Hey friends, welcome back to Find the Joy with Jenn. I’m so glad you’re here today. This episode might feel a little tender—it’s one I wish I’d had in my early days after divorce. We’re talking about letting go of your “old life”—not just the marriage, but the whole dream that came with it. And we’re going to talk about doing that from a place of faith—trusting in God’s bigger plan, especially when it feels like yours has completely fallen apart.

And if you're listening today with a lump in your throat and tears in your eyes, still holding on to what was—wishing more than anything that you could have it all back—this is especially for you. I see you. I’ve been there. I know what it’s like to wake up and ache for a life that no longer exists. I hope you’ll stick with me, not because I have perfect answers, but because I want to walk with you toward hope. Not fake positivity—but real, quiet, God-given hope that can rise even in the rubble.

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166. Faith to Let Go: Moving Forward After Divorce

Drowning in Regret is a chaotic pop spiral disguised as a bop.

With skat-style vocals, bouncing rhythms, and darkly honest lyrics, this song is for anyone who’s ever stayed too long, ignored the truth, and ended up unraveling on the floor with a smile on their face.

It’s melodic. It’s messy. It’s the breakdown you didn’t know you needed.

Written by Yael Tellez | Female vocal | Melodic Chaos Pop
 “Happy, lonely, left in shame.”

For fans of Billie Eilish, Lily Allen, Sabrina Carpenter, P!nk, and Melanie Martinez, etc

Drowning in Regret – Melodic chaos pop with a sugar crash

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[Intro]
Uh.
Yeah.
You thought you got away?
Let me introduce someone real familiar…
She don’t knock. She walks in.

⸻

[Verse 1 – The Betrayed Woman]
You played a queen while you creepin’ like a pawn
Said it’s my fault? Boy, be gone
Gaslit me, flipped the scene
Like I made you cheat — what the hell that mean?

Told your boys I was wild, unstable
You the liar sittin’ at a cracked table
Blame-shift king with a broke-down crown
Now karma’s here, and she takin’ you down

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[Pre-Chorus]
You dumped me dirty, spread them lies
Now look who’s beggin’ while truth replies
You ain’t slick, just sick in the soul
Karma got heels and she came for the toll

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[Chorus]
Karma’s a bitch — and she dress in black
Silk gloves on, with a whip in back
You did me wrong? Now she doin’ worse
Put your name in a prayer, then hit reverse
She don’t knock — she kick in doors
Run your game? She run full tours
Sippin’ tea while your rep gets ditched
Karma’s a bitch — and she fully switched

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[Verse 2 – The Betrayed Woman]
You ghosted me, now you haunted nightly
Shadows movin’, and it’s not politely
New girl left, said you too fake
Now you sleepin’ cold, full of that ache

All that flex? Just rental scenes
All that ice? Just melt in dreams
You ran your mouth, now run that tab
Karma cashin’ out with a Gucci grab

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[Bridge – Flow switch, melodic hook vibe]
Mirror talk — that’s your new best friend
You lied on me, now it’s your dead end
I ain’t gotta touch you, I just heal
While karma ride out with a blade in heels

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[Chorus – Repeated]
Karma’s a bitch — with a law degree
She built a case while you ran free
Now you the exhibit, final part
Caught in the act with a guilty heart
She don’t text — she just arrives
Turn fake kings into humble guys
You lost the crown, now scratch that itch
Karma’s a bitch — and she don’t switch

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[Verse 3 – Karma’s POV]
I’m the whisper in the dark when you think it’s clear
I’m the chill in your bones when your pride turns fear
Watched you lie, cheat, gaslight, dip
Now it’s my turn — better tighten that lip

I don’t move fast, nah, I pace with class
But when I hit, baby boy, I don’t miss — I crash
You said “I’ll never pay”? That’s cute, I laugh
Now I’m billing every tear, every shattered half

I’m the phone that don’t ring when you need that call
I’m the silence in the crowd when you start to fall
I’m the truth in her eyes when she walks away
I’m the last damn chance that you threw away

No threats, just fate — no blade, just grace
But I’ll flip your world with a poker face
You made her bleed, now you taste the pitch
I’m Karma, baby — and I’m that bitch.

