Lyrics:
Do you remember when you were just three?
The summertime adventures of father you and me,
While mom was asleep, too young to understand the grasp of disease,
So innocent and free and made to believe the presence of good in this world,
But soon dad was overseas, and it felt like just me.

And I'm still terrified of the plot behind your eyes,
Cause I don't know anybody's intentions,
Been backstabbed enough yet still desperate for attention,
Been made to feel like the whole world is wanting to see me fall,
Like everyone's out to get me, I'm one man against an army.

Overseas.
And it felt like just me.

(Overseas)
Oh
(And it felt like just me)
Oh
(Overseas)
(And it felt like just me)
Oh
(Overseas)
Oh
(And it felt like just me,
And it felt like just me,
And it felt like just me,
And it felt like just me)
And it felt like just me.
And it felt like just me.
And it felt like just me.

Overseas

Lyrics:
When you first came in brought my life to a halt
Only took what I knew, first taste of the alt
We both cut eachother, filled the wounds with salt
But it's all my fault, but it's all my fault
Victim's your default
So get another tattoo and bury the pain
And numb yourself till you're cold in the brain
Until you're just a shell of guilt and shame
We'd be one in the same, we'd be one in the same
But I'm no longer that way

You claim that you preach love,
But it's never quite enough,
I see through the facade.
Pull the victim card,
Wait for one to come along,
To solve your problems.
And I won't give you the satisfaction.

I can't escape your grasp.
I can't escape your grasp.
I can't escape your grasp.
I can't escape your grasp!

You think you're so above it all.
You think you're so above it all!
You think you're so above it all.
You think you're so above it all!

You claim that you preach love,
But it's never quite enough,
I see through the facade.
Pull the victim card,
Wait for one to come along,
To fix your problems.

I just know, you'll be soon faced with your karma.
You claim that you preach love, but it's never quite enough, I see through the facade, I do.
No matter what you take of mine, and anytime I hide, I look who's in the back of my mind, it's you.

Bitterness

Lyrics:
And I don't if I can escape this cycle I'm trapped in
(trapped in)
And I don't know why I can't be on my own again
(again)

Need to learn to be on my own
And I feel the claws as they swipe at my throat

And no matter what I do
I can't shake this perfect image I have of you
Do you remember the long drives home?
When I stared at you more so than I did the road
And I can't forget your smile
The shine in you eyes made me feel alright for a while
Can't forget your laugh
All the good times that I want back

Need to learn to be on my own
And I feel the claws as they strike at-

Isn't it funny how lovers become strangers in time
Do you remember Gambino dropping those songs as we had the time of our lives
Hours of conversation and now no one speaks a word at all
A word at all

But maybe that's a good thing
Maybe that's a blessing
Though it feels like I'm dying

You don't have the guts to see
Your heartless tendencies
Instead flaunt what you'll never give
Cast your doubt on me
Everything that you claim to see
Is your own machine
The one that you built
To try to keep the peace
Or whatever that means

And I'm not getting better
You'll get what you deserve
There's no way I could have seen this
There's no way it would of worked

There's no way around it
We're strangers now and I still cry about
The way you played me like a game
Cause you never intended us to be anything

Tired of being stuck on this
Tired of being stuck
Tired of being stuck on this
Shit out of luck

Starting to open my eyes
Starting to understand
That a life without you
Wouldn't be so bad

So bad
So bad
So bad
So bad


Lovers / Strangers

Lyrics:
I think this is what I need
I think you're the one of my dreams
Displace your guts in waves
So please don't leave

I've waited my whole life for you
I see you walk my way, then right through
Oh, what I would do
To get out of the mud and find you

I just want you to love me.
Why am I pushing you further from me?

There's nothing I can say,
Nothing I can do,
To get me closer to you.
Everything I try,
Everything I do,
Seems to distance me from you.
And I don't know if I'll make it through,
If you choose to go.
And I know that this is what I'll never get through.
Am I on my own?

Real Actual Love?

Lyrics:
I don't know what to think
What's my perception and what's reality?
A desire to be in-touch
Can't make up my mind without being too much

Too intense, still on the fence.
Take me back, to where I began.

Don't listen to a word I say
I'm just a delusional mess withering away
Still pondering why nobody stays
I have the answers but won't accept the blame

And I'm sick and tired of falling on deaf ears.
Playing (songs) for people that won't even care.
(And) I always knew that I'd get nowhere,
Except for here, right here, where do we go from here?
Right here, right here, there's nowhere to go from here,
Right here, right here, this is always as I feared.

