An original rock song. Taking it back to maybe a 90's style. I'm enjoying different genres than my old pop-punk roots.

You've Come Undone

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Lyrics: 

I've had this burden for so long
and I can't let it go
Feels like a life that all went wrong
a sadness in my soul
How can I let my choices go
Only You can make me whole

My youth was lived with a mind that only one was me
We all lived in our heads in the lie that we were free
You moved me through the facade and taught me truth instead

They try to tell me that I'm fine
I know something's wrong
That there is no real big design
My convictions are too strong
My thoughts are different now this time
His Forgiveness is divine

Take this please
Far from me

My youth was lived with a mind that only one was me
We all lived in our heads in the lie that we were free
You moved me through the facade and taught me truth instead

My Burden

Lyrics: 

I took a trip to see you on the night train
The rain was cold, the city was asleep
I wasn't sure if I was dreaming
It felt so real, but maybe I was resting deep

The neon lights lit up the atmosphere
And I saw you there
But you ran and disappeared
I tried to find you in a high rise
In the empty halls, like a stranger in disguise

In the world behind my eyes

The future is a place I called home
That I recognized, but now seems unknown
I see you distant behind glass walls
Eluding time, and again your gone

In the world behind my eyes

High Rise

Lyrics: 

What  a time to say we're alive
We got it good but we're straight on a downslide
Not sure if we even survive
Insteada' makin' friends we're just closing our eyes
We're just obsessed with with makin' a mess
Sayin' we know who's best
We can't confess that we're lost like the rest
When put to the test that we're less than the best
We can't profess that we're just pickin' sides

(We're not fine)

Everyone thinkin' that they got the truth
But what does that mean if you make up what's true? 
What you call identity I call a lie
If identity's just what you're feeling inside
We can't be real if our feelings conceal
Reality dealing is realist appeal
The wool of deceit has been pulled on your eyes
The lying, stop trying, I see your disguise
These feelings are fleeting and I see you reeling
What's real is misleading, conceding to hide

You want a ticket
You wannna know me but this rides hit the end of the line
Truth always matters
This is the world we live in
We can make the most of our time

What are we holding on to? 
We're coasting but I'm not sure that we will make it back in time
If we don't turn back this ship we'll be stranded
If there's not an anchor or a line

Our time is put to the test
Society's become undressed
We're more concerned with a turn
To let it all burn than give it a rest
This will only last so long
You say you're right but you know you're wrong
You've lost your way at the end of the day
You'd rather throw it all away than get along

You've got your ticket
But you're not moving 'cause you're still at the back of the line
I'll see you later
You're going nowhere and you're motives will get you left behind

What are we holding on to? 
We're coasting but I'm not sure that we will make it back in time
If we don't turn back this ship we'll be stranded
If there's not an anchor or a line

We need a comeback
We need a comeback
We need a comeback before it's too late and this is the last time
We need a comeback
We need a comeback
We need a comeback and make it last

What are we holding on to? 
We're coasting but I'm not sure that we will make it back in time
If we don't turn back this ship we'll be stranded
If there's not an anchor or a line

Anchor or Live

Anchor or Line

Lyrics: 

I woke up on a Monday morning, thought  something was wrong
All my constant aches and pains, and bad migraines that last for days, well somehow they were gone
I knew that I had bills to pay, that mortgage debt was long
But the strangest part is that the street lit up my feet in color deep, and in fact my house was gone 

So where have I gone? 

This life is a journey 
And sometimes the moments
Start dragging you down
But there's more than we know of
That much we know is true 
So just keep on searching
For the one that will get you through 

He's calling, and will wipe away your tears
If you're falling, just let him take your fears
Some say it's nonsense and we're all just here on our own
But without hope we can't cope
So just let it go 

I remember being on the table
Doctor said it won't be long
My wife and mother stood beside me, they were crying but I heard them say I'm going home
I thought about the life I'd led, the things I said inside my head
I know I done some good and bad, I'd loved and lost and been a dad
But now I'm moving on

The world keeps on turning
We're yearning for something
To make us alive
There's more than we know of
Faith helps to know it's true
We're not just some lost cause
There's a purpose for me and you
He's calling, and will wipe away your tears
If you're falling, just let him take your fears
Some say it's nonsense and we're all just here on our own
But without hope we can't cope
So just let it go 

I'm ready and I'll see you soon

Where Have I Gone

I remixed this track from an old band's Demo CD I found, recorded live on an 8 track in a friend's basement in 2001. Hope you enjoy!

I'll Move On

Cost of Living - 2001 live 8 track remix (I'll Move On)

Lyrics: 

I found you when I wasn't looking for you
Little did I know that my life was gonna change at a hole where I drank the nights away
From there I took a bet on it
Haven't looked back, not a moment I regret it
That place where the 80s music played

One kiss and a new life in a day
We're a bit of all right that's never gonna change
We've seen our ups and downs
Lotta laughter and a few tough rounds
But our love is always here to stay

The calendars moved along a few years to grow us
A couple of kids, new friends, new faith to show us
Some traveling's gone, but it's a brand new song
This life gets better as we move on
From that place where the 80's music played

One kiss and a new life in a day
We're a bit of all right and that's never gonna change
We've seen our ups and downs
Lotta laughter and a few tough rounds
But our love is always here to stay

The days were long but then I met you and you gave the music back to me
So here's this song

I think about the years ahead when we're old and gray
When the kids are gone and it's just us left to play
I'll look at the back at the time that we spent
Always in my arms from the day that we met
At the place where the 80's music played

One kiss and a new life in a day
We're a bit of all right and that's never gonna change
We've seen our ups and downs
Lotta laughter and a few tough rounds
But our love is always here to stay

Where the 80's Music Played

Where The 80's Music Played

Lyrics: 

Not My Enemy 

What holds you captive?
Who do you serve?
Common wisdom has you thinking that you only get what you deserve
Got my back pinned
Against the wall
How am I supposed to respond with any love at all?

Now you're not my enemy
Finally I can see
Not my enemy

Where is our wisdom?
A hope that transcends
We all need a Savior that can help us to begin again
My eyes have been opened
I'm done with your lies
I'm not gonna see you as an enemy that I despise

Now you're not my enemy
Now you're not my enemy
Finally I can see
Not my enemy
Now you're not my enemy
Finally I can see

Not My Enemy

Lyrics: 

Come on girl I think I know ya
Wanna make a bet and I think I'll show ya
Let's have a good time
We've got a lifetime

I've had a hard time
It's been a tough ride
But in the meantime
Guess I'll think about you in the middle of a lonely night
You were with that guy
You said he's alright
Can't help that I got you on my mind and soul and I know that he's
not your type

I guess you moved on
And now I've moved up
But now the night are long and baby you know I want you by my side

I'll come around a time or two
Maybe you can show me something new
Let's remember
Oh, when it was just me and you
just me and you

I remember when the nights were spent on the back roads
in our plain clothes
We never let the sun go down without getting it on in another town
We never let our love run dry, it was you and me and the world to try
I'm can't forget you
I'm glad I met you

I think about you day and night
What coulda been, you were outta sight
I shoulda never let you go, the world was ours and you oughta know

Let's remember
When it was just me and you

Just Me & You

Lyrics: 

Do you remember what you told me
That night when you were lonely
You said you had a voice in your head
And the light was going out slowly
You'd never been afraid of the dark
But had a pain in your heart and it was coming apart
I didn't know what to say, I was lost myself
Like any other day

We used to spend our afternoons
Smoking cigarettes in the other room
We'd listen to that new song on repeat
Until the lights came on
Didn't know that it was that bad
I never knew about your step-dad
When I think about what might have been
What I could have, should have done with the chance again

Doesn't seem so long
When the years are gone
Now we've all moved on
But the memories are strong
Never thought I'd see
The day that you were gone

Late nights in downtown, with the windows down
And the Denver sounds
We had a good time, with the girls looking pretty
In the lights in the city
You said you wanted to drive, we're the first to get going
But the last to arrive
We never got tired
Those nights were wired

Later on we realized what we were doing then
Was a little misguided
When I knew you couldn't hide it
You weren't going to fight it
I remember that I saw you in the middle of the night
And you weren't alright
And that's the last time
Your flame ignited

Doesn't seem so long
When the years are gone
Now we've all moved on
But the memories are strong
Never thought I'd see
The day that you were gone

Like Any Other Day

I started this fire
I started this fire and it's burning
One look, one glance, the fire is lit and now I can't put it out
A whisper of desire, softly 
The devil's on my shoulder and he's calling out
All in, begin
The flames are in the cell and I'm looking for an exit out
Controlled by my own self-doubt

I'm haunted daily, you know (I'm haunted daily)
Jezebel is waiting
Can I free myself from her control? 
Stop me from changing
Don't want to be a creature that is out and has to search the night

I see her standing at the back of the room
She says she wants me and she'll take my pain away
But I won't see the light of day
Held captive in a digital prison
She's holding my hand while my soul is going missing
Blue lights are shining in the dark
Now I finally heard what her intentions were
I'm going to get out of this twisted world
I'm breaking shackles and I'll fight another day

I'm haunted daily, you know (I'm haunted daily)
Jezebel is waiting
Can I free myself from her control? 
Stop me from changing
Don't want to be a creature that is out and has to search the night
Not going to be a creature that is out and has to search the night

I see the light
I'm in the light

Search the Night

Search The Night

Lyrics: 

I thought I was alone tonight
But I guess I was wrong
The stars were nowhere to be found
And the clouds and moon were gone
I only saw a light so bright
Once when I was young

A shadow hovered up above
And the whispers told me not to be afraid and I'll be filled
with a cosmic kind of love
I never knew how far I'd go
But it's confirmed - destination unknown

I'm floating through space and time
Not sure how long I've been here
Maybe five or ten or a thousand broken years
Every time I try to stand, I feel coldness on my hands
I try to see, to hear what I just can't understand
I hear them in my mind
And one thing is clear
That we're getting near...to...destination unknown

There are so many empty spaces
I'm trying to see all their eyes and faces (can't see them)
All alone in this empty room (let me out)
Somehow I know that a seventh moon
I highly doubt that's a satellite (where am I going)
Not even sure if it's day or night
Now I'm wishing I was back in my bed on a summer night
but I'm here instead (oh oh)
I wonder if they'll miss me
Will I make it home again?

A shadow hovered up above
And the whispers told me not to be afraid and I'll be filled
with a cosmic kind of love
I never knew how far I'd go
But it's confirmed - destination unknown
Destination unknown
Now I guess that I'm home

Single

Destination Unknown

Throwback to 90's techno...who likes it??

Undertow

The Co$t of Life is a synth/pop/rock musical project by Colorado songwriter and musician, Jason Irving.  It combines Jason's favorite elements of 80's pop, new wave and synthwave, punk and rock to create songs with a flair for nostalgia mixed with contemporary sounds. 

Learn more at: thecostoflifemusic.com

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