Verse 1
When I was young I believed
I could be anything I conceived
This idea drove my life
I’d be an artist with a house and wife

I’d stay young whatever my age
Full of hope and never change
I’d be strong and break the norms
I would never dare conform

Then I got old life started moving fast
Got to get to work, got to make some cash
No time now to be a superhero
I just need to get to inbox zero

What is this reality
All these new responsibilities  
Going to all these social events
Talking about bonds and the president

Pre-Chorus
So there I was at twenty two
I had no clue what to do
Losing my own identity 
Boiling with anxiety
CHORUS
Oh no
What’s happening to me?
I’ve started conforming to society

Am I dead?
Is this in my head
I wake up in the morning and I just feel dread

VERSE 2
Flash forward now, I’m twenty nine
I’m convinced I’m doing just fine
Those old dreams, they weren’t me
I prefer now to stay busy

Then I got this sinking feeling
Maybe my life had no purpose or meaning 
What if I was nothing special
My corporate job was non essential
Pre-Chorus
Sure I was older just more confused
I had no clue what to do
Losing my own identity
Boiling with anxiety
CHORUS
Oh no
What happened to me?
I’ve lost myself to society

Am I dead?
Is this in my head
I wake up in the morning and I just feel dread
BRIDGE
I realized that I felt alone
I felt so lost in life's unknown
No longer could I hide
That I had let my own dreams die

I swore that night
To make things right
To hear my soul
To seek a path to becoming whole
FINAL CHORUS
Hello
Is this really me
I now know who I need to be
I’m not dead,
That was all in my head
I wake up in the morning and I jump out of bed

Getting Old or Letting Go?

‘SAR, In My Mind’ takes you into the headspace of a lonely man, lost in his thoughts, fueled by weed gummies and a flickering TV.
As he spirals into chaos, he channels his isolation and mental struggle into raw, hypnotic music.

Made with FL Studio (Full Version) + Official Plugins
Produced by Nixavelli Records
This track was created using FL Studio, with the full version and all the tools that come with it. A bunch of official plugins helped shape the sound and give it that extra vibe.
Everything’s polished and ready to go, so sit back, relax, and enjoy the music.
All rights reserved.

SAR (prod. by Nixavelli Records)

This song is about a situationship that felt real in the moment — when we were high, laughing, and everything was blurry. Deep down, I think I always wanted more than he could give. I was the only one really floating. That’s why it’s called Helium — light, a little delusional, and hard to hold onto. But the twist is, through losing him, I found myself. It’s not just about him — it’s about who I became once I let go.

Helium

Dive beneath the surface.
“Deep Ocean” is a dreamy lo-fi hip hop track that floats between clarity and chaos, between silence and sound.
Built on soft ambient textures, deep sub-bass, and melodic rap vocals, it captures the feeling of sinking into your thoughts, weightless and detached from the world above.
The smooth, introspective delivery drifts across hazy pads—until the track suddenly breaks into a tight, confident verse that cuts through like a heartbeat under pressure.
Then, just as quickly, it melts back into the calm of deep water.

This is a soundscape for late nights, headphones on, eyes closed.
A personal moment. A deep breath. A sonic dive.

Genres: lo-fi hip hop, ambient rap, chillwave
Mood: dreamy, introspective, cinematic
Vocals: melodic rap, vocal chops, soft hooks
Produced with: soul textures, vinyl crackle, glitch accents
For fans of: fluid beats, underwater vibes, emotionally layered hip hop

Lyrics:

[Intro]
Deep in the blue, no one around
Thoughts in the current, I’m sinkin’ down
Silence talkin', it’s loud somehow
Weightless now... I’m just floatin’ out

[Verse 1]
차가운 파도 위를 걷는 기분
세상의 noise를 모두 mute 시킨 듯
불 꺼진 방, 눈 감은 채로
너와의 기억 속으로 dive, I go

