Бремя памяти слишком тяжелое, чтобы с ней справиться. Все, что мне дорого, было изменено, испорчено, исчезло или умерло со временем и теперь существует только в моем сознании. Я живу, чтобы перенести эти отголоски внутри меня в будущее. Назовите это ностальгией, но в глубине души я знаю, что это должно быть нечто большее.

@animav2
it’s so strange how nothings really changed 
my life is the same as it’s always been, even in your absence 
and i hate that 
i want every meal i eat without you to be flavorless 
i want every sunset i see without you to be dull 
i want my life without you to be empty 
but it’s not 
the sky is just as blue 
the food is just as good 
and i’m more or less the same, even without you 
i wish i had proof that you were more then just a guest in my life 
that you were more then just something in transit 
because i really thought my meals could only be good if i shared them with you 
i really thought i could only do laundry with your dirty clothes in the basket 
and i really thought everything could only have meaning if you were apart of it 
but i guess my life didn’t revolve around yours the way i believed it did 
you were never the color,
you were never the flavor, 
and you were never the meaning 
still, i wish you could’ve been 
i wish life really was something more with you in it 
i wish you weren’t just passing through 
and i think a little part of me will always miss the days when i thought you were everything 
but even that part is so small it doesn’t really change things at all 
and this life still goes on just the same

Followers of narc6tic_ (soviet angel).