produced by @histarkey & @dreamno7e
mixed by me

i'm sorry for being gone for awhile,
i needed some time on my own to grow.
a garden needs healthy soil to thrive
I had to learn to love myself 
for me to love you
and I hope you do the same

I have a wonderful world I want to show you
my love, and i'll hold your hand walking through it.

yours truly,
- joie

lyrics:

i ain't do this before
we both did our best
you know we're new to this
of course
i can't keep trying to
fix what i've not broken
i feel paralyzed i'm frozen
you wear a mask
disguise your emotions
do you like me after all?
after all?
is it likely the afterthought?
and adderall?
and the light green pastel walls
covered in alcohol and I can't find

you there
and you only love [me]
when you're pulling my hair
you always tell me i dont care
when you know you
act like im not there

why is it so hard to be mad at you
hard to be mad at you
you know I just wanna be happy
I’m done with the attitude
I climbed too high on top of the ladder
I’m numb to the altitude
I thought that I was doing much better 
I did what you asked me to
took my heart through the holes 
of my sweater and still I was happy to
keep you in the warmth of the 
leather my Italian jackets use
and everyday I’m under the weather
it’s hard to get back into
the last time I went out don’t remember 
I don’t know what happen to 

me I know
so tell me more about 
what I don't know
and you take 
from me more
all the life I show
and you ask me
these things
like I might
just know
(i dont!)

i ain't do this before
we both did our best
you know we're new to this
of course
i can't keep trying to
fix what i've not broken
i feel paralyzed i'm frozen
you wear a mask
disguise your emotions
do you like me after all?
after all?
is it likely the afterthought?
and adderall?
and the light green pastel walls
covered in alcohol and I can't find

grapefruit

produced by @dreamno7e
mixed by me

lyrics:

I hear the clovers in the garden
gar-
I know
gar-
I know
bringing me back where I started
I know that you
kno-
you take for granted what I gave
I’m holding your hand down to my grave
so why is it so hard for you
to believe what I say?
I’ve learned to grow know that I’ve changed
(I’ve learned to grow know that I’ve changed)
It’s better to do what you love than what I say
(I’ve learned to grow know that I’ve changed)
I won’t let your thoughts work their way into my brain
(I’ve learned to grow know that I’ve changed)
I learned to grow know that I’ve changed
it’s so hard to talk bout the problems that I face
and it’s harder to solve them when stuck to a time frame
(and it’s harder to solve them when stuck to a time frame)
and its harder to ask for some help when there’s mind games and

that’s too much to ask
I don’t need more than I have

would you believe me 
I’m content tent tent
I hear the voices and their accents
I focus too much on the past tense
I try so hard to make it make sense
you think you’re lovable it’s tragic
I just can’t comprehend what’s happening
I break down automatically
and I just can’t stop panicking

I can’t figure it out

it’s been so damn hard to do the things I love and it stresses me out

I got no time to waste that’s just lately
cuz sometimes it feels like the whole world just hates me
I hope that you call so I know you’re home safely
I walk through the garden of clovers and daisys
dear Shelby my willow
we all hold our dreams 
don’t keep yours in your pillow

shelby

art by @ozbren.xyz
produced/mixed/written by doxia 

run down on that boy 
that boy get hit w that 
"What?!??"
run up on that boy for change 
and change whatever he thought 

im flexed up w gang im getn w.e i want
dont hit from the side thats my least favorite shot 
dont hit up my line you my least favorite thot

they turn on my tunes and my least favorite knock 
you love playing games bih im logging off
step inside the room we serving way more than rock

love to fry my brain im grilled more than ock 
im trynna thumb right through that green 
licking my thumb on top some blues 
wanna come count w me?
wanna ride down w me 
slide rn downtown w me 
sports mode 2015 
the alfa romeo green

yeaaaa
we j swerved up in something 
we just learned your blocks hot
we swerved we heard nothing

stickss in the burbsss 
like we purging or something 
im with the birds like its surfs up or ssomething

we j hit em he said  "what"
we hit them w that what 
tell him boy u getn stuck up
he give allat up

i wish life was different 
dont wanna test my luck 
ive been onna mission 
he said "what?"
now i said "guess what"


they turn on my tunes and my least favorite knock 
you love playing games bih im logging off
step inside the room we serving way more than rock
love to fry my brain im grilled more than ock

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what

produced by @silasroe, @lavanguard, & @martinleib
mixed by me

lyrics:

I-
u-uh
oh-oh
know why
I-
ah hah

I can’t see
Through the glass
Glass

Silhouettes all on the wall
Whispers in my ear know I can hear them talk
I feel like a marionette feel like a doll-doll
Is it the stillness in autumn that made between us fall?

