got this on my daily mix and i broke down crying

circa december 2022

oh ill do it my way
just a whisper planting thoughts in my brain
i can't understand why you look sideways
i don't understand why you like dying
move this way ill hold you
you're so pissed off
i told you
i would run if you needed my help
im tired of feeling like im on the shelf
ill splatter my brain and leave it on the walls
im tired of liking you it wont resolve
open that door you know i can't do that
i'm jus a fool with intentions to move back

sideways

lyrics
will you let me get some rest, im overwhelmed
with you laying on my chest when my fort fell
with the same old texts, girl it wont help
you can feel it in your legs when you melt
and, you fell in love
I know only you held, my trust
and, dont sell my thoughts
i know you're an angel, with loss

please open the pages
look at what im facing
yeah, no more changes i hate it
baby we could watch it cave in
It makes sense at the stage we're in
fuck, look at your eyes, its one shade off from sapphire
it's decided that
i lost my heart to desire (yeah)
i know its hard, but dont cry again
i just want to know what you're residing in
well im prayin for you baby dont go
fuck a dance off tell me you wont
stay hands off that was my home
while im still distracted by your glow (once again)

Eee eee, ee aann, aaahn
Oo aah ahh, ooh aahh ah, oo aah ahh, ooh aahh ah

will you let me get some rest, im overwhelmed
with you laying on my chest when my fort fell
with the same old texts, girl it wont help
you can feel it in your legs when you melt
and, you fell in love
I know only you held, my trust
and, dont sell my thoughts
i know you're an angel, with loss

please open the pages
look at what im facing
yeah, no more changes i hate it
baby we could watch it cave in
and make sense of the stage we're in
fuck, look at your eyes, its one shade off from sapphire

angel [p. sai]

@zephyrcove 
out on all plats

guess i always thought i’d be okay
things dont usually happened that way 
i wish i could miss u the way you miss me 
but we don’t have to talk about it 
never thought i’d leave you stranded 
but we knew things wouldn’t be the same 
as they were when we were fifteen 

you know i never found a way to cope 
but i’m glad to know that you never lose hope 
looking back it was never what we planned to be 
going home was what was best for me 

i wish i could miss u the way you miss me 
but we don’t have to talk about it 
never thought i’d leave you stranded 
but we knew things wouldn’t be the same 
as they were when we were fifteen 

fifteen 
never meant much to me 
but as long as you’re around 
i can see it  
i don’t wanna leave you now 
but that’s okay 
that’s okay for now

fifteen

You resemble the stars

Its too late to stay off
Take all, the weight off
Baby its too late to break off
Through all the shit you face for pay stubs
And you dont know what to say
Cus you dont know how to feel dont know how to love
And you don’t know if it’s real right in front of ya
All the shit im sayin’ gon fuck it up
I been thinkin bout you late, till the sun is up
But i want you for all ages, one call later, i could take it all back
Cus gunshots couldn’t phase us, its okay cus i could say we dont care
Its so hard, with you resemblin the stars
Im just defending my part
Thats the start, no head in my arms
Baby dont tread from my warmth

Its so hard, with you resemblin the stars
Im just defending my part
Thats the start, no head in my arms
Baby dont tread from my warmth
Head over heels for you lately
Obsessed with you but you’re crazy
Im fast as you, you said it
All signs point to you changin’
Upset with you, but you’re waiting
Wont fess with you, cus you hate it
Wont better you, let the roof cave in
We could talk but

Its too late to stay off
Take all, the weight off
Baby its too late to break off
Through all the shit you face for pay stubs
And you dont know what to say
Cus you dont know how to feel dont know how to love
And you don’t know if it’s real right in front of ya
All the shit im sayin’ gon fuck it up
I been thinkin bout you late, till the sun is up
But i want you for all ages, one call later, i could take it all back
Cus gunshots couldn’t phase us, its okay cus i could say we dont care
Its so hard, with you resemblin the stars
Im just defending my part
Thats the start, no head in my arms
Baby dont tread from my warmth

thx @mage12k for the cover art :)
prod @xodazed
https://open.spotify.com/album/3EIEKIyXY3xJjGq4jsFuid?si=6Vu2qPcpSseWOBdpWSYDkg
lyrics

@xodazed :
your system overrides my purpose so i gotta reset
i said im falling far behind but u dont wanna forget
i tried my hardest, meet the quota that u jokingly set
but there is not a single reason why i couldn't admit
but nothing ever seems to help me, not the motivation
im pulling on all of my hairs, can you just give a second
should i just let it grow or should i cut it all off
and now theres petals on the floor with a broken life

@fxriss : 
yeah you always wanna talk but you never make it right
i was struggling inside and all i ever need was you
ill give you 24 flowers, just know in 24 hours
ill do whatever it takes, but you'll still turn it into dust
how do you expect us to build any trust?
petals on the floor i've lost the way to love
your mom and dad are always arguing
if it wasn't for them i think youd see

you say you're right but you take a left
i dont think we're meant for this
i dont wanna start again
get these 808s outside my head
if i was you i wouldn't act like a whore
something that i just cannot support

