Set of tracks from earlier in the year, more emotional and raw sounding
*This isn't an EP or official project, just old unreleased music*

You tell me it's okay, but you see I'm in pain
See the guilt on your face, no this isn't easy
For you, for me, I just wish that we stayed 
Why change? I'm coping, hard to be sane 

Is it gon get better?
Still see you in that sweater
Don't think that I'll forget her
I'm writing out my love letter
A hopeless endeavour
I'm pained, my soul is severed
I'm praying, feel like a beggar
Feel light as a feather

Echoing, this chamber is dim
Rattle my mind, can't let you in
Can't get outside, don't wanna think 
But the thoughts are never ending 
What was what could've would've shouldve been
Driving me crazy, making me sick
Picking the daisies, petals so thin
Feel like a baby, rockabye in the crib
Lullaby sing tell me it's alright
I don't wanna fight, I dont wanna cry
I don't wanna lose, I dont wanna die
I don't know how to live, I don't know if it's fine
I don't ever forgive myself for what I 
Have lost im not feeling good inside
I'm alone, barely surviving
Fuck this phone I'm sick of screens, so blinding

Padded walls, bounce like a ball
Love withdrawals, I'm screaming I call
Out for a hand, I just get salt
Poured in the wound, I just laugh it's my fault

I just want a cuddle
I just want a cuddle
Splash in the puddle
Not too deep, keep subtle
Feel like I'm climbing out the rubble
Uh oh
I'm in trouble
I'm in trouble
I'm in trouble
I'm in trouble
Slip, trip, stumble
I'm in trouble
What can I do
I'm seeing through a tunnel

Trouble (prod.trbld boy)

All I can say is how?
Why now?
What did I do? It's foul
I'm going down
I don't get it
Girl you got me stressing
I just check my phone
Hope to see another message
It just doesn't make any sense
It went so well, I let out a breathe
And then I felt a pain in my chest
I fell in love and you did the rest

I'm stuck above the ground
I'm floating the rope won't let me down
I'm choking, I can't hear a sound
Slow motion, emotions are running out

what goes up (prod.svriette)

Trail of blood, coughing up
In a coffin, too young
Lighter spark, light a blunt
Smile but no one having fun
Wear a scar, show what's done
Lost a lot, cut out my tounge
Inhale to my lungs
To my lungs 
To my lungs

Black, charred, sever them bonds
Growing apart, every month
Sip of the dark, sip of the rum
Sit in the park, when will succumb?

This a story from the heart
Not about me I made my mark
But I know some people can't
Wake up, restart

lungs (prod.Kizutsuku)

Who is by me now
Wont hide my pain
Wont try and smile
You can't tie me down
I like the rain
I lie, denial

Forget my name
Forget my face
Forget the way
It used to be
Was in too deep
I started drowning
I can't see
I'm falling, shouting

Screaming, reaching out for a hand
But no one is there to grab
Was it love when it began
Or did I say
Too much god damn

Im sorry my lord, don't mean to say it in vain
I'm just struggling, I'm stuck in my brain
Let me pray to wash all my sins away
I just want forgiveness, I want a bit of peace

Going MIA
Off grid, to outer space
I wanna be free
I wanna be gone
I wanna leave
I wanna sing my fucking song

Denial (prod.NekoGod)

1am and i blow that smoke
2 am and I start to choke
3 am now the night gets cold
Said its 4am and the time dont slow
1am and i blow that smoke
2 am and my heart stay broke
3 am now I write my road
Said its 4am and I might let go

Differences aside
I still miss them simple times
I can't dwell, or i might cry
I can't help it, i can't lie
Walking around to clear my mind
But it still gets foggy, still feel blind
Not in my body on autopilot
Head gets fuzzy, running a riot
I been, thinking
What do i do? Keep singing
Blink and you missed it, blinking
Hoping to skip through this shit, clock ticking
Gone in an instant, 
Is it wrong to want that change?
Is it wrong to feel that pain?
Making songs all night and day
Beca there's some things I'd like to say

1am and i blow that smoke
2 am and I start to choke
3 am now the night gets cold
Said its 4am and the time dont slow
1am and i blow that smoke
2 am and my heart stay broke
3 am now I write my road
Said its 4am and I might let go

It all happens for a reason
Still I don't like it, pray for a reset
I can't sway the tides, but I'm looking at the moon and I'm screaming
Pull me in, it's not fair, never been 
I'm on the edge, and I can't let it be
There's something deep I swear it's meant to be
And it really ain't nice, hope you aren't regretting me
I thought it was so heavenly yeah

1 am and I, hope
2 am and I, cope
3 am when I spoke
4 am and I'm alone
Said, 1 am and i froze
2 am at my low
3 am curtains are closed
4 am hurting In my soul

Trouble (prod.trbld boy)

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