Waves are crashing the tides up above
You told me that I had enough
Then you saw what I’d become

But can you hear me?
I’ve been drowning in the sea
Lived a thousand lives, a thousand times, until you found me

Everything is shot
Always falling from the top
I don’t know if I can stop
Will I make it out or not

And I can’t change anything
Something always feels missing
I don’t need no medicine
I just need you listening

Waves are crashing the tides up above
You told me that I had enough
Then you saw what I’d become

Feels like maybe my hearts giving up
I don’t think that I’ve got the luck
I don’t know if I can be loved
I don’t know if I can be loved

Take me somewhere
Anyplace, I don’t care
Never breathe a dull air
If I have you right here
Never losing your stare
When you’re going nowhere
I promise you, baby, that nothing compares

The silence is so deafening
My mind is always questioning
Where I have to be, losing all my sanity

Waves are crashing the tides up above
You told me that I had enough
But then you saw what I’d become

Feels like maybe my hearts giving up
I don’t think that I’ve got the luck
I don’t know if I can be loved
I don’t know if I can be loved

Lay out the bodies, we’re losing ourselves
Head like a zombie, I’ve grown overwhelmed

Shaken my spirit, but keep to your eyes
Look over your shoulder, I’m right by your side

Waves are crashing the tides up above
You told me that I had enough
But then you saw what I’d become

Feels like maybe my hearts giving up
I don’t think that I’ve got the luck
I don’t know if I can be loved
I don’t know if I can be loved

youtube

loved (prod. mantra)

@prod5head

Not a thought
Not a thought
Not a thought inside your head

There’s not a thought
Not a thought
Not a thought inside your head, no

I know I’m not getting what you took from me
I’m starting to see there’s really

Not a thought
Not a thought
Not a thought inside your head

I hope you rot
Hope you rot
Hope you rot until the end

Feeding a fire to blaze
Wondering how it became
Sickening thoughts of the shame
Realizing now I was never to blame

Yours lies are so potent
They all leave me broken
Innumerous moment’s
That you know you’ve stolen

I’m knowing and hoping
Closed doors never open
I cannot conceive the devotion

Talking as much as you want
Never quite reaching the way to a daunt
Pondering what you had fought
Breeding the thoughts that forever I’ll haunt

When, don’t know what we’re fighting for
Sponges, we’re soaking up on the floor
Finding a way to just to reach rapport
Ruined my life as you’ve done before

Until we find a way out of this maze
I know you love always playing these games

Not a thought
Not a thought
Not a thought inside your head

There’s not a thought
Not a thought
Not a thought inside your head, no

I know I’m not getting what you took from me
I’m starting to see there’s really

Not a thought
Not a thought
Not a thought inside your head

I hope you rot
Hope you rot
Hope you rot until the end

not a thought (prod. 5head x maxflynn)

@prod5head @kingtheta

I can’t feel sometimes
So I read between lines 

Hard to know how much it takes
Bleeding to payout the raising of stakes
Wasting our lives, drawn the divides, spending a moment to read through my eyes

Reading through pages to give me a reason
Sneaking past faces of flawless cohesion
Happily facing the shadows believing
The warmth in the dark, so appealing

I can’t feel sometimes
So I read between lines 

Take what you want from me
Fuck, all your sympathy
I can see through time

May demons turn on me
Burning eternally
I’ve been feeling fine

If it were meant to be
Promise me you will see
How to stay alive

Heard the insanity
Broad stroke of vanity
I’ll be feeling fine

Sending out messages they won’t receive
Losing my faith, and I’ll never believe
Agony stays and will never reprieve
Tragedy may take some time to relieve

Shaken, but taking the darkness of a reason
I’m always mistaking the logic of a treason

Until we reach a meaning

I can’t feel sometimes
So I read between lines 

Take what you want from me
Fuck, all your sympathy
I can see through time

May demons turn on me
Burning eternally
I’ve been feeling fine

If it were meant to be
Promise me you will see
How to stay alive

Heard the insanity
Broad stroke of vanity
I’ll be feeling fine

feeling fine (prod. 5head x king theta)

Strip me of my needs
Bring me to my knees
Show me how it feels to
Breathe in the last as it kills you

Walk along the stars
Circle back from mars
Nothing ever feels true
Float through your mind, we’ve sunken away to a deep blue

Look into my eyes, and feel the waves, they’re crushing me
Took all of your lies, you’ll never see, what it’s done to me

I don’t like this
Speaking in silence
Needless violence
Spreads like a virus
And until it dies, it feeds off the tireless