숨을 크게 쉬고, 잠기듯이
조금씩 내려가, 마음 깊이
표현 못 했던 말들, all in the sea
조용히 퍼져 like a memory

[Hook]
I just float, in the deep ocean
No more weight, no more emotion
Let it go, all this commotion
I just drift… in slow motion

빛도 닿지 않는 곳에서
작은 숨결이 노래가 돼
I don’t need to run or hide
In this peace, I close my eyes

[Verse 2]
깊은 어둠 속이 더 편안해
가끔은 빛보다 그림자가 내게
친절해, 말없이 품어줄 때
혼자가 아닌 듯한 착각에 yeah

머릿속 clutter, 다 지워져
남겨진 건 진짜 나뿐이야
파도 위 떠 있는 생각들
아무 말 없이 나를 이해해 줘

I ain’t tryna flex, I’m just tryna heal
숨겨진 감정도 이제 let it spill
No rush, no pressure, just chill
지금 이 vibe이 너무 real

[Verse 3]

Yeah, I been floatin’ too long, now I’m back in control
잠수하듯 사라져도 내 중심은 고요
All that noise underwater, I tuned it to flow
불안은 내 연료, now I’m burnin’ real slow

이건 명상이 아냐, 전쟁 후의 평화
머릿속 미로 속에서 내가 만든 법과
생각이 복잡할수록 rhyme은 더 명확
깊은 ocean 속에서도 난 중심을 잡아

Look—
Used to drown in the silence, now I surf on the sound
마음속 데시벨, I turned it around
눈 감고도 보여, 난 지금 이 순간
This verse like pressure—deep sea pound

[Hook ]
I just float, in the deep ocean
No more weight, no more emotion
Let it go, all this commotion
I just drift… in slow motion

빛도 닿지 않는 곳에서
작은 숨결이 노래가 돼
I don’t need to run or hide
In this peace, I close my eyes

[Outro]
이곳은 말없이 나를 안아줘
세상과 멀어질수록 가까워져
진짜 내 맘에 귀 기울이는 시간
Deep ocean, where my soul unwind

#lofi #lofihiphop #lofirap #ambienthiphop #melodicrap  
#dreamyvibes #underwatervibes #deepocean #slowmotionfeel #introspective  
#vocalchops #ambientpads #subbass #vinylcrackle #glitchbeats  
#latenightmusic #headphonemusic #emotionalbeats #selfreflection #chillzone  
#studybeats #nightvibes #aestheticmusic #undergroundhiphop #newmusic  
#soundcloudrap #indieartist #lofisoul #etherealrap #floatingfeel

Overman - Deep Ocean(feat. Vibes)

Moody and introspective, carried by soft piano chords and deep bass. A raw look into identity and self-reflection.

Jag Mot Spegeln

my own fault - HXPHAZXRD (beatprod. michael harrison)

hello gays, and welcum to my first song.. enjoy.

NEED 2 GET OUT OF THIS TOWN
MY FATHER LEFT JUST LIKE YOU DID 
NO NEED TO CRY 
I AM MUTED
I AM USELESS
NO NEED TO GET UPSET
YOU KNOW  HOW IT ENDS/

the geekbar in the back of your ford-150

Christopher emphasizes the importance of developing an inner gaze and self-awareness to counter the mind’s habitual movement from stillness to obsession and distraction. Instead of fixating on the contents of the mind, one should observe the mechanisms behind them, recognizing that enlightenment is a natural, unconditional state, while suffering is conditioned and self-created.

Undoing the Mind's Conditioning

делаю странные вещи 
меня все люди стыдятся 
ведь не больно падать с высоты 
которой не добрался

в моей голове бардак 
не могу с ней разобраться 
мои мысли похожи 
на мир рандомных генераций 

:|

я достаю клинок из ножен
расстаюсь со своим другом 
обмануть легко людей 
но тяжело держать рассудок 

времени прошло не мало 
уже больше трое суток
так и не сомкнул очей
вижу кровь прямо на руках

вижу кровь прямо на шее и на моем лице
но не могу ее смыть и забыть о трагичном конце
соратники мертвы у меня никого нет 
остался совсем один, в глазах всё тухнет свет

weird things

Fever Dreams

Cleo Antaeus is an independent songwriter, singer, and producer based in Honolulu, Hawaiʻi, whose music drifts between cinematic pop, soulful indie, bossa nova flips, and raw, sync-ready confessions that feel like secrets whispered at 2 a.m.

