aftrr - if they wanted to, they would

wishes

official music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MHobHG2OXfE
stream: fordis.lnk.to/wishes

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i wont take you back since
i hate to remember that all of this shits my fault
left it in the past tense
when it hits september i feel like im on my own

i was so wrong
i wont ever take you back
left your phone blocked
got fake friends
dont trust them too
got some cuts up on my shirt
shit you put me through

wasted all my time and
ruining my past and
cheated on the race but you still finished up on last place
fuck that
you dont know me too
hope they're always looking up to me
cause i wont look at you

sometimes i wish and i pray
that you'd call my phone
and you'd tell me its okay
now you killed a part of myself
put a pillow to my head and i'd
cry the pain away

i've been trying so hard (damn)
i've been trying so hard
i've been trying so hard
damn

damn
damn
damn

i was so wrong
and i haven't felt this lost in like so long (so long)
put it on god
he ain't care about my struggle in like so long

so i act like i ain't numb and im so strong
and am i a waste of time cause you moved on?
closing both my eyes hope i respawn
left me on my own had to sit and write a new song

i was so wrong
i wont ever take you back
left your phone blocked
got fake friends
dont trust them too
got some cuts up on my shirt
shit you put me through

wasted all my time and
ruining my past and
cheated on the race but you still finished up on last place
fuck that
you dont know me too
hope they're always looking up to me
cause i wont look at you

sometimes i wish and i pray
that you'd call my phone
and you'd tell me its okay
now you killed a part of myself
put a pillow to my head and i'd
cry the pain away

i've been trying so hard (damn)
i've been trying so hard
i've been trying so hard
damn

damn
damn
damn

i was so wrong
and i haven't felt this lost in like so long (it's not worth it)
put it on god
he ain't care about my struggle in like so long

i wont take you back since
i hate to remember that all of this shits my fault
left you in the past tense
when it hits september i feel like im on my own
—

song credits:
produced by @prodelxnce and @cymricxo
mastered by @1falc

video credits:

directed by me
co-directed: ricardospdp
creative director: nevefilms
cinematographer: thomas hall
gaffer: zak fenning
steadicam operator: corey milo
steadicam assistant: luc vrhovnik
make up: emily rayner-airey
vhs: zakari hosein
drivers: jarek brdak + paul barbra
editor: nevefilms
colourist: anri adler
graphic design: sblngr
studio: visual line ltd
rental: onestopfilms + haze films ltd
process & scan: on8mil
model: amber sharkey

track 1 of 9
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wishes

lyrics:

white on white rover, windows tint i’m feeling way too papal
i’m in this condo with some baddies, dice up on the table
i’m under clouds of marijuana, can’t say i’m ungrateful 
i done loved one too many thotties, i don’t do no labels

i might love her body, she do it so gracefully
i’m in this party, i’ve got partnas serving jodeci
this one’s for the pretty hoes that hate me
this one’s for the pretty hoes that-

i’m way too picky, i feel like a dickhead
she way too prissy, she need her attitude checked
white on white rover, it got screens in the back
i’m drinking henny, drinking cognac

white on white rover, windows tint i’m feeling way too papal
i’m in this condo with some baddies, dice up on the table
i’m under clouds of marijuana, can’t say i’m ungrateful 
i done loved one too many thotties, i don’t do no labels

my eyes too red, think i need some visine
with a baddie, look like a barbie
swerving big bodies

i fell in love with her figurine 
she roll the baccie so gracefully
i’ve got partnas serving jodeci 

white on white rover, windows tint i’m feeling way too papal
i’m in this condo with some baddies, dice up on the table
i’m under clouds of marijuana, can’t say i’m ungrateful 
i done loved one too many thotties, i don’t do no labels

ungrateful

OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS https://idm.fm/rotten
produced by tansea
mastered by pdktp
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Nothing has started
My self departed
Took two steps forward
But I'll take three back then

My hope disheartened
No records charted
I can't take your word
With my eardrums blackened

I don't want to be rotten (rotten)
Knowing I'll be forgotten (forgotten)
No no
I don't want to be unknown
(unknown)

And I know it's real common
But everybody's now watching
Oh no
All the people I've consoled

Like damn,
I don't want to hate myself
I don't want to fear my health
Things I always keep withheld

You don't want to live like this
Should I really call it quits?
Maybe they were right about this
Everything will fade to mist

I work when, it's late and
I miss out, on days when
I should be, outside and
Instead I'm, revising

I'll never, be perfect
I want to, be worth it
I threw my, vacation
In hope that, I'd make it

(ugh)

I don't want to be rotten (rotten)
Knowing I'll be forgotten (forgotten)
No no
I don't want to be unknown
(unknown)

And I know it's real common
But everybody's now watching
Oh no
All the people I've consoled

Like damn,
I don't want to hate myself
I don't want to fear my health
Things I always keep withheld

You don't want to live like this
Should I really call it quits?
Maybe they were right about this
Everything will fade to mist

Like damn (like damn)
I don't want to hate myself (I don't want to hate myself)
I don't want to fear my health
Things I always keep withheld (withheld)

