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winter

Beautiful

written/produced/mixed & mastered by me
and so begins the bitter wind
cutting up my brittle hands and heavy heaving hearts will stop again
ive made a name to call me by and see it with your own two eyes i don't think that 
your love was ever here
and now im in a darker place where light has no room to escape and hearts will glow to create something safe
a dream of sorts you're on the porch and talking to the moon and he says "every little thing will be okay"

and you will wonder why it's not
and while your heart begins to rot 
all the love you had for me will dissipate
and all the branches in the yard growing fungus going far things will start to finally create a face

dissipate

written, produced, mixed & mastered by me
lyrics:
all the time i question everything
and i feel like it's wrong
to pool my thoughts together wishing the list wasn't so long
and you tell me that im selfish
and i know its the truth
for who would sit inside her bedroom wishing that i could be with you
and i tell myself im worthy but i know that i am not
i will isolate myself and my skin will start to rot
and my heart will bust to pieces
they're too small to just pick up
see our lives will flash before my eyes
and my blood will fill the cup

‘cause its so scary 
just the thought of u
and i am married
to the thought of u

see it's 6am and i am half awake and i am lost
i've been up all night and my heart feels like it's about to pop
all the drugs i take will overwhelm me til i am but dust
blowing through the wind wishing that i could find another rush
but the wind will die and i will wish for peace inside my mind
need to get away from hoping all the days will turn to nights
and my thoughts will stray and i will be okay to just get high
excuses i will tell myself until my final night

‘cause its so scary 
just the thought of u
and i am married
to the thought of u

‘cause its so scary 
just the thought of u
and i am married
to the thought of u

the thought of you

Leak/Deleted.
Song was made in 2019.
Deleted in 2022 or 2021.

Dumpuppie - wakeup//getlow

production/mixing/mastering by me
in celebration of zombie boy hitting 20 million streams on spotify, here is one of the remastered tracks i'm working on (yes i am re-doing the whole album)
hope u enjoy <3

My brain is a very strange place
My heart is cold
My pride is gone
My parents lay and they cry all night
So do I
So do I
My brain is a damaged place
My arms are weak
My eyes are bleak
And I take these drugs just to make me numb
And I won't stop
No, I won't stop

i haven't gotten around to telling you (remastered)

writing/production/mastering by me
co-drum mix by @ harry_._taylor on instagram 


lyrics:
i contradict 
myself too much
for my own good
i'm made of lust 
for love and loss
and when i lose myself i'll set the grass ablaze
i'll burn my face
july came through and i grew up in just a day
my wings are stuck inside the clay and i could break out but i stay why must i stay

elevation with a friend
i keep losing all of them
august only just began
i already miss my hands
rigor mortis fix my brain so i can level out my shoddy aim
i have a feeling you don't feel the same
so do i trust my gut or do i walk away

i move an inch 
the cracks will spread 
hope they can't hear
or else im dead stepped out of line a final time
my ego grows but now i'm right
turn out the light
i run away
but im not scared i run to change 
what will i share?
and now im shamelessly myself
im fucking drained
am i unwell

serotonin in the shell
i will dig myself through hell
may is oh so far away
but tomorrow won’t delay
dashing through the cloudless sky until i’m out of breath
and my wings are lacking rest
i know i didn’t give much hope but when we’re tying the rope
i wanna hold ur hand and say
i had fun
we aren’t done 
lookin thru the trash so we can find one
for memory
my lovely
i won’t let it go until my job’s done

clay wings

Looking Out For You- Joy again Cover

everything is going to hell cover

BOYZDONTCCRY

salvia plath - teen suicide (Scruffpuppie cover)

lyrics:
i wasn't thinking
the night i told u all abt my feelings
but u jus listened
shared a smile or 2
i loved looking at u

i matched the distance
met u on a train and u made me think that i was going insane
but in a good way
if that makes any sense
i kind of enjoyed it

the distance

carving pumpkins

floating

(Slowed) Matt Maltese - As The World Caves In

one of my favorite songs in the world, and one of my favorite bands

afraid of everyone- the national cover

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