Made 3ish months ago

with https://soundcloud.com/ulterguy

Me:

Said I’m through
I always lose 
I fall apart
Leaving my room
I hate patience
But I can’t say it
So I just show it
Why try and fake it

No where to run to
Where you’re the real you 
I say “nah it’s cool”
Its what I thought she’d do 

Who felt it first?
I’d Beg her to stop
But it’d make it worse 

She’d say, 
Oh what would she say
That I’m too cheesy
I’m always thinking 
There’s something wrong
There’s something missing 
When we’d be kissing
I’d close my eyes before we touched
I’d always text her first
She’d say it’s a gift and curse
That she’d usually find me crying, reading, on the Bedside 
I Hide the way I hurt
I’d Trust her when she’d say she meant it
Even if I sensed it
Couldn’t be the truth.

ulter:

i read her like a book, i kept turning all the pages
leave me in the past tense, i'll be fine just on ur waitlist
before we touched
my life was all a lie
before we touched
nobody heard my cries
and then u touched my heart
a chance to restart
she said that everything was all my fault
about her, it's all about her
she wants all the power
she said i'm a monster
but i still got her flowers
with every passing hour
i'll write another letter and think of what we were
i'll keep u in the center
she knew i fucking hurt
she always puts herself first
left me with but a curse
i know that i'm not the first
for better or for worse
she told me we're over
i guess that's a lesson learned

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