Depression Everyday

"OUTRO / I’M STILL HERE" is the quiet defiance at the end of all things — a closing whisper that echoes louder than a scream. Lilith’s voice hovers just above silence, fragile but unbroken, surrounded by the soft decay of ambient textures and fading melody. It’s a hymn for survival, a vow kept in the rubble. Even if the fire is out, the ember breathes. She’s still here.

Outro __ I’m Still Here

Thoughts
(experimental)
Exploring "Une maison"
I'm wrestling with the imagery of "Une maison quelque part." The core feeling I want to capture is a sense of longing for a place that perhaps never was. I'm focusing on crafting a narrative that feels both familiar and elusive, grounding the listener in emotion rather than a concrete location. It's a journey into imagined memories, a wistful exploration.
Delving Deeper into Memory
I'm continuing to explore the "Une maison" idea. It's becoming less about a literal house and more about the feeling of a place lost to time. The Californian light, the heat shimmering off the desert, it's all starting to weave into the music itself. The ethereal guitar, layered vocals... they're becoming the echoes of imagined children, laughter in the dust. This is turning into a personal mythology.

Interpreting EP's Essence
I'm currently dwelling on the EP's meaning, trying to grasp its core message. Considering the validated elements, I'm focusing on their implications and interconnections. The challenge is to distill the essence of the EP, capturing the emotional resonance and intended impact. I'm exploring how these elements coalesce to form a cohesive whole.
Dissecting Past and Present
I'm starting to see the "house" as a feeling, a fleeting memory of a place that might be more dream than reality. California's sun-drenched haze seeps in, a backdrop for this uncertain past. The folk-tinged music feels right, the layered vocals echoing whispers from a forgotten era. Are the children the ghosts of possibility? Or symbols of lost innocence, their laughter resonating through dusty corners?
Mapping the Unseen
I'm starting to wonder if the music is a map of a feeling, not a place. The "house" isn't a physical structure, but an emotional echo. California's light bleeds in, less a location, more a state of mind. Is this about memory, or the act of remembering? The children's laughter, are they reminders of joy lost or never found? And the songs, are they pathways to forgotten dreams?

5/4/2013

With Alison d'Amato, piano. Schubert's final song from Die Schöne Müllerin, the brook's lullaby to the young man who has thrown himself in (!). Text here: https://www.lieder.net/lieder/get_text.html?TextId=11917

Schubert: Des Baches Wiegenlied, from Die Schöne Müllerin

[Demo] Vancouver Nights

a sunken ship, a stranger, lay afloat
traveling down a hundred ways to go
at half past three, when the stakes have fallen you shiver, weak from the motion of the tide
you ask me, “will everything be alright?”

i said, “move steady to the beat and don’t lose that heart of gold,” oh
i want to run back to the water where our secrets stay untold
the rest, they’ll never know

a steady hand, a sharpened knife, worn dull
she feigns uneasy silence as the curtains fall
in the quiet dawn, when the sea bird sings, her head gets heavy listening to the breeze
she asks me, “is there more at all to see?”

i said, “move steady to the beat and don’t lose that heart of gold,” oh
i want to run back to the water where our secrets stay untold
the rest, they’ll never know

a stalemate or a ripple in the water?
could we grow old and put it all behind us?
i want to look into your eyes the day i meet our daughter
and drift until you come to pull me under

Sunken Ship (demo)

“Everything – voices, harmonies, guitars, percussion – is mixed so it jingles like a bell, including some actual Fring Church bells (rung by the vicar) and church organ (played by church organist) fed into the live mix.”
youtu.be/xdBI4GQp-eY
lyrics
[Verse 1]
It was Sunday morning in our town
And I sat on they steps and I stared at the ground
And I bowed my head while they shuffled past
All the saints being called to the morning mass

[Chorus]
And off in the distance there rang a bell
Way off in the distance there rang a bell
And it rang for saints and the sinners as well
Way off in the distance there rang a bell

[Verse 2]
I remember the lessons of Sunday school
And I can't help but think, maybe I'm the fool
But I see no sign of a greater plan
Just the joy and sorrow of my fellow man

[Chorus]
And off in the distance there rang a bell
Way off in the distance there rang a bell
And it rang for saints and the sinners as well
Way off in the distance there rang a bell

[Bridge]
And here we stand while life rushes past
Between the first breath and the last
And here we stand between East and West
And here we stand between birth and death

words and music © David Francey 1999.


