Acts Of God

Immoral Stain

(how to live) AS GHOSTS

Lucky You

Deconstructed

Halos (Alternate Take)

SC\SSRS

No One Else To Blame

Crowd Control

This was another song I wrote during those same emotionally turbulent high school years in the mid-1980s. If "Breakin' My Heart" was about the immediate shock of betrayal, "Shattered Illusions" dug deeper into the aftermath - that hollow feeling when you realize everything you believed about someone was built on lies.

The opening line "Midnight shadows, a phone that won't ring" perfectly captured those sleepless nights, waiting for someone who was never going to call. I remember writing that verse thinking about how naive I'd been, how I'd "built castles on empty words." The metaphor felt so real to me then - all those promises and dreams just crumbling down.

What I'm proud of in this song is the pre-chorus structure. Adding that extra emotional build before hitting the chorus made the impact stronger. "Shattering my world" felt like the perfect phrase to describe how completely someone could destroy your sense of reality when you're seventeen and think you know everything about love.

The bridge represents growth - moving from victim to survivor. "I'm done with your lies, done with the pain" shows that progression from hurt to empowerment that I was learning to navigate as a teenager. The outro ties it all together with "Your love was fiction, but I'll rise from this fall" - probably the most mature line I wrote at that age.

Like my other lyrics from that time, this sat dormant for decades until AI technology gave me the opportunity to finally hear these words with music. There's something magical about bringing teenage angst full circle with today's creative tools. The song now has that dramatic, emotional sound that matches the intensity I felt when I first wrote these words.

Shattered Illusions

Credit for the lyrics goes to Izumi is dead, check out his music.

He is clumped to me
The voices give nothing

Losing myself for you was my one mistake
Delusions dragging me down, can't bury my fate
Leaving everything behind
You'll never see my face again

This is the fucking end

Take my hand and run away, we'll end our lives tonight
Death in each others arms, it sounds like bliss by your side
When I'm with you, everything hurts so much fucking more (So much fucking more)
As our blood drips down on us, we fade to nothingness

I love when you enjoy my pain
Fucking slash my wrists for you, baby
Bleeding out, it's beautiful
That you don't care about me at all
Don't change for me now darling
My disease is my love for you
No drugs could help me get through

Take my hand and run away, we'll end our lives tonight
Death in each others arms, it sounds like bliss by your side
When I'm with you, everything hurts so much fucking more (So much fucking more)
As our blood drips down on us, we fade to nothingness

Dying 4 ur luv (Cover)

The message of the song is about the power of neuroplasticity and personal transformation. It conveys the idea that individuals can overcome past traumas and ingrained habits by consciously rewiring their minds, breaking free from old patterns, and creating new pathways for growth and resilience. The lyrics emphasize taking control of one's mental landscape, using willpower and awareness to reshape identity and triumph over inner struggles.

No One Else To Blame

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