my attempt at using an audio interface and DAW. I want to drive off a bridge

Gloom 4Ever

Should've known right when I saw you
Been sending nudes since the start of high school
But I liked your hair, thought that you looked cool
But now I know that there's no fucking hope
I remember when my friend showed me
He pulled up your nudes on his iphone screen
I wanted to die, I wanted to scream
And in that moment I knew there was no fucking hope

The girl I like is the village whore
Now I don't want her anymore
The girl I like is the village whore
And I've never wanted to kill myself more

Been heartbroken for about six months
I really wish you weren't a dumb slut
We could've done cool things and had a lot of fun
But you went and crushed all my fucking hopes
You do dumb shit and fuck a lot of guys
Everytime I think about it I wanna cry
Wanna crash my car into a tree and fucking die
And every day I think I want to commit suicide

The girl I like is the village whore
Now I don't want her anymore
The girl I like is the village whore
And I've never wanted to kill myself more

Village Whore

Stay in my room all day long
I need to get a job
but I cant because im messed up
scared of everything and everyone
I stutter and stare anytime that anyone talks to me
and at this point I wanna drop out of society

Im an agoraphobe
so scared wherever i go
can barely pick up the phone
im fuckin dying alone

terrified wherever I go
something's wrong me and everyone knows
they all realize that something's up
they know that I'm a fuck up
never moving forward again
beat down by the shit in my head
I just wish that my life was fun

Im an agoraphobe
so scared wherever i go
can barely pick up the phone
im fuckin dying alone

Agoraphobe

notice
me now
i make music on soundcloud
follow me
and like my songs
stream them all day and all night long
follow my twitter too
tell me that i am cool
like all my tweets and reply to me
i have nothing left
i have no girlfriend
filling up the void with the internet

the numbers on the screen must go up
the numbers on the screen must go up
the numbers on the screen the numbers on the screen
overstimulation dopamine wtf

wasting all my time
caring more about numbers than real life
feeling like a loser
excited by numbers on computers
my soul has been erroded
5g is corrosive
the internet will fuck u up and ud never know it
real goals have been erased
we wait for the numbers to go up all day

the numbers on the screen must go up
the numbers on the screen must go up
the numbers on the screen the numbers on the screen
overstimulation dopamine wtf

numbers on screen go up

I am doomed and i am screwed
I walk around in a living nightmare
I hate the present and i hate the past
wondering why im a dumbass
i fucked up the last few years
i did dumb shit and now im here
i think abt it and i get pissed
i wanna break things when i reminisce

Im so screwed
im so doomed
life is tough when nobody loves you
im so screwed im so doomed
oooooo im so doomed

I hate myself, and I hate my life
I sulk all day, and nothing feels right 
All I do is complain and whine, I’m afraid to live, I have no spine
I’m a piece of shit, I’m irrelevant, I’m embarrassed and I’ll admit it
I wish I could just be like them, but I’m all alone and I have no friends

im so screwed
im so doomed
life is tough when nobody loves you
im so screwed
im so doomed
life is shit when everyone hates you
im so screwed
im so doomed
life is tough when nobody loves you
im so screwed
im so doomed
oooooo im so doomed

So Doomed (ft. NEET)

im never speaking again
too much dumb shit that ive said
so much dumb shit in my head
i would be better off dead
i would be better off gone
i am a fucking retard
i fuck everything up
i make my life so hard

spaz attack, i didnt mean to say that
spaz attack, so many things i cant take back

im never making new friends
my life has come to an end
people think i am a sped
why am i so retarded
just put me in the grave
i dont know how to behave
i cant communicate
i am a fucking dumbass

spaz attack, i didnt mean to say that
spaz attack, so many things i cant take back

spaz attack spaz attack
didnt mean to fucking say that
spaz attack spaz attack
too many things that i cant take back

Spaz Attack

I'm Sorry That I Blew My Brains Out Across The Room (UhOhSlater cover)

lately i have been giving up
theres no reason to give a fuck
everybodys all messed up on meds
the whole worlds coming to an end
all my life people told me to try
but i just wanna lay down and die
i think i am done
i will never give a fuck

dropping out and giving up
i hate my life and everything sucks
always has and always will
i just wanna be shot and killed

lately ive been feeling down
i dont think ill ever figure it out
ive been getting more and more braindead
pretty sure in 2 years ill be dead
all my life i thought things would get better
now ive realized that im fucked forever
i think i am cursed
my life is the fucking worst

dropping out and giving up
i hate my life and everything sucks
always has and always will
i just wanna be shot and killed

Dropping Out And Giving Up

Im so ashamed and im so embarassed
I fucked up my whole life and i never was aware of it
I wish i could go back
I wish i could fix the past
But im handicapped by the choices that i have made

Im so ashamed and im so embarassed
But its hard to care when the worlds so careless
Im so ashamed and im so embarassed
Everyone hates me, even my parents

Im so ashamed
Ooooo
Im so ashamed
Oooo
Im so ashamed
Im so ashamed
Im so ashamed and im so embarassed

Somwthing is wrong with me
I am always so confused
I need to fix my life 
But i dont know what to do

Im so ashamed and im so embarassed
But its hard to care when the worlds so careless
Im so ashamed and im so embarassed
Everyone hates me, even my parents

Im so ashamed
Ooooo
Im so ashamed
Oooo
Im so ashamed
Im so ashamed
Im so ashamed and im so embarassed

Embarassed

Practicing self destruction
I can barely function
I fucked my whole life up
I think that my times up
Theres no coming back now
Everyone is sad now, sad now

Times up i know that my life sucks
Nothing worth saving I am barely living
Waging and praying just to end it
You wish i was dead now dead now

Ill be dead by 30
Im crashing and burning
Wasting my time because it is all worthless, worthless
Ill be fucking dead by 30, 30

Useless this why I choose this
Maybe im just stupid dumb and clueless
Houston can you read me can you even hear me
Do you even need me Need me

Chemicals in my brain
I am not the same
I watched too much youtube
I ate too much junkfood
Had too many vaccines
Now something is wrong me, wrong with me

Ill be dead by 30
Im crashing and burning
Wasting my time because it is all worthless, worthless
Ill be fucking dead by 30, 30

Dead by 30
Dead by 30
Dead by 30
Im crashing and burning
Dead by 30
Dead by 30
Dead by 30
Lifes fucking worthless

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