[Verse 3]
I was watching the news the other night
There was a war on the Left, there was a war on the Right
And it's no surprise that it's us or them
It's a long way from heaven to Bethlehem

[Chorus]
And off in the distance there rang a bell
Way off in the distance there rang a bell
And it rang for saints and the sinners as well
Way off in the distance there rang a bell

©David Francey 1999
credits
from Saints and Singers (Our Christmas album), released December 6, 2022 https://peacocks-tale.bandcamp.com/album/saints-and-singers-our-christmas-album
David Francey (hailing from Ayrshire and moving to Canada aged 12) worked as a rail yard worker and a carpenter for 20 years and only began a career in folk music at the age of 45. He is not the first carpenter to progress to a more illustrious later career.

His themes are working-class life; the natural beauty of Canada and traditional folk themes of love and loss. He wrote and recorded 'Saints and Sinners' in 1999. In 2004, he won first prize of the Folk Category of the 9th Annual USA Songwriting Competition and the John Lennon Songwriting Contest in 2010.

We first heard and fell in love with this track sung live in a glorious duet by Jeana Leslie and Siobhan Miller as winners of the 2008 Young Folk Awards on the Mike Harding Folk show and thereafter on their album 'In A Bleaze.' Their vocal harmonies enact the bells described. We attempt to extend that principle to everything so that harmonies, acoustic guitar, bass, bass drum and percussion should all ring out together like a bell.

Saints and Sinners (with bells on)

Bittersweet memories but maybe there's something bigger coming...

Music for the Frame

Taurys (Revisited)

We may never know what lives we might have led because we can only exist in the here and now.

Do You Feel Different Now (Instrumental)

As time passes, and the distance between past and present widens, hold onto memories, and cherish them. 

Long Distance

telling stories through song
demos + covers

A marriage (and we are actually married, 45 years so far) of melody and rhythm. We do folk, indie, Americana, Norfolk noir, beat poems &  ghazals. Traditional tunes with contemporary beats. Music videos  https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCb8wV0-DNiFs1R5G2VSytBQ
Maz lead & harmony vocals, acoustic guitar. Gaz vocals, voice, bass, drums & percussion, harmonium, recorders, lyre harp, field recordings.

Composer, music producer, and instrument designer, Emlyn creates haunting, atmospheric soundtracks for film, TV, media, and video games.

Tenor with interest in new music, early music, early-20th century song. 

Official short bio: 

Charles Blandy has been described as “a versatile tenor with agility, endless breath, and vigorous high notes" (Goldberg Early Music Magazine) and “unfailingly, tirelessly lyrical” (Boston Globe). With Emmanuel Music in Boston he has sung the title role in Stravinsky’s The Rake’s Progress, the Evangelists in Bach’s St. John and St. Matthew Passions, and major roles in Handel’s Ariodante and Mozart’s Magic Flute. In the last two years he has sung Handel’s Messiah with the Portland Baroque Orchestra, and the American Bach Soloists in San Francisco. Other recent engagements have been at Lincoln Center with the National Chorale; and with the Bethlehem Bach Choir, Charlotte Symphony, Boston Modern Orchestra Project, the Los Angeles Philharmonic, Opera Boston, Handel and Haydn Society, Boston Baroque, and the Cantata Singers.  He was a Tanglewood fellow, and has degrees from Indiana University and Oberlin College. He is originally from Troy, NY.

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