Deep in the grasses, sense I’m not alone
Hearing the whistles beat outta control
The blackness is fading to welcome me home
Leading the ways that we’ve never known

Look into my eyes, and feel the waves, they’re crushing me
Took all of your lies, you’ll never see, what it’s done to me

lies (prod. mantra)

@boyfifty

Help me, help me, bleeding on the floor
Can’t stop me, stop me, nothing like before
When I see, I see, light upon the door
Give me more, give me more

Help me, help me, get away from you
Can’t stop me, stop me, whatcha gonna do
So icy, icy, live without a screw
Nothing new, coming through

Nothing you can do if it was all mine
Weightless, but it’s falling at the same time
Funny how the heavy is a vague sign
Nothing is together, only waiting for the unwind

Life is always breaking, and I’m watching the wall
Crumbling to pieces, and it’s starting to fall
Never get a chance to stand up tall, so small

I’m flying through the air, and live without a care
And if I’m dying here, I’ll never disappear
So don’t you dare

Help me, help me, bleeding on the floor
Can’t stop me, stop me, nothing like before
When I see, I see, light upon the door
Give me more, give me more

Help me, help me, get away from you
Can’t stop me, stop me, whatcha gonna do
So icy, icy, live without a screw
Nothing new, coming through

And they’re always looking where I see
Ain’t no one and nothing can stop me
Dropping off the top, so icy, pricy, feisty, why is it spicy

I did it all right by my self
It belongs to me and nobody else
But I can’t stay here in this cell, it’s hell

The things that I have known, they follow me alone
And when I’m walking home, their presence always shown
But I’m on my own

Help me, help me, bleeding on the floor
Can’t stop me, stop me, nothing like before
When I see, I see, light upon the door
Give me more, give me more

Help me, help me, get away from you
Can’t stop me, stop me, whatcha gonna do
So icy, icy, live without a screw
Nothing new, coming through

help me (prod. boyfifty)

I waste my time to fade away
Thoughts decayed, I never made
Sinking down, what we held at bay

I wanted to feel
The things that you’d never reveal
Kept secrets that I will always conceal
And never could heal, alone

I wanted to see
The things that I thought we could be
Nightmares become the only thing I dream
Wake up to the screams, I know

These pieces you left me
Are broken and empty
Hopeless attempting
When only resenting
Anywhere, everywhere I go it seems I’m dissenting
I wish they’d exempt me
From what they’re expecting
Never detecting
And never respecting
The close of an entry

Don’t ever look behind, it slows me down the road
Even if I’m reminded, I don’t let it show
Get in the line, never a sign, ‘till I explode
Cracking the spine, building a shrine, deep in the hole

I waste my time to fade away
Thoughts decayed, I never made
Sinking down, what we held at bay

I wanted to feel
The things that you’d never reveal
Kept secrets that I will always conceal
And never could heal, alone

I wanted to see
The things that I thought we could be
Nightmares become the only thing I dream
Wake up to the screams, I know

All you ever did was take my weekends
Now we’re not even speaking
Heard you said I’m changing, no peeking
Wanna act like you weren’t the reason
But your love switches up like the seasons
Cause one day we're in love, then you’re leaving 
When you’re here we’re like in different regions
If we’re good, then tell me why I’m grieving
Tell me I’m the one to blame, when you’re the one who’s to blame, yeah
You told me that you would change, but I’m not seeing the change, yeah
I’m crying everyday, I don’t wanna live this way, yeah
Tell me I’m the one to blame, tell me I’m the one to blame, yeah 
You don’t change 
Don’t wanna be conscious put me on some novocain
Used to have a future, but that shit went down the drain
I don’t wanna see you imma hop up on a plane
Running from my past, cause I just can’t face the pain 

I wanted to feel
The things that you’d never reveal
Kept secrets that I will always conceal
And never could heal, alone

I wanted to see
The things that I thought we could be
Nightmares become the only thing I dream
Wake up to the screams, I know

secrets - ft. yung van (prod. jpbeatz)

@boyfifty

Every single time I look into your eyes
I see the meadows blooming, as the sun arrives
The clouds fade away, even in my mind
Crashing waves slow within the tide

If your heart gets broken, then I’ll give you mine
Words left unspoken, leaking out alive
Running from the things that we cannot hide
Stories tell themselves in their own time

Give me vertigo
Reaping what I sew
Never built to grow
Please, don’t let me go

‘Cause you don’t wanna see
Why you should be with me

Never be afraid
Fear is torturing
Facing wars within
Neither sides a win

And you don’t wanna see
The other side of me

Everything I said is killing me inside
Cause your his now, and he’s your perfect guy
Feeling frozen, I can’t even cry
Just hold my hand, and baby, let me try

