shoutout @decago n @1altr

every day that passes by
i rly wanna die 
i wanna go 2 sleep forevr i jus wanna cry
ur presense made me feel whole
felt like i could try
n now that ur gone i rly wanna die
restarting my life i wanna fkn damn retry :) 

ik im the problem 
my life that im not solving
counting days till im not here 
cant see myself so clearly
i cant seem 2 escape these problems
i been hiding in the darkness
restarting my life wont solve em 
ik that im the issue- 

i dnt wanna miss u (miss uuu)
i jus wanna kiss u (kiss uuu)
ik im the issue (issue)
crying in my room i miss u

i dnt wanna feel this way jus anymore
i been hating myself 2 the core
i wanna die 
i wanna die baby
i dnt wanna feel my emotions lately
cant keep this 2 myself yeah i cant hide it
evry day that passes by i feel dying
my own life yeah that imma be jus ending
i dnt wanna live this way anymore

itwouldbebetterifiwasdead (decago x altr)

this was from a long time ago i cooked some fye up back then lez go yaya
prod @aerelin
is that so? 

<33 :

u leave me vacant u leave me feelin low
there was this hole in my heart it made me feel cold
i been gone bby n i been feelin low
u were the one for me bby u were my home
u left this hole baby u left this hole in my life
u told me baby u loved me that u were my wife?
now im so hollow bby think i wanna die
put a bullet thru my head think ill end this life

i didnt wanna feel alone 
ur the one leaving msgs on my phone
i been feeling so alone 
ur the one leaving msgs on my phone

i be rollin over i be fallin sad
i spend all the time in my head tryna get u back
but u betrayed me ur laughing with him
ur with a better guy arent u happy babe
i know that u will be fine ya without me
but ill be living in the past cant u help me

tatatatatata 
tatatatatata
ik ur happier with him
but its killing me inside
tatatatatata
ya i jus wanna die again
ya ur arms they were my home
u left my heart feelin betrayed baby....

letmecutoffmylife (aerelin)

MV OUT ON INSTAGRAM ! 

shoutout @spaceboyry for tha fye beat and @s0lemn for the ft

@haunted_sad
popped an oxy when im feelin ##down
crystalized hearts u n me were fallin out
anotha pill ima ##PROFESSIONALLONER
running back lookin 4 some closure
i was a loser i was comin down
popped anotha pill everytime u come around
dont talk to me bby i think that im fallin out
i aint not givin u anotha fkn chance

all of the words tht u fkn said
all of the words that u nvr meant
wish i could forget me ya im wishin i was ##dead
i thought tht i helped u but u jus left me dead
my life that im retrying u left me hollow too
u left me like a tragedy 
and now its haunting me
all of the past bby like what was wrong with me
ima #PROFESSIONALLONER looking4 closure

@s0lemn
yuh feel like ichigo im hollow
yuh ion wna c 2mrw
tell me can u luv me back
ik im always askin dat

im top 8 like myspace
gtf up out my face
g22 like getsuga 
shoot dat btch dey wont c ya
do ts for my fam do ts for my friends
talkn sht on tragedy
all u hear is blam

i didnt wna go back
not2 my old ways
im takin all my sadness
and turn it into rage
if i catch u atta spot
ur life will end tht day
mfrs think im playn
til im smokin whyhaze

ipopthesepillstrynaforgetu w/ s0lemn (spaceboyry) *MV OUT NOW*

prod @sincever @kuzm33
feat. @1xene
master @noahsuri

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@noahsuri
dreh mich um seh dich nicht mehr
du bist einfach umgekehrt
warum bin ich dir nichts wert
wenn ich koennt ich wuerd mich teilen in zwei
ich wuerd durchs feuer gehen um immer bei dir zu sein
ich steig den berg hinauf
danach fuehl ich mich erschoepft
doch ich raff mich auf, das potential wird geschoepft
wer brauch schon sich selbst, ich nicht
hab das gefuehl ich komme nicht mehr klar ohne dich
ohne dich

@1xene 
Oh, what I wanted to say
When you left this town
Is that you're all that I need
Now you're not around
And the silence, when closing my eyelids
I'm afraid of it now
I'm afraid of it now

I'm tired, I keep to myself
I'm tired, I'm letting it go
I tried to reason with hell
And now I'm losing control
And baby I can't forget
You carved your name in my chest
But you turned on me your back
You were all that I had, I had

ohne dich ft. xene (333since kuzm33)

decaying
/dɪˈkeɪɪŋ/
rotting or decomposing through the action of bacteria and fungi

prod. @neohnq
feat. @haunted_sad
master @noahsuri

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@noahsuri
cant let u back in my head
i js couldnt hide it
the feelings that ive lost babe i couldnt keep pretending
didnt mean to hurt u
had to protect myself 
im pouring my heart out but ill never reach you

