"Without You In It" is a heartfelt ballad about love’s irreplaceable presence. With vivid imagery of gold skies, fading lights, and empty victories, it tells the story of realizing that no triumph, no dream, no moment is truly complete without the one you love beside you.

Soaring melodies meet intimate verses, carrying you through the highs and lows of longing, devotion, and the simple truth that life’s greatest moments mean nothing… *without you in it.*

🎵 **For fans of:** Lewis Capaldi, Lauren Daigle, Josh Groban
💔 **Themes:** love, longing, devotion, vulnerability
🌌 **Mood:** emotional, romantic, cinematic



Without You In It

Roxy is the creative mind behind Xanne Fran Studios, a sculpture and jewelry shop with a focus on magical figurative design. Inspired by the natural world and the world of her imagination, she brings to life dreamy jewelry designs in gold and silver, and fantasy sculptures in classic, timeless bronze. She got her start as a figurative artist, focusing on drawing and painting the human form, but immediately fell in love with the lost-wax casting process when it was introduced to her in college. Jewelry was never part of the plan, but sculpting at a very small scale came naturally to her, so when she tried casting silver on a whim, she fell in love with that too! 

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Artifice

Ep. 216: Roxy Becofsky

"I Fade When It’s Shallow" is a quiet anthem for anyone who feels disconnected in surface-level conversations and social performances. The song explores the internal experience of someone who thrives in depth, meaning, and authenticity, but struggles to stay present in spaces where everything feels scripted or hollow. With intimate verses and a gradually intensifying chorus, the track honors emotional honesty, deep focus, and the quiet brilliance of people who are often misunderstood in loud rooms.

I Fade When It’s Shallow

A hopeful indie pop anthem about taking small emotional risks to reach out, despite fear. It captures the tension of wanting connection and the courage it takes to break internal barriers.

Break the Wall

A moody, intimate alt-pop ballad with soft rock and cinematic touches, celebrating resilience through vulnerability. Featuring delicate piano and gentle guitar textures, it tells a story of carrying scars but still standing strong, finding strength in imperfection.

Threadbare Soul

An atmospheric alt-pop and soft rock track delving into themes of identity and hidden truths. The shimmering synths and clean guitars reflect a mask worn for the world, with vocals revealing the deeper self beneath the surface sheen.

False Light, Real Me

A slow-building alt-pop ballad blending soft rock and ambient textures, exploring themes of uncertainty and personal growth. The song’s warm synth layers and delicate guitars evoke the beauty of living in between certainty and doubt, embracing imperfection and continual creation.

Made of Maybe

Are you stuck in your comfort zone, waiting for someone or something to rescue you from yourself? You're not alone. So many of us live in what Tracy calls "the box"—that familiar prison where we feel safe but never truly alive.

We tell ourselves we don't need approval. We act like we don't give a shit what anyone thinks. But deep down? We're still waiting. Waiting for the right person to make it safe. Waiting for the universe to send a sign. Waiting for someone else to take the emotional risk first.

In this episode, Tracy explores:
* Why seeking approval keeps you trapped in avoidance patterns
* How "safe" actually means familiar (and why that's dangerous)
* The difference between avoiding life and living in flow
* Why emotionally risky action is the only path to freedom
* How to break free from your own fucking prison, one small step at a time

"You have to create your own safety. And stepping forward and taking an emotionally risky action is the only way that you live a life where you feel it's full of joy and happiness." ~ Tracy Crossley


#818: Approval Seeking Avoidants

Today’s cybersecurity roundup covers major developments worldwide — from the UK backing down on Apple encryption demands to new exploits in Apache ActiveMQ. We dive into exposed flaws at McDonald’s, North Korean hackers leveraging GitHub, and a ClickFix attack using a fake BBC News page. Updates from Google Cloud’s 2025 Security Summit highlight stronger protections, while a cyberattack in the Netherlands has disabled dozens of speed cameras.

