i couldn’t change for you without erasing me.

written/produced/mixed & mastered by me
and so begins the bitter wind
cutting up my brittle hands and heavy heaving hearts will stop again
ive made a name to call me by and see it with your own two eyes i don't think that 
your love was ever here
and now im in a darker place where light has no room to escape and hearts will glow to create something safe
a dream of sorts you're on the porch and talking to the moon and he says "every little thing will be okay"

and you will wonder why it's not
and while your heart begins to rot 
all the love you had for me will dissipate
and all the branches in the yard growing fungus going far things will start to finally create a face

dissipate

produced by michael harrison

I fucking hate you
I wish that I could get away
I can’t replace you
Because you're always here with me
And yet I try, to break your lies
I’d take my life before I give it all to you

Look in the mirror, all I see is gray and disarray 
So drown me out and turn around
But you can’t change your fate
I don’t how it was this much
Disavow every touch
Think I’m giving way too much
Left me filled with hate

I fucking hate you
I wish that I could get away
I fucking hate you
I fucking hate you
I fucking hate you
I wish that I could get away
I fucking hate you
I fucking hate you

Take a step back, watch it fall
Fuck growth, rather go ball
Hang up, hung up on calls
Maybe it’s better after all
Blurred faces, blurred lines
Waste youth, waste my time
I found light in the dark
So maybe it’s the dark that was right

Look in the mirror, all I see is gray and disarray 
So drown me out and turn around
But you can’t change your fate
I don’t how it was this much
Disavow every touch
Think I’m giving way too much
Left me filled with hate

I fucking hate you
I wish that I could get away
I can’t replace you
Because you're always here with me

I fucking hate you
I wish that I could get away
I fucking hate you
I fucking hate you
I fucking hate you
I wish that I could get away
I fucking hate you
I fucking hate you

disavow (michael harrison)

all in good time

losing sleep

give you my best [hey, taryn]

cant pretend (neverforever)

lyrics:

always mean, and never nice
baby i done told you once, and told you twice
you swear that i’m the only one? put it on your life 
i’m cold like Nova Scotia, son/sun, get turnt to ice 

And everything is alright 
Even though I’m never gone be dressed in off white 
Smith and Wesson on my side
I’m finding blessings, learning lessons through the stressors and the strife

stressors&strife (neverforever)

the dirt (neverforever)

grave dancer (neverforever)

this time (prod. erra)

Prod. Bloom

my personal favorite in this album. :3.

Lyrics ! -

How could i have been so blind?
caught up in my own life
gave up on all i knew
i turned my back on you

i threw away a life
while you turned round
i plunged a knife
watched you fall to the ground

while you cried, i could only frown.


lord knows i cant blame you
ran away from what was hurting you
got yourself to a better place
tired of being a mouse to the mouth of a snake

all you ever wanted
was to be loved
all i ever gave you

was a reason to run!


i threw away a life
while you turned round
i plunged a knife
watched you fall to the ground

cant believe all i did was frown

gave up on giving love
prioritized my wants
became the worst for us
turned our love into a rut

i was the problem the entire time
all i ever did was lie
i cant blame you for getting away
i was the predator and you were the prey


prey.

Leave me nothing (redux)

From the album "town" (DWL020)

deaddrunkwithlove.com/dwl020

kitchen - november prayer

am i unemotional

marchfifth, twentytwentyone.
i keep seeing you in my dreams. why?
featuring @nclkyr.
produced by anvii.
guitar played by @ayyitsryo.
mixed by anvii & @heavenindaclouds.

anvii:
my life's a shitshow
it's always so unsteady unlike the tempo
u know i cared about u
u know i cared about u 
i dont wanna talk bout no non sense
they always said dont worry about the past tense
oh i know
oh i know

hook:
maybe im just dreaming?
eyes to the ceiling
trying to wake up but i cant escape the feeling
dont wanna let go
ur laugh just echoes
inside my mind
knew u'd leave me
i said so

kyra:
my life's a mess
everything i do is not for the best
i dont wanna explain it anymore
i just wanna see the world before i
go back to the place
back to the days
u told me u wont leave me
now im alone
*rings*
on the phone
nobody knows
nobody knows

the dirt (neverforever)

talg0 🤍♾️

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