111 empty houses; mended hearts

LYRICS
Her hands move like a blackjack dealers on the table 
Shuffle up my heart, I know that she able 
I know that she able 
I can tell the times you get lost in the moment 
Read between your lines know you're mine and that I can hold it
This whole world seems revolting 
You're still my girl let's get going 
Late night hit me up cause I know that I'm a convenience 
Taste like every other time for the same reason 
Fucking manic I've been famished
Of any sort of love but still manage 
Silence is golden then why are your eyes red 
Covers that we were once lovers in 
And I don't think I can start again 
Her hands move like a blackjack dealers on the tables 
Shuffle up  my heart I know that she able
Crisscross bets all night 
My loss if I play this right
Her hands move like a blackjack dealers on the tables 
Shuffle up  my heart I know that she able
Crisscross bets all night 
My loss if I play this right
Late night hit me up cause I know that I'm a convenience 
Taste like every other time for the same reason 
Fucking manic I've been famished
Of any sort of love but still manage 

sewerperson:
Everything worked so different when I chose to abandon
Everything I knew about trust and false damage
But still I think about you sometimes
But I'll manage despite me being horrified
Once I dress the wounds I feel way better
Though nothing I could ever do will bring me last November
That’s the last time I ever give my heart and soul
Now I push away attachment knowing I'm too cold
I know it all comes back to my own faults
But I could not stop them
That shit like the whole problem
So when my lungs fail
And my heart stops
I'm ok with a funeral full of no one

Her hands move like a blackjack dealers on the tables 
Shuffle up  my heart I know that she able
Crisscross bets all night 
My loss if I play this right
Her hands move like a blackjack dealers on the tables 
Shuffle up  my heart I know that she able
Crisscross bets all night 
My loss if I play this right
Late night hit me up cause I know that I'm a convenience 
Taste like every other time for the same reason 
Fucking manic I've been famished
Of any sort of love but still manage 
Silence is golden then why are your eyes red 
Covers that we were once lovers in 
And I don't think I can start again

you're forgettable ft. sewerperson (prodswitch x xmichaelwarren)

prod by me and soundcloud.com/cay2o

shoutout to soundcloud.com/heylog , soundcloud.com/nothomex , and soundcloud.com/lilskeleskrrt for hoppin on this with me they're all goated and rly cool ppl show love to them if u arent already

hope u all enjoy :)

lyrics:

me:
i dont think I can keep on livin like shit
close my eyes, feel the tension 
im stressin bout it 
cause no ones the same, and I cant feel nothin 
im feelin strange, but I cant care cus its nothin 

please dont leave yet, I can see you frown when im bleedin.
please ima be there, anytime u need me ill be close so u can see me 

heylog:
everyday i'm feelin awful
6 feet, horizontal
i recommend u give me space
cause i'm close to hostile
she compliment me on my eyes
said, "i love the way they sparkle"
i'm lookin like some trash
while she's looking like a model
i want you
ur irish changes from green to blue
i love you
but why u gotta leave so soon

not home. :
they told me im too gone 
green packed in a new bong
I told her put her bra on, I wont be here too long 
left your thraxx in a baggy
bad bitch ripped jeans, cincinnati 
im your boy so call me shaggy
at the house now her lips speakin nasty

skele:
go ahead and just leave now
won't be here when i break down
keep cutting me i wont feel it
but i love when you bring the knife out
n babe i think that u ruin me 
not numb but god how i wanna be
look in my eyes if you want i feel the blood in the back of my tongue
say love, 
i really think you're a bad one
i think you like how my hearts gone
i think you just wanna have fun 
play around till it kills me 
till i hang from my ceiling 
getting close to no feeling
will u stay here if im willing

ima be there

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ima be there w/heylog, residential, & skele

Featuring @kaiyko
Produced by @horoshavibes & @splashgvng

LYRICS
I know I fucked up real bad and I can't win you back now
I look straight ahead but I don't see a way out of this
Turns out the vow that we made
Didn't mean anything to you anyway

Now everything just seems meaningless to me
I meant it when I said 'til death so let me rest in peace
I know I fucked up
Blame it on my bad luck
There no more bad blood
It's only love

So when you look back do you do so with tenderness
Or am I just another memory that you repress

(Kaiyko)
I wait for you to come around to say
The things I've already heard before
So tell me what's new
Got a broken heart and nothin left to lose
I know 
You're doin okay
But I am always
Thinkin' of ways to
Get right back to you
But it's too late too late
Gotta get back home to our places
Not sure if I can make it
But I will tell you I would take it all for you
If we could take it all back too
Even if it's all even if it's all for you

Listen on Spotify!

