DAMN BRO FUCKING DROP SOMETHING THIS SHIT IS AMAZING

tansea:complete

shoutout that one canadian guy that sounds like he's from minnesota @johnnyfriend
shoutout @meantyyy (so underated)
fun pop song i made about a breakup :(

[mosh]
they just got me locked in a haven
i dont like this bitch, i dont wan be famous
i like you girl, yeah u are so gracious
every time i see you bitch i wanna make up

make up i dont want no fake love, yeah
hate us, girl you really fucked up, yeah
had enough of you bitch and im really above ya
i know, i know i will never trust ya

[meanty]
i feel the hatred
im breaking
what do u want from me?
all u want is honesty
i try to find my inner self
but all these things ain't going well
im feeling messed up
im running out of luck
i gave u my all
but u just made me fall
u treat me like a wannabe
but i know ur not fond of me
i know that ur just sick of me
it hurts inside it makes me weep

[mosh]
they just got me locked in a haven
i dont like this bitch, i dont wan be famous
i like you girl, yeah u are so gracious
every time i see you bitch i wanna make up

make up, i wanna make up

make up, i wanna make up

oooooooooo

wanna make up..

outro.

thanks for listening<3

haven 🌸 w/ meanty (johnnyfriend)

OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS
produced by me & AC Eaton

lyrics:
Always feel like there's somebody watching
All these eyes and attention
Seeing the fiends yeah they're crawling
Think I might just let 'em live

3:45 and I think I'm off a bean
Trips to New York, me and Ash outside the street
5 missed calls and like 3 texts
Said you needed more space, man it depends

Claiming that I work too hard, but I barely started
You were half the reason on why both of us departed
Saying that "I need you" but you never put your part in

But how you loving with no heart?
Saying you're the smartest
Saw you coming back when I just got a song that charted
Paparazzi taking pictures of me at the market

But I can't deal with all the fakeness
You just saw me as a payment
All the time that you just wasted

You just see me now I'm famous
Couple songs inside your playlist
Now it sucks to see I made it

Never thought that you would fake it
All the things you got me facing
Can you stop with all the chasing?

Claiming that I work too hard, but I barely started
You were half the reason on why both of us departed
Saying that "I need you" but you never put your part in

But how you loving with no heart?
Saying you're the smartest
Saw you coming back when I just got a song that charted
Paparazzi taking pictures of me at the market

Was it really all my fault
For giving you a chance?
I know you're happy
But it isn't me that's your new man

You say you miss it, so why you're trying to run?
I don't get it
It's safe to say I've had enough

I've had enough
I've had enough
I've had enough
I've had enough

I've had enough
I've had enough
I've had enough
I've had enough

But I can't deal with all the, fakeness
And you just saw me as a, payment

You're saying that I work too hard
Well honey you barely just work at all
That's why we couldn't work it off

memory lain

fakeness

OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS
produced by me

lyrics:
And you know me
You see how scared I get when I get lonely
Yet tears run down my face when you still hold me
Man what I'd do to just bring back the old me (yeah the old me)

I feel I'm at my end
I never felt more hate from ones who claim to be my friend
But every night you prayed I found my way back home again
So when do I decide that I don't need to play pretend?
I don't mean to condescend

When we break
And when I move out father
I wish I could be stronger
But I can't lose you mama

'Cause I need you
I need you
Of course I still need you
I'm too scared to live without you

It's been a few months since we've all been okay and
I can't dessert you both when I get famous
'Cause Lord knows I've tried
Just know that I'll be home tonight (just know that I'll be home)

Mistakes I know I could've jumped
Did things that I shouldn't of
Someone that you couldn't trust

Tell me am I good enough?
Am I really good enough?
After everything you still think that I'm good enough? (good enough)

Since I'm a beholder
My presence been fading
Not happy I'm older
The fact is I hate that I'm gone