I'm too intense, still on the fence.
Take me back, to where I began.

There's no end,
There's no end,
There's no end,
There's no end.
There's no end.
Not again,
I'm in my head.
There's no end.

Delusions

Lyrics:
But I will never want to fall in love again.
Again.

I want to die, in your arms, as you sing me love songs
(As you sing me love songs)
Drink up till, I forgot, all the people I loved that I lost
(People I loved that I lost)
Feeling tried, to go on, falling from where I thought I belong
(Where I thought I belong)
So again, I drink on up, like the answers at the bottom of my cup
(It's not.)
And nothing seems to bring me where I need.
(Ooo)
And nothing seems to make me feel at ease.
(Ooo)
Ooo...

Anecdote

Lyrics:
And now I'm wishing that I never met you
I was just an excuse to get where you want to
But you were so much more to me
Young and in love and I thought you felt the same

Well I miss you but you're not worth my time,
So why am I wishing you were here by my side?
How could you act like I don't exist?
It seems like you're always on the attack,
And I still want my fucking sweater back.

And now I see I need to be on my own.
To learn to just love the head that I call home.
To learn to love in more ways than one.
I guess I don't need anyone but myself.

I don't miss you cause you're not worth my time,
And now I'm not wishing you were here by my side.
Now I act like you don't exist.
It seems like you're always on the attack,
And I still want my fucking sweater back!
My fucking sweater back!

Now I just hope you've found whatever you're looking for.
(And part...)
But I don't want you anymore...
(And part of me will always care for thee...)
(And I know it took a while to let go...)
...I don't want you anymore.
(...but now I see things weren't meant to be.)
(...but you were the first I adored to shake my soul to the core.)

Watershed

Lyrics:
I'm not your favorite toy anymore.
I see you make your way to the door.
Drifting the other way, drifting the other way.
Don't wonder what to say anymore.
It's cause I've drilled myself to the door.
Slowly you turn the other way, drifting the other way.

You are...

Dont fall, under a spell
You wanted it
Forever, oooo
Dont fall, under a spell
You wanted it
I'm so far from you

Exhausted

In this rejuvenating episode of Older & Bolder, Debbie McCulloch welcomes Claire Cavalieri, a Wellness Coach who is passionate about helping people age with vitality and grace. Claire shares her insights on healthy aging, longevity, and how adopting simple yet powerful habits can lead to living a vibrant life well into your 100s!

Discover how Claire incorporates ballroom dancing, Tai Chi, and swimming into her weekly routine to stay energized and strong. She also unpacks the critical role that whole, nutrient-dense foods play in supporting both physical and brain health—and why ditching ultra-processed foods is key to feeling your best.

Whether you’re looking to boost your energy, shed a few pounds, or reset your health mindset, Claire’s practical tips and wisdom will inspire you to take charge of your wellness journey. This is the pep talk we all need to fall in love with movement, mindful eating, and the joy of healthy living!

🌎 Learn more at clairecavalieri.com

Season 3 Ep 22: Claire Cavalieri, Ageless Aging Wellness Coach

In this uplifting episode of Older & Bolder, Debbie McCulloch is joined by Yvonne Marchese—a woman redefining what it means to age with passion, creativity, and playfulness. As the host of the Late Bloomer Living podcast, President of the Age Agitators Club, and author of In Full Bloom: A Guide to Aging Playfully, Yvonne is proof that it’s never too late to bloom.

With contagious energy, Yvonne shares her love for photography, roller skating, podcasting, and community-building. Her mission? To show that life doesn’t slow down with age—it expands. You’ll be inspired to chase long-held dreams and explore new adventures, no matter what stage of life you’re in.

Yvonne’s story is a powerful reminder that aging playfully is not only possible—it’s essential.

Recorded in Saskatoon & Rosetown, Saskatchewan
Show producer: Christina Cherneskey Communications
Theme music: ES_By the Neon Sign
Music for this episode: ES_Don't Waste My Time (Instrumental Version) - Victor Lundberg, ES_Happy-Go-Lucky - Victor Lundberg, ES_Afterglow - Jobii, ES_Feel So Lucky (Instrumental Version) - Cody Francis, ES_I See You (Instrumental Version) - Candelion
Voice over: Christina Cherneskey
Original artwork: Jackie Peterson
Artwork developed for digital media pages: Christina Cherneskey

Season 3 Ep 23: Yvonne Marchese, Late Bloomer Living

In this powerful episode of Older & Bolder, Debbie McCulloch speaks with Jo Ann Glim, a stroke survivor whose journey from paralysis to purpose is nothing short of extraordinary. Jo Ann shares the harrowing moment she realized she was having a stroke and the days that followed, where she lost her ability to walk, talk, or even see straight. What came next was a powerful story of resilience, frustration, hard work—and ultimately, hope.

