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A Sunny Day in Glasgow "Shy" Ashes Grammar (Mis Ojos Discos)

This song is about my bipolar disorder. Over the past few months, I've been pulling myself out of a really depressive state and have learned so much. I feel like such a happier person (Not just because of the mania) because of what I've learned. The problem with where I'm at is that I've been feeling a lot of anxiety (Due to mania). This song expresses that I'm doing so well, but there's always the threat of anxiety striking.

In the chorus, I talk about how if I don't take care and control this mania, I'll burn myself out and crash into a depressive state worse than most. I've been on such a high for so long that I'm afraid that the next flip is going to crush me. A part of me wants to just run with the mania and see how far it takes me. It would feel so great for a short period of time, and I want that instant gratification. However, I know that will only lead to me getting emotionally hurt (And possibly physically as well). I also feel like if I ride this high without caution I'll end up forgetting all the lessons I've learned that's put me in the mental state I'm in right now.

Lyrics:

Stuck in my mind
Yet I'm feeling fine
No longer lying
When I tell you that I have been trying
I tell you, lately, I'm still going crazy
Nothing's gonna stop me now that I'm pacing
Every day's just another lap in this race, and
Cruise control's off, I'm not stuck in a stasis

I ain't tryna stop, I ain't slowing down
I'm only going faster, break the speed of sound
My ears are gonna pop, getting further from the ground
Started liftoff, my heart begins to pound

If I don't slow, I know I'm gonna crash
I've been hitting this high, yeah, I know it won't last
I'll get a heartache and I know it won't pass
But for now, it pounds like a 'Rari, so fast
Or if I speed up, if I hit the gas
I'm a devil on the road, all my limits I've surpassed
But in the end, I'll be the one in dead last
Everything I've learned, gone and thrown in the trash

Stuck in my mind
Yet I'm feeling fine
No longer lying
When I tell you that I have been trying
I tell you lately, I'm still going crazy
Nothing's gonna stop me now that I'm pacing
Every day's just another lap in this race, and
Cruise control's off, I'm not stuck in a stasis

If I don't slow, I know I'm gonna crash
I've been hitting this high, yeah, I know it won't last
I'll get a heartache and I know it won't pass
But for now it pounds like a 'Rari, so fast
Or if I speed up, if I hit the gas
I'm a devil on the road, all my limits I've surpassed
But in the end, I'll be the one in dead last
Everything I've learned, gone and thrown in the trash

David

The Radio Dept.

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