Featuring @kaiyko
Produced by @horoshavibes & @splashgvng

LYRICS
I know I fucked up real bad and I can't win you back now
I look straight ahead but I don't see a way out of this
Turns out the vow that we made
Didn't mean anything to you anyway

Now everything just seems meaningless to me
I meant it when I said 'til death so let me rest in peace
I know I fucked up
Blame it on my bad luck
There no more bad blood
It's only love

So when you look back do you do so with tenderness
Or am I just another memory that you repress

(Kaiyko)
I wait for you to come around to say
The things I've already heard before
So tell me what's new
Got a broken heart and nothin left to lose
I know 
You're doin okay
But I am always
Thinkin' of ways to
Get right back to you
But it's too late too late
Gotta get back home to our places
Not sure if I can make it
But I will tell you I would take it all for you
If we could take it all back too
Even if it's all even if it's all for you

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I Meant It When I Said ‘Til Death, so Let Me Rest in Peace w/ Kaiyko (Prod. Horosha & splashgvng)

Revamp of this classic bit from 2016! Play it loud and wobble on <3

City of Syrup

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Oh baby, we get irrational
You kissed my nose and made it wet, just like a healthy dog
Oh baby, there's no diagonal
Give it to me straight
When you went in September, baby, I thought maybe
You wanted something new
Cause I know that well before me, you liked more than one
(Did you reserve this room for three?)

I can think a lot about the wrong idea
And you can think a lot about the wrong idea

I can be crazy, it's just a little side effect
An action can faze me, thank god you're keeping me in check
When I come, then you come, and that's what this is all about
Oh you make it worth to work it out

Don't fret, we just like fucking around
With our friends when they come back into town
Don't fret, we just like fucking around
With our friends, and we all deserve to get down
Baby, you can do whatever you want
I got stars in my eyes and they haven't gone away
And I'm doing okay, thank you for asking
Don't you know it's everlasting?

I can think a lot about the wrong idea
And you can think a lot about the wrong idea

I can be crazy, it's just a little side effect
An action can faze me, thank god you're keeping me in check
When I come, then you come, and that's what this is all about
Oh you make it worth to work it out
I can be crazy, it's just a little side effect
An action can faze me, thank god you're keeping me in check
When I come, then you come, and that's what this is all about
Oh you make it worth to work it out

Yeah, he's pretty cool, but
Do you think I'm better?
Yeah, I'm insecure, but
I'm no bed wetter
Yeah, you're into fucking
Yeah, I'm into feeling
Let's explore our pastimes
Let's adjourn the meeting

Best musician you've never heard of

Oh, baby, I can get irrational
Oh, baby, we can make it laughable
Oh, baby, love ain't interchangeable
Forever in love with you

And everybody wants to see us dance
And everybody wants to, oh, oh,

Yeah, you and I can fuck the world
And that should never even be a problem
You know that in the end, I'll always circle back to you
I'll always circle back to you

WORKITOUT

Black Hole Superette

So Be It (feat. Open Mike Eagle)

Track 5 and title track from cloudy grey's debut EP "Dust in the Wind"

Engineered by yours truly

If you made it this far, I can't thank you enough for listening.  Means everything to me. <3

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Dust in the Wind

prod. @sogimura

lyrics
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do or die
if i don’t do this who am i
face one more get stupid high
save my breath for another life
save that girl for another guy
my soul precious, so alive
we go fast up 45
you drive home off 4 or 5
and truth be told that don’t sit right
and my concerns go through the night
but what you do’s just what you like
so if i talk it’s out of spite

so i backpedal bunny hop it right back on the curb
let her punch out all my teeth i guess that’s just what i deserve
split the edges of my mouth until it’s fixed upon a curve
for the way you treat me lately babe you got a lot of nerve

who are you
who is the person i’m talking to
you outta line and i got a queue
you outta line and i got a queue
hope you save your breath for another dude
and i’m sure he’ll treat you like all is cool
but ghosts all roam in the coldest rooms
and your closets filled with bones and glue
couldn’t fix yourself if you wanted to
but i guess that’s life so fuck the truth
gonna change your mind when the night is through
but you break what loves you, nothing new

so i backpedal bunny hop it right back on the curb
let her punch out all my teeth i guess that’s just what i deserve
split the edges of my mouth until it’s fixed upon a curve
for the way you treat me lately babe you got a lot of nerve

nerve (prod. sogimura)