I Meant It When I Said ‘Til Death, so Let Me Rest in Peace w/ Kaiyko (Prod. Horosha & splashgvng)

Featuring @lilskeleskrrt
Produced by @metlast
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
Still the same scared kid that I was way back then
Know I'd give anything to change how it happened
Still bleeding from the wounds of my past and
Pursuing happiness
But I can't have that

Take another hit to my pride and my passion
Loss after loss like a chain reaction
When everything goes wrong
I need a way out
I can not be trusted to be kind to myself

The drugs don't make it better
They just keep me distracted
From the life I'm supposed to live
And out the one that I'm trapped in
When everything goes wrong
I tend to break down
I can not be trusted to be kind to myself

(skele)
And love I promise that I mean well
All those things I did were fucking my health 
I've never been good at helping out myself
It's getting bad
I prolly need help
I never meant for you to run away 
I just wanted you to feel a bit of my pain 
And when everything goes wrong I hope you'll be here 
Need someone to fix all my fears

When Everything Goes Wrong w/ skele (Prod. metlast)

produced by: @freveltrothy
happy halloween (even though by the time I drop this it'll probably be like fuckin 2037)

i think i killed another man last night 
i didn’t even stop to check
either way he’s not moving 

all i need is a mask and a knife
i don’t ever need a glock
little bitch i’m not shooting 

only time i ever truly feel alive
is when i’m cutting thru his flesh
swear the sound kinda soothing 

i took his wallet 
saw his girl as a picture 
go to the address
finish it and bring the jewels in 

so i cry
till my eyes swell up
and i can’t fall asleep 
think i’m too fucked up
room spinning think i’m gonna throw up
and i guess im old news 
your new man look tough 

i wanna bleach my eyes but im way too scared
so i just stare at the sun 
wanna close myself
cus you were never there
at least you’re having fun

i don’t know why i’m like this 
how the fuck could i take another man from his family? 
so i go and wash the knife quick,
think i went overboard 
violence charge my battery 
no point tryna fight this,
know i’m gonna go to jail
insane
yeah i had to be 
when i cut him, kinda liked it 
need to go home now
hope my moms not mad at me 

i think i killed another man last night 
i didn’t even stop to check
either way he’s not moving 

all i need is a mask and a knife
i don’t ever need a glock
little bitch i’m not shooting 

only time i ever truly feel alive
is when i’m cutting thru his flesh
swear the sound kinda soothing 

i took his wallet 
saw his girl as a picture 
go to the address
finish it and bring the jewels in

killer (frevel)

went for something different.
made this with the intention to expand my creativity as an artist
and the hopes to understand myself more as a person.
hope you enjoy :')
prod. @branwenmusic & @rvrhiv 🖤
cover art done by @akanenosketch

~~lyrics~~
(i got these daggers in my spine)
(they come right at me from the skies)
(just tell me why, why)

knowing that you’re safe
could you save me from this bad dream
know it’s kinda late
girl i’m sorry that i’m asking
glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat  
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end
do you understand?

go into a rage 
when i see you in my sight
everyone the same 
and i always wonder why
tell me what it takes
just for you to stay mine

swear i’m fucking sick
everyone’s a prick 
running fucking swift
don’t ever stop, won’t ever quit
eh i was a mistake
in this world; why do i stay?
no, seriously.
THIS SHIT SUCKS!!!

hush…

glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within

i’m rotting from within!
i should probably go
there's blood under the snow 
infinity below
i hear the echoes of bellows

aren’t you just happy for me
i wanna be someone else
stuck inside a catacomb
it’s like my own personal hell 
just give me the signal 
and i’ll try to book it outta here
it’s not that i’m terrified
this is just how i look my dear 

i got these daggers in my spine
they started raining from the sky
i didn’t make it home in time
within your arms is where i lie

i rot, everything’s stupid 
i want you, but i’m useless
time’s not real, we are lucid 
i’m just, gonna lose it all


glass to the fist 
for the flesh in my skin 
don’t get attached
yeah my body full of sin

worms in my teeth
cause i overeat 
serenity i seek
but my heart is getting weak
you people make me sick
roll another spliff 
rotting from within
until i meet an end 
do you understand?…

infinity below [prod. branwen x rvrhiv]

