Ashley M.

TN 2

Bernadette

dope white boy songs pt 7

3/7/25

Bad Love w/Rivilin (prod.Sorrow Bringer)

I'm losing my soul
I'm losing control
I've got nowhere to go
I don't care if I fall

Send help, be quick please
‘Cause it seems that my life is in repeat
I’m waiting for your phone call baby, this silence is driving me crazy
I know that you love that you hate me, I’m too drunk to know that you blamed me
For every problem, every mistake and every time you made my heartbreak
I’m a fool for you, should of known better it was cruel of you
Know we’re done it's through
Crying so hard in the two-door coupe
Will you remember me? Tears in your eyes in my memories
It wasn’t meant to be but, just know I’ll still bleed for you
I'm losing my soul
I'm losing control
I've got nowhere to go
I don't care if I fall

Lately
Feel crazy
Thoughts of you, back to back, got me shaking
Fuck around with a dumb mix I ain't safe b
Self-harm in the form of bliss it amaze it
Dazy
Hazy
I ain’t know where I am wake up achy
Crust up blood on my lip fuck so I take these
Chalk white pills to forget what I can be

Damaged
And frantic
Ya cold heart take advantage
Baby

Manic
You savage
My poor heart you gone damaged

Lately
Soul lost
Glazed eyes
Dead face under bangs baby

Same thoughts
With the same lies
I ain’t want this so I fade, daily

I'm losing my soul
I'm losing control
I've got nowhere to go
I don't care if I fall

Fall (feat SLOTHBOI) prod. sorrowbringer x amalia

Miserable Man

What's the point of being in love
What is the use of feeling numb
I never asked for much, All I wanted was your heart
I guess I'm not the one, I'll never be enough
My Lonely broken heart
you knew this from the start
I'll never be enough, for you 

will she stop and hear me sing, will you turn and run away
I've been crying out for her, but you don't want to stay
Boy don't turn out like me, a worthless waste of space
I don't want to live, I'm so sick of empty days
I used to want to spend my time reinvent my life for the better
Ever since she left I don't have to drive to do any better

Never Been Enough (prod. Sorrow Bringer)

Was this all a joke to you
I bled out all this hope for you
This shit should be hurting but
I'm not feeling this
Was it a mistake, it's true
I grew numb just waiting on you
I should be in agony but
I'm not feeling this 

Yeah I know, I was puppet in one of your shows
I was your favourite, you called me baby
Tell me you loved me than let me go
I think it's crazy, you were amazing
Under your spell you were driving me crazy
Then you grew out of me, left me behind 
I was suffering, it was too much for me
I wish I could erase you from my memories
Look me in my eyes and tell me what you see
How could you fuck me over and wanna be friends with me

Was this all a joke to you
I bled out all this hope for you
This shit should be hurting but
I'm not feeling this
Was it a mistake, it's true
I grew numb just waiting on you
I should be in agony but
I'm not feeling this 

Aye, but not really sad cuz one day I know you gunna me up
And those feeling died on the day you left me all fucked up
So you wanna know, I don't need you i've had time to grow
So don't hit my phone, I don't need you when i'm about blow up
Baby girl I know that this over
The puppet queen has fallen from the throne  yeah
I remember when shit was colder
I just hope that you get better when your older 

Was this all a joke to you
I bled out all this hope for you
This shit should be hurting but
I'm not feeling this
Was it a mistake, it's true
I grew numb just waiting on you
I should be in agony but
I'm not feeling this

i grew numb waiting for you (prod. Sorrowbringer)

Edge of the Earth (feat. Nathan Buttel) [prod. Nathan Buttel & Daycatcher]

People

@fleshgolem

(flesh)
i've been sitting with my thoughts
without your company i'm lost
i wish i didn't overthink every part 
of the words that you said in a dream

(TNS)
Sitting as the cars go by 
Thinking about you and I 

Say that you hate me 
While you degrade me 
I got nothing in my brain to hold onto 
Holding onto nothing but the fear that I haunt you 

And you’re stuck in my head 
And you’re lost 
In my bed 
While you stare at me get outta my head