Global Cybersecurity Roundup: Privacy Battles, New Exploits, and Infrastructure Under Attack

🔻 Song Insight

Title: Was I the Last One
Artist: 4Me2BeFree

“Was I the Last One” is a cinematic, emotionally raw ballad exploring the ache of loving someone lost to addiction—and the even deeper pain of realizing you may have been the last to love them for real. The lyrics move through memory, regret, and that strange state of loving a person who’s already gone, even as they remain physically present. It’s about the way addiction stains everything: relationships, trust, self-worth, and time. Even as the song wrestles with anger, loss, and helplessness, it finds a kind of bittersweet closure in the knowledge that the love you gave was genuine—something the other person might never truly grasp. The song stands as a message to anyone who’s loved an addict: you’re not alone in your grief, your confusion, or your longing for peace.

🔻 Lyrics
Intro:
distorted phone ringing:, faint static:

Verse 1:
The power in my pain, aching in these veins  
Needle ruptures—as your stain takes hold  
Phone idles, it’s these moments that remain  
Stuck in like glue, nothing I say, nothing to do  

Pre-Chorus:
It’s you in what I lost  
Things you broke and tossed  
Every fiber of me  
Splinters—inside of you  

Chorus 1:
Vision blurred in my mind  
Parts I can no longer find  
Skin, eyes, and your lips  
Every part—I used to miss 

Refrain:
My moments slow to hours  
Days stretched, just waiting  
Now gone—it’s hollow our rings  

Verse 2:
The thing that scares me  
Was I the last one?  
I hope it’s not true  
to be the last to love you  

Interlude:
Is this what it’s like  
For the loved ones who fight?  
Tired words keep falling  
Tell me, how do I stall  
To fix these broken parts

Bridge Part 1:
Will I regret what I tried?  
Maybe I should have lied  
What did I do for you?  

Bridge Part 2:
If that phone rings, I'll know the truth  
The end has come, there’s nothing to do  
I will fall, and a part of me dies with you  
this pain inside—can’t... escape... this place

Hook / Chorus 2:
I have to focus on the pain  
Stay awake for all my mistakes  
It won’t solve this now  
No longer about us  

Refrain / Post-Chorus:
It’s only when sleep wakes me, and you can’t breathe  
I used to watch your chest rise and fall  
To think it could stop—with nothing at all  

Outro:
With every break and every pain  
And you, too, take this away  
But not the part that has to wait  
That I have to keep  
That I have to keep  

🔻 Personal Reflection

This song was written at the edge of loss, when you realize you’ve already grieved the relationship and are now preparing for the actual goodbye. I poured every ounce of love, regret, and helplessness into these lines—anger, sorrow, and the strange peace of finally letting go. Addiction doesn’t just take someone away; it makes you mourn them while they’re still breathing. For anyone loving an addict, it’s okay to feel the whole spectrum: love, hate, hope, and resignation. Your love was real. That’s what matters.

🔻 4Me2BeFree

As 4Me2BeFree, I create songs that turn pain into cinematic story—tracks for those who feel everything a little too deeply. “Was I the Last One” continues that mission: unfiltered emotions, hard truths, but always a glimmer of healing in the sound. My music exists to be both a mirror and a balm for anyone navigating the messiest corners of love and loss.

🔻 Copyright Notice

All lyrics and content featured in this post are protected under copyright (© 2025) and have been securely time-locked and validated through a crypto-based verification system to ensure originality and ownership. Unauthorized reproduction or distribution of any part of these works without explicit consent is strictly prohibited.



Was I The Last One

Raised in Concrete Washington, I learned to play the guitar when I was 12 years old.  We had a music teacher by the name of Daryl Cooper who was like my older brother.  He started a guitar class and I couldn't wait to be in it.  By the 2nd or 3rd week I had probably outgrown the class but I enjoyed every minute of it.  I was in his band by the time I was 14 playing dances all over Western Washington.  I was awarded the National Choral Award Scholarship my senior year of high school.  This goes to one student in the United States.  I wasn't smart enough to use it.  I joined the United States Navy in 1979 and stayed for almost 22 years.  During that time I was a submariner and eventually the pilot of a small submersible (DSV3 Turtle) that would dive to 10,000 feet deep.  I was in bands playing guitar and singing throughout my military career.  We actually had a couple songs play on DC101 in the 80's.  Now in my 60's, I'm able to relax and write songs without any pressure or dreams of grandeur.  I like the songs I write and hope you like them too.