You don't want to live like this
Should I really call it quits?
Maybe they were right about this (maybe they were right about this)
Everything will fade to mist

rotten

prod me

lyrics:

i take it slow
i don't wanna be left alone
can you show
what you really want from me
i just dont know
i don't really talk that much
i don't really know what to say
it's all new to me

i bite my tongue
as you show me love
i've never felt like this before
is this real?
can i feel this feel?
you're all i need
and want and more

i don't wanna lie
baby, you been on my mind
lately
i need someone to confide in, oh
tell me it'll be al- (oh my god)
love you even when I'm high
never wanna see you cry
i just wanna tell you now
the things i feel when you're around
i give you my all
you've got my body for taking
know i'm
i'm just one call
away from my fall
i hope you know i'm not faking
pray i'm not breaking

i don't like it when you're not 'round
i need you right now
come and say your vows
i remember every sound
hear it like surround
know you're getting close to me
wonder can you fix my soul for me?
ha

i found comfort in you
i pace in my room
as we talk now
i just wanna make you proud
how can i hide the truth?
im so into you
im such a loser
if i had to, i'd choose her

this time i'll change
maybe this time it's okay
if i tell my truth to you
if i open up
do you promise you'll stay?
i don't wanna weigh down on you
i'll be patient
for you, I'll be the bravest

i bite my tongue
as you show me love
i've never felt like this before
is this real?
can i feel this feel?
you're all i need
and want and more

i bite my tongue
as the world comes crumbling down
will you be the one to save me now?
will you be the one to save me now?

GENESIS

track 3
iniquity 

it's been like a week since i've touched em
how tf do i live without substance
baby if i'm honest with you i been struggling
i never meant to be someone who's smothering
but i am who i am when i'm starting to love a bitch
she ask if i'd go thru the storm for the bitch
like would i really put down the drugs for a bitch
would i really take down my walls
and let a bitch into my life
i'm so deep in that bitch hit a wall
she said this what i need in my life
i will not turn no hoe 2 a wife
i just keep these hoes by
wake up and i chose one
and thats the bitch that i pick for the night

they want me in cali i need me flight
cant fly witta gun so i'm ready to fight
this hoe wanna fuck think i'm seein it right
she love me too think i see it in her eyes
or maybe i'm high
maybe i'm high, maybe i'm high
but she wit me 2
we both in the sky, we both in the sky
dont lie
(lie dont lie dont lie
dont lie dont lie dont lie
baby keep ur lies
keep ur lies from me)

(and if she just a hoe that i pick for the night
why aint i ever met some1 like her in my life
never met someone like her in my life
sadly she just for tonight)

it's been like a week since i touched em
how tf do i live without substance
baby if i'm honest with you i been struggling
i never meant to be someone who's smothering
but i am who i am when i'm starting to love a bitch
she ask if i'd go thru the storm for the bitch
like would i really put down the drugs for a bitch
would i really take down my walls
and let a bitch into my life
i'm so deep in that bitch hit a wall
she said this what i need in my life
i will not turn no hoe 2 a wife
i just keep these hoes by
wake up and i chose one
and thats the bitch that i pick for the night

they want me in cali i need me a flight
n she love me too i can see it in her eyes

for the night (prod. baz, dteen, litothedon, reddi)

prod. sinpad
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here’s to another year. happy birthday me

all roads point to you (poem)

track 1
iniquity

if i let her go
i'm letting her know
that she don't control me
yeah she can't patrol me
i'm fucked on the patron
so i wanna spill secrets
babygirl can u keep it
tell me baby can u keep it
i been lost in the deep
tryna see my way out
i done went to my sides
and i looked up and down
i said i'd sell you what i find
aint nothing around
there aint meaning to shit
so bae take it down
bae lets get high

and do everything that we said that we probably shouldnt do tonight
and if there aint meaning to shit i'm tryna be so damn high that i cannot recognize you
cuz i'd break my mf spine for u
i never told a bitch this in my life but i would die for you
i would lie for you
i would cry for you
i'd put 10 toes on the ground, jump up and fly for you
bitch i'd touch the sky for you so i'll kill any guy for you
i'll commit a crime for you
end my fucking life for you

if i let her go
i'm letting her know
that she don't control me
yeah she can't patrol me
i'm fucked on the patron
so i wanna spill secrets
babygirl can u keep it
tell me baby can u keep it
i been lost in the deep
tryna see my way out
i done went to my sides
and i looked up and down
i said i'd sell you what i find
aint nothing around
there aint meaning to shit
so bae take it down
bae lets get high

secrets (prod. baz, liamtakeover)

demo 2

i don't know how to say it
if it keeps on i'll be emaciated
another product of harming
crash, fall
i don't wanna be here at all
don't catch me if i fall down
another product of harming
crash, fall
i can't seem to find it, it's lost
the boy i was before
why have grown disheartened
crash, fall

mind my mind you
pick my fights
hand my life over
i rest my soul down been at it since october
don't lie to yourself you're not a toler
you barely know her
think she a showman
petty scars all over
you should've known then
it gets too heavy to breathe
i'm pleading down on my-
i stay up grinding my teeth
my flesh is ready to eat

i don't know how to say it
if it keeps on i'll be emaciated
another product of harming
crash, fall
i don't wanna be here at all
don't catch me if i fall down
another product of harming
crash, fall
i can't seem to find it, it's lost
the boy i was before
why have grown disheartened
crash, fall

product of harm

enticed prod me and dsi

guitar by will rhead

when it's all said and done
when i leave home and no one's round
will you save me a seat to the sun?
to somewhere i could never be found
i don't wanna let go
oh i don't wanna leave home
i made my momma cry
i told her i'd call her on the phone
i'll kiss my cats goodbye
i'm sorry i left you all alone
oh i don't wanna leave home
oh i don't wanna leave home
i'll do all the things you taught me
i'll try my best, i'll be a man, won't hate my body
stand on my own two feet
i'll make it through tweleve weeks
i'lll make it back with my own hands, i'll make you proud of me

all roads point to you (poem)

tansea

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