sun to me

The Ballad of John David

phase three¡ - the enigma¿

New track off WHOISJAYE's EP "i missed you for awhile but i think i'm over it now"

WHOISJAYE - carpet burn

New track from WHOISJAYE's EP "i missed you for awhile but i think i'm over it now"

WHOISJAYE - the french song (celui qui est parti)

WHOISJAYE - time bomb memories

My remix of Nine Ball by Zach Bryan, tried to do something a little different than my usual tech house sound.

Nine Ball (Walker Remix)

Oklahoma Smokeshow (Liam Fitz Remix)

one of my biggest struggles going through life is taking ownership over who I am. for the longest time I felt like I was stuck under someone else's description, a side character no one cared about. my entire purpose was to live for others and never myself. with this song you are witnessing me grow into my own person. I like to look at this song as such. proof that healing is an option, not just for me but for anyone listening that knows they need change, for people who know they need to start putting themselves first.

[Verse 1]
Hey, I hope you’re doin’ fine out there,
Wherever you lay your head
I bet you think I’m movin’ on
By the pictures that I’ve fed
Yeah, I laugh when folks are lookin’
But when the moon climbs that sky
I’m sittin’ here askin’ shadows —
If I’m so happy, why do I cry?

[Verse 2]
I still keep that Christmas letter,
I still hear your old dog bark
I still count up all those mornings
Where we tangled in the dark
They all say I’m better off now,
But that don’t make it right
You call this happy, honey?
Then why do I cry at night?

[Chorus]
If you’re wonderin’ how I’m holdin’ up,
Well, I ain’t gonna lie
I pour my truth out in a bottle
When that truth cuts me dry
If you gave me back that moment,
I’d trade it all tonight
You call this happy, darlin’?
Then why do I cry?

[Bridge]
If you ever wonder, baby,
If I ever cross your mind
Just know your ghost still haunts me
When I’m alone at night

[Chorus]
So if you hear I’m doin’ better,
Well, that’s half a truth at best
I might look like I’m free now
But this freedom’s just a mess
If I’m so damn lucky, honey,
Then why’s it feel like goodbye?
You call this happy, darlin’?
Then why do I cry?

You Call This Happy, Honey? (Duet)

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I’m JD Hodge — Oklahoma-born, red dirt-raised, and songwriting for over 30 years.

In 2024, I flatlined on an operating table. Cardiac arrest. Everything changed.

When I came back, the words came with me — like they’d been waiting their turn. Since then, the songs haven’t stopped. I write what’s real: struggle, hope, grit, and grace — stories meant to be felt.

You’ll hear pieces of my past, my people, and the kind of heartland truth you can’t fake. These songs aren’t just mine — they’re for anyone who’s fought through silence and still found a voice.

Retired • Lyricist • Country • Americana • Acoustic Soul
Oklahoma, USA
Collabs & contact: jim@reddirtclassics.com

Dj/Producer from Calgary, Alberta

Bookings and Demos
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