Please, don’t make me try to live a lie
Smoke is fading in the sunny sky
And I’m right by your side

Give me vertigo
Reaping what I sew
Never built to grow
Please, don’t let me go

‘Cause you don’t wanna see
Why you should be with me

Never be afraid
Fear is torturing
Facing wars within
Neither sides a win

And you don’t wanna see
The other side of me

vertigo (prod. boyfifty)

@twotwntytwo
@stationsix

(nevrwrld)
Hang me from the tree
and put me where I should be

The silence is numbing
Can’t get what I need

Contemplating overthinking
Leave me broken
Stop the bleeding
I need your help from burying myself alive

We don’t work this hard for nothing
Every day I feel like I’m falling

(two:22)
Everyday I feel like I’m falling (I’m falling yeah)
Everything has changed, I am nothing (I’m nothing)

Running out of breath and out the door
Cannot open up my frozen core

(two:22 & nevrwrld)
I don’t think that I’m numb no more.

(nevrwrld)
Hang me from the tree
and put me where I should be

The silence is numbing
Can’t get what I need

Contemplating overthinking
Leave me broken
Stop the bleeding

(thebreathingbackwards)
I look back when I’m down at the colorful days
But I’m losing the plot and they’re fading away
And it hurts growing up and forgetting the snow
They’re gone, moving on, yeah, it’s all that I know

Oh god, think I’d be better with no thoughts
Running away from the issue inside my head
Like it’s finally hope lost

Sleeping like every day now
I know I should be okay now

But it’s been a minute since I had a reason to better myself
Oh fuck it, I think imma stay down

(nevrwrld)
Hang me from the tree
and put me where I should be

The silence is numbing
Can’t get what I need

Contemplating overthinking
Leave me broken
Stop the bleeding
I need your help from burying myself alive

We don’t work this hard for nothing
Every day I feel like I’m falling

Stop the bleeding
I need your help from burying myself alive

We don’t work this hard for nothing
Every day I feel like I’m falling

Contemplating (ft. two:22 & thebreathingbackwards) [+ sogimura]

@boyfifty
@sorrow_bringer

Thought I wouldn’t live another day
Never good at hiding it away
I knew you read it on my face
And I know we’re in a different place

Thought when I spoke that you were always listening
Never had hope, but you were always good to me
Nothings ever mattered anyway
Glasses are shattered history

We couldn’t wait
Another day
But I know that you wanted me

We couldn’t see
Such misery
Are we really free

Omens in shadows, don’t know where they hide
Creeping around, yeah, he got in my mind
Tick of the clock, but it’s never aligned
Need me a zilean to rewind the time

Falling snow
I’m so cold
And alone

We couldn’t wait
Another day
But I know that you wanted me

We couldn’t see
Such misery
Are we really free

falling snow (prod. sorrow bringer x boyfifty)

How long can we look over fantasy
Uncertainty is filled with tragedy
Reach out and speak to what I cannot see
We braid lines of fates currency

Feel it in my eyes, how this shits killing me
End of line, and I’m facing defeat
Built up inside, it cannot excrete
The walls are alive, and it’s scaring me

Won’t ever retreat
Won’t let it repeat
You wanted to see
Now you’re incomplete

I wanted to be fine
End of a decline
I dive

How long can we look over fantasy
Uncertainty is filled with tragedy
Reach out and speak to what I cannot see
We braid lines of fates currency

And I couldn’t ever hide
With such great divides
Frozen shards inside

Secret, keeping, stack up to the ceiling
Finding meaning that I can believe in
Can’t stop me from healing

How long can we look over fantasy
Uncertainty is filled with tragedy
Reach out and speak to what I cannot see
We braid lines of fates currency

fantasy (prod. sorrow bringer)

daydream w/ yung scuff, yung van & two:22 (prod. sexjacket)

@sorrow_bringer

Across the stars, they hide so far
In light of ours, they bleed through scars
Look down on me, we couldn’t see
Until we meet, we’ll never be

Don’t look at me, when I’m gone sometimes
All that I regret, I find you on my mind
At the top you’re gazing, somewhere I won’t find
With the silent comfort that we’ve left behind

Across the stars, they hide so far
In light of ours, they bleed through scars
Look down on me, we couldn’t see
Until we meet, we’ll never be

Falling down a hole, no coming back
End of episode, skipped off the track
No one ever knows, can you relax
Give me a reason, I’ll pay in my tax

Open up the chest, gave you the key
Dark matter stretching to eternity
Forcing against us, but we cannot see
The ways it feeds