The Daily HEAL Security Dispatch Podcast is a leading source for up-to-the-minute news and deep insights in the realm of healthcare cybersecurity and threat intelligence. 

At the heart of HEAL Security's vision is the commitment to equipping organizations and individuals with rapid, contextually rich cybersecurity updates, establishing itself as a pivotal force in unifying practice and data against the ingenious tactics of criminal and malicious entities. HEAL Security is fervently devoted to constructing a robust resource and community that champions the defense of the healthcare sector against the growing cyber threats from organized crime groups and antagonistic nation-states. Our core focus encompasses the protection of vital IT infrastructures, the security of sensitive patient and clinical information, the safeguarding of critical healthcare systems, and the assurance of continuous, undisturbed patient care services.

"If it didn’t matter, it wouldn’t hurt. Pain is the gift of knowing you’re alive."

4Me2BeFree is more than music—it’s my story, my scars, and my survival. Every song is a piece of me, a raw melody of love, heartbreak, and resilience. I blend AI-generated vocals and instruments with real emotions, turning my experiences—especially from an LGBTQ+ perspective—into something that speaks to anyone who's ever felt lost, broken, or just searching for something real.

Breakup songs? Yeah, they hit different. Music carries us through the worst of it, and every generation finds their own anthems of love, loss, and getting back up. Heartache doesn’t care about age, gender, or where you come from—music connects us all.

I make music because I’ve been there. The pain, the anger, the hope—it's all in these songs. If something here hits home for you, let it. If you feel something, let me know. That’s the connection that keeps this alive.

Solive Raye is the sound of solitude given form, quiet thoughts turned into raw, melodic truths. An engineer and lifelong observer, Solive Raye writes for those who feel alone in crowded rooms, where silence speaks louder than words.


Blending dark, atmospheric tones with flickers of hope, his music lives in the in-between: not quite despair, not quite light, but something honest.


Raised in movement, from football fields to refereeing lines, he now wanders more internal landscapes, shaping every lyric with the precision of an outsider looking in.


Solive Raye doesn’t shout. He resonates.

A lot of us live in our head, disconnected from our feelings and intuition. This podcast touches on releasing insecure attachment, accepting your authentic self and getting “unstuck” by connecting to how you FEEL instead of how you THINK. I’ve been there, and discuss sensitive subjects using my own experiences with a lot of laughs and even more empathy… because we’re all flawed humans.

Great art almost feels like magic—it opens our minds to brand new ideas, and teaches us to see ourselves and our world more clearly. Of course, behind all great art, there are artists. And that’s where the real magic happens…

As we go beneath the art itself to explore how different artists do what they do, we see glimpses of the sorts of creativity, resilience, and bravery that lead to the art that moves our world. And maybe we can learn to borrow some of that magic for our very own thinking.

Join professional musician Emily Merrell for conversations with artists of all kinds. Together, we examine the mysteries of our own experiences, our muses and fears, our gifts and foibles, our beliefs about the origins of creativity, and the secret magic we’ve discovered in our unique creative processes. 

Mediums include: studio art, graphic design, dance, cooking, illustration, creative writing, storytelling, comedy, music composition, music performance, film making, acting, production, fashion design, photography, and more.

Visit https://emilymerrellmusic.com/artifice-podcast/  for more information.

- Theme Song "As You Are" by Emily Merrell @emilymerrellmusic
- Illustration and Graphic Design by Sarah Keele @sarahkeeleart
- Photography by Jen Palmer @jenpalmerphoto
- HMU by Shawna Turner @shawnaturnerdesigns

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