madison & 1st, night lights in a coffin
w/ @betweentheveinsandi
prod. @sadboiforever
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
yeah u can take my life if u want it
file thru the pain, small prize if u block it
and i never been ashamed, cut ties if im wantin’
u came here to play, eat shit where ur talkin
cuz im sayin u can take my life if u want it
madison and 1st, night lights in a coffin
i cant ever fall asleep, twist spine pretty often
bored of counting sheep, yet fine feelin nothin

and im saying with dusk comes dawn
another painful day where the night feels wrong
& i’ll stay inside tonight so i can weather the storm

my mind
a fragile portrait of my architecture
my spine
is broken by the words that i have dragged along
inside
i’ve spent so long for progress to force me backwards
alive
im glad i am, its hard to carry on

veins:
Take my life if u want it 
I don't really give a shit 
2 shots that's a warning 
And I don't make ties they just loosen with time 
Back when throwing up was the best part of our lives 
Oh what u say book a hospital stay 
All the times and the days that u tried to run away 
Despite what u say I think ur mom is pretty sweet 
Cause if u always be the victim then u always live in pain 
She said that break ups suck 
But I don't think she gives a fuck 
And I don't think that meaning from a broken heart just takes a fuck 
Woah 
Laid back 
I'm at terms with the past 
And I'll follow the act 
Just tell me how to act  

yeah u can take my life if u want it
file thru the pain, small prize if u block it
and i never been ashamed, cut ties if im wantin’
u came here to play, eat shit where ur talkin
cuz im sayin u can take my life if u want it
madison and 1st, night lights in a coffin
i cant ever fall asleep, twist spine pretty often
bored of counting sheep, yet fine feelin nothin

and im saying with dusk comes dawn
another painful day where the night feels wrong
& i’ll stay inside tonight so i can weather the storm

take it, it's yours (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [2001]

spotify!

this time it won't fix

https://soundcloud.com/heylog
https://soundcloud.com/imcaves
https://soundcloud.com/irby314

you made me feel nauseous 
i keep getting sick
can't remember where it started 
can't forget all that you did to me
you tasted so bittersweet 
i still see you every time i sleep
i gave you every part of me 
i bet you couldn't tell
i fall in love with narcissists,
don't care about myself
i just go through sedatives
keep fucking up my health 
what's the point of heaven,
i already live in hell

it's not easier 
i'll lie and say it is 
i gave up on getting better 
it's just the way it is
i've been feeling numb ever since i was a kid 
i don't wanna die,
but i don't wanna try and live

i said that i loved you 
(save me)
i gave you the blood from my skin
i tried everything
admit it
it's hard but i did it
you left me too damaged 
this time it won't fix

[heylog]
i'm calling for you 
are you with someone else
the pics on my phone
are nowhere to be found 
would it surprise you 
if i took myself
i might just die here
when no ones around
but i made a choice 
that i regret 
stomp out the house
from what i said
and now it's too late to apologize
fumbled my words,
i guess this is goodbye 

i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
baby it's whatever
see you in the next life
i'm trying to forget her 
but god it feels impossible
now she's just a number 
floating in my phone
i wish i did better 
thinking all the time 
i don't make any sense
and it makes me wanna cry 
but i look like im stupid
and she say that it's fine 
girl you're pretty funny 
tell another lie

it's not getting easier (w/ heylog) (prod. caves & irby)

i should've told u~


--------------------------

and so, its a tragic, fuckin mess
i been so lost, i cant seem to depend
on ur  attitude, its all i ever meant
all i ever said

*
in my head
she only told me, that you were ever friends
i cant control it, its fuckin with my head
you should've said so, break another branch
*break another branch!*

fuckin with my head
i always lost it, im sorry that i said
all the stupid shit, i never meant it, ima mess
i should told u, so break another branch

~autumn~

i let my roots dry
that shit has taken it's toll
so i sit instead consuming these souls
(oh) it's getting old
why'm i even scared of being alone?

i hear tapping on the glass
shadows engulfing my past
my thoughts growing rash
I watch the waves while they crash
let me assess where i'm at
because this shit's getting bad

oh if i tried a little harder, 
then i'll be what i want one day
but every chance that i get, 
all of the memories fade
it's like my lips are sewn shut
i'm playing endless charades
or i'm just stuck in a dream
i must be stuck in a dream
~
i was always on you, in yo messages
i wrote a song to fill the void, yet i created it
and yet we know, we said our sorrys, bitch i meant that shit
I WANNA PACK UP ALL MY SHIT AND TAKE A TRIP

BUT IMA TAKE A SHIT
think about my past life, and everything i did
i fucked up my system, with alcohol and wished
i never fuckin did that, i wish i only said
I LOVE YOU MORE, TO THE ONES WHO GAVE A SHIT!
i broke so many hearts, man i wish i never did
magnified distress.


