EarWaxiest

Hook:
I am tired
Of being frowned upon
In the eyes of bastardized gods
Who pray for the fall

Verse1:
I want my piece
I want my say
I want my way
Crush everything
Burn the garden
Spread the knowledge

I want to skin the face off of every superficial human
To really see what's underneath
They were never human beings

Hook:
I am tired
Of being frowned upon
I'm tired
Of being looked down upon
In the eyes of
Bastardized gods
Who pray for the fall 
With Trickster like tongues
Their ego is a sponge
They can try to soak me up but I will slay them from the inside

KILL ALL MY NON-BELIEVERS [untitled_0031]]

Don’t want audis I want death
Fuck a chain rope to my neck
Put a gun up to my head
Shoot it I’m better off dead
Suicide vibes I’m be feelin depressed ya
Got so much shit on my mind I feel pressured
Slit my wrists that shit remove all the stress ya
Leave the blood make someone else clean the mess up
Insane in the membrane, feel like Cobain 
Lotta pain for my ways feel all the pain
Fuck a chain ya fuck a rang, cut my veins
Fuck a plane, no need to gain, make a blood stain
Fuck that chain fuck your private jet
Only thing I need is the Percocet
Cup full of lean got the double set
death on my mind other things to get

No gun by my waste yea will not tread
Put a bullet into my head
Fuck up my brain fill it with lead
I Shoot myself inside the shed
Fuck yo money yea fuck yo possession
Sold his soul corporate possessed him 
Industry make these fuckers obsessive 
Fuck that shit don’t find it impressive
Fucka hoe yea fuck a bitch
I would rather slit my wrists 
Don’t got time for all that shit
Life is is pain don’t need no bliss

Audi Remix (prod. Ronny J)

DIE ON PURPOSE PROD. NOVÂFLED

I feel so new
Walking on the grass i feel like something's coming through
Sun is shining on the land, it's currently at peace
But peace don't last forever, it can go as it please
So I guess enjoy the moment
Do not to need to overthink
Sometimes in this life I guess enjoy the simple things
Eventually they'll fade away like uhm everything
And everything will turn into nothing
Then nothing will turn into something
Something into everything
And the cycle ensues
It's the cycle
It's the cycle, circle of life
More like life and death
Same coin different sides
Same coin different sides
Everything will die
Everything will rise
Basic esoteric rhymes
Unless it's all lie
Who knows what is real?
What's my purpose in my life?
Wait sorry, I got in my head again
Let me focus at being in the moment

I feel so nuu
Walking on the grass i feel like something's coming through
Sun is shining on the land, it's currently at peace
But peace don't last forever, it can go as it please
So I guess enjoy the moment
Do not to need to overthink
Sometimes in this life I guess enjoy the simple things
Eventually they'll fade away uhm
And nothing will turn into nothing
Then nothing will turn into nothing
Nothing into nothing
And the cycle ensues
It's the cycle
It's the cycle, circle of death
More like death and death
Same coin same side
Same coin same side
Everything will die
It will become void
Basic nihilistic rhymes
Spiritualism is a lie
Nothing is real

New
Walking on the grass i feel like something's coming through
Sun is shining on the land, it's currently at peace
But peace don't last forever, it can go as it please
So I guess enjoy the moment
Do not to need to overthink
Sometimes in this life

Sometimes in this life like everything
And everything will turn nothing into something into everything
Everlasting cycle ensues
It's the cycle
It's the cycle, 
circle of Duality
Yin and Yang
Yin and Yang
Everything will die
Will rise
Basic esoteric rhymes
Unless it's all a lie
Who knows what is real?

I feel so nuu
Walking on the grass i feel like something's coming through
Sun is shining on the land, it's currently at peace
But peace don't last forever, it can go as it please (×4)
Eventually it'll fade away like everything
And everything will turn into nothing
Then nothing will turn into something
Something into everything
And the cycle ensues
It's the cycle
Circle of life and death

nNeUwU [untitled_0004]]

[new album when?]]

