actually i like u a lot

Cut my bangs and cried today I
guess it'd been a while,
and I needed to see my ugly face 
to admit I'd forgotten how to smile.

Post the picture, anyway to 
see if you reply.
Post the picture, maybe your words
can bring me back to life.

'Cause I've been waiting my whole damn life,
been trying the whole damn time,
to say just what I mean.
And all I wanted all along
was for you
to hear me.

Lately I've been leaving trails on paper of my plans,
empty boxes left un-exed cut me deeper than the loneliness.
And I can't help but stay inside and try to 
find the words that you wanna hear,
and I bite my tongue and strain my eyes
staring back at the ghost in the mirror.

She's so empty.
She wants your attention.

'Cause I've been waiting my whole damn life,
been trying the whole damn time,
to say just what I mean.
And all I wanted all along
was for you
to hear me.

 I've been waiting my whole damn life,
been trying the whole damn time,
to say just what I mean.
And all I wanted all along
was for you
to hear me.
--
written & produced by taia
mixed by Tiger Darrow

cut my bangs

mermaid party

no lights

thanks for being here <3

for people who also love: Soccer Mommy, Phoebe Bridgers, Grimes, Mallrat, Clairo, Now, Now, Father John Misty, Hilary Duff lolololol

--

Polk St. is a song for people who spent a year convincing their begrudging boyfriend to move from California (his dreamland) to New York (his personal hell) only to realize how much they missed California (their home) at the first sight of yellow snow... This song is also for people who then realized they could never possibly say this to said boyfriend without seeming like a total asshole, so they decided to get their feelings out in SONG instead. I really hope this song finds those people.

In writing the lyrics, Taia leaned into the lighthearted cynicism that comes most naturally, drawing inspiration from sweet and dark writers Father John Misty, Phoebe Bridgers, and Frankie Cosmos. The chorus pays tribute to Joni Mitchell, while the electric and acoustic guitars emulate the chugging warmth of a The Mamas & The Papas song. But the song really finds its groove when an Our Song by Taylor Swift inspired violin joins the show in verse 2, and builds towards a Lizzie McGuire movie inspired ooh-woah at 2:48. This californiacore bop may not be for the fainthearted, but it is for fans of California, New York City (in all its gritty glory), Soccer Mommy, indie rock hyper pop, and eating cookie dough on a pile of trash.

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LYRICS
(verse 1)
You pulled my hair on the bus
You said we’re almost there, I rushed
To wipe the drool off my face like I did every day on
The 38

You had a job
With a man that could eat your soul
And I didn’t think you’d ever leave
But you left… with me.

(chorus)
California, california
whyyyyyy don’t they warn ya
City lights they shine just fine
But I miss the sunshine 

(verse 2)
We looked like hell
When we touched down somewhere in queens
Cause you can’t sleep on planes, in fact you’re deathly afraid
And you cried
Like a baby

I was a mut
When you found me out on Polk St.
But they had me in with the poodles
And the thing is that i hate poodles
And so do you 

(chorus)
California, california
why yyyyy don’t they warn ya
Subway rides won’t get you high
Like a california drive

(bridge)
Frostbite in December, forgot my sweater, and you said “remember
This is your fault,
Wanted to be in a place so dirty that even the rats won’t eat off the ground.”
And/well I’d ask you if you’d like to skip town
But I can’t say I miss home without bringing you down

So I guess I’ll hum.

Hmmm, hmmm
Whyyy don’t they warn ya 

(chorus/outro)
Nothing will ever taste as sweet
As a california dream
Oooh oh

California, california
whyyyyyy don’t they warn ya
Took 3,000 miles to see
What was right in front of me
yeah right in front of me
With you on Polk St.

--

written and produced by taia
mixed by Tiger Darrow
guitar by Torna Music

Polk St.

taia was always a songwriter in secret... until a 🍒sweet BOY🍒 came along and changed that ~*✨forever✨*~. 

chinatown is the song she wrote for him. . . 💕

chinatown

lizzie mcguire but make it grunge 💀💅🏼


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