*
in my head
she only told me, that you were ever friends
i cant control it, its fuckin with my head
you should've said so, break another branch
*break another branch!*

fuckin with my head
i always lost it, im sorry that i said
all the stupid shit, i never meant it, ima mess
i should told u, so break another branch

*
in my head
she only told me, that you were ever friends
i cant control it, its fuckin with my head
you should've said so, break another branch
*break another branch!*

fuckin with my head
i always lost it, im sorry that i said
all the stupid shit, i never meant it, ima mess
i should told u, so break another branch.

/end

break a branch w/ autumndropsdead (prod. dercept)

lifes been
stealin all my feelins
got me feelin different
so different

and ive been
starin at my ceiling
might end it all
this evening 
starin at my ceiling~

i been tryna make it
but i dont think that i can
sittin by lonesome
only sound is the ceiling fan
i want to explain myself
but they wouldnt understand...

but thats okay
cuz it doesnt really matter
take another hit
get higher than a ladder
yeah

da da da da da

lifes been stealin all my feelins...
got me feelin different...

down another coffee
and keep on fuckin walking
inside my tired mind 
im tired all the time
and tired of the lies

and i hate this fuckin life
just wanna close eyes
and watch it fly by...
yeah watch it fly

Spotify

staring at my ceiling, listening to the fan [+Boyfifty & Gabe Lucas]

needed this to change
produced by @pekarot_161
featuring @lilskeleskrrt
mixed by nine to 5 and skele

lyrics:
nine to 5:
Now I'm left in the cold
Stary late night when my breathe turns to smoke
Living in the past when the rest still unfolds
I just wanna go back when my neck wasn't choked I'm
Stuck inside my mind when I'm passing
Highway signs eastbound we were laughing
Now I'm left with nothing but these memories flashing
gone within a moment and I don't know what happened

I can't get away, yeah theres nowhere I can run to
We've been everywhere, I can't begin to forget you
Your shadows everywhere around me even inside my room
Staring at the wall wishing that I was beside you

Living in this empty state of mind
Wander through this empty space
Lost because I know I'll never find
Anyone to take your place
Shivers running up and down my spine
Tears falling down my face
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

skele:
I've been a part of you for too long
And I still write the same songs
I'll wait here forever love until I figure out what you want
It's never enough
Just break me down
And I'll stay put til you're done
I fucking gave you my heart

both:
I fucking gave you my all

nine to 5:
But it was never enough

nine to 5 and skele:
Living in this empty state of mind
Wander through this empty space
Lost because I know I'll never find
Anyone to take your place
Shivers running up and down my spine
Tears falling down my face
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Yeah you still needed this to change (still needed this, still needed this)
Knowing that I gave you all my heart
But you still needed this to change

Still needed this to change
Knowing that I gave you all my heart but you still needed this to change
Still needed this to change
Yeah you still needed this to change
Knowing that I gave you all my heart but you still needed this to change

nine to 5 - needed this to change ft. skele (prod. pekarot)

[+] A BURNOUT EXCLUSIVE

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Vocals by @vito2300
Produced by @kingtheta

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Comfort

+ SPOTIFY

VITO2300 - "COMFORT" (PROD. KING THETA)

Featuring @sewerperson
Produced by @horoshavibes & @jolst
Art by Katie Imbro

LYRICS
You made a promise to me
Never thought that you’d be the one to do me so wrong
It’s over now
I’m still learning how to move on
I guess that this is progression
I thought about you no more than a second time tonight
If I could rewind
I’d rescind it all
And just go back to you
Like I always do
Not caring for the fall
So if you care for me at all
Then cut me off

‘Cause I'm no good for you
You’re no good for me
We’re so out of sync
There’s no harmony
So if you care for me at all
Then cut me off
Caught between a rock and a hard place
Don’t wanna be alone
But I really can’t stay no
Do you wanna do this the hard way
When it comes to you
I can’t say no