Produced by @noahmadethiss
Mixing & additional vocals by @horoshavibes
Mastered by @anxietyxattacks

Sike! (Prod. noah thomas)

prod by me : /

sunlight peaks through my blinds
it burns my eyes n makes me want to die 
and you're not here, layin' by my side
and I wish that, things were different now

grab on my hips, then we start, locking lips
caught in a kiss, move my hips, just to sync
bite on my lip, love the mark, that you left 
don't loosen grip, hold it tight, close to death

fucked up in the head and I don't know what to do now
you're telling me that it's been over 
and I just feel like I been locked out
ain't no fuckin way I'm movin on

why the fuck you leavin me when you know that im all alone
got this pain inside my heart, a poison wit no antidote
people saying that they love me but I know they fuckin dont
if they really did, would I even be all alone?

agony, sweet agony, I love it when you're holding me
killin me, you're killin me, my agony, it holds me sweet
agony has been here longer than anyone else ever has
agony, my agony, it won't ever leave me and I'm sure of that

I can feel the cracks inside of my persona breakin
she just tell me that anything she said wasn't fake, yeah
tell me that im special but what of that am i making ?
I can tell that life ain't done so it gon keep on taking

I done walked up on this decision and then it fucked my life
I'm just hopin that I can hold on and make it out alive 
elliot didn't get so lucky like i did.. i threw it
I could never lie about it, I know i misused it

if you think it's worth it putting me away for years, 
I'm not gonna fight it i'll pay off my debt in tears
I hope things go well for you and if they dont im here 
just a stupid dog that won't abandon post that he's near 

tell me that I deserve this, 
if you- said anything- my wrist i'll slit
my blood will drip, my life will end, 
and you'll be it

tell me how.. 
if im feelin down you'd know
promise i will tell you everything i know
until then im in hell

tell me you love me
hate me it wont break me
hold me don't let go of me
don't let go of me

you can give me your hate, it won't change anything for me
I could shake it off like leaves on a car when it's starting 
to accelerate on the speed and then they just fall off
I just wanna see the boys win and they already know that 

you deserve to be happy and I want you to know it
you're the love of my life and I wasn't even knowin 
someone could pick me up and repair me like it's nothin 
I been learning german so I can give the love a language

[[acceptance, self reflection]]

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I made a vow to never lose again

release

prod, me

- lyrics -
so whyd you call me back
this voice ill get attached
but im standing here to prove
im more than you 

but wheres the ground
ill try my best to figoure out this crowd
i wanna run
but i wont go further than whats un-

on my way
running back to a path i pray
deep down im formed to stay
cause i hate this weight on my brain
No. I hate this weight on my brain 

with my heart beating out how can i come correct
theres more underneath on the sutle breath
i've been wishing my death on a single page
these memories werent made to stay
so the point of it all has me holdin still
tattoos of the past when the talks were thrill
been wishing the best for the future told
reflection of myself when my soul was sold

on my way
running back to a path i pray
deep down im formed to stay
cause i hate this weight on my brain
No I hate this wight on my-
run it back
dont wanna hurt you
but ill bite my tougue
to see how you react
hold the virtue
is it guilt that made it form in the light
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lost in an alien psychosis

thanks for listening <3

hyperdystopia/voidpop/alienbass
(see defining factors below ;x)

hyperdystopia: the end of the wold never sounded so good.

voidpop: like crying in the club, but you're floating through space.

alienbass: it knocks. it probes. it's not from here.