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[Final Chorus – Karma Takes Over]
Karma’s a bitch — but she don’t bluff
Built from steel and a heart grown tough
Mess with good? I rewrite scripts
Cross that line — and I break your grip
She don’t plead — she don’t twitch
She don’t fade — and she don’t glitch
Now say her name with a nervous twitch:
Karma’s a bitch — and she don’t miss.

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[Outro – Spoken, cold and clean]
You never saw me coming.
But you sure felt me leave.

KARMA’S A BITCH

Release date: 8th of August 2025

“Toxicity” is an alternative indie soul track infused with elements of hip-hop, drawing sonic inspiration from artists like Little Simz and Gorillaz. The song is a raw self-reflection that unpacks the many layers of toxicity, not just in relationships, but within the self. It explores how your own toxic traits, especially around self-image and self-worth, can shape the kind of love you accept and expect. Lyrically, it dives into the contradictions of being a modern woman, wanting to embody feminist ideals while still feeling consumed by the pressure to look a certain way. “Toxicity” is both a confession and a critique, confronting the idea that the love you receive is often a mirror of the love you give yourself.

Toxicity

(Prod. 4lexf)  This song is about a relationship that I had last year and was freestyled. She kept leaving and coming back and every time I let her. Idk, it was hella toxic but I wanted it.

Lyrics🔥: 

Hook || 



Just hold me tight ~

Hold me please ~


Verse 1 ||


Your love is toxic

Call the doc, what's the diagnostic

You used my love, you used my heart 

You took it just for profit

What is it costin'?

It's costin' sanity  

When you slidin' through it's a straight calamity

Blood on the walls, it's a killing spree

Why

Why

That's my only question

Why (did I) try

Feeding your addiction

Lies, Lies, Tell me lies

Pretty lies

And for some reason I fall for it everytime

The way her gaze made me freeze, you'd think she was Medusa 

(Cold sweats)

Soft eyes that just look right through ya

(Regrets) 

Baptized in the presence of a panda

(No sex)

Yet I realized that I was fucked after some banter

Scattered pages

Lost hearts

Me and you 

Brand new start

Everytime you came back

Heart crack

Yet still


Hook || 

Hold me tight ~

Hold me please ~


Verse 2 ||

Maybe in another life

(In another life)

Nice residence and a wife

Presidential sights 

Only the best for my love

The best for my queen

Everytime I'm with you, you know the grass is green

Yet my soul leanin' like I sipped up on that purple lean

Losing circulation like I'm wearing purple jeans

(Movie scene)

She got me thinkin' twice like she Billy Jean

Hold Me

This track dives deep into the raw emotions of toxic love the kind of heartbreak that leaves scars but also teaches strength. With dark 808s, moody vibes, and brutally honest lyrics, it’s perfect for anyone who ever felt used, ghosted, or left behind. If you’ve ever wasted years on the wrong person and had to rise from the ashes, this one will hit home.


Waste My Time

This is a bittersweet anthem for anyone who walked away from a toxic partner. Be Someone Else’s Problem is dark, sarcastic, and freeing 
a message to the one who thought you’d always stay. 
Inspired by Hailey Kiyoko’s alt-pop energy, 
this song is for every soul who’s tired of being “the cure” for someone who never heals.


be some1 else probleme

Light Me Up is raw alt-R&B built on a hypnotic acoustic guitar loop. The track drops you straight into the middle of being gaslit — diary-entry verses, chant-like hooks, and a petty-to-vulnerable arc that feels both intimate and explosive. It’s confessional, unpolished on purpose, and heavy with late-night energy. From the clipped sarcasm of “Immature? What I’m trippin’ for?” to the closing mantra of “Blocked, blocked, blocked,” this song is about reclaiming power when someone twists your truth.

