produced by kenkamon (me)

enjoy, and thank you ♡

lyrics: 
high as the empire state
afraid where I go out of frustration
guess I'll go tear out
someone somewhere 

i lost all until
i doubt myself
fear the sunlight
go somewhere
tell them to go away
until I live alone
fear made me run but
i'll learn later on

lot of people think they know what's next for me
lot of people think they know what's best for me
lot of people think they know that's the best of me
pain or drugs I don't need therapy
pray tell when you have notes on everything
question all doors thats a step for me
spaced out exposes everything 

bridge, burns it all up in my mental
shit won't just go away
questioning all What's the point?
pestering all what's the point of view?
but I stayed some time ago
i should've question about what you know
less time I talk I should go home and sulk
write down her notes
and I check on my phone
ain't no one home 

but I knock another day out
shoulda gone home but I won't do it twice
i want to see me go into another light
until I know there's another side
i know what to do but no description 
fear the store I don't need prescriptions
keep my face and keep my discretion
fear grows in offered aggression


if I'm coming back here 
just cut off my ears
ignoring again
i don't need to explain 
just to let go of friends
but they don't want to hear
ignoring what I said
i will never win
see the toll I hold
when it's not my plan
yes, I know descent
and I don't need to explain
sipping down my friends
just to slow me again
ignore my fate
and I'll never win
i thought I made my way back here 
it's the shit I said last year
and for what, to hold top here
and don't leave me to die here
spend too much time here
seems like you lurk in my dreams when I left you
see my plans didn't work out
even though I was free
once you said it
pissed off it didn't work out guess I shouldn't know once you planned it 


High as the empire state state st- st- st- sta-

Can't fuck this up now
Can't fuck this up now
Can't fuck this up now 
bend, break all sound

(you don't understand you don't know how it feels, truth is we really do know how it feels
maybe we don't experience the same thing, but down to the basics, to the rotten core, there is something that we share and to not allow us to get that chance can distort so many)

can't fuck up

pessimism w/ dylan longworth

rip jd
production by king theta

think i’d start to notice
when things go out of focus
you play me like a fool
the one i am
but i just can’t understand
why its always in your hands
and i know its all for show
you’re just an actor on your own

blood
on your hands when you’re feeling numb
feel like a fool
but crawl back when it’s said and done

but i just can’t understand
why it’s always in your hands
and i know it’s all for show
you’re just an actor on your own

in the middle of the night
i see ghosts in all directions
and i can’t even wonder why
it’s haunting me, it’s haunting me

i know
maybe you were right
cause i have no reflection and im
bleeding from my eyes
you’re taunting me, you’re taunting me

but i can’t understand
why im always dealt this hand
so ill cry on the phone
you’re just an actor on your own

blood
on your hands when you’re feeling numb
feel like a fool
but crawl back when it’s said and done

but i just can’t understand
why it’s always in your hands
and i know it’s all for show
you’re just an actor on your own

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hands (king theta)

a day in the life

lyrics :

you can't calm down
and you keep that crown for life again
this won't back down
i see you woke up
you're on your anticipation

can't erase the things you done
if everything you want now is vanish of your existence
phone hold off again
you went out insane before i lost you

cause i got this feeling in my brain
melatonin can't even get out of my head
cause i've been fucked up laying down inside my bedroom
all of your words don't mean shit
tryna cover all that pitfall

and the things that i have said
it don't matter if you gon bleed it on that red
all of the hatred that is flowing down your face
can't get rid of yourself i know you gon replace me off this time

i'll be hanging over the edge
i'll try my best to avoid all cost of your face yeah
no i don't wanna talk it again
all of the paranoia going on the space in my head
cause i know you want all that luck
face you call on that struck
now i know what you up to
and get my offer

yeah you said you wanna fuck it all up
and you said you don't want anything to do with your love
it's only me it's not us no more
never be in the end

can't erase the things you done
if everything you want now is vanish of your existence
phone hold off again
you went out insane before i lost you

cause i got this feeling in my brain
melatonin can't even get out of my head
cause i've been fucked up laying down inside my bedroom
all of your words don't mean shit
tryna cover all that pitfall

and the things that i have said
it don't matter if you gon bleed it on that red
all of the hatred that is flowing down your face
can't get rid of yourself i know you gon replace me off this time

time
i'll be fine right through my heart and my soul tonight
sharpen all your piece of knives and cut off it all what you don't want in life
i watch you fall and i'll be fine it's obvious that i'm alive
i told you so this world is so cruel

your own good

this track was made with my new “exclusive” drum kit: https://ko-fi.com/s/d00b5d6cde

exclusive

produced by @prod_pk

featuring @ownerscloset

2MAN w/ closet

mane kids these days always putting the word hyper in front of everything smh

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oxidize1/fishing

shoutout to @niko_ix for the dope guitar solo

out on all plats now :)




lyrics:

woke up in the middle of the ocean

lungs feel sore and my chest feels tight (yea)

been feelin like i'm going thru the motions

body's waterlogged and i'm too scared to go outside (yea)

and i'm too scared to talk 

i'll just tell em that my hands are tied

and they'll let me off

tell em everything will be alright

no reason to stalk

but i'm stuck inside my bed and i can barely even walk

(wake up)

i've been staring at the ceiling just blinkin

letting every single negative emotion just sink in

always feelin like i'll throw up off whatever i'm drinkin

its got me going fucking crazy in the middle of the night i'm thinkin

	
WHY!?