I don’t know how to word how I feel
I give you all of me for appeal
Tell me is what we have even real?
oh woah oh woah
I can’t believe all the things you say
The words I said I meant it
I meant it
yea I meant it-it-
Red wine on the carpet

All-
I do is hide

don’t know why
I even
I even
try

look me in my eyes
I-
Don’t say your goodbyes yet
I-
noo I don’t wanna say goodbye yet
I-
Hope

When I come back I hope you listen
you listen-en

I fall-
I fall-
right where the
bridge is
I-
bridge is
uh-

can’t live like this in these conditions
uh-
I-
u-uh

stuck inside a (box)

I still see your shadow on the glass
I-I-

Silhouettes all on the wall
Whispers in my ear know I can hear them talk
I feel like a marionette feel like a doll-doll
Is it the stillness in autumn that made between us fall?

carousel carousel spin my head around
like a carousel merry go we go
round and round the problems
I’m not the only one to solve them
I know I 
know that I’m not perfect but I’m trying

try so har-
ha-hard

you know that I try so hard
(you know that I try so hard)

I-I-
uh-

carousel

the money 
the power 
i feed on the goat
standing above them my feet on the floor 
police asked who kicked ass i dont even know 

the money 
the power 
the riches 
the hoes

the people 
the powder 
they switch up and go
been seeing blood since i was little 
so whats a little brain on the floor 


this a tesla 
hands off of the door 
tesla in my lemonade i need more 
i seen your tricks and wits laid out on the floor 
seems like some that my brain cant ignore

metal on me 
like a tin man 
playing cans w niggas w tin cans 

hi point on screen?
nigga wait till that shit jam 
reach for that G18 and let that shit spam

keep it together 
trappin in some ripped pants 
how could i trip this aint tripp this rick pants
lets take a trip brudda lets go hit france 
me and my dead brothers (money) make ya bitch dance

if im up i bet everybody sleep
run it up so that everybody see
ted x talk you see everybody geeked
thats ya bitch? thats my fault.
she knew everyone but me

other plats n more

KICKASS

produced by @jvckrxid and @k9yblade
mixed by me + @jvckrxid

lyrics:

they don't like the things that I've been on
(what, what)
put this percocet right on my tongue
i could smell the garden leaf
i feel it in my lungs
bitch i put the work in
i can feel it in my gut
bitch i put the perc in
i can't feel a thing
crush two pills in my blood
what you want from me
your pocket's hurting
like bro i don't give a fuck
damn it must be hard
to not be worth it
bro go out and make a buck
fuck

damn it's one take i fucked up
i took a pill i hope that i don't
throw my lunch up
damn you so damn broke
like get your bucks up
when i walk in
they know what the fucks up
walk into the function
im in this bitch and
im like wassup

i got murakami in this flowerbed
diamonds on my neck so god damn wet
just like a showerhead
we gone put his face up in the paper
like a letterhead
i just took your bitch because he said
that I give better head

bitch you aint grow
bitch you aint grown no
bitch you cant hold
they see I got dough now
they want my roll
they see I cant fold now
they want me gone
i used to do it all alone
now I made it on my own

and they dont wanna give me credit
for things that ive done
and maybe you should quit all of
that cap cuz ur a dunce
and they dont like the fact that
imma smoke em all like runtz
to do the things i do would
prolly take that lil boy months

stomp that motherfucker like a bug
uh
ion give a fuck bout what he on
and they know all the lyrics to my songs
uh
cuz they know that my music it be hard

fukkit
they dont like the things that ive been on
(what, what)
smoking garden leaf i fill my lungs
and they don't like i pop this percocet
just like a tums
(coughs)
gas got me coughing up a lung
gotta watch my back
i keep track of whos around
cuz i dont trust
you think that im crass
thats too bad
i dont really give a fuck
off this oh woa
i feel slowed down
ive been going up
with my bros
and i know that
they hope i fall
know why

