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Heartbreak Sedative

Guest House

Time Goes By

In My Head

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BACKWARDS

Janet

Confessions of a Fangirl

Cry Alone

Confessions of a Fangirl (Sped Up)

As Long As You Love Me (Sped Up)

CTRL

(Verse 1)
The silence drops, the tension’s thick in the air
I catch that hollow glaze inside their stare
They start the script, the self-important spin
The subtle knife they try to sink within
They twist the tale to fit their grand design
But this time, darling, you have crossed the line
'Cause I’ve got a habit, call it what you will
I don’t just walk away—I break the drill

(Chorus)
Oh, my toxic trait, my sweet release
I bully back the bullies ‘til they plead for peace
I flip the mirror, shine a blinding light
And give them back the shadows they project at night
It’s out of character, this necessary sin
I won’t stop talking ‘til the system’s clean within

(Verse 2)
They call it fighting—I call it therapy
A psychological, poetic victory
You wanna paint the picture, flawless, clean?
I’m the critic who has seen behind the screen
I know the keywords, where the doubt runs deep
I trace the cycles that you swore you’d keep
I am the reset, harsh and unrefined
The truth they never came to find

(Chorus)
Oh, my toxic trait, my sweet release
I bully back the bullies ‘til they plead for peace
I flip the mirror, shine a blinding light
And give them back the shadows they project at night
It’s out of character, this necessary sin
I won’t stop talking ‘til the system’s clean within

(Bridge)
Is it wrong? Maybe. Does it feel right? Absolutely
I’m not the hero—just the end of scrutiny
I take the lie, the self-aggrandizing blow
Then serve it back so they finally know
This isn’t for them, this lesson that I give
It’s for the space I need to truly live

(Chorus – Intensified)
Oh, my TOXIC trait, my SWEET release!
I BULLY back the bullies ‘til they BEG for peace!
I FLIP the mirror, SHINE a blinding light!
And GIVE them back the shadows they project at night!
It’s OUT of character, this NECESSARY sin!
I WON’T stop talking ‘til the system’s CLEAN WITHIN!

(Outro)
Yeah… it’s out of my system now
The venom’s spent, I take my final bow
One more soul told exactly what they are today…
Now get out of my way

My Toxic Trait

[Intro]
You don’t want me back…
That’s what the echo keeps saying
Late nights, quiet rooms
My heart still replaying
Breathing in all the words you never said
Trying to sleep, but they’re stuck in my head

[Verse 1]
I read your silence like a headline
Every pause feels like goodbye
Friends say “move on, you’ll be fine”
But they don’t hear this voice inside
I scroll through memories at 2 a.m.
Smiling faces, broken then
I keep pretending I’m okay
But truth hits harder every day

[Build 1]
If I’m honest, I still hope
Even when I say I don’t
Every sign feels loud and clear
You don’t want me back, I hear

[Chorus]
You don’t want me back
Is what I keep hearing
Every word unsaid
Cuts a little deeper
I don’t want to beg
I don’t want to crack
But my heart still asks
Why don’t you want me back

[Drop]
Hands up high, let it fall
Love still lives inside it all
Even if you’re moving on
I’m still standing, still strong

[Verse 2]
I replay fights, replay laughs
Wonder where we lost our path
Was it timing, was it fear
Or just truths we couldn’t hear
I tried to be what you needed
Tried to heal what you were bleeding
But love alone can’t force a door
That someone doesn’t open anymore

[Build 2]
I’m learning slowly how to let go
Even when my heart says no
If you’ve already turned your back
I won’t chase what I can’t have

[Chorus]
You don’t want me back
Is what I keep hearing
Every empty space
Makes it crystal clear
I don’t want your pity
I don’t want your scraps
I just want to know
Why you don’t want me back

[Drop]
Let it rise, let it break
Every tear turns into strength
Jump with me, feel the sound
Healing starts when love lets down
Oh-oh, we survive
Oh-oh, we stay alive

[Bridge]
Maybe this is where I grow
Where I learn to stand alone
Loving you showed me my depth
Losing you taught me self-respect
If you never turn around
I’ll still wear my fucking crown
I won’t beg, I won’t collapse
Even if you don’t want me back

[Final Build]
I feel the beat inside my chest
Turning heartbreak into breath
If this chapter’s at the end
I’ll begin again

[Final Chorus]
You don’t want me back
I finally hear it
And it still hurts bad
But I’m getting clearer
I gave you my best
That’s a fucking fact
If you don’t want me back
I’ll learn to want myself back

[Outro]
Lights come up, I exhale
I survived what felt like hell
Even love that didn’t last
Still made me more than my past

Time Goes By

TAKE VAN