prod by @svrviiive
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
im traumatized
by the shards of life
that makes me gnaw my veins
and bite my lips and jowls to the ulcers

it breaks my mind.
and im still dwell this cage
it makes me feel so vile
and i swallow my nails like blades

ashes of my dreams
yeah it settled in my lungs and it break my ribs
yeah i fuck with this shit and i feel it like a burden of me
like i'll never escape i will never be free

sleeves up, and im back, to the scars on my hand
to my burns that i made, like a mark of my hate
to myself and the past, that is piercing my chest
hit the heart end - to -end, and im feel like im dead

I'm still breathing, spitting blood
and now im walking on the blade
to lose my hope and fall,
or hold and maybe see the light again?
the pain is gone, the wounds are healed
but i feel trapped in my own cage
which holds me back, it's like a prison
built of my own mental state

i used to wake up from my faintinings with my sleeves are fucking up
Im in a pool of still wet blood that flows like wine from my own wounds

and I dont want this shit to happen in my life again, no
and I just want to break this prison in my head to end this cold

mental prison. [prod. svrviiive]

prod by @svrviiive
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
all my lyrics and shit
wouldn't make any sense if i wasn't a whin
but even if it is, at least ima real.
and i'm not a fucking pussyboy, not a fucking bitch

i don't give a fuck, i don't give a shit
if you think that ima low cuz i never was heard
try to make some sense of this pile of my scream
and you'll see the truth, you will see me bleed, you're just a bitch

sometimes i feel like piece of trash
and im tear on my lungs and my morbid flesh
i repeat it often like its my prayer
but it's my own life, i've never played

my creativity is self-medication
not a money counter , or love motivation
for me this commerce like a decapitation
i curse this shit and i will never make it

i curse this time when i was sick and doesn't know where i go
and while these motherfuckers think its an image im tryna cope
and my life is a record, ima needle on a gramophone
which draws new scratches everywhere until it comes to abrasion
(x2)

where will my fate take me this time i want to know
i feel so sick but if i've come this far, it means that i can't stop

i am feeling like erased
and i got no trace
so i hurt myself
like it's just in case

you can see it in my face
i am got in impasse
and i hate this place
and i hate my space

and i keep on fucking trying
all the motherfucking ways
how to love my flesh
how to love my face

and i'm really fucking try
win this goddamn hate
and i'm really trying
to win this hate

abrasions. [prod. svrviiive]

prod by @svrviiive
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
i feel the pus in the deep of my throat
i see my nails eaten while im still mope
i swear my head's going burst of my thoughts
im so much wasted while thinking of worse

but i'll never be affected, im suspecting im gonna stop
one day i'll heal, at least i have big amount of hope
i open my scars again to see what im gonna lost
if i will fall one day of my suicidal lust

i keep staring into my scars
i still suffering just because
of my mind and my feelings of gross
im stone as troll in the sun, in the moss

oh fuck, i can say a lot of smart words
to describe my state of sadness and scorn
i am aim for the joy but get sad, no scope
i won't lacking of piece of love from the world

i can't stop right now, but i hope...
i can die, but i can't leave this world...
with no trace, i should leave my own
you'll see i did, and i will help you all

dismayed. [prod. svrviiive]

a new stage begins.
prod by @svrviiive
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:
yeah i locked in ward
all around are rusted walls now
i trapped inside the cage of wasted hopes
i feel it breaks down

i wanna fucking leave this astral place
i wanna wake up
but its something else inside my empty space
that holds the doors close

its not a fucking demon or an angel or a fucking god
i don't even know like why i waking up with long black hairs around my room
i swear it's covering all my floor and then its turn to ash
i feel the smell of darkness and it seems like now i smell myself

but now i still feeling that i am keep sleeping and all what I've done it is all in my brains
im going to break it im gonna escape it i know if don't then its end like that
im going to burn and im going to break and I keep on my trying till i feel im dead
yeah i wanna feel free and i wanna be normal so now i just need me to fucking wake up!

wake up!
wake up!
wake up!
wake up!
wake up!
wake up!
bitch i need to wake up!
(x2)

bitch i need to fucking wake up
but i feel somebody's hold my throat
i don't know if it's me or fucking not
i feel the hate is piercing like a thorn
(x2)

wake up. [prod. svrviiive]

the lyrics were written back in January but recorded only recently.
thanks for all the expectations, glad to be back<3.

prod. by @svrviiive
cover by @hollowmindisdead

lyrics:

bitch i keeping back to this shit
someone think that ima died or now im healthy to quit
or I'm wandering my ward in my own suicidal dreams
or maybe now i feeling happy as i wanted all these years

but fuck, bitch, stop it i ain't used for this shit
all my life is like a balance but on ends are only pits
problems teaching to survive and now i know that i won't sink
and im back with this noise, thats my way just to see all this shit

i mean to see the sense in grinding my thoughts
i mean i want to see the reason why my life going cross (with what i want)
i want to get the way i should care my wounds
remained from past in me, and living in the many other hearts

but i keep fucking wandering here like im blind
like I've pierced in my eyeballs when i was a child
and they're bleeding right now cuz these needles are stuck
they are long to my brain, bitch, i fucking trapped

thats the reason my music for me always sucks
that's the reason why you still looking for my blood
that's the reason one day I'll gone like fully mad
if i'll never found escape from endless ward

bitch i got lost in this pit
i fucking lost in this pit
now my body's drown in this pit
i'll fucking die in this pit bitch

i've got lost in this pit that i did by myself it's my own mental cage.
it's like hole in the head, like a rope to my neck, it's all sign to an end, want to get rid of that

and thats what now im doing im working on shit and i'll shut anybody that gotta prevent
all of my music is not always sad
when I'll feel i get happy I'll write shit bout that
but now i lost in this pit
i fucking lost in this pit
now my body's drown in this pit
I'll fucking die in this pit...

2024.

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