(sewerperson)
I bet you're so damn happy I have gone away
Still I wish we could feel what we had yesterday
Baby at this checkpoint I still feel the same
Call me if you give up on him for this pain supplied
I know you still hate me I just hope you're safe tonight
I remember everything we let go in that candlelight 
Even if we’re not together you're still a friend of mine
Sorry I can’t control what feelings I been dealt in life
Break me and tear me up how you prefer
I pray when I die I’m not locked into lucifer
I know everything is fine right now but the future's still unsure
Teach me how to rid my self of all her hurt

Cut Me Off w/ sewerperson (Prod. Horosha & Jolst)

prod. caves

i've been stalking you
can i be somebody new?
waiting on a text from you
but you would never get it thru your head
and my head, 
is killing me right now
while you were chilling with your friends
and you'd never fuck around
who do i trust?
probably you, but
i dont love
no 
not since kyra, and
not since kai
not since the boy across the world
world
the first one was a test run
and the second one he wanted none
if you want me you should've kept me
and i dont know why i didnt respond to you
and now i feel fucked up
i think i fucked up.
fucked up
fucked up
fucked up
fucked up

if not, then rot.

hope you enjoy, or something <3 :")
prod. @user-230494921 <3

𝘪 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘸, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘪𝘳𝘤𝘶𝘮𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘰𝘯𝘦'𝘴 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘷𝘢𝘯𝘵.
𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘧𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦.

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

she said i'm "hella right"
everything i say past three is hella right
and the night time 
welcomes me with open arms to tight bind
bright lights; everybody trusts it
i don't trust it at all
i'm terrified right now
wish i could give you a call :(

i overthink and scrap everything
i'm trapped behind these bars
that you could never see
a majority of the time
i'm disgusted by the industry
but if it's okay with you
then it's okay with me aswell

as the essence surrounds me 
and corrupts my soul
what a blinding gaze
i wish i could break it's hold
as i'm marching through a land
that is unknownst to me
i've only seen it inside of my dreams

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

purple fingers
makes these feelings linger
been staring into empty space
for way too long
caught up on what is "right"
and what is "wrong"

i thought about her
again, last night
again (3x)
last night

these thoughts give me dopa- 
dopamine
as long as i believe they're real

it always comes back to this...

would my god even care [prod. 4lexf]

https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead
https://soundcloud.com/nate2timezz

lyrics:
livid..
why'd it get so tense?
tryna find the cause
just at what expense?

i feel my face is turning red
from the lack of having space
steady water i will tread
every step, i will retrace

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

forever stuck in an eclipse
but love the feeling of the dark
twist my head and let it spin
like the grinding in my heart

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

in motion, no i'm not the same
what i've chosen, was to leave the fray
so golden; but the sun betrayed
in search of yesterday

feelings fleeding fast
i've seen past the colors of this place
for what they truly say

i told my mind that night
save the pity
for every blemish on my chest confessed
that i am all but pretty

so listen here
this is all i have
let my stomach sear
it'll grow right back

but this'll be the one
could give a fuck bout if it's done

i feel my face is turning red
from the lack of having space
steady water i will tread
every step, i will retrace

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

forever stuck in an eclipse
but love the feeling of the dark
twist my head and let it spin
like the grinding in my heart

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

death is nearing tonight
give her my sight
into the tethered light

i feel my face is turning red
from the lack of having space
steady water i will tread
every step, i will retrace

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

forever stuck in an eclipse
but love the feeling of the dark
twist my head and let it spin
like the grinding in my heart

still stuck on yesterday
it just turnt out that way

relapse; decay

SPOTIFY

autumndropsdead - relapse; decay (nate2timez)

produced by jolst
featuring skele 

sendflowrs:

(it’s so frustrating 
the way u say that 
u know what u want
and u still do not want me)

now it’s the winter
and it’s so cold
she told me she always felt safe
wearing my coat 
i’m still a loser 
always alone ): 
and those big brown eyes 
they always freeze up all my bones 
she shows a smile
and says “come home”
i think the day that i die
i’ll finally grow 

i’m still here
and you’re still right there
and you told me 
“shitll never be the same”
you’re a tumour, but i’m clear 
now you’re somebody else’s 
tidal wave 

(skele)

but i’m here 
and you’re there 
washing out blood dried up in ur hair 
baby don’t keep calling me i don’t care 
going out bad 
like so sad
hurting me till i crash
you’re a tumor 
need to cut you out 
but i’m here 
n you’re there 
n you tell me that it’ll be okay 

(skele & sendflowrs)
i don’t care 

(sendflowrs) 

i’m still here
and you’re still right there
and you told me 
“shitll never be the same”
you’re a tumour, but i’m clear 
now you’re somebody else’s 
tidal wave

tumour, pt 2 (w/ skele) (jolst)

