Originals

in general people talk about not wanting to lose somebody you love because no matter what you feel like you're better with them but you really never think what the person is feeling like you feel or not. but this song "without me by your side" is opposite of the things I said above.
it's about letting somebody go or like wanting them to leave cause you don't feel like he/she is happy with you




without me by your side (voice note)

Fighting my own reflection and drowning in regret. This song is for all the times I wondered if I’d ever be enough for someone, if they could really see me. It’s about love, pain, and the hope to be loved for who you truly are...

Lyrics: 
[verse 1 ]
I see my own reflection and hate the way I am
I cry like a river and live my life in vain
There's so much to learn from the pain
And wet my bloodied hands in the rain

i try to remember all the candles we lit
I choke myself when I feel I'm losing it
there's so much to decide with the script
and console every possible rift

[chorus]
Will I ever be good for you?
I always thought that you knew me too
Will I ever be the one for you?
Will I ever be the one for you?
I thought you saw the real me through and through.
will i be ever be enough for you?

[verse 2]
I walk through the water and drown in your voice
Sit across the lake and think of your rejoice
There's truth in the tears that I can't avoid
And stone breaks when you treat love like a toy

i breathe ur air and hate the way i loved
stand under the stars that i once adored
dreams go down the drain and vanish with rain
and the words cuts through a sharp edge pain

[bridge]
i wanna promise you but i am bad with luck
we are free but an injured birds
i want to remake my life
even on my broken bones
and just to be enough for you
If you can see the real me through.

[chorus]
Will I ever be good for you?
I always thought that you knew me too
Will I ever be the one for you?
Will I ever be the one for you?
I thought you saw the real me through and through.

enough for you (voice note)

This song is incredibly personal to me, not because the events directly happened to me, but because it's about a really important person in my life who is no longer there for me. It's about a situationship that lasted seven years but ultimately didn’t work out.

lyrics:

[verse 1] 
We never interacted like normal people, 
But we talked through our eyes. 
We never searched for each other
'Cause every time we got too close, 
I pretended I didn’t know you, 
Even when I knew everything about you. 
Now the memories flicker in the distance, 
And I walk home alone. 

 
[chorus] 
Now the time is over, 
And we’ve gone our own ways. 
But I still search for you in everybody’s face. 
It feels like a short story
But we knew it was long, long ago. 
We were just kids back then, 
But so in love. 

 
[verse 2] 
There’s always someone who reminds me of you. 
I made up a hundred fake scenarios just to talk to you. 
I pretended we were still kids, 
Carved in the hills of dreams we hid. 
Now I walk through similar streets, 
Just to hear echoes of your voice. 

 
[chorus] 
Now the time is over, 
And we’ve gone our own ways. 
But I still search for you in everybody’s face. 
It feels like a short story
But we knew it was long, long ago. 
We were just kids back then, 
But so in love. 
so in love
so in love
so in love

[bridge] 
Now I search for you, and yeah, I miss you
Mostly the little moments we shared. 
Just the way things used to 
Look, I was like midnight rain, 
Never listened to my heart, 
Just followed what others said. 
But forgive me 
I was just a kid, 
I was just a kid,
I was just a kid... 

just kids (voice note)

Hey everyone, from the title of this song, "Something You're Not," you can get a little idea about the song. You could think of it as a scene where the speaker is pointing a finger at their partner and questioning, "Isn't this not who you are?" It's also about the deep attachment the speaker feels for someone they're willing to sacrifice their own comfort for. There's a sense of being rushed and uncertain, yet staying loyal, even though the other person seems distant or dishonest.

lyrics:

[verse 1] 
draw me in the red light 
when the horizons meet 
ill leave my bed before the sun 
Just to watch you breathe 
so just tell me 
how you caught her 
Why this feels so rushed 
Like you’re trying hard to run away 
From something you’re not 

[chorus] 
You can disappear for a while 
And come back 
I’ll still be the same girl 
Waiting for you 
You can kill the mockingbird 
Or was it me you killed again? 
And still I can 
Replay 
For something you’re not 
For something you’re not… 

[Verse 2] 
Take all my pain 
like you took all my happiness 
Make me believe 
I’m something I’m not 
Tear my flesh and bones 
And talk with me through my bone 
Erase the sentimental temptation 
Like you always do 
Why was I fool 
When you buried me under your list of fools 

[chorus] 
You can disappear for a while 
And come back 
I’ll still be the same girl 
Waiting for you 
You can kill the mockingbird 
Or was it me you killed again? 
And still I can 
Replay 
For something you’re not 
For something you’re not… 

something you're not (voice note)

lyrics:

[Verse 1] 
I saw your face not long ago, 
It was delicate as afterglow. 
You couldn't keep up with me, 
As you passed by with your head low. 
I believed in you, 
I believed in us, 
With everything. 
unsaid and undone 
with you 

[chorus] 
You held me 'til you left me. 
All the gossip revolved around me. 
They blamed me when they didn’t know, 
They cared when I didn’t show. 
Guess it was airglow, 
After all. 
Don’t know where I was 'til I was homeless, 
Don’t know why all the poetry and sonnets were worthless, 
All the lovers and their prayers— 
Guess it was airglow, 
After all. 
Wished you were here. 

[verse 2] 
That faint light passed when you were near, 
It disappeared, and I couldn't see it clear. 
I decoded your history, but you never lied. 
Thoughts on you, 
Thoughts on us, 
Why did you disappear?  

[bridge] 
I forgot how to walk. 
Still feels like I am seven years old. 
I forgot to close the door, 
Like a worker trying to help you. 
I forgot to lock the keys, 
Didn't know I was all alone. 
And I wanted you to know 
That I wanted you to come back, 
That I was too wishful 
For some unconvincing reward. 
Feels like I live with your ghost— 
They disappear when you left, 
When you left, 
When you left. 
Guess it was airglow, 
After all. 

airglow (voice note)

lyrics:

[verse 1] 
I missed the orange sky, 
’Cause I was busy finding myself back on the path. 
My mother said it happens, so give it a little time. 

Nobody believes me. 
They only see me as a child. 
When one’s hurt, 
They don’t see if it’s right or wrong. 
And I hold back the grudge, 
’Cause I feel so powerless 
Like my ribs are cracking and my lungs are turning grey. 
And I can feel all the way home 
How much I’ve wanted you. 
And I say I’m laughing; 
I don’t take it seriously. 

[chorus] 
But I am hurting. 
My white knuckles are aching. 
The short distance has become long, 
And my visions are blurry. 
And I am asking for somebody’s help. 
The blood is gushing, the arms are folding, 
And I am sweating nonstop. 
The heart’s racing, 
And I am watching 
Them laughing at me. 

[verse 2] 
Nobody wants the forgiveness. 
Their faith is centered with ego’s split words. 
Nobody cares to be obligated, 
’Cause they're busy chasing wealth. 

Everybody sees me 
Like a damaged kid, 
As if I wanted to be hid 
In the bottle of water, 
In the bottle of juice. 
And they can squeeze it once it’s of no use. 
When they’re hurting, with whom do they go? 
Do they cry like I do, 
Or are their hearts made up of stone? 
I wanna know. 
I wanna know. 

[bridge] 
And I am asking for help. 
I am asking for strength. 
I am asking for the last-minute smile. 
I am asking to roll my eyes, 
Pretending to yawn when I am just about to cry. 
All I am asking is ur forgiveness 
I am asking for strength 
One last time 
One last time  

one last time (voice memo)

Tessa