Tanmaya - Voice memos from my phone.

To Choose

as the end approaches
and i lie here in wait
as they watch with disappointment 
at the mess that i've made
i'm just another mistake
with all this hate i create
and if there is a god above me
there's a lot  on his plate

breathe
no im damned on this earth
breathe
to hurt and to hurt
and if there is a god above me that's been watching since birth
then give me one good reason, tell me what it's worth.
if there's just one good reason, tell me what it's worth

bed-ridden, tears dripping, locked in my room
downswing, aching flowers dont bloom
there's not much i can take if i take it at all
leave me alone now im crying in blue

i used to be a dancer yeah i used to swing
i used to comfort people yeah i used to sing
but now my voice is the devil
my music his horns
and my friends are dead
from this world we are torn

wont you take me away 
----------------------------------------
im writing disease till the day im deceased 
begging you please wont you listen at least
love in decrease heeding the priest's decrees
with ease is the only way to feel peace

but nothing makes sense no more,
my eyes, heart and brain are sore.
love's a bitch love's a whore
cant take this anymore

oh lord take me in, 
wash away all my sins
and deliver me from evil
and let me begin

the end

Simply Human by Morgan Taylor Reid

Written by Tanya Shah and Ramya Pothuri
Produced by Ramya Pothuri and Rishi Bradoo
Mixed by Rishi Bradoo
Mastered by Neil Pickles
Artwork by Akanksha Makhija

If I Dive Drunk

Produced Ramya Pothuri and Rishi Bradoo
Mixed by Rishi Bradoo
Mastered by Neil Pickles
Artwork by Akanksha Makhija
Additional guitar work by Ronit Sarkar

Constantly

Come Over Again

Wrote this last night. 
I'm going back to my #sadindiegirl persona.
Here are the lyrics:

I know nobody 
Will know me like you do
When will I learn to
Love like her, like you do

I slowly fade away
slowly, ease the pain

Maybe it's serious, maybe it's destiny
Maybe it's something else, that's keeping you from me
I am delirious, losing my sanity
I only want one thing, for you to remember me 

I will get through, but maybe I don't want to
I find comfort in pain, maybe I'm insane

Holding on to you 
Still holding on to you. 

enjoy xoxo

Letters I'll Never Give To You

Kya Tum Naraaz Ho Raw

Kya Tum Naraaz Ho? (Raw)

You're My Favourite Sound

do you feel suffocation at its peak,
Imaginary hands strangling all your weakness,
There is discomfort in this house
The kind your body wants to get out of

You know
The darkness is blinding
The chaos unfolds
You don’t feel like minding your business,
Cause this is
Far more interesting.
I don’t blame you now.
Now.

There is a place,
Abandoned like space
The silence it hangs,
From the noise that’s displaced 
Apart.
Apart.

Does not make a sound,
You don’t even shout
It’s clawing you down
This fear of missing out.

fomo

Lyrics:

Hey there its so nice to meet ya
But I’m scared I’ll have to leave ya

People they come and they go
Will you stay? Or will I go?

Mm mm mm
Mm mm mm

Breathless I find my heart beating 
Faster everytime

I overthink all the time
A vacant feeling 
in my mind

Mm mm mm
Mm mm mm 

Breathe in and 
Breathe out
I hope I figure it out


I hope I know how to fix it
I hope I really figure it out

Mmm mmm
Mmm mmm

Breathe in and 
Breathe out
I hope you figure this out

A vacant feeling (recording)

Lyrics:

Wherever I go
I’d like to be happy

Whenever I die
I’d want every flower next to me

But I know
The surface
and all
that there is

Hmm
hmm

All of a sudden
I like to be on my own

I know that I have to be
Okay and that's all I’ll ever be

But I know
How dark it can be
and I pray
that the light finds me

Hmm
Hmm

Wherever I go
I’d like to be all I need

Whenever I die
I’d take every tainted memory

But I know
You cant see
it’s okay
To be free

Wherever I go, I’d like to be all I need (recording)

It's not complete yet.

Lyrics:

You called me up
in the dead of the night

You made some plans
I said okay, that’s fine

I’ll see you there
with my chest feeling tight

Awkward eyes
not feeling alright

You saw me there
Losing my way
Not a word
Was said through the day

You said it’s fine
I feel the same

Don’t look away
You’ll get through the Haze


Weird is good
and so is champagne

So take this glass
and let’s sing in the rain

We’ll stay away
from people and pain

I know it’s strange
but it’s not insane

You called me up
in the dead of the night

made some plans
I said okay, that’s fine

I’ll see you there
with my arms open wide 

Awkward eyes
But feeling alright

Weird is good but so is Champagne

I'm an alien on this rose colored planet,
Where dried up leaves and daffodils they bloom,
And I can't see and I have lost my balance,
Nauseated, don't know what to do,

But I will find my home down here,
And I trust that these clouds will clear,

Your sky is pink, your core is warm and yellow,
Your gravity keeps pulling me inside,
And I'm at the utter mercy of your atmosphere,
But I couldn't find a better place if I tried,

But I will find my home down here,
And I hope tomorrow's sky is clear,

I found myself on a rose colored planet.

Rose Colored Planet (Demo)

my future - Billie Eilish Cover

I know its hard for you 
My friend
It aches my heart to lose you again
But we will see 
Whats meant to be 
For me, is you
For you, is me. 

         
It probably hurts you when I call you
a friend

But you‘re the only reason why
I don‘t pretend 

And I don‘t know 
How far we can go? 


For me, its you
For you, its me

My words shall be like a friend to you ( voice note )

https://tanmayabhatnagar.com/music/



Grateful.

My words shall be like a friend to you ( voice note )

Tanmaya Bhatnagar

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