So now I just speak through my songs

We both got scars
And we need time
So all I ask from you is one more try
Just one more try

All I ask from you is one more (try)

But when we break
And when I move out father
I wish I could be stronger
But I can't lose you mama

'Cause I need you
I need you
Of course I still need you
I'm too scared to live without you

'Cause I need you
I need you
Of course I still need you
I'm too scared to live without you

the old me

OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS
produced by me

lyrics:
(That’s all the scripted stuff)

3:35 in the morning
I take a step outside just to see that it’s pouring
I reach for my bag, and leave dad a note saying, “I won’t be long”

I lost some friends
I lost some family
And now it’s my mind
I’m losing my sanity

Give me some time, and I’ll lose the man in me
I don’t feel alive

I’m running, running, running
I’m tired of loving, loving, loving
It hurts everyone and, one and, one and I had enough

I’m running, running, running
I’m tired of loving, loving, loving
It hurts everyone and, one and, one and I had enough

I don’t want to be alone
I don’t want to be a mistake but
Every time somebody goes, all it does is make my heart ache and
All I really want to know, did I leave you with a headache ‘cause now you made me want to die

I don’t want to be alone
I don’t want to be a mistake but
Every time somebody goes, all it does is make my heart ache and
All I really want to know, did I leave you with a headache ‘cause now you made me want to die

I don’t want to be alone
I don’t want to be alone
I don’t want to be alone I swear
I don’t want to be alone
I don’t want to be alone
I don’t want to be alone I said
I don’t want to be alone

I don’t want to be alone
I don’t want to be alone
I don’t want to be alone I swear
I don’t want to be alone
I don’t want to be alone
I don’t want to be alone I said
I don’t want to be alone

(I just lost my mind!)

i just lost my mind

OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS
produced by neverforever & me

lyrics:
How can I be worth it
When we both know I’m not perfect?
My brain just keeps on turning
Will I be alright?

I guess I do deserve it
I left on your last birthday
Mistakes I never learn them
‘Cause my hands were tied (‘cause my hands were tied)

It was all bad timing
Suffering in silence to save you
Didn’t know what I could do

There’s no silver lining
Melancholy crying out to you
Got nothing left to lose, yeah

Hats off, do your trick
Didn’t think you’d run away this quick
I don’t want to be your new best friend
‘Cause heartbreak stories have no end, yeah

Hats off, do your trick
Didn’t think you’d run away this quick
I don’t want to be your new best friend
‘Cause heartbreak stories have no end, yeah

It was all bad timing
Suffering in silence
There’s no silver lining
Out to you, got nothing left to lose

memory alin

heartbreak stories (bad timing)

OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS
produced by me

lyrics:
Was it because I didn't try enough?
Or was it all because I cried too much?
The rosy tint ain't high enough, you didn't hide your bluff
You kept it straight

And Em babe I'm sorry
For treating you harshly
Don't say you want me
Just tell me you love me

I'm nothing
And you made me something
See what I'm becoming
Heart gets to jumping

You, I don't want to live in doubt
I don't want to lose you now
I just want to be around
I just want to see my spouse

I just want to be in your house
I just want to see your couch
I just want to be around
Be around

I just want to stand by you
I just want to stand by you
I just want to stand by you
I just want to stand by you, by you

(yeah, older, 1, 2 3)

As the days go by yeah my mind's getting older
Heart's getting colder I'm pissed
And I watched you leave me all alone
You said, "it's time, I take you home"

God!