With honesty and heart, Jo Ann recounts the mental and emotional battles she faced in her recovery, including the painful memories of her mother’s fatal stroke years earlier. Her determination not only led to physical healing, but also to a renewed life mission. Today, Jo Ann is the host of the podcast Don’t Count Me Out, where she features other stroke survivors, and is the award-winning author of Begotten with Love and Trapped Within: A True Story about Survival, Recovery, Love and Hope.

This is a conversation about perseverance, transformation, and the powerful strength of the human spirit.

📧 Contact Jo Ann: JoAnnGlim.author@gmail.com
🌐 Visit: www.joannglim.com

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Recorded in Saskatoon & Rosetown, Saskatchewan
Show producer: Christina Cherneskey Communications
Theme music: ES_By the Neon Sign
Music for this episode: ES_Blue - Staffan Carlen, ES_If You Say Yes - Anna Landstrom, ES_Threads - Ever So Blue, ES_Unbounded Horizons - Victor Lundberg, ES_Will You Ever Know_ - Anna Landstrom
Voice over: Christina Cherneskey
Original artwork: Jackie Peterson
Artwork developed for digital media pages: Christina Cherneskey

Season 3 Ep 24: Jo Ann Glim, Surviving Stroke to Thriving

In this profoundly moving episode of Older & Bolder, Debbie McCulloch speaks with Dianne McConnell, a mother whose journey through heartbreak, advocacy, and unconditional love will stay with you long after the conversation ends.

Dianne recounts the incredible story of raising her two sons, Ben and Erik, who were born with a rare genetic condition that brought with it immense medical and physical challenges, including blindness. Through countless hospital stays, surgeries, and emergency situations, Dianne made it her mission to not only care for her children but to become a voice for others facing similar realities.

With determination and love, Dianne earned a PhD in Special Education and became a visual consultant, hoping to improve the lives of families navigating the complex world of disability support. Her story is one of powerful resilience—and an unshakable belief that her sons were not defined by their challenges but by the extraordinary gifts they brought to the world.

Dianne lost both of her sons within two years, each passing in their early thirties. Today, she continues her advocacy work and is the author of two deeply insightful books: Could This Be Grace? and Inclusion… It’s Not Just an Educational Buzzword.

This episode will touch your heart, expand your understanding, and leave you with a renewed sense of appreciation for the grace found in life’s most difficult circumstances.

🌐 Learn more at: www.diannemcconnell.ca
📚 Books: Could This Be Grace? and Inclusion… It’s Not Just an Educational Buzzword


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Recorded in Saskatoon & Rosetown, Saskatchewan
Show producer: Christina Cherneskey Communications
Theme music: ES_By the Neon Sign
Music for this episode: ES_Your Time To Soar (Tribute Version) (Instrumental Version) - Cody Decker, ES_What If I Said I Am Sorry (Instrumental Version) - Loving Caliber, ES_The Sweetest Love (Instrumental Version) - Ornatia, ES_Forgotten Tears - Magnus Ringblom, ES_Morning Star - Megan Wofford, ES_You Are the Melody - Ruiqi Zhao.
Voice over: Christina Cherneskey
Original artwork: Jackie Peterson
Artwork developed for digital media pages: Christina Cherneskey

Season 3 Ep 25: Dianne McConnell, Grace, Gifts, and Special Challenges

In this energizing episode of Older & Bolder, Debbie McCulloch welcomes the vivacious and inspiring Cat Corchado—Air Force veteran, podcast host, and founder of the Small Space Pilates Community. Cat is a true powerhouse whose mission is to help others rediscover their “fabulosity” through movement, strength, and connection.

Cat shares her powerful journey as a single mother balancing military service and motherhood, and how her transition to civilian life opened the door to new beginnings. Her podcast Sisters in Service shines a spotlight on women veterans, sharing their stories and ensuring they have access to the support they deserve.

Through Pilates, podcasting, and purpose, Cat encourages others to take charge of their health and happiness. If you’ve been waiting for a sign to get moving, start fresh, or reconnect with your strength—this is the episode for you.