(flesh)
i hope that i dont mess this up
got so much love to give to ya
sometimes i think i'm not enough
intrusive thoughts can't break me
and so i try to loosen up 
so i don't lose my grip on us
i'm sorry that i've been impatient lately

(TNS)
Say that you hate me 
While you degrade me 
I got nothing in my brain to hold onto 
Holding onto nothing but the fear that I haunt you 

And you’re stuck in my head 
And you’re lost 
In my bed 
While you stare at me get outta my head

Sitting as the cars go by 
Thinking about you and I 

Say that you hate me 
While you degrade me 
I got nothing in my brain to hold onto 
Holding onto nothing but the fear that I haunt you

Sitting As The Cars Go By [+ jasco]

I can't sleep at all wit u next to me cus im just busy grabbin
prod. perish x Arjun
Mixed by me

heartless (prod. @perishbeats & @arjunxsingha)

distance📍

Love is in the air, theirs nothing to compare 
Silence is kicking in but I still feel obnoxious

Don’t tell me I’m just outta options 
You make me the person I want to 

Understand the reasons I want you 
Make up for the time that I left you 

The silence is killing me, and I think about you every night 

I’ll think about you every night without a thought inside my mind
I’ll cherish every single night 
I’ll reach in between the lines 

The silence is killing me, and I think about you every night 

Don’t tell me I’m just outta options 
You make me the person I want to 

Understand the reasons I want you 
Make up for the time that I left you 

The silence is killing me, and I think about you every night 

Love is in the air, theirs nothing to compare 
Silence is kicking in but I still feel obnoxious

But I feel obnoxious
God your so dishonest 
But I got so much love for you in my heart

OBNOXIOUS! [+ secre x heyrick]

Locked away getting ready a meltdown
It’s not the same when your locked up in my head now 

Feelings go away but baby I’m obsessed now 
I can’t do nothing right so fill my head with self doubt 

Anxiety just fills my brain until I decay 
Nothing seems the same when your locked in my brain

I ain’t ready for a lockdown 
Fill my my head with self doubt 
There’s nothing to be proud about 

Turn my fucking focus to the backroads 
Fill the empty promises with poison in itself love 

Hate the voice of reason 
I can’t wrap my brain around it 

Feel like I’m the one chased by the people that care about me

ERROR404 [+ michael harrison]

Skin so cold, it’s made of snow 
Been in the belly of the beast don’t fight him 

Think her head is made of stone
Hit my phone, you’ll hear the tone 

Your faded, I’m jaded
Please don’t hit my phone 

Your brain is icy cold 
Can’t wait to hit the road  

Feel my lungs fully collapse 
Think my hearts made out of glass 
Feel my thoughts start to relapse 
While you’re still laying in my bed 

Think I’ve had of enough of the thoughts in my head 
Rot away everything from my chest to my brain 

The growing pains hold me back
I feel the stab in my back 
Why do things always go bad 
(I wish I knew)

(riptenshi)
i always felt so alone
like i had nowhere to go
and just nowhere to call home
and with no one to call my own
grew up so lost all alone
no patience and no fucking hope
the walls close in in my home
i can feel it in my chest every time that we talk

Think I’ve had of enough of the thoughts in my head 
Rot away everything from my chest to my brain 

The growing pains hold me back
I feel the stab in my back 
Why do things always go bad 
(I wish I knew)

Skin so cold, it’s made of snow 
Been in the belly of the beast don’t fight him 

Think her head is made of stone
Hit my phone, you’ll hear the tone 

Your faded, I’m jaded
Please don’t hit my phone 

Your brain is icy cold 
Can’t wait to hit the road

Growing Pains

Tear out my eyes and fall on the floor
No one’s around me, I feel so alone  

Haven’t the brightest idea of what I’ll do with my life 

I’ll take your hand and follow I’ll you into the night 

I’ll follow you into the dark as you eat me alive  

Tear out my eyes and fall on the floor
No one’s around me, I feel so alone  

Haven’t the brightest idea of what I’ll do with my life 

I’ll take your hand and follow I’ll you into the night 

I’ll follow you into the dark as you eat me alive  

Rip off my hands I promise you can take my life

eