2020 Playlist

Lucky to be alive
Lucky to be alive
My brother, concern in his eyes
He said "you'd better believe in something, kid"
But I never did


Uncertainty
Certainly led me to sink, and put up my guard
So try not to think too hard

Better to feel alright
I should embrace the absurd, flow in the only river
I've known, that we've ever known
And stumble out and into a stormy scene
Rainy season pouring down on me
Oh this life is better when it's unknown
I'm almost certain it's so

Better to not think twice
Bliss for the ignorant sons and daughters who sought no wisdom
With hope, wherever they go
And drift on oceans calmer than the softest sea
Never sifting through its mystery
Oh this life is better when it's unknown
I'm almost certain it's so

Lucky to be alive
Lucky to be alive
My brother, concern in his eyes

Concern In His Eyes

It's Gonna Be A Good Sunset

It is dark down here
Heard her barking sounds disappear
Crushing cold of the ocean

Let it die my love
I'll be fine because
Everyone is underwater
Everyone is underwater

Please forgive my words
If I live, tie bounds 'round the sounds you heard
Muffle all that's appalling

I have no control
My descent is slow
Everyone is underwater
Everyone is underwater

Everyone Is Underwater

Buried all that I had
In an ocean in the sand
Every memory, regret, belief and fantasy

Water
The desert into mud
I can't wait to wash out with the flood

Water

I struggle with death sometimes
The quiet unknown
The settled down
There's power in silence (but I)

I say it out loud sometimes
"Well aren't you alive,
My little disturbed, polite, absurdist nightmare"

We had a family friend
I hadn't seen her in years
We looked her up
We found her in time
And found she'd died

	To lay awake in bedsheets, smothered
	We'd made believe, not three feet tall
	Now aged, I need another
	But I am not an easy lover
	So I meet her in the middle (and)

I struggle with death sometimes
The slowest defeat
A balance found
In scribbling words down
I'm living in birdsong now

The Slow Defeat

Deer in the headlights
Fear in the eyes
We've come a long, long way
I gotta say it's been a long fuckin time
And I've forgotten my lines
And I'm feeling this wine

Funny, one year ago
I could talk to strangers, I suppose
It was in my nature to ride the flow
Of any conversation, comfortable
In all situations, now I watch in silence
I watch from the sidelines

Can we ever get back to then?
I wanna never have to act or pretend to smile
	(Hot summer weather and all my friends in the living room together again)

And here I was, getting afraid that my celebrating days were done - with a gun to my head I guess I'm having fun

Funny, one beer ago
I was a disaster, heart in my throat
Vic pours a large one, rum, splash of coke
Nerves turn to laughter, can't resist
You're telling stories of course, man I've missed that
God how I've missed that

Can we ever get back to then?
I wanna never have to act or pretend to smile
	(Hot summer weather and all my friends in the living room together again)
I'm gonna get too drunk tonight
I'm gonna hold your head to mine
	(Hot summer weather and all my friends)

Light to the East, it's beach time, sunrise, pink-gold fire makes angels of my people
All I came here do was be a presence in a room, only in it for a minute, now I'm singing old songs with you

Can we ever get to how it was then?
	(Don't wanna worry bout a thing)
I wish it was two thousand and ten
	(I wanna shout and sing)
	(Hot summer weather and all my friends in the living room together again)
I'm gonna get too drunk tonight
	(It's just what I wanna do)
I'm gonna hold your hair back tight
	(you're gonna know that I love you)
	(Hot summer weather singing "all my friends" in the living room together again)

What fucker stole my lighter

2010

I can't stay awake
Cats eyes glitter and swim in the dream
Pretty in full beam
I'm in a car
I'm not driving, I've been released
To empty my head, at least for a while
And I keep forgetting what you're saying with each passing mile
I see you smile

I'm nodding
Thinking of nothing
Lost to the rushing sound of the road
No red lights
No red lights
No red lights

Dead to the world
Dark in the middle of some park in the West
Puddle on my chest
You brake a little hard
My eyes open and your hand is on my knee
I turn in my seat and fall back to sleep
Return to illusions, visions that surface and bubble and recede 

I'm nodding
Thinking of nothing
Lost to the rushing sound of the road

Nearly there
I don't really care
if we turn around and go home
There's no red lights
No red lights
No red lights

No Red Lights

I used to make electronic songs as "the AP," now I make guitar based songs.