Self-Portrait (Alternate Mix)

All of these dreams about dying 
and who are you trying to impress?
When the devil comes 
The devil comes
And you think you know the rest

I keep staying up all night long 
Just to dream of you
But my mind gets spoiled
And I think of songs
And none of them are ever about you

The dead man walking is in plain view
Just as you or me
There's the sun, sun don't go
Don't you remember lil ol me?

Confused, confess, we're all a mess
We don't know our hands from our feet
But dream or this infinite bliss 
my cold heart will never retreat

Yea I'm a useless
Useless wonder
It's a wonder I'm even here at all

Useless Wonder!

Jaydes uploaded this on instagram he deleted it shortly after posting it

Mandy-murder porn (snippet)

Gary Hayward and Jigs Tripping collab with a great song for Models on a catwalk or just beautiful people as its in the eyes of the beholder,so everything and everyone can be breathless,Jigs Tripping Belgium Music sent to Australia Gary Hayward Lyrics and vocals recorded at Ramrod studios mixed and mastered by Herman Kovacs

Breathless #2 remix © Copyright  jigs tripping music and Gary Hayward lyrics and vocals

why can't we live forever instead prod @six-days-after-christmas

stop reminding me im human

prod @bowsa_music
candyflipping once a month when the suns down
got a couple plays but i cant make my mom proud
maybe moms proud i cant tell cuz the self doubt
tried to hit her up but i can’t when im strung out
maybe ill be fine hit her up in the morning
morning never comes i was thinking bout touring
i cant sober up cuz my mind would be boring
know i talk  a lot but maybe you should support me
why do all my friends always choose to ignore me
calling every day but no one ever gets it
say i wanna die but im already finished
why i wake up i dont what else to do
its like nothing ever matters and i wanna text you
and i wanna feel you but i cant through a phone, its like usually
the distance makes me feel much more alone and i wish that i could walk myself
from here right to your home
and i wish i had the money just to fly you to my shows but im too broke

its like usually the distance makes me feel much more alone

pony

bipolar

Club Soda

Pure as water
But my head's still spinning
Can't explain it
When you're winning me over
Moving closer
Through the crowded spaces
Heart beats faster
As the bass erases doubt

Perfectly pure tonight
Dancing in clear light
Something's taking flight
Without a single sip, I'm

Crystal clear but I'm dizzy
Can't think straight when you're with me
Crystal clear but I'm dizzy
Dancing clean, you're my remedy

Fizzing feelings
Rising up inside me
Truth revealing
What I tried to hide here
Sharp perception
Through the hazy motion
Sweet deception
As we both stay sober

Perfectly pure tonight
Dancing in clear light
Something's taking flight
Without a single sip, I'm

Crystal clear but I'm dizzy
Can't think straight when you're with me
Crystal clear but I'm dizzy
Dancing clean, you're my remedy

Clean clean clean but spinning
Raw raw raw and winning
Pure pure pure precision
Lost lost lost in vision

Crystal clear but I'm dizzy
Can't think straight when you're with me
Crystal clear but I'm dizzy
Dancing clean, you're my remedy

Pristine pleasure coursing through
Perfect moments shared with you
Sparkling senses, crystal nights
Pure intoxicating light

Crystal clear but I'm dizzy
Can't think straight when you're with me
Crystal clear but I'm dizzy
Dancing clean, you're my remedy

Club Soda (ft. Linda)

Pois

What can I do?

All Music By Me

Green Jello and Animal Control  written by Me and HBIC... Everything else written by just Me

Special Thanks to HBIC, Whitney Porter, Toxic Bros., John Moreland, Joe Marion, Jerk Mama 

Art by kiberstalker (PixaBay)

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