(2023) this was her fav song of mine - rip rzl i loved you sm

texture sourcer (dirge)

2004

[Verse]
Phoebe, my heart you'd know
I'm not someone like you
I'd miss you but this world 
Is not your own 

Phoebe, Don't hold my hand
You're gonna hurt yourself 
I know you believe it's true
It's nothing new

I believed it too

[Verse 2]
Phoebe, I'll let you know
I can't tell you but you need to know
I'm an ant and I've got antlers 
And I can't speak 

Phoebe, You're not for me
You know You should be free
Sooner or later
You'll crush me
Beneath your feet

Even if you don't want to 
That's my purpose 
And don't you dare tell me
To live another day
I know you understand
But please, leave while you can
For your sake

[Outro]

I want to you bloom

(I know you can leave)

ant reads poetry

hello, hope whoever's reading this is doing well. i want to apologise for disappearing completely on lots of people. had a bit of a rough spot and just left things for way too long. it was very unfair of me and not at all my intention, i'm sorry. the longer things went the harder it was to confront. up and down quite a bit mentally still but trying to work on getting better

as for music, i have lots i want to share. i will probably upload quite a lot over a few days. will probably vary a lot both in quality and content and everything else so i apologise for that in advance. lots of stuff unfinished that will likely stay that way. thank u for being here (if anyone is reading this)

hi (note)

mae