they don't like the things that I've been on
(what, what)
put this percocet right on my tongue
i could smell the garden leaf
i feel it in my lungs
bitch i put the work in
i can feel it in my gut
bitch i put the perc in
i can't feel a thing
crush two pills in my blood
what you want from me
your pocket's hurting
like bro i don't give a fuck
damn it must be hard
to not be worth it
bro go out and make a buck
fuck

produced by @histarkey and @killahmel
mixed by me + @jvckrxid

lyrics:

bitch it's time to work today
bitch i can't go home
(huh)
bitch it's time to work today
bitch i can't go home
i swap a xanax for a perc today
bitch i feel so numb
i feel so fly just like the birds today
you know what we on
just know some guidance never
hurt you baby
i know it feels like it does
im on my knees
im by my worst today
im praying with the doves
im in the garden behind holy gates
im praying for some love
heheh
what makes you think i give a fuck
i need me some drank better fill a cup
and i don't wanna wait cuz im twitchin up
if you got something to say
better spit it up
if it goes to the grave
better dig it up
fuck it
break me a whole eighth
down ima roll it up
bring me a whole fake pill
ima throw it up

they know
they know that i do it better
they can't move the way i do
they dont like the fact
i represent some letters
they want me in tombs
number nine umbrella
for my margiella's
got raindrops on my shoes
they don't like the message
i'm sending out because
they don't like the truth
and they don't want me
doing what i do
wha-
do
i wear clover's garden as perfume
(b-bitch)
and the same way you don't like me
i don't like you
and it's entertaining to know
that my life brings pain to you

what brings pain to you
is paying me
its not paying you
bitch read the room
i know a thing or two
momma told me i gotta go harder
and keep making tunes
i make money like my father
and he knew that i would make it too
put my heart up in the garden cuz
i know it keeps me safe
wait wait wait wait
tell me things that i know i can't
say say say 
i hope that you would believe in the shit that
weighs weighs weighs
me down a ton it feels like bricks pressing my
face face face
all of my problems that i hold it's hard to 
save me (save me)
when i'm off it
i been making bank
can't go home i'm workin today
you know that i'm workin today
bitch it's time to work today
bitch i can't go home
bitch it's time to work today
bitch so leave me alone

footprint

produced by @histarkey
mixed by me + @jvckrxid

i made this in 20 minutes at like 3am

lyrics:

thoughts up in my mind
said that im going hard
they know that im going hard
i know that im going far
i dont know where im landing next
i might touch down newark one day
i might touch down jax
all i know is i know one day
they gone sing my shit in set
told myself that id be there one day
but i didnt know that id be here yet
told myself that id be there one day
but i didnt know that id be here yet
told myself that id be there some way
but i didnt know where beginning ends
told myself that theyd know me by name
but i didnt know that theyd let it ring

nodding off
i been doing it my way
i dont even think i feel a thing
i cant even feel my lungs
when i go to breathe
ask me things
like what do i know
not what i believe
i just wanna tell no fabrications
i want honesty
all these cuts
I feel the lacerations
when i fucking bleed
i got all these different
types of aspirations
I got fucking dreams
it feels like its time 
for celebration for
all of my bros and me

(what)

smoking clovers garden leaf
i had to let go of other
versions different parts of me
lately I feel like I float away 
when in this odyssey
lately its been so damn hard
to figure out what’s bothering me
but i gotta keep pushing
keep pushing i know
i got all these buttons 
you keep pushing 
keep pushing im tired
i gotta find my footing no
abc jeans be indigo
yea i keep my bros
my kin involved
i cant pop this percocet
bc its laced w fentanyl
bitch its time to work today
i cant go home

thoughts up in my mind
said that im going hard
they know that im going hard
i know that im going far
i dont know where im landing next
i might touch down newark one day
i might touch down jax
all i know is i know one day
they gone sing my shit in set
told myself that id be there one day
but i didnt know that id be there yet
told myself that id be there one day
but i didnt know that id be there yet
told myself that id be there some way
but i didnt know where beginning ends
told myself that theyd know me by name
but i didnt know that theyd let it ring

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