This album is more of a story then it is an album, so before you think you can just play the album and hear hits, that's not how it's going to work. The only steps I have when listening to this album is to 

1. Open your mind for a better listening experience 
2. Be in a quiet room or take a walk 
3. Use headphones if accessible
4. listen to it at night (optional)

STORY BEHIND ALBUM

Life is filled with many questions, so much that everything seems as threatening as the other. I feel alone all the time, and honestly, I do it to myself, but at the same time it just seems that the way I was brought up has caused me to be distant from the people that actually care about me. 

I'm not happy with the person I have turned into so of course I don't want to come back to them until I can bring something they could be proud of. 

But maybe it's all for nothing, the need for validation is a goal that will never be met since no one will know what you're truly searching for regardless. 

But God, I used to search for God and tell him everything from my feelings to my downfalls, though I never got an answer back, I know he watches over me, even when life seems as if it's crashing right before my eyes. 

When I had moved it felt like a whole new world of chaos was there for me to explore which left me defeated, how can I ever find what I'm searching for if I only am surrounded by things that never last as long as you'd expect?

Especially if relationships are the topic, too many times in love I've felt that romance was not the first objective of having a mate, when I searched for loyalty, they always seem to turn the other cheek.

Aside from that I'm 18 and still throwing stuff at the wall and hoping it sticks, i'm really afraid of the future but living in doubt for so long has left me prideful on the possibilities that can happen when I do what enjoy doing.

So who gives a fuck if a bitch don't want me forever, you only live once so imma make sure they remember me for the rest of their existence, can't nobody make me fold except myself so as long as I keep moving with full ledge "fuck you" energy imma be fine right?

Well YEAH! until you actually find a girl u would love to spend some quality time with, infatuation is the biggest drug and young love NEVER goes how you want it to anyway... but fuck it, bullshit with the opposite gender and call it "love".

But when the bullshitting is done, clarity hits and you REALIZE the REAL LIES from everything you thought was going wrong were the REAL EYES of yourself, meaning love isn't love until you fight for it.

Well damn, shawty playing hard to get, who cares, you've never been good at approaching people in general, so it's fuck her and back to reality. Time to work on yourself again, woman are such a distraction anyway, you need to upgrade yourself

The first step of upgrading is cleaning out the closet, there's niggas in your life that been fake since you got to this new place, be on your own shit and see who catches on with your real personality 

I am what I say I am and if you dont fuck with me because of that, its ok, idc

Writing got boring so imma just leave it here lol... FIND VANITY

CONTROL!/MADNESS!

RUNNING MAN!

BACK AGAINST THE WALL!

FIND VANITY!

DONT BE SCARED! (prod. Merakki)

TEMPORARY HAPPINESS BRINGS MEANING!

MY THOUGHTS! (prod. Zgoat)

GOT A VISION!

ZODIAC KILLA!

IN YOUR HEAD!

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