spread along the wall + casual affairs

waste (Prod. Frevel)

Lotus killed it , check out his music <3
https://m.soundcloud.com/lilxlotus/sets

'We may never meet again , but we'll never forget eachother' 

Artwork by @Evanxflow
Mixed and mastered by Ronnie Scocozza

@yungscuffonline - Getting Worse ft. Lil Lotus (Prod. Zippy)

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_OaDzIt_QP8

prod. 1080p dreams

lyrics:

slit my wrists and smash my phone
don't want anyone to text me 
let me suffer on my own
I'll board up the doors of my home
turn the basement to a boneyard
like the Paris catacombs

I keep on staying hidden like a stowaway
I think my life was probably the most useless thing I've thrown away
once aspired to make music that left people blown away
now I'm dropping all these mediocre tracks that no one plays
and everybody's throwing shade
wondering if anyone will miss me when I go away
my demise came through with no delay
you live like there's no tomorrow, I'll die like there's no today

slit my wrists and smash my phone
don't want anyone to text me 
let me suffer on my own
I'll board up the doors of my home
turn the basement to a boneyard
like the Paris catacombs

embarrassed by the self-destructive shit that I've indulged in
when I say I'm cutting, it's not coming after bulking
posted up in my room where you'll find me sulking 
home alone making trap shit like a young Macaulay Culkin
it's been forever since I lost my way
somebody tell all these British people that I'm not okay 
every single good thing that I ever had got tossed away
they said one day things would be better, I guess it's not today

all these haunting thoughts that slither through my mind
leave me feeling broken and send shivers down my spine
and if I think back, I can remember a time
when I felt semi-hopeful but now I'm left for dead with no more lifelines

slit my wrists and smash my phone
don't want anyone to call me
let me suffer all alone
I'll board up the doors of my home
turn the basement to a boneyard
like the Paris catacombs

Stream on Spotify

smash my phone (visuals in description)

(LYRICS)   ft @hammy     prod. @droozzzy
ask why im down guess im used to it
walk around the mall wearing raf simons
i wont stay here forever thats sad
scared to show my face yeah
i should wear a mask
live in isolation that shit is gonna kill me
looking like a ghost when im walking through the building
i can see myself yea im hanging from the ceiling
laying on the floor and the walls r moving closer

writing these songs just to get it out
i can see my own life and its fading now

      
I can see my own life and it's fading
I can see my own life and it's

life keeps fading 
mind is always racing
out in public 
hide my face 
like im Jason 
got the razor on me
if you hating
got my team around me
we just hanging

we just posted 
smoking potent
my hands are shaking 
I hope she doesn't notice 
I hate my mindset
it's hard to focus
when everything fucking seems so hopeless 

I don't want friends
I just want the end
I just wanna rest 
spend the day in bed 
I'll lay here till I'm dead
can't get out my head 
It's cause I'm trapped inside
It's such a lonely night

I live a lonely life
half the fucking time 
I don't feel alive
I know it's not alright
but I don't have the drive
to do anything
motivation inside 
keeps withering


ask why im down guess im used to it
walk around the mall wearing raf simons
i wont stay here forever thats sad
scared to show my face yeah
i should wear a mask
live in isolation that shit is gonna kill me
looking like a ghost when im walking through the building
i can see myself yea im hanging from the ceiling

SPOTIFY

used to it +hamilton (prod. droozy)

Stream on Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FnEGJgMClQs
Vocals by @supachefm & @ihateshinigami

Stream

neon freestyle w/ shinigami (prod. ripsquad)

hol up. gotta post a guitar track real quick

am i still worthless? (prod. Hkfiftyone)

featuring @hammy

Produced by me

hammy:
i wanna tell you how i feel i jus can't get the words out
every time i speak its just another let down
living in a world where no one understands me
wake up in the morning damn i feel so empty

no one hits my phone cause they not fw me 
im over this shit yeah im going back to sleep
get out of my head id rather fucking rest in peace
buried in the ground like im buried in these sheets
i had love for you but now theres static in between 
you got my head fucked up i see you in my dreams
youre everywhere i go 
im frozen and alone
stay stagnant in my home cause im better on my own i feel like a ghost when i dissapear and smoke
i don't need no rope
silver chains around my throat
german crystals round my waist
evil thoughts get in my way
like every single day
this constant fucking pain

gg:
i feel so empty
i feel so broken 
i feel so hopeless
i can't control this
i feel like scarface 
bitch im reloaded
homes where the heart is
fuck it im homeless
i wanna tell you how i feel 
tell me if its real
cause i can't deal with my mind no
she gone pop another seal 
do it for the thrill
tell me baby are you down to die hoe
blood on the sheets in my bedroom 
she said boy if you crash imma crash too
hate it when i wake up in a bad mood
girl im faded n it aint even passed 2

hammy:
pacing back n forth i know somethings wrong w me
i can't go to sleep memories keep haunting me
burn me into ash throw me in the fucking sea
down 100 feet where no one can bother me

gg:
i think i lost it paralyzed i can't feel shit
im moving cautious i know that there are leaches 
im nearly off it my life slowly decreasing
i wake up in the morning barely feeling like breathing

hammy:
pass out in the morning
waking up in the evening 
open up my eyes 
i wish i was still dreaming
every single day
still im searching for reason
leave me on the floor bones crushed back bleeding

gg:
leave me on the floor 
leave me feening for more of you
my minds at war hit the dope then i thought of you
knife up in my drawer thats the same one in my spine
and they love that im dead i just wanted to feel alive

LETDOWN FT. HAMMY

lil peep - walk away as the door slams (cover w/ seejayxo)

finger on the trigger of a loaded gun

lyrics:

and i remember last year
that was such a sad year 
feeling like a burden
my soul steady hurting 
tell me what you want now
cause it's getting hard to go on 

and i can't get these thoughts out my head (aye, aye)
and i can't even leave my own bed (aye, aye)
like whatchu even want me to say?
i've been feeling dead for too long
someone get the sand man
i just wanna sleep sound 
i don't wanna be round no more, no more

i'm so sick of it
lately i'm not into it
tryna be more intimate
i don't wanna talk if you're not gonna listen yet

and i remember last year
that was such a sad year 
feeling like a burden
my soul steady hurting 
tell me what you want now
cause it's getting hard to go on 

and i can never tell what you want
baby you can cry in my arms
i swear imma do you no harm
cause you're everything i want 

and i remember last year
that was such a sad year 
feeling like a burden
my soul steady hurting 
tell me what you want now
cause it's getting hard to go on

sad year (prod. taylor morgan & scotty splash)

All inquiries about features, beats, mixing or mastering contact midnightintokyo94@gmail.com

waste (Prod. Frevel)

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