DO I TERRORIZE MYSELF WITH ALL OF THESE

LIES!?

FIRING FLARES BUT THEY CAN NEVER SEE THE 

LIGHT!?

FUCK THE ODDS I'M ALWAYS DOWN TO ROLL THE DICE!?

BUT I ALWAYS SEEM TO RUN WHEN I'M HAVING TO PAY THE PRICE!?

PATHOLOGICAL SO I TELL MYSELF IM 

FINE!?

EVEN WHEN THE TRUTH IS RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES!?

A PAINFUL FEELING THATS LINGERING EVERYDAY I TRY TO FIGHT!?

BUT THERES NO POINT IN TRYING WHEN ITS ALL JUST WASTED LIFE!?

 
when it's all just wasted life

every single day and every night
  
it's all just wasted life 

WHEN ITS ALL JUST WASTED LIFE!? 


EVERY SINGLE DAY BLEEDS INTO THE SAME

THE ONLY WAY OUT IS TO POISON MY BRAIN

SO PULL UP EVERY SCREEN AND CLOSE EVERY ESCAPE

AND HOOK THAT FUCKING DOPAMINE STRAIGHT TO MY VEINS

Fishing

prod. heavnsnt


(Intro)

Crushing rocks under my feet
It's about damn time that I'm getting overseas
While I was sitting in my own regret
Just tell me we both won't forget

(Verse) 

The entity getting rid of all my fear of death
But I just been planning out the next time I play a set
Try to make waves part like it's really just nothing
Baby try convincing me that I've got a shot at something

(Chorus)

Cause we were sweet like molasses
The waves in the sea
Scrolling thru my feed and all I see is my decisions backfired
Can't scribe myself with all of this tension in my skull
Guess I've got to draw a deeper breath
And they don't know that I got cardamine envy
And when I'm up in my DAW I be making another entry
To my despise I wrote a prize for all this surplus of learning
But never choose to hold onto my lies I'm advancing

(Verse 2)

Crushing rocks under my feet
It's about damn time that I'm getting overseas
While I was sitting in my own regret
Just tell me we both won't forget

(Pre-Chorus)

Crushing rocks under my feet
It's about damn time that I'm getting overseas
While I was sitting in my own regret
Just tell me we both won't forget

(Chorus)

Cause we were sweet like molasses
The waves in the sea
Scrolling thru my feed and all I see is my decisions backfired
Can't scribe myself with all of this tension in my skull
Guess I've got to draw a deeper breath
And they don't know that I got cardamine envy
And when I'm up in my DAW I be making another entry
To my despise I wrote a prize for all this surplus of learning
But never choose to hold onto my lies I'm advancing

avidrecords.ca

death

♡ mixed & backed by @1m1x (ily bro)

❀ AMV by karma :) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2Cdh-YkrqU

✤ all-plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/wyfy/fall-feat-mix-2

❀ [prod. everest]

✤ [lyrics]
i like to think that nobody knows
and despite what I say, I doubt it shows
and that's on me
i let it go

I let it go
now no one knows
i'd seek out help
but i'm all alone
my life's a mess
i have no home
i would've followed you
i don't know where to go
if I called your name
would you hear me now?
or like every time
would you just shut me down?
made me hate myself
you made me hate it all
you claim that I'm your son
so why'd you plan my fall?

i'd say I'm sorry now
and that I messed up bad
but when we moved
you left yourself with dad
and since then you've changed
from who you were
you used to really care
now you just make me hurt

but I let it go
now no one knows
i'd seek out help
but i'm all alone
my life's a mess
i have no home
i would've followed you
i don't know where to go
if I called your name
would you hear me now?
or like every time
would you just shut me down?
made me hate myself
you made me hate it all
you claim that I'm your son
so why'd you plan my fall?

fall w/ mix (AMV OUT NOW)

prod. quip

got so close to me 
just pick a side now 
want more dopamine 
don't need a timeout 
right where you wanted me
you'll shoot your eye out 
so no more playin pretend 

braindead i been
don't wanna see less it's 
behind my eyelids 
it's not for me, but then you caught my
iris 
can't waste my time because 
you're so  damn timeless 

u know i would never play with you
when im away thinkin things i wanna say to you
it's almost time, babe i know your plate is crazy full 
counting my blessings ungratefully 
i know you got something to say to me

so won't you say what's on your mind
from the bottom of my heart 
i'll spend my whole damn life
wouldn't change it from the start 
i've wasted so much time 
tryna make it with this art 
i've wasted so much time 
so i gotta leave my mark baby 

(im selfish) 
(unselfishly)

can't settle for this 
i cannot figure it out
i'm selfish 
i cannot break it down 
i'm selfish 
use it to make sense 
my egos loud 
i'm selfish 
i'm selfish 


outro
baby don't break your neck for me
that weights not to bear alone 
so baby don't play along 

save your breath for me 
you know that the waits been long
for me

death

heavnsnt

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