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna
I want to stand by you
I just want to stand by you

More than anything
Hear me when I sing it's the truth
I just want to stand by you

(I just want to stand by you)
(I just want to stand by you)

I just want to stand by you

stand by you

prod. alisynn + vaeo
mix and master by KBL + anem0s

I love you more than anybody on this goddamn earth 
Know you got so many options 
I don’t wanna be that toxic, but could you come home tonight
Why do I feel this shake in my lungs
I’m exhausted
Gimmie that 15 minutes
How did I fuck on ur bitch
I did it

Bitch im the one
Why you never wanna make time for me
Stuck to my guns
All i ever wanted was honesty
Bite all on my face, baby
Don’t do me that way
You know I love you
No offense
I liked fucking you more as a friend
Out my body
Don’t care where it ends
This shit killing me slow and I love it
I been a petty bitch since you met me, you know i’m not above it
Yeah I got six days till I-
Six days till I say fuck it and vanish
I can’t make no time for that
Say you love me, I’m sorry i dipped off
I just fucked on your friend cuz you pissed me off
only been 3 days, had to cut you off
I got a whole lot of drugs in this room if i take all this shit you won’t see me again 

I can’t move slow
She a bad bitch, I know

I love you more than anybody on this goddamn earth 
Know you got so many options 
I don’t wanna be that toxic, but could you come home tonight
Why do I feel this shake in my lungs
I’m exhausted
Gimmie that 15 minutes
How did I fuck on ur bitch
I did it

love actually ft vaeo

prod. quip

bass by @notdiscxrdia

pass out for your own entertainment 
freaked out on my own i'll explain it
watered down 
don't you slip through my fingertips 
started a sentence but you didn't let me 
finish it 

pass away 
i been stuck in my head since 
yesterday 
you know just what to say 
no panicking 
cuz the pathway is clear now 


i wouldn't pass you up
before i passed away 
ain't seen the light behind those eyes
in the longest time 
we've been apart don't know what to do
you are the one that i cannot lose 

oh i wont budge 
we running out of time now
i dont wanna figure this shit out alone
know you want your freedom that don't sound like home 
you said to me with a grin on your face 


(be the big man)
why do i seem at fault 
(be the big man)
why am i sinking down
like it's quicksand 

(be the big man) 
never gonna live that down
(be the big man) 
i cannot make it out 
like it quicksand 
the struggle makes it worse
oh, wow like it's quick sand 
like it quicksand 

outro

baby just ask what you want from me
i'll do my best 
speak with you chest 
do it confidently 

i'm in attached 
my body's there and im floating free
i cant see forest from trees
i can't swim back if its deep 
just tell me what to do 

on a mission am i 
counting my issues 
giving up 
the numbers getting too high 

you got a way 
you got a way with words 
the way that you talk 
i'm wide awake 
baby you pacing me 
love what i see

quicksand

prod by: @xenura
co-prod: JesseMelancholy
mixed by: JesseMelancholy
written by: Jesse James Pontt
mastered by: @xenura

watch the music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XMXnfGITODg

Lyrics👇🏼

i can’t be there for you, i’m not even there for myself
i can’t be there for you, i’m not even there for myself

i miss my internet friends, i’m doing my best to pass all the time
until the day i see your face left behind (oh-woah)
i want to spread my wings, you cut them off my body
hearing you speak is really just a hobby
and i can quit that at any given point in time

i can’t be there for you, i’m not even there for myself
(god knows i wish you well, ooh)
i can’t be there for you, i’m not even there for myself
(i don’t wanna ooh-ooh-ooh)
i can’t be there for you, when i’m not there for myself
i already said that i can’t be there for you, if i’m not there for myself

i’m glad that we spoke but truly you make me bored
i’m far from the joke, the one that you’ll play me for
and i want to know, what am i waiting for?
cover up my skin so you won’t hate me more

(i can’t be there for you)
when i’m not there for me (ah)
hate my worn out skin and my grin and my fucked up teeth
(ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh)
yeah, i don’t know what to wear and the time is getting scary now
leave my house again, it’ll probably wear me down
joke of the high-school, everybody’s laughing
sorry i despise you, where is my compassion?

