GOSSIP!
from The Boys Club - EP
out on 23.03.23

Gossip! - (Visualizer Video Mix)

written & produced by me

VERSE 1
There was a time 
when I cared so I let them play
All of the games 
They wanted to play,
And cause i cared
I can't let go the things they've said
It wrecked up my mental state
I believed i was unwell
And i should medicate

PRECHORUS
Born and raised
Just to regret
Wish i had in me just to forget
All of the things they said
That keep running round my head
And it won't stop

CHORUS
Everyone asks 
Happy to get back? (No!)
Damn, i can't seem to get that
Anywhere i go i take myself
I can't seem to let go or just relax
Everyone is damaged
on their own right
But a ride on town with you 
or on you may solve all of my strains
Till i get back home
To Isolate (again)

VERSE 2:
I don't want to get it together this year
All my life's been ruled by fear
So maybe if i break down in tears that would set me free
For a long time it took out the best of me
Oh what shame if we're being sincere
Now I've turned bittersweet
And may never come back 

PRECHORUS 2
Born and raised
Just to regret
Wish i had in me just to forget
All the things I've been
That keep creeping round my head
And it won't stop

BRIDGE:
Born and raised
Just to regret (Yah Ha!)
Oh fuck here we go again

Happy To Get Back

written & produced by me

VERSE 1
Tell me what it is 
Nothing and no one ever can ever meet my needs
I'm surviving in fight or flight means
And it took the best out of me 
Oh and I'm tired, everytime i hear the same
Yes I'm worth it too, so why you want to kill yourself?
You don't wanna be okay?

PRECHORUS
Cause if life doesn't turn my way
I'll be broken hearted
Is still there enough time to achieve what i want?

CHORUS
I'm not satisfied with this world
Kids living underpaid and overworked (oh why)
I cannot care about that now
I'm 25 with a burnout 
Oh how am i supposed to believe, 
that I'll ever find a way to succeed?, (oh how?)
If I'm meant to survive
Am i running out of time?

VERSE 2
I want to get off this ride 
I'm frightened by the motion 
I want to get off this rollercoaster
cause damn I'm facing my emotions 
is it worth the price to pay?
Fuck i can't seem to catch a break
Always taking the first step
But for someone else

CHORUS 2
Got me spinning out a motordrome
We're running dry on faith and on hope, oh I
Couldn't care less about that, cause
We've got on our gas masks

Running Out Of Time

written & produced

VERSE 1
Fresh of a start
Admiring from afar
How you throw stones from a glasshouse 
It's so fun to see how
You've got a lot to say
For someone who stays in bed all day
You've been a long way
To trash away the fame you made

PRECHORUS
Oh no!, Sometimes i need a rescue
So honey, If you can't give me all, then
Then I don't need you
Spare time till I find someone
Who's clever when i need to
Till then I'll be right, in control

CHORUS:
I saw it many times before
To recognize that look, that's right
Yeah I hate to say i told you so
But gossip can screw the nice
I can't control the way you are with me
can't give myself just like that
Yeah I lived it many times before
Now i can change all the time
Gossip!

VERSE 2
Talk it back to back
Like it's your house
Yeah tortured by misery
A big heart can be tricked
So if there's no quick fix
You gotta disappear
No one can see you dressed like this
Dressed in mistakes

BRIDGE 2:
I love the way you walk
It's like you own it all, oh how it's done?
I'll never show
I love the way you talk
My ears are burning up
So hot, so raw,
Can't get enough

Gossip!

written & produced by me

V1
"Always been this way
Just sit right there cause you're the man and
What a fucking mess
She made out there with that short dress, right?
Why the second guess
Not matter what she will mean yes
Cause why would they say no
To such a priceless gift?
PRE-1
I couldn't be more proud
You proven that you're loyal
When you said you never saw
All that nasty outcome"

CHORUS
What a fucking mess
"Greetings from the boys club"
What it's left to say?
"Did it for the boys club"

V2
Keep your drinks to yourself
Being soft can wreck a nerve
A little muscle and no brain  
And a small talk can lead to pain
But when they poured that drink
Onto his shirt it was the end
Cause boys who play with toys
Now they have to pay
PRE - 2
But nothing ever dies
In dad's expensive car
If anybody asks
Just say he couldn't handle tough 

CHORUS 2
What a fucking mess
"Greetings from the boys club"
The damage has been made
And the silence it's too loud now
But that's so fucking gay, right?
Caring for someone that's not a man
And what you'll mother say?
My boy won't ever act that way?
POST CHORUS
Nothing stays the same
Greetings from the boys club
What is left to say?
"Did it for the boys club"

BRIDGE
Just cause you can't get laid
Doesn't make you less of a man
Just cause you can't get laid
It doesn't mean we have to pay

The Boys Club

written & produced by me

LYRICS
VERSE 1

A tale as old as time
2 wrongs, that could never made a right
It's in these kind of days you love to run 
outside, but that's not fun I'm numb
What's life
I know just what you've got 
underneath that smile
It's wholesome how you turn-
ed me into a star
Just to lift up, your name but now
I'm spiriling out, I'm tired, I'm fed up 


CHORUS:
From the nowhere pouring like summer rain
All of the words that I had to let go
Breathing on my neck again that feeling
Wish i could go back to- i wish that- oh no -
Experience never taught me how to deal
With the guilt, but at least now I'm sure
I've lost my desire to feel understood
I feel I'm at the calm right Before the - storm

VERSE 2
A tale as old as time
If you patiently wait, good things arrive
It's been a thousand years, we're still alike
So who is it to blame?, you say we're fine
I want to be held by your arms
I wanted to feel safe at your sight
So why you have to wait until I'm mad
To go and treat me right
I'd rather die silent but


BRIDGE:
Am I being eaten alive by my pride that's why i stay
Silent?, but I'm far from the start, don't even ask how I've been

Before The Storm

written & produced by me

LYRICS:

VERSE 1:
I can't escape, and
I'm tucked on a dead bed
That's full of thoughts of you, but I
I feel at unease, cause i cannot predict
How long you'll stay in my life
I'm killing the happy story i write down,
in a minute you'll be gone for life
It's killing me softly, causing that my blood
Steams, why you're safe till my head tells me you're not?
PRE-CHORUS 1:
I have to trust you after all
Cause i can't blame you for what you're not
Would you catch me everytime i fall?
It's not Enough

CHORUS:
Said it was okay, wasn't what I meant and
It's clear in my face everytime, you still
Try to reach my hand, i just can't let you in
Told myself i can't go back ever again
POST CHORUS 1:
I can't escape from the place that I'm in
And going nowhere won't erase what i did
I'm stagnant, and can't make up for it
I'm everything i hate in life?

VERSE 2:
Every now and then
I crave to stay
but when I'm homebound is it that I'm lost 
I don't know if it's my instinct or my insecure thinking
That pushes me from you and this life
PRE-CHORUS 2:
Been this way, i guess
Can't blame you for what I've been
I'm looking down for something 
Not knowing what I crave
Comfortably numb while i wait, to see the light of day
I'm focused now in every chore
So i can shut down every thought

CHORUS 2:
It's dragging me all over the floor
a bit too far
A bit too much
Said it was okay, wasn't what I meant
And now i can't go back ever again

POST-CHORUS/BRIDGE:
I can't escape from the place that I'm in
And going nowhere won't erase all the shame
Had a lot to say, chose to stay silent
When i was pleased it was a lie
Right round the bend
Our ride ends within
And I stood in my place with your mixed messages, 
I made up in my brain all the ways that i hope could explain
Why is it that again
I'm at fault, about trust...

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