBy/?hl=en
SPRIAL DYNAMICS: https://www.youtube.com/@ActualizedOrg/search?query=spiral%20dynamics

EP 39 - Authenticity, Shadows & Astrology:  Self & Other Exploration with Ashleigh Boehm

Hello there, my (stage) name is holloway Junior, gonna write some info about me as an artist (not in third person though cuz that’s always seemed kinda corny to me for an independent artist to do lol)

I’ve been rapping since the seventh grade, though 99% of my music from all those years ago has been archived, hopefully never to be seen again by the public. My first ever song started with “Catch Me Outside (not ski mask btw)”, which is surprisingly not my worst song, although still not good in the slightest. I kept recording up until the beginning of the eighth grade, which is when I started to do it less and less. I never planned on coming back to recording until my friend made me record a song I wrote, ‘cause she really wanted to hear what the flow sounded like. I had forgotten how much fun it was to record, so I went back to a song I wrote a handful of months prior and decided to record it, and that’s when “Arkham Knight (prod. UNDERGROUNDFXCK)” was born. Ever since then, I’ve been recording and writing a lot more, really working on improving my style in both categories.

I try my best to touch on as many styles of rap as I can, although I’m still very amateur and have a lot of experience left to be had. I’m not the most versatile artist out there, but I think I’ve done a good job at doing multiple different sounds. Sadly, my monotone voice doesn’t change very much throughout them, which is something I’ve been trying to work on as of recently, however it’s really hard for me to project my voice without it sounding terribly forced. 

I like to write about a lot of different things, though my main favourite thing is to write conceptual stories. My first ever story that wasn’t directly inspired by something that happened to me (although still contained elements of things that happened to me) was “woah, girl (prod. ghowste)”, which I still largely believe to be the song I am most proud of. I do tell true stories as well, although I’m not gonna clarify which ones are the true ones to the public, since it would be very fun to watch them scatter around trying to piece together which ones are the true ones (I have no faith that will ever happen). 

If anyone is ever interested in doing a song with me, you can feel free to DM me on here, or Instagram depending on which you’re more familiar with. Just do me a favour and make it clear you aren’t a bot, ‘cause I get lots of bots demanding I do a collab, or asking me to get on their little radio station that isn’t real.

That’s all I can think of for now, I’ll come back to add more onto this when I think of more stuff to write about. Thanks for reading through this, hope to see you on streaming services soon 🫶

No day is quite the same as the day before. Some days, you're suddenly facing an untimely circumstance. In the Red-Y or Not podcast, brother and sister Luis and Anelys Cruz break down and discuss those uneasy scenarios.

Raw and real conversations on courage, consciousness and leadership.

Ekta Bathija, a spiritual mentor since 1998, uncovers the hidden paths to the deeper corners of the inner-world to help fathom the highest Truth!

She emphasizes that one MUST understand the various spiritual paths so as to educate oneself and take to the path that one is magnetized by. Having walked through the inner-world, she can help one maneuver through the Vedic path, the Buddha’s path, and the Non-dual path.

A mountain can be climbed up from many directions, using a paved road, a dirt road, along the river bank, along the cliff-side, with a harness, without a harness, in myriad ways. It doesn’t matter how you climb up, you will finally get to the peak provided you follow the direction to the peak. We all have GPS within us. We just need to uncover it from the dirt and muck, lying within the depths of our own inner world.

Ekta’s method is not for those interested in philosophy, psychology, new-age techniques or old ritualistic traditions. It has only one purpose – Attaining a state of No-Mind [mind devoid of craving]. This must be attained by SELF-EXPERIENCE and FOLLOWING ONE’S OWN TRUTH devoid of external influence.

Tread only if you have the inner thirst to attain the highest human potential and the courage to unearth your own hidden Truth by self-effort!

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