(everything i say - i can’t be there for you)
(everything i do - ooh-ooh-ooh)

i don’t want to be a girl, i don’t want to be a boy
i don’t want to be myself, i just want to be the noise
i don’t want to be a girl, i don’t want to be a boy
i don’t want to be myself, i just want to be the noise
i don’t want to be a girl, i don’t want to be a boy
i don’t want to be myself, i just want to be the noise
i don’t want to be a girl, i don’t want to be a boy
i don’t want to be myself, i just-i just-i just

(ooh) and you put me in a box (oh)
but you’ll never keep it locked (oh)
see my city getting scared ‘cause my shit fucking knocks
and you were never there go and kick fucking rocks
(uh-huh) i just want to be myself, wish i knew who that was
change the pigment of my hair, do it again in a couple months
and you just want me there but i can’t be there for you, no
(i can’t be there for you)
(uh) miss me with that 9 to 5, my ceiling has come alive
you wish we were fortified, i think there is more to life
i just want to sleep but everybody’s watching
want to spread my wings, you cut them off my body

(oh)
(oh)
(oh)
(oh)

shaking and i’m scared, i feel it in my lungs, i’ll take a deep breath in
and play that i don’t care but fuck me, am i dumb? because i always did
i want my tongue unbitten and i really want to speak it
i want to say “it’s fine” i want to really mean it
i want all of the flaws on my body deleted
i want to draw a line, i want your eyes to see it
i want to make friends with all the streetlights
ginger in my tea, half the screen time
do i want to change, or do i want to hide?
do i need the space, or did i tell a lie?
petrified of compliancy and the complacency
won’t put your blind eyes on something you weren’t made to see
and that’s okay with me
yeah, that’s okay with me

(everything i say, everything i do, everything i say, everything i do)

linktr.ee/JesseMelancholy

wings

unmastered
produced by me
exclusive for soundcloud

lyrics:

you so pretty with the lights on you
its a shame that you need no one
take a photo it'll last longer
just make sure i'm in this one

what's the, what's the hotline again?
cupid did a drive-by and shot at my chest
it ain't love if there's a means to an end
god i hate you so much

so much
so, so much
so much
god i hate you so-

god i hate you so-
god i hate you so-
(scream)
god i hate you so much

yeah, why you keeping up with me?
thought you said you couldn't make time for the week
think i ran out of apologies inside of me
all this playing hard-to-get it's getting hard to breathe

i been pushing on my own and i don't need your help
said you learn from your mistakes how 'bout you go to hell
i ain't running back to basics
its middle fingers to the clique that you came with

cause' i, cause' i hate you so much
so much
so, so much
so much

god i hate you so-

god i hate you so-
god i hate you so-
(scream)
god i hate you so much

ihysm (me)

naive w/yona

saw u hit the u turn baby 
guess its all in my own head
saw u hit the u turn baby
guess its all in my own head

2 fuckin crazy for my own damn good 
no I can’t let u go, even tho I should
mama so disappointed,gave me same old looks
we got hella dif views, from the same damn book
hold on

God damn it’s all fault, fault again 
God damn I just want it all, all to end 

wats wrong, has it been too long?
guess what bae I’m not that gone ik 
what would you do if I made that call today
wats wrong, has it been too long?
messed up when I made that song
what did I do to make my soul fade away 


remember when I told you it would be okay
remember when I didn’t want to share my space
but u took advantage of bandages set that day
and u manage to vanish from my life okay 
let me go back in time when it was easier
only when I needed her 
now my whole face is in the dirt 
am I makin it worse
Am I  makin it 

wats wrong, has it been too long?
guess what bae I’m not that gone ik 
what would you do if I made that call today
wats wrong, has it been too long?
messed up when I made that song
what did I do to make my soul fade away 

drowning 
up in my blood 
I was jus never the one
to make the better decision 
no matter what I do 
why do I want you around 
why do I keep falling down 
ik I sound crazy 
I sound crazy

uturn

Wir hoffen und glauben. Das treibt uns an und hilft uns weiter zu machen und nicht aufzugeben.

fakeness

tansea

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