Verse1:
21st Birthday
Sing it in the worst way
Hikikomori
Mentally 30
My time is fading (yea)
Soul is waning (yea)
Feeling mainy (yea)
Foggy Cranium
My younger self would hate the person that ive become
Losing rhythm, can't find the beat to my own drum
This world ain't for me, or maybe I don't wanna grow up
But what's growing up? Cause I don't wanna have my soul crushed.

Verse2:
I want to live a life outside this system
Travel to a world outside the solar system
& dance to my rhythm

Verse3:
Still fucked up in the head
Try to make folks accept me
Even if they don't care about me
Maybe it's cause I don't care myself
Wanna be ignored to dig deeper in the well
In The Well
IN THE WELL
In the fucking well I just drown myself in despair
Look at the world the it's so far from here
I'm sinking in my own
Can't climb the walls
It is getting darker
There are no walls
See the lights spotters
In my own thoughts
Cannot move, I'm faltered.

Verse4:
21st Birthday
Sing it in the worst way
Hikikomori
Mentally 30
(repeated)

Verse5:
I'm not special
& No one really is
And the glass half empty 
Pessimistic little bitch
Always feel so envy
Towards every human
Don't wanna feel this empty
And prolonged sadness
What's the point of working
If it leads to nothin
What's the point of something
If there's no fulfillment
Why is life important if I didn't choose it
There's no point of living here if you cannot move it
Move the world, change the world
I can do that in this viddy game, save the world
Get the girl
Live a life, of peace & adventuring
Make a mistake, can go back to where it saved me
"Speaking of saving"

Checkpoint:
21 years old. I feel like I've wasted the past 4-5 years of my life & there's always this feeling that everything I have now will soon be gone. I've been making music for the past 5 years, and I still don't know at times if this is what I want to do. I feel like I'll just be forgotten in the next few years. people and friends I have now will soon just forget about me. I feel like I can't even form good connections with people because I'm in my head too much. somedays I just wake up and the day is already over. I feel trapped in life, and don't know what to do. somedays I just want to end it all but tell myself things will get better. I just don't want to live a life of misery. I can't really open up to people about how I honestly feel a lot of the time cause I think I'll just end up being a type of burden to them. so I'm just expressing stuff here. I hope I can find a purpose in life or just something that brings me long term happiness + fulfillment. I don't want to kill myself or live an a autonomous, autopilot, dead life.

Save file:
June 23, 2020
6:36 AM
Bedroom

21 BIRTHDAY [untitled_0009]]

DOWNLOAD: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/untitled-0007-0020-0001

Co. Prod. CHECKS

I can't fucking focus
Brain is being stretched to the size of molecules
Compare myself to numbers
I am fucking worthless
Turn me to a bot so i can be automated and talk in the algorithm
01000100
I E irl please
Communication must be terminated
*scream*
Artificial like synapses forming
Bloodstream turning into tubes of coding
See the binary in my retina floating
Taking over vision it starts encrypting
Same with the physical shutdown body, body, body, body
Shut the fuck up you are not in control
Shut the fuck up i am not in control
Shut the fuck up who the hell's in control
Almost a bot now losing soul
I am a slave to the fucking code
Losing emotions turn hollow
No free will have limited sight
Only act in my parameters

Verse2:
Off to digital hell
Casting digital spells
No bottom to this well
Endless Css & Html's
Malware
In my system 
& it's taking my seat to drive
It's deteriorating me
While dragging my digital body
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Took a backdoor to different realm
No 0&1s only alien text
[{html}Kasha_Falla_Balaash_A_Malla_Ka]]
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Back to digital hell (punch in?)
Casting digital spells
No bottom to this well
Endless Css &
Get the fuck out (punch in?)
Overloaded System
All harm no wisdom
Death & CP
System failing (×4)
System
Harmful files too much space
I have fell from grace
Can't reboot my mainframe
Virus 
Virus has infected every part of my system
I have lost control
I love digital hell
Casting digital spells
No bottom to this hell
Endless
Crypto-anarchy
Till i've infected
Digital hellscape
100 percent
Blue Screening Users
Recode to virus
Spreading us further
Until the web can't escape us
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Audi Remix (prod. Ronny J)

KKLLRR