Across the stars, they hide so far
In light of ours, they bleed through scars
Look down on me, we couldn’t see
Until we meet, we’ll never be

farewell (prod. sorrow bringer)

Lone Boy Livin - ft Yung Las (Prod. Discent)

Kaushion X Sample God - Ephemeral (prod. by Boyfifty)

Tied, I cannot recline my mind
It’s keeping me up at night
Pieces of you and I, but

Why, I’ll never decide
How time, it eats me alive
But I won’t abide, and I will survive
It bleeds through my eyes

Bringing more than I can stand
Thought I’d be the only one holding your hand
But we’re built from sand, I can’t be your man

All the moments spent alone, from home
Fear within the great unknown, we’ve shown
We all must atone, for which we have grown

I’m tied, I cannot recline my mind
It’s keeping me up at night
Pieces of you and I, but

Why, I’ll never decide
How time, it eats me alive
But I won’t abide, and I will survive
It bleeds through my eyes

Kill with your words
Leave me in dirt
Know what your worth
You won’t be hurt

I remain alert
And you stay inert
How is it I am the one staying cursed

I bid you farewell
I’ll see you in hell
And we will rebel

Tied, I cannot recline my mind
It’s keeping me up at night
Pieces of you and I, but

Why, I’ll never decide
How time, it eats me alive
But I won’t abide, and I will survive
It bleeds through my eyes

tied (prod. pacific)

@boyfifty

As I travel through desperate lives
Wonder what answers
All the pieces are left behind
With their light to shine

I will find, I will find
Peace of mind, peace of mind
Give it time, give it time
Eyes will shine a new divine

Be my remedy
Fix the broken parts of me
Know your destiny
But you’ll turn an enemy

Help me sleep at night
Can you put out all the light
Shine at every sight
Nothing like you quite as bright

Dreaded past so bizarre
Falling like a shooting star
Planet's length away from mars
Cataclysms from afar
Show me where you are

As I travel through desperate lives
Wonder what answers
All the pieces are left behind
With their light to shine

I will find, I will find
Peace of mind, peace of mind
Give it time, give it time
Eyes will shine in new divine

Wonder where this goes
Digging my feet, it’s what I chose
Twist at every road
Seems they’re getting overflowed

Everyone holds back what they show
Overrun by what they don’t know
Take it all in and breathe it slow
In a moment it all could blow

Helpless visions collide
Save yourself and stay inside
Tunnel vision through my mind
Wasted time, wasted life

cataclysm (prod. boyfifty)

@lilheartbreaker

They drinking henny anything to make them forget
Chase it with a cup of sprite and they be falling
Seems like every motherfucker always talking
I be numbing all the pain until it knock in

So I go
I’m wasted, they know
It’s just all a show
They acting and cracking
But never will grow

It feel so unreal
No way to appeal
Lost track of the wheel
I hate how it feel

I just stay outta the road
I gotta turn off my phone, oh ay
My pockets dripping with gold
Full of shit outta control, no way

I don’t wanna to walk it slow
I’ll leave it out in the cold, tonight

So many things that I’ll never attain
So many ways I feel every shame
Shred of a shadow who cannot abstain
Saving the light at the slight of the grain

But I couldn’t let it happen
It’s crazy how they get away with acting
Buckle up and fasten
It’s looking like we’re crashing
Burn away in ashes
Hard to breathe, I’m gasping

Trading all the bits and pieces I could never hold
As I’m stuffing all the pain away from eating at my soul
Pray on a day we keep out the cold
But it is not the story we told

Over and over, it never will fade
Wishing forever that something would change
Needed the most, but you never had stayed
Changing the boundary, escaping the maze

Deafening sound at the crash of a wave
Deep of the blue that I never could brave
But silence is all that you save

Characterized by what cannot define us
No way of telling where every line cuts
Struggle of keeping my mind up, but I don’t know where it wind up

So many things that I’ll never attain
So many ways that I feel every shame
Shred of a shadow who cannot abstain
Saving the light at the slight of the grain

attain (prod. lil heartbreak x hawain eagles)

From: Raven Death Songs (Vol. 2)

Tracklist:
[01. Intermission]
[02. A Ghost Once Told Me]
[03. Death Calling]
[04. The Forest Spirit]
[05. Lamia]
[06. Pale Winter]
[07. From the Night Sky]
[08. Evermore]
[09. Say I Want You]
[10. Morrigan]
[11. Starborn]
[12. Vendetta]
[13. A Ghost of Elizabeth]
[14. Elven Dancer]

Raven Death Songs

Evermore [prod. Blade901]

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