(ahh)
(oh god) x2 

@xodazed : 
your system overrides my purpose so i gotta reset
i said im falling far behind but u dont wanna forget
i tried my hardest, meet the quota that u jokingly set
but there is not a single reason why i couldn't admit
BUT NOTHING EVER SEEMS TO HELP ME NOT THE MOTiVATION
IM PULLING ALL OF MY HAIRS CAN YOU JUST GIVE A SECOND
SHOULD I JUST LET IT GROW OR SHOULD I CUT IT ALL OFF
AND NOW THERES PETALS ON THE FLOOR WITH A BROKEN LIFE

petals on the floor w/ dazed?!

guitar by will rhead

when it's all said and done
when i leave home and no one's round
will you save me a seat to the sun?
to somewhere i could never be found
i don't wanna let go
oh i don't wanna leave home
i made my momma cry
i told her i'd call her on the phone
i'll kiss my cats goodbye
i'm sorry i left you all alone
oh i don't wanna leave home
oh i don't wanna leave home
i'll do all the things you taught me
i'll try my best, i'll be a man, won't hate my body
stand on my own two feet
i'll make it through twelve weeks
i'lll make it back with my own hands, i'll make you proud of me

proud

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https://open.spotify.com/album/690ROHhErsz0miOJW49LxF?si=mwg72MuCRH6Yp9y8geSpLQ

(prod. RFM beats and ‪beatsbyshvrs‬)

(mumbling)
(yeah x1 trillion)

yeah , tell me im the worst
baby idk if thats a gift or its a curse
cuz you never wanna make this work out
now all i do is fucking hurt now
yeah
baby do you ever need me ?
yeah yeah
put my issues in a damn shell
they like jayne why tf
do you even need some damn help
baby im just struggling
tryna pour my heart out
and you never listen to me anyways ..

oh oh oh
i been trying so hard
you look the other way
when im even in your arms
i feel like ill never be enough for u
baby i been struggling to love you
oh yeah
throw my life away
they be listening to my songs
but dont know what i say
sometimes i hate my voice
i cant really help it
i only care abt my self
im so fucking selfish

one plus one
yeah baby
thats just me and you
and were so stuck like
what?
thats glue
will you be there if i need you?
one plus one
yeah baby
thats just me and you
and were so stuck like
what?
thats glue
will you be there if i need you?

look the other way
i dont wanna be seen right now uh
i thought that i lost myself
and then you came and found me out
i just really hope
that you dont ever let me down
then i was so fucking sad
and you turned me upside
upside down

uh yeah
miss the days when you
left marks on my body yeah
miss the day when you
said that you “fuckin love” me yeah
miss the day when you
would look in my eyes
oooh my
god damn think i fell in love twice
god damn think you look so nice
god damn will you be my wife
(wait thats a little bit too fast)
like do you need a hug?
ik that these other guys just wanna
come and fuck
like baby i can treat you right
ik that you want love
like baby i can be someone that you trust.

(someone that you trust x 10 million)

one plus one
yeah baby
thats just me and you
and were so stuck like
what?
thats glue
will you be there if i need you?
one plus one
yeah baby
thats just me and you
and were so stuck like
what?
thats glue
will you be there if i need you?

(one plus one thats just me and you and were so stuck like what thats glue youll be there if i need)

end of an era... stay tuned

produced by sai
cover art edited by ilxrrr

//lyrics

What you thinking
What you think bout me what you thinking aw
What you think bout me what you think
What you think
Only you would try to ruin my life
So obsessed its like you’re still mine
Im so stressed what you did to my mind wasnt right
You come into my life just to terrorize
When i go gold spreading lies
You think you’re so fucking noble
I dont buy it
Begged you for forgiveness like half the time
Then you turn around and spin it
No i dont think i like you
Or anyone thats around
All your groupchat validation putting me down
I just assume that you wanna see me dead in the ground
Or somewhere i wont be found
Well too bad cus soon youll see me everywhere
The regrets thatll follow you everywhere
Dont pretend this wont follow you everywhere
I hope it follows you everywhere, everywhere
I hope this follows you everywhere

What you thinking
What you think bout me what you thinking aw
What you think bout me what you think
Whatchu think
Treated you the best i could but you cant admit now cause how bad youd look
Give me back the rest you took when you’re laying at night think about what you should’ve done
What it was, was something manifested from the one you loved
Just act like yall cant trust me like it wasnt sum
Just Deep inside your mind that you bottled up
Please wake up
Always some shit you made up
Started to feel like fake love
If you got an issue with me say sum
Say something, just say
What you think

whatchu think [p. sai]

cover of "justin bieber, nicki minaj - beauty and the beat"

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