In just seven months, Cleo has written over 160 original songs, each one shaped by their poetic storytelling and fearless experimentation. Since April alone, their self-released tracks have pulled in 25,000+ organic streams worldwide, with multiple songs crossing 1K–2K+ plays on SoundCloud — proof that Cleo’s garden is alive and echoing.

At the heart of this work are Cleo’s alter artists, Nova Rue and Sunni — soulful, cinematic branches of their voice that bring each story to life in new shades and textures.

Cleo’s songs are 100% original, self-owned, fully cleared, and crafted for TV, film, and brand syncs — perfect for supervisors, artists, and listeners seeking music with real depth and a timeless global soul.

Good songs rise — and so do I.

Genres: Cinematic Pop, Indie Folk, Neo-Soul, R&B, Bossa Nova, Alt-Pop
Based: Honolulu, Hawaiʻi
Sync/Publishing/Collabs: cleonytus@gmail.com

YMER RECORDS

Now on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/ymer_records/

Contact: ymercbf@gmail.com

Philosophy is the pathless path; our inborn search for Truth. It is the hope of Christopher Murphy that through his teaching endeavors he can remind others of this innate search for Truth and empower them to see the Eternal with their own eyes.

thethreeawakenings@gmail.com

"As a wise man once said..." - Wise Man
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It all started with a dog named Eddie — a scruffy little guy kids swore looked like a real-life teddy bear. When he passed in 2020, I brought his spirit back as a 3D bear: playful, honest, and the other half of me.

In A Teddy Named Eddie, we tell true stories from my life through pop punk riffs, alt rock hooks, and early 2000s nostalgia. Sometimes I’m in his world; sometimes he’s in mine. Always cinematic, always full of heart, and always a little magical.

then the voice in my head said
WHETHER YOU LOVE WHAT YOU LOVE
OR LIVE IN DIVIDED CEASELESS
REVOLT AGAINST IT
WHAT YOU LOVE IS YOUR FATE

—Frank Bidart, "Guilty of Dust"

I'm Nixavelli, an Artistic Producer. 
If i Die Release all the private Stuff pls.
I already have a lot of tracks which you can see in my Profile.
If you are interested in  using my Tracks or to collaborate with me, leave me a Comment on Soundcloud and I will respond.
My Instagram: Nixavelli_music

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𝙼𝚢 𝙻𝚊𝚋𝚎𝚕: 𝙽𝚒𝚡𝚊𝚟𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚒 𝚁𝚎𝚌𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜 
𝟷 𝙿𝚕𝚊𝚌𝚎 𝙵𝚛𝚎𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚂𝚒𝚐𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝟷 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝙰𝚛𝚝𝚒𝚜𝚝. 
𝙿𝚛𝚘𝚍𝚞𝚌𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝙼𝚊𝚐𝚒𝚡 𝙼𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚌 𝙼𝚊𝚔𝚎𝚛 𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟹 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙵𝚕 𝚂𝚝𝚞𝚍𝚒𝚘𝚜.  𝙰𝚞𝚝𝚘𝚝𝚞𝚗𝚎 𝙿𝚕𝚞𝚐𝚒𝚗𝚜/ 𝙴𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚜/𝚅𝚜𝚝/ 𝙼𝚒𝚍𝚒 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎 𝙰𝚟𝚊𝚒𝚕𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎.  
𝙽𝚒𝚡𝚊𝚟𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚒 𝚁𝚎𝚌𝚘𝚛𝚍𝚜

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