Light Me Up

Cheap Parade is a biting dark-pop / alt-trap breakup diss that tears apart toxic love and fake status. With heavy 808s, sarcastic punchlines, and a sharp flow, the track calls out a boy who chases clout and chaos instead of real love. The lyrics are raw, painful, and empowering  an anthem for anyone tired of clowns in paper crowns.

Mood: angry, sarcastic, ironic, but still catchy
For fans of: blackbear, G-Eazy, Chase Atlantic
Story: from heartbreak to empowerment → You lost me, but in the end, they’ll remember my name, not yours.

Cheap Parade

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I write songs for the ones who think too much, love too deeply, and carry stories they’ve never spoken out loud. Writing — and listening to music — is how I reflect, how I make sense of the chaos, and how I stay connected to what’s real.

I write what I know — even when it hurts. These are the songs I needed. Maybe you do too.

Cleo Antaeus is an independent songwriter, singer, and producer based in Honolulu, Hawaiʻi, whose music drifts between cinematic pop, soulful indie, bossa nova flips, and raw, sync-ready confessions that feel like secrets whispered at 2 a.m.

In just seven months, Cleo has written over 160 original songs, each one shaped by their poetic storytelling and fearless experimentation. Since April alone, their self-released tracks have pulled in 25,000+ organic streams worldwide, with multiple songs crossing 1K–2K+ plays on SoundCloud — proof that Cleo’s garden is alive and echoing.

At the heart of this work are Cleo’s alter artists, Nova Rue and Sunni — soulful, cinematic branches of their voice that bring each story to life in new shades and textures.

Cleo’s songs are 100% original, self-owned, fully cleared, and crafted for TV, film, and brand syncs — perfect for supervisors, artists, and listeners seeking music with real depth and a timeless global soul.

Good songs rise — and so do I.

Genres: Cinematic Pop, Indie Folk, Neo-Soul, R&B, Bossa Nova, Alt-Pop
Based: Honolulu, Hawaiʻi
Sync/Publishing/Collabs: cleonytus@gmail.com

Nada Samir is a gifted German singer and songwriter hailing from Frankfurt am Main. Born on June 18th, 1996, she has created a unique sound blending elements of pop, indie pop, and R&B soul. Nurturing her passion for music from a young age, she began writing her own songs at the tender age of 13, and by 16, she was sharing her talent by posting cover songs on YouTube. Her music career took off in February 2020, with the release of her debut single "Your Promise." April 2nd, 2021 marked the release of her critically acclaimed debut album, "Heartbroken." And on January 1st, 2023, she has recently dropped her sophomore album "See You Next Life." Her music is an honest reflection of her feelings and experiences, delving into themes of depression and self-discovery.

Hey, I'm a Florida born rapper who loves creating music. I love listening to Juice Wrld, Lil Tecca, J Cole, Lil Wayne, From Ashes to New, Moral, and others. I appreciate everyone who listens to my music as I try to stay consistent lol. 🔥

Shining Music Records was formed by music producer and recording engineer Oleksandr Ilkaiev in 2015 in Ukraine, becoming Zaporozhzhia’s first indie label. Initially operating on a local level, it has since grown into an international brand.

Back in 2008, Oleksandr created his own studio, and in 2011 officially named it Shining Music, where he helped young musicians. Over the years, he developed the concept of his own label, and in 2015, Shining Music Records officially launched, using the studio’s resources.

In September 2016, Oleksandr opened one of the largest professional recording studios in Ukraine, which remains the creative space of the label. This is where projects of all scales and genres are produced - from initial sketches to the final master.

The mission of Shining Music Records is to help talented artists grow, unleash their creativity, and share it with the world. We strive to be a trusted music partner, focusing on artistic development, music production, distribution, management, and marketing. We empower artists to bring their ideas to life without limits, ensuring their art gets the recognition it deserves.

Email: office@shmrec.com

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