aaaaaaaa sooooo gooooooooOOOOOOOoooOoOoodddd

prod. @t0rr

Stars look down on the river it's like deep sea
It goes silent listening for color can you hear me
And the screens always somehow find just what's in my soul
But the static fear always haunting makes my breath go

Hush, hush, hush, hush
It's terrifying

Break right into my soul and start the closure
I'm an optimist when you don't know my emotions
Sucked right outta my heart, they're like it won't hurt
And the nightmares sing to the stars "are you still nervous?"
Break right into my soul and start the closure
I'm an optimist when you don't know my emotions
Sucked right outta my heart, they're like it won't hurt
And the nightmares sing to the stars "are you still-"

You never know why you cry
Reasons like a lullaby to you
And I'll stand there, is this all it for me?
It's never nightmares, why am I scared of dreams?
And the sun might set much closer, my attitude is tilted over
What I don't know about this whole earth it just haunts my every moment

And you can sleep


Sun might set much closer, my attitude is tilted over
What I don't know about this whole earth it just haunts my every moment
Sun might set much closer, my attitude is tilted over
(It's always static, a child manic)
What I don't know about this whole earth it just haunts my every moment
(It's always rancid, you wake me up and)

Nervous (Prod. torr)

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~lyrics~

we cut too close yeah yeah
i was happy with dim lights and baggy clothes
i feel my skin about to decompose
i just wanna dance
but you wanna hold my hand
you’ve been giving me a bloody nose
wasn’t in my plans to fall so deep on my cold feet yeah

take it or just leave me yeah yeah
but your naked eye can’t see me
got me looking 8-bit on your tv screen oh
goddamn, goddamn
baby i don’t wanna seem so fucking stupid
and you don’t wanna feel my flaws and my mood shifts
tryna make a deal we can’t undo it no no
goddamn, goddamn

and you can tell your friends that you forgot i existed yeah
and we can hide our heads i feel so close at a distance
lips taste like lemonade
pheromones you emanate
freaked out on the second date
neptune in retrograde
go ghost in a getaway
95 on the 78
the feelings never went away, went away no

take it or just leave me yeah yeah
but your naked eye can’t see me
got me looking 8-bit on your tv screen oh
goddamn, goddamn
take it or just leave me yeah yeah
but your naked eye can’t see me
got me looking 8-bit on your tv screen oh
goddamn, goddamn
baby i don’t wanna seem so fucking stupid
and you don’t wanna feel my flaws and my mood shifts
tryna make a deal we can’t undo it no no
goddamn, goddamn

dammit

never before in my life has it felt exactly like this

featuring:
@t0rr
@saoirsedream
@daywaiter
@bhproducer
@nebita
@wishlane

produced by:
@itstooscar
@wishlane
@atarax-music
@nebita
@daywaiter

peer2peer

stream / download

self-esteem

@gabbystart
+ additional production from @brakence

Loansharks aka Spoiled little brat II: Dying in the Northern Hemisphere Somewhere (ft. gabby start)

our characters one and only death of self 

(how will they survive this one?!)

feat. @t0rr

additional vocals from @wishlane

My Last Ego Death (feat. torr)

The fractal song: love sex death & time travel 

circa April 2021

with artwork shot on location nearby Dickinson, North Dakota

the fractal song

stream

The fractal song

covered some of my favorite songs <3

co-prod. wishlane & soutjay

songs covered:
burbank house - tsubi club
endlessly - bixby
heck - underscores
morris island - soupandreas
rosier/punk2 - brakence
sydney - gabby start
santa monica - aries
peace sounds - james ivy

thank you for the inspiration

songs that keep me sane

road trip log 1: the start of big mouth's downward spiral, i think... :/

@wishlane

doom signal

doom signal w/ wishlane

sleeping by the lake on the shore, i got my sheets on the floor
spiral down, cursed to explore what i just couldn't ignore
yea you've got some shit you won't show, i've got a bit of my own
i hate the way you broke down the door, as if i wasn't alone

and something bout the way that you touch my shoulder makes my blood cold
i wouldn't have admitted i hate myself until we got close

late night, bad dream
what a fuss, whats it mean
i'm in every scene, don't wanna talk about it
call me, every day
spit it out, run away
i can't replace what you've been lost without yeah
i'm a paper stevia packet
you're cocaine wrapped in plastic
who wants another line?
don't you think that it was so tragic
remembering the things that we laughed at
or did you wanna cry?

something bout the way that you hold my gaze is like a knife fight
like every single word is a firework caught in a bush fire
something bout the way that you touch my shoulder makes it alright
lower my defense and you stab my back like you're a vampire

vampire

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lights
they flash
the city’s rushing by
down town
the past
it doesn’t matter now
what is this place
i can’t say i’ve been here in a while

so what do you say
should’ve we just stayed in
the night is a dark place
you knew from the beginning
but it’s calling your name
you feel it in your skin
tell me what you’re thinking

(so she said)

shut down, every time i see you wanna
disco disco
dumb luck, we were always meant to hit the
disco disco, disco disco (dance dance)

late
we’re in the car
you check your phone
no text
it’s you and me
we’ll go alone

what’s next
you’re asking me,
“how did we get here again?”

so i said this is what you wanted
we’ve already started
if we never left we’d still be dancing on your carpet
why don’t you just let go
tomorrow we can forget

because you got me

shut down, every time i see you wanna
disco disco
dumb luck, we were always meant to hit the
disco disco, disco disco (dance dance)

disco disco

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