🌐 Website: www.smallspacepilates.com
🎙️ Podcast: Sisters in Service

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Recorded in Saskatoon & Rosetown, Saskatchewan
Show producer: Christina Cherneskey Communications
Theme music: ES_By the Neon Sign
Music for this episode: ES_Aesthetic Echoes in Motion - Rebecca Mardal, ES_Kali Kush (Extended Version) (Instrumental Version) - VEE, ES_Dancing Like We're Animals (Instrumental Version) - Loving Caliber, ES_Unbroken Spirit - Sunfish Grove, ES_Chase (Instrumental Version) - Aiyo, ES_Killer Vibe (Instrumental Version) - Flux Vortex, ES_She's Got a Ticket to My Heart (Instrumental Version) - Basixx
Voice over: Christina Cherneskey
Original artwork: Jackie Peterson
Artwork developed for digital media pages: Christina Cherneskey

Season 3 Ep 26: Cat Corchado, Vivacious Veteran, Pilates Powerhouse

In this fearless and inspiring episode of Older & Bolder, Debbie McCulloch welcomes Madelon Smid—an unstoppable force of energy, creativity, and resilience. A bestselling author, outdoor adventurer, and mentor, Madelon shares how living with Crohn’s disease, including life-threatening hospital stays, gave her the strength to face every challenge with courage and joy.

Madelon discusses her passion for writing, revealing the process behind her dozens of romance and suspense novels, including favourites like the Daring Heights series and the Sisters in Peril trilogy. She shares how her writing stimulates her mind, while yoga, kayaking, skiing, and hiking keep her body and spirit strong—even now, in her late seventies.

With refreshing honesty and prairie-born grit, Madelon talks about the importance of pushing past fear, embracing new adventures, and paying it forward by mentoring emerging writers.

🌐 Website: www.madelonasmid.com
📚 Books available on Amazon: Daring Heights Series, Sisters in Peril Trilogy

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Recorded in Saskatoon & Rosetown, Saskatchewan
Show producer: Christina Cherneskey Communications
Theme music: ES_By the Neon Sign
Music for this episode: ES_Can I See You Again (Instrumental Version) - JAKE $ING, ES_Half Right All the Time (Instrumental Version) - The Eastern Plain, ES_Should've Been Me (Instrumental Version) - Gamma Skies, ES_Dance with the Sin (Instrumental Version) - Zorro, ES_Echo (Instrumental Version) - SCENE
Voice over: Christina Cherneskey
Original artwork: Jackie Peterson
Artwork developed for digital media pages: Christina Cherneskey

Season 3 Ep 27: Madelon Smid, Fabulous, Fit, Fiction Writer

In this thoughtful and enlightening episode of Older & Bolder, Debbie McCulloch sits down with Jennifer Kaufman—educator, principal, author, and proud grandmother—to discuss the unique and meaningful experience of grandparenting a child on the autism spectrum.

Drawing on her decades of professional experience in special education, Jennifer shares how her personal connection to autism deepened when her grandson was diagnosed. With warmth and insight, she explores the joys, challenges, and profound rewards of building a bond with her autistic grandson—and how grandparents can play a powerful role in both supporting their grandchild and their own adult children.

Jennifer is the author of Grandparenting on the Spectrum: A Journey From Both Sides of the Desk, a valuable guide for families navigating autism together. She also surprises us with stories of her unexpected second act—as a grey-haired model, proving that embracing your authentic self can lead to new and joyful opportunities.

This episode is a gentle reminder that growth, understanding, and adventure are always possible—at any age and in any role.

🌐 Website: www.grandparentingonthespectrum.com
🔗 LinkedIn: Jennifer Kaufman

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Recorded in Saskatoon & Rosetown, Saskatchewan
Show producer: Christina Cherneskey Communications
Theme music: ES_By the Neon Sign
Music for this episode: ES_An Instrument of Change - Peace Reels, ES_Ups and Downs - Martin Klem, ES_Life in Peace - David Celeste, ES_Peace at Last - Atlas Kind, ES_Whispers Of East - Daniel Kaede, ES_The Way We Used to Be - Harper Rey. 
Voice over: Christina Cherneskey
Original artwork: Jackie Peterson
Artwork developed for digital media pages: Christina Cherneskey

Season 3 Ep 28: Jennifer Kaufman, When Grandchildren are Awesome and Autistic

In this powerful and soul-stirring episode of Older & Bolder, Debbie McCulloch welcomes Rachel Schneider, a woman who has turned immense grief into inspiring growth. As the Chief Inspiration Officer at Spirited Prosperity, Rachel shares her raw and emotional journey of losing her husband to ALS before the age of fifty, and the heavy responsibility of guiding her two young sons through the loss of their beloved father.

