he looks back at his past faith and realizes it was never holy, only human. The poison became his truth.

Poison creed

“Tome of Stars” is a 100 sonnet journey, equal parts art, therapy journal, and exorcism, both a celebration and an elegy, a single narrative arc tracing the birth and death of a relationship. All poetry by Stargazer. The verse and accompanying synthetic art and music are public domain, CC0, with no restrictions on use. Nothing is monetized. See below for links on how to access the print, PDF, audio, ePub, video, and music files. 
Website: https://www.tomeofstars.net/

The fifth Item of “Tome of Stars”, “Quixotosis”, marks the poet’s transformation into a sustained state of paradox with an enduring condition of impractical idealism born not from naive delusion but from its aftermath. Emerging from the frozen void of “Anemochory“, these sixteen poems depict a fractured self that has ceased resisting its nature, accepting permanent separation from the beloved while continuing to orbit her in love without expectation (and in the end, without hope) of return.

“Boxing Day, 2024” is a free verse lament marking the precise moment when the poet relinquishes his last hope of hearing again from his beloved, certainly in any fashion that could be meaningful in the raw essence his longing required. The poem is raw, disordered, and visceral, formally abandoning rhyme and meter to express emotional collapse. Anchored in the memory of the 2004 Indian Ocean tsunami—an event that had once reconnected them through the catalyst of global tragedy—the poem mourns the absence of a renewed contact on the 20th anniversary of that event. What begins as an invocation of grief and trauma concludes with exhausted defeat. The poem chronicles a vigil held in emotional ruin, where the silence of the beloved, now seen as definitive, is internalized as the final blow. The poet, having sustained fantasy for decades, at last allows it to die, not through anger or argument, but through absence and unacknowledged loss.

This poem does not further the relationship; it buries it. It is the moment the poet accepts, not by conviction but by exhaustive defeat, that his beloved will never return, never answer, and never truly loved him at all. In that sense, the poem does not merely end the “Quixotosis” section, but it ends the fantasy itself. “Scripture”, the meta-reflective epilogue to the collection, can only follow such death.

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Lyrics

Bone-shattered-heaven-damned lune
zombie-lurching months (campus dark and hunted light)
yourface yourlaugh yourwalk yoursmell

waking: (cold) empty-life-waltz hotel room laptop news
d-r-u-n-k mother nature’s black INFANTICIDE
one quarter million tombs befoul stirred seas

i broke unholy silences. i bled cross fiber optics
we touched. and wept. and vowed
never ever let love die

i choke on it now//\\twenty year deathversary
mourning every moment of our rot
continents sundered ——— i felt your heart tonight
((((*in timeless unspace*))))

ruined resurrection as you vomit infinite silence
rank guts a’sloshin’ o’er hateful shores
blinging our grave by cemetery seas

sorry, stargirl
i just couldn’t make it rhyme

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Internet Archive
Book of sonnets:
https://archive.org/details/tome-of-stars/

Music:
Item 1, Anthesis: https://archive.org/details/Anthesis/
Item 2, Senescence: https://archive.org/details/senescence_tomeofstars
Item 3, Sporogenesis: https://archive.org/details/Sporogenesis_TomeOfStars/
Item 4, Anemochory: https://archive.org/details/Anemochory_TomeOfStars
Item 5, Quixotosis: https://archive.org/details/Quixotosis_TomeOfStars
Item 6, Scripture: https://archive.org/details/Scripture_TomeOfStars

Boxing Day 2024

"Frogs symbolize transformation, emotional healing, intuition, and are associated with personal growth, cleansing, and rebirth."
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LYRICS:
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Croak in the shadows
Coak in the heat
Something’s coming up — 

Frogs in the street
Frogs in the street

Rain hits the pavement
Banners in the sky
Croak for tomorrow
Leap for a lie

Frogs don’t freeze
We rise from the mud
Every ribbit’s a warning
A positive flood

Portland Nights
Got the rhythm
Got the spark

Paint on the walls
Singing loud in the dark

Cycle of change 
In the echo of our feet
Prophecy croaks — 

Frogs in the street

Frogs in the street! 
Rebirth in the riot
Frogs in the street! 
No peace
We won’t quiet

From the mud we leap
From the storm we speak
The sign is alive — 

Frogs in the street!  

Green little prophets on a city block
Croakin’ out freedom
Tickin’ like a clock

Luck in the air
Omens in the rain
Croak against the system
Croak against the chain

They say “law and order"
We say “ribbit, please"  
Comedy strikes harder 
Than gas clouds sting

The future’s am'phibian
You can hear it repeat
A thousand voices — 

Frogs in the street!

ICE… ICE… BABY 
ribbit, ribbit
ICE… ICE… BABY 
ribbit, ribbit
ICE… ICE… BABY 
ribbit, ribbit
ICE… ICE… BABY 

Yo Frog check it
Freaky Frog ribbit
Leap to the mic 
And the crowd gets with it

ICE on patrol
But we hop
Don’t stop
Croakin’ revolution 
On the Portland block

Stop, listen — 
Hear that croak
Truth in the joke 
And the joke is woke

From the pond to the protest
Frogs unite
Comedy’s the weapon 
And the future’s bright

ICE… ICE… BABY ribbit, ribbit 
ICE… ICE… BABY ribbit, ribbit 
ICE… ICE… BABY ribbit, ribbit 

Ribbit real loud
Let the city shake
Rebirth croaks 
Make the power quake
They got cages
But frogs got feet
Leaping over fences — 
Frogs in the street!  

ICE… ICE… BABY
BABY BABY 

Luck’s on our side
Future’s in reach
Croakin’ out wisdom 
That the schools can’t teach

You can’t drown a chorus
Can’t freeze the beat
Better watch your back — 

Frogs in the street!  

Frogs in the street! 
Rebirth in the riot
Frogs in the street! 
No peace
We won’t quiet

From the mud we leap
From the storm we speak
The sign is alive — 

Frogs in the street!  

ICE… ICE… BABY BABY BABY 
ICE… ICE… BABY BABY BABY 
ICE… ICE… BABY BABY BABY 
ICE… ICE… BABY BABY BABY 
ribbit… ribbit
ribbit... ribbit 

Frogs in the street!

ICE… ICE… BABY BABY BABY 

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Final Execution (Armageddon)

The Unseen