(feb 2024)

i see ur face
i cant compete 
like cant u see
what’s wrong with me

i can't compete (demo) (prod. diedinoctober)

why won't you let me out?
it's been years, i've been in this cage 
for you i am devout 
shed your tears, you paint me in rage 

all those sweet things you say 
you want to see me decay in my grave

shackled in your domain 
wrapped in the chains, the walls are dark grey
i know what you try to convey 
the blood that i bleed, is why i'm your prey 
you tell me while i weep that i'm a waste 
but i'm so in love, i want it anyways
do what you want to me i'll embrace 
that no matter what, i'm stuck in this place

i fell in love with this basement, and you  (prod. x.xcupidx.x)

all i feel is so painful 
cut by the hands of an angel 
all you are is so hateful 
why the fuck are you able 
to stare deep into my eyes 
and make me just want to die  

all i feel is your hatred 
all alone in this basement 
all i feel is invaded 
hands around my throat is so sacred 
angel eyes tore me apart
left me bleeding with a broken heart

all i felt was my lover 
make me beg while i suffer 
all i felt was my summer 
turn cold while i got smothered 
your angel eyes, they never cry 
promised heaven, what a fucking lie 

all i felt was a sinner
burn me with words like loose cinders
all i felt was my winter
turn warm with what is within her 
her angel eyes look like the sky 
close my eyes and say goodbye

angel eyes (prod.blyatifuldawg)

Guard Your Heart

you hide from me, i know
you lie to me, i know
you'd die for me, i know
you cry for me, i know

bleed your hurt into my crimson blood
drown in tears, my baby, bring the flood 
entwined in you, i want to lose my form 
a fragile being while inside your storm 
take my body, baby take my mind 
baby, leave nothing of me behind 

i want more of her, i can't stop 
she flows inside of me, i'm on top 
she wants more of me, i'm inside 
i want more of her, i won't lie 
she pumps inside of me, my heart stops 
i pump inside of her, my heart stops 
she cries in ecstasy, i won't hide 
i drown in ecstasy, we both cry 
don't let go of me, please don't stop
don't let go of me, please don't stop
i want more of her, i can't stop
she flows inside of me, i'm on top

HEROIN PT. VI

you say you wanted more
i heard it all before 
if i stay it'll hurt me more 
if i leave, will you close the door 

you say you wanted this 
when you gave me one last kiss
if i stay, maybe we can fix
whatever ruined this 

i know you want to see what I've locked inside 
i know it hurts your heart when i run and hide 
you know it's not your fault, i just want to die 
if i show you me, you will run and hide 

why don't you scream some more 
i heard it all before 
if you stay i'll just hurt you more
if you leave, i will close the door

wHaTeVeR rUiNeD tHiS (prod.cristalbeach)

your eyes, a shade between wrong and right 
all of my days blend into night 
i scream your name over the rain
just to hear you say, don't wait
if i wait eternity, no less
it's better than leaving here heartless 
i'll wait in the cold, the endless grey 
still hoping you'll come back some day

if i wait eternity, no less (prod. qyurisuu, nihil2free)

the white noise surrounds me, and it pulls me straight in 
such a haunting sound you are, it's under my skin 
thought i heard your voice in there, but it's still unclear 
just a fading echo, i know the end is near 

now i hear the silence hum 
the loss of you, i must succumb 
no more pain, but no more love 
i'm leaving now, i wish you'd come 

how is it you're everywhere but you're never there?
i don't think my heart can take much more of despair 
you told me that you'd be fine, you said, yes i swear 
now i'm standing at your grave i scream it's not fair 

HEROIN PT. VII

Song: Avalon by Zeruel


Audio taken from: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bJjCxjS7zTo


All credit goes to the original artists. I do not own the rights to this audio.

Tom Platz & David Hoffmann | Avalon (Slowed)

Magnolia [+ Injury]

baby 
free me 
comes to me at night 
and it haunts me every time
 

see you in my dreams 
it's why i do not sleep 
awake, i never heal 
you're the pain i wanna feel 

chain around my neck 
you smile and i forget
that heaven tastes like hell 
and i wear it all too well 

moonlight through the haze
my skin burns from the chains 
wrapped inside my pain 
see your face, my god, it aches 

taste you in the rain
like rust and love and shame 
buried in my veins 
you nest inside my brain 

every breath i take 
is another slow mistake 
you're the death that i still chase 
with a kiss that burns like flames 

chains (prod. NW)

GOYK (prod. trynacommunicate)

Cut off the lights
Can’t stand my face
Bags under eyes
Can’t leave this place

Scars on my neck
From dreams I hate
Time moves slow
I rot, I wait

Can’t feel love, can’t feel death
Just one breath, then one less
Bite my tongue, bleed in bed
Nothing helps — I live in dread

Tears don’t fall, I just decay
Hands go numb, I fade each day
Say you care, but never stay
Still rotten — locked away
Tears don’t fall, I just decay
Hands go numb, I fade each day

Eyes go black
Skin turns pale
Bite my tongue
Dreams all stale

Can’t go back
Heart won’t heal
Voice like ash
None of this real

No more love
Just this rot
Blood on sheets
Sleep forgot



insomnia (prod. Septfree)

alt rock + shoegaze + zeruel + novulent + quannnic type

dead roses inside my hands
ash on my tongue i cannot stand 
the taste of who i am 
i wanna be a better man 
just shadows and shaking hands
dead roses inside my hands 

i don't feel the high no more 
drugs never fill the hole 

blood seeping from all my pores
pain is all i'm asking for 
what in the fuck am i living for 
petals drop down to the floor 
dead roses inside my hands 
i wanna be a better man

DEAD ROSES

unreal

the lyrics are from the perspective of two people amidst a breakup
it is open to interpretation to determine who is saying what 
everyone will see it differently 
thank you for listening 

leave it to me, my love, i don't 
think that we should be here, don't 
leave it to me, i'm a freak, i'm a joke
leave it to me, i'm so weak, and i won't
be what you need, i'll just leave, and you'll choke
on burning tears, all your fears, when you're woke
you will not sleep, will not eat, and your throat 
will scream for me in the nights you're alone 

hearing your words in the wind cuts to bone
where do you go when your home isn't home?
unknown in life, but in death, you will know
when you see my name etched into stone 

leave it to me, my love, i don't 
think that we should be here, don't 
leave it to me, i'm a freak, i'm a joke
leave it to me, i'm so weak, and i won't
be what you need, i'll just leave, and you'll choke
on burning tears, all your fears, when you're woke
you will not sleep, will not eat, and your throat 
will scream for me in the nights you're alone 

hearing your words in the wind cuts to bone

leave it to me (etched into stone)

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