With heartfelt honesty, Rachel opens up about her eldest son’s struggle with addiction and her desperate efforts to support him through recovery. What follows is a remarkable transformation—one that led Rachel to write her book The Widow Chose Red, and to step boldly into a new life she never imagined.

Rachel now spends her days speaking at events, writing, and empowering women in midlife and beyond to nurture their body, mind, and spirit. Her story is a tribute to resilience, purpose, and the magic of embracing every chapter—no matter how painful or unexpected.

🌐 Website: www.spiritedprosperity.com
📘 Book: The Widow Chose Red (available on Amazon)
📱 Facebook: Rachel Kerr Schneider
▶️ YouTube: Rachel Kerr Schneider

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Recorded in Saskatoon & Rosetown, Saskatchewan
Show producer: Christina Cherneskey Communications
Theme music: ES_By the Neon Sign
Music for this episode: ES_The Desolate Path - Rikard From, ES_Sad Beauty - Jon Bjork,  ES_Beauty and Peace - Damon Greene, ES_Synesthesia - Clarence Reed, ES_Not Enough to Give - Sleeping Vines, ES_Archipelago - Isobelle Walton.
Voice over: Christina Cherneskey
Original artwork: Jackie Peterson
Artwork developed for digital media pages: Christina Cherneskey

Season 3 Ep 29: Rachel Schneider, Putting the "I" Back in Spirit

In this uplifting and perspective-shifting episode of Older & Bolder, Debbie McCulloch sits down with celebrated speaker and author Darci Lang, whose signature message—Focus on the 90%—has inspired thousands across the country to reframe their lives with clarity, kindness, and intention.

Darci shares how choosing to see the positive 90% of our lives, instead of obsessing over the 10% that drags us down, can be a transformational practice. Through relatable stories and self-deprecating humour, Darci reflects on how negative thoughts, complaints, and judgment sneak into our everyday interactions—and how we can retrain ourselves to look through a more empowering lens.

You'll laugh, reflect, and maybe even grab your own mental magnifying glass as Darci invites us to embrace small mindset shifts that can have powerful ripple effects.

Darci is the author of four inspiring books: Focus on the 90%, Living the 90%, Lead the 90%, and Embrace the 90%—and she’s a nationally recognized keynote speaker who continues to spread her message of positivity and resilience from the stage to the page.

🌐 Learn more at: www.darcilang.com
📚 Books available now:
• Focus on the 90%
• Living the 90%
• Lead the 90%
• Embrace the 90%

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Recorded in Saskatoon & Rosetown, Saskatchewan
Show producer: Christina Cherneskey Communications
Theme music: ES_By the Neon Sign
Music for this episode: ES_Resilient - Trevor Kowalski, ES_Circular - Silver Maple, ES_Get Over Here - Station Story, ES_Random Acts of Kindness - Airae, ES_Storytelling - David Celeste, ES_The Wilderness - George's Town, ES_Exceeding Expectations - Experia, ES_The Time - Martin Gauffin.
Voice over: Christina Cherneskey
Original artwork: Jackie Peterson
Artwork developed for digital media pages: Christina Cherneskey

Season 3 Ep 30: Darci Lang, Choosing What To Focus On

Prod. by me and Chizian. First part drums by Chizian. Second part features Harlot and the Tramp with Bohdangerous on drums and Josh Cross on guitar.

Lyrics:
Just like the good old days.

Ch-ch-ch-ch-chyeah!

I hate to say it but I didn't think it would come to this
The only thing more rash than my mind are the scars on your bloody wrist
And I know!
You're trying to make this out to be something about yourself
I'm all that you ever wanted but you're too deaf, blind, and dumb to tell!

You don't even know exactly what you even want,
So keep on searching for your perfect miracle drug.

Your Loss Babe (Ft. Chizian and Harlot and the Tramp)

Purposefully raw and rough around the edges as well as not confined to any genre, fatalflaw.'s experimental take on the process borders the likes of outsider music, all the while pushing the envelope on what rawness can be in terms of production. 

New tracks tagged #yxe