weirdcore

I hope (it) and (thing) know this is how they made me feel

Sad :(

Like... I dunno. Don't you ever just wish you could.. idk. Die? Or something. Idek. Like you could disappear and nobody could give a fuck. Like... it would be nice but then again... I guess it's not that great to be completely obsolete. Don't you ever wish that you didn't have to go through these struggles and just... tell someone? Like it's not that hard. I think. Having to ask for help shouldn't be that hard but it is. Don;t you ever wish you were a different person. Like maybe if you were someone else you wouldn't have to live in a shitty life where everyone seems to treat you like shit. Where you don't have to seem alone. Where you're not obsolete. Don't you ever wish you didn't have social anxiety or held grudges to a point where you can't even look at the person you hate out of spite? Or that you didn't have to struggle keeping conversations and just be 'normal' so people won't see you as weird or be judgmental? Where you don't have to be scared of every social situation and just avoid people? Don't you wish you ever had a different body? That you didn't have to think you're skinny/fat and you didn't have to be so insecure about your body? Like maybe nobody gives a fuck abt your body and you're being paranoid. Maybe you're living in your head. Don't you ever wish that you could just be 'normal? Or just... not 'wierd' to people? Do you ever wish that you actually seem to have friends? Like people who actually want to talk to you and try to comfort you? Man I can only dream. Not like anyone wants to be with a socially awkward person like me. DO you ever wish that nobody had to bully you? That people didn't gaf abt your and just tried to be nice. DO you ever wish that someone will ever want to talk to you or remember you sometimes. Do you ever wish that you didn't live in a strict Catholic household where something as small as mentioning the LGBTQ makes them mad? Where if you say 'I'm bi' or 'I'm [INSERT SEXUALITY]' people suddenly look at you like you're a freak and that you'll always be nothing but a freak. Don't you ever wish that you weren't a people pleaser. Like... you always put other people in front of you. Their requests, their feelings, their everything. But then when you ask for the smallest things people get mad at you? Don't you ever wish you could try to love yourself the way you sometimes try to love others? Where you don't have to hate yourself to a point where even facing a mirror makes you wanna cry. DO you ever wish that people didn't bully you for fun? Where all of your efforts to being a successful social person have all been nothing but a joke as people laugh at you. Do you ever wish that you weren't suicidal and things were normal. That way, none of your friends would be mean to you, your parents would've loved you, and you could've lived a successful life? If only you could look back and fix the past mistakes just to make them happy. Don't you ever wish that even though you say nothing someone would WANT to talk to you instead of asking questions and questions that mean nothing to you. Do you ever wish that someone would try to comfort you the same way you comforted others? Don't you ever wish that people would respect your boundaries and just... I dunno leave you alone and let the silence envelop me. Don't you ever wish that in order to get rid of these burdens you just... disappear? Stop talking and just... not exist to everyone. Have no reason to continue on and just... stop where you are.

...man I wish...

[TW] Don't ya'll ever wish to just...

I Deserve to Bleed

Body Terror Song

PHANTASM -Jack the stripper

Heart To Heart - Mac Demarco (sped Up Nightcore)

This is a Liminal Space... And don't be mean just enjoy the dread and emptiness of this song

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It's just a Burning Memory - The Caretaker ( Very Slowed )

🎉🎃Queen - Don't Try Suicide SPED UP🎃🎉

The Lobotomy

Heart to heart - mac demarco (instrumental) / Walter Mitty

instupendo - six forty seven (slowed & intro loop)

“Take one you greedy noob”
! cover is not my art/coloring !
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5469 (super speed up)

Produced by randomblackdude
Recorded, mixed, & mastered by Jay Wonder
Artwork by Jay Wonder

2015 Self-Conscious

STREAM ON SPOTIFY, APPLE MUSIC, & MORE HERE: https://ffm.to/thecenterofsolace

COP "THE CENTER OF SOLACE" MERCH HERE: https://selfconsciousthreads.com/

Lyrics:

And if it's like that the whole time
If it's like that the whole time, we'll be alright
I stayed up all night, but it's alright
And if it's like that the whole time, we'll be alright
I stayed up all night, but it's alright
And I done stayed up the whole night, but it's alright

It's me and my nibblin' conscience
Nigga, I'm fixin' to give up
I been alone for the longest
It's trouble the way that we joggin'
Nothin' gon' save us or stop us
Me and my nibblin' conscience
Nigga, I'm fixin' to give up
I been alone for the longest

It's just me and my thoughts wit'
Nobody
I'm trapped in The Matrix, baskin' in fakeness; need to chat wit' some agents
Over wine glasses and steak and grasp an arrangement
I only cypher 'cause I want a way out
But I won't happen to make it
Blasted by a tank; it's war here
And I'm not The One
The forgotten son, so a dark night
I'm Bruce Wayne
Black sheep of The White family
Papa-abandoned
He wasn't there for me
Carelessly parenting, apparently
Man, it's deep
Sanity ran and flee like dog, shit is buggin' me
Ugly, so I hide my face
And hide away where my momma stay
I pray I die today
She wann' kick me out
I wann' find a place
But no means, so I just hibernate
Pack the bags under my eyes; I'm trippin'
Said goodbye to visions
I'm tired of this shit
Goonie bought a new whip
I ain't jealous of his car, but I envy his drive
I'm feelin' heavy inside
I'm unproductive, deterioratin', goin' stir-crazy
Some reluctance, fear, and impatience
First Lady is missin'
Way in the distance
Probably taken; a Mrs.
Or datin' a nigga
Heart vacant; she's smitten
See her face in them pictures
Fuck it, though
And fuck a hoe, if I can't fuck a hoe
Fuckin' hoe
I'm feelin' depressed
I'm feelin' the stress
I'm feelin' the weight
I'm feelin' regret
But it's back to the music
Though there's times when I wanna turn my back to the music
'Cause it's hassle to do it
I get passed and pursue it and stay focused
Even when you think no one see you, some take notice
Self-conscious
Physical and mental health problems
Bloggin', from the center of solace

It's me and my nibblin' conscience...

the center of solace feat. earl sweatshirt

The Way Out

A Cold Freezin' Night

Hold On

"Still Life" 
from the mixtape, Be The One You Love
released on February 24, 2018

OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO: https://youtu.be/dGVt6-zoP6c

Produced by Sitcom
Additional Drum Programming by @MulchAikens
Bass by Matthew Melchionne
Mixed by Jake Lazovick
Mastered by Jeremy Kinney

---
(what can only be found now? 
it can only be only found now
did you find it? do you see it? 
it can only be found now)

as if
as if staring at a gravesite
until I become a grave sight/site
would it make me a still life?

as if 
I knew what i knew 
but i don't
so i do what i do
so i go with the flow
until I'm blue
as if the notion to know shit
could save no one from nothing
as if I make space saved for placelessness
and be pasted into my peaceful bliss
as if I'm displaced
in this place
is it this face?
within this grin?

how bout that
how bout that
I'll walk into the landscape
I won't come back

how bout that
how bout that
I'll walk into away

how bout
how bout
I walk into the distance
until I become the distance
would it make me the distance

how bout
the still life with old shoes holds truth
deep in a blue mood with hues of gold sun views
it's the rear view and the real you
that haunt you
even here too, real soon
I'll walk away into a way of being
be it, I meant to mean it
reaching for meaning
but I'll wake up
I'm still Jacob
with still life
and self-love

how bout that
how bout that
I'll walk into the landscape
I won't come back

how bout that
how bout that
I'll walk into away

how bout that

---
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Be The One You Love

Still Life

The Caretaker - Its just a burning memory (Slowed)

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