Lyrics:

i spent 3 yrs digging in crevices i found inside my mind
and it's looking like another one of countless wasted nights
where i'll write songs and i'll lay beats to put some fun into my life
i'll live and die inside this room
but shit i wouldn't call it life

if i had a fucking option
i would so turn back the time
and attend clubs attend events n get some people in my life
but with the way i chose to live i lost 3 years of fucking time
this is genuine loneliness that no one knows but i

i spent 3 yrs
digging in crevices
i found inside my mind
and it's looking like another one of countless wasted nights
where i'll write songs
and i'll lay beats
to put some fun into my life
i'll live and die inside this room
but shit i wouldn't call it life

i spent 3 yrs
digging in crevices
i found inside my mind
and it's looking like another one of countless wasted nights
where i'll write songs
and i'll lay beats
to put some fun into my life
i'll live and die inside this room
but shit i wouldn't call it life

-

i spent 3 yrs digging in crevices i found inside my mind
and it's looking like another one of countless wasted nights
where i'll write songs and i'll lay beats to put some fun into my life
i'll live and die inside this room
but shit i wouldn't call it life
i spent 3 yrs
digging in crevices
i found inside my mind
and it's looking like another one of countless wasted nights
where i'll write songs
and i'll lay beats
to put some fun into my life
i'll live and die inside this room
but shit i wouldn't call it life

call it life (hateful)

i'm just a robot

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lyrics:

[intro]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

[verse 1]
‘Cause i’m a robot
With human skin
And try as I might
I can’t overwrite the code within
I’m just a robot
I don’t exist
Extinguished the light
I gave up the fight
For views and clicks
But somehow I still break down every time you call
I’m just a fake now, not supposed to feel at all
So why am I so unsteady
Fused with so much pain already
Yeah I wish I could just start again
No pretend
But everyday I look inside with discontent
Shit doesn’t relent

[chorus 1]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Find the shrine confined within, embrace mine
You can’t contrive
To remove me from the book
Blood intertwined
Art, virality mistook
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

[verse 2]
They make this shit look easy
Hijack their eyes to feed me
He’ll reach inside of their souls’ convince them that they need me
But what’s the meaning
I’m bleeding
I feel my life force depleting
So what’s the point of succeeding
If it’s not for myself?
It’s just for everyone else
Couldn’t help but put my pride on the shelf
I guess I’m going to hell
We’re all frauds, ain’t no contest
I’m no god, just a complex
I don’t get it
How they hid it
So well
(And I don't wanna die but maybe it's easier)
It’s no fun, to be broken
Burning sun, I’m unchosen
They don’t get it
How I did it
Don’t tell
(I pushed and they folded, my body was molded wrong)

[bridge]
I tried to bottle it up
But you threw salt in the cut
My body’s turning to rust
I guess I’ll wallow in it
They said it wasn’t enough
So now I’m calling their bluff
Not who they think that I was
I strive to keep it hidden

[chorus 3]
I wanna die
No not literally, fuck
Just wanna cry
‘Cause I hate the way I look
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Find the shrine confined within, embrace mine
You can’t contrive
To remove me from the book
Blood intertwined
Art, virality mistook
I’ll realign my spine and hide inside the bassline
Anything I can do to feel unalive

unalive

hate being a night owl
switch the lights on
quiet all the time
its time to hide
always tracing back
2 where it started
at beginning of the end

fireworks shooting off
like a sunset
flashbang to the eyes
like a flashback
remembering just makes me nauseous
toxic 5th
noddin off sippin glowstick

vpn digi armor
trynna run a damn heist
on the whole world
if it lets me
hit licks in a public
deadly mercenary
you gon need a whole damn army

sorry if you slip
but you know that ill always b
right back just to catch you
ye its been a little bit
but timing has a way of making things work 
just how there supposed to

nothing left for miles~
searching cant b sure~
of a thought~ at all~

searching cant b sure~ 
searching cant b sure~

vpn digi armor
trynna run a damn heist
on the whole world
if it lets me
hit licks in a public
deadly mercenary
you gon need a whole damn army

sorry if you slip
but you know that ill always b
right back just to catch you
ye its been a little bit
but timing has a way of making things work 
just how there supposed to

flashbang ~ [p. recyclebin & nate2timez]

lost in an alien psychosis

thanks for listening <3

111 empty houses; mended hearts

cloudy grey