@haunted_sad
yeah u and me baby we were always decayin
i spent everynight jus always feelin anxious
i been feeling #HOLLOW would death even accept me
wld it take me ? wld she fkn rescue me?
and i got all these scars damage to my heart
wld u even love me like would u care at all?
u blamed me for all the wrong times was it all my fault 
yeah it was all my fault ISHOULDNTHAVETRUSTEDATALL #HOLLOW
i jus couldnt save u
u jus couldnt rescue me
all those times i thought tht death wld take me
yeahh yeahhh

we were stuck #decaying ft. haunted_sad (neohn)

prod @decago n @yashio20k

im #tryinguntilidie

lyrics: 
how am i gna try when i been feelin low ?
u were the one yeah u made me feel at home
i been sad how am i gna cope
i was jus always chasin back what we were

u left me always sading away everynight
remember all those days iwantedtodie
u ripped the soul outta me u ripped it out my life
u stabbed my heart down u left it in the dirt
i couldnt chase back everything we were
i couldnt fix all the problems tht we had
so imma runaway but im livin in the #past *imma runaway
i miss u baby layin in my arms

i wish bby yeah u nvr needed me
burning all the letters bby that i had 4 u
i crystalized all the tears tht i bled 4 u
u see i told u baby? i needed u more then u needed me
when u replaced me baby jus so easily
gun 2 my head wish i cld #forget it all
cause everytime i slip and fall kno tht i do wrong
u left me #hollow2thecore u nvr meant it

ya u jus nvr meant that
im #tryinguntilidie till im jus succeeding
i been high up bby 2 the ceiling *yeah yeah
baby i jus wanna die again

y-yeah i know tht u nvr needed me
u left me in the background jus so easily
and i was decaying straight from the start
and all the #scars tht i got up on my arm
all the tears i bled 4 u all those words i said
all those promises u made tht u nvr meant
im back in my head again jus wanna die again
put a bullet thru my head so i could forget it all

iminthislifeforonemoretry (yashio, decago)

iknewiwastheproblem (!yukik0)

@haunted_sad
ya baby ya u nvr needed me
u left me in the background jus so easily
i let u in i shouldnt have trusted u

shattered dreams scars i wear on my heart
i watched u and me the way that we fell apart
ya u replaced me ya u jus left me
all the lies we had it was neverlasting

i popped a pill to feel alright baby
was always waiting for death to fkn take me
i knew baby that #imtheissue (im the issue)
cryin in my head again think i miss u
idling away in my room im decaying
u left my heart baby ya u jus drained me
u pushed my face in the dirt u betrayed me
ya baby sry tht i couldnt save u :(( 
i thought baby tht i could jus save u
im spiraling back down lately what do i do?
ive been sading away lonely in my fkn room
i wrote all these songs jus tryna forget u
neverending letter baby that u never sent
u ripped the soul outta me left me feeling #dead
i dnt wanna rly feel my heart baby
lately i want death 2 jus take me

i dont feel alright baby
evry single night i want death to take me
lately i dnt wanna feel anymore
i hate myself baby 2 the fkn core ++
..
@ritsuzuki
I broke so many promises
you done messed up for the last time
you gave no fucks about us
you'd rather forget it all
and it hurts me
but now i cant give no fucks anymore
i hate everybody
i cant look them in the face
its like,
no one really sees the truth in my eyes
gotta end it now
its too late its already worse
break the mirror
yeah i messed up my skin forever

yourippedthesouloutofme w/ritsu (spaceboyry)

SPOILED LITTLE BRAT

prod @nazzz333 x @rewind214 !!

shoutout @6vesta and my hollowed twin @1xene

@haunted_sad
i knew baby tht i could never trust u 
i knew baby tht u were a liar from the start
u broke my heart bby its all the same to me
living in a fairytale call it make believe 
i might #flatline bby what do u see in me? 
stuck in second place baby think its meant4me
idling by i been wasting all my time
im always comin back to this point tht i wna die
cryin in my head cause ik im the #issue
i wna go back 2 the better times

@6vesta
i thought u were the one for me 
blood dripping off of the sink
only tell me what u mean
why im crying all the time? 
something i dont know
im holding onto these feelings but i think i should let go 
its something different now
its something i dont feel
its something i cant show u but i promise u its real

why im lying all the time
why im falling all the time
why i give up all the time
why im cutting all the time 
x2
@1xene
in the background
background
is where i stay
yea my hearts bound
hearts bound
to this place
yeah i might drown
might drown in chardonnay
so done
so done w all this pain

take away it all
erase it all
break, girl break my fall
erase it all

ialwayswastedmytime w/ xene + vesta (rewind + naz)

@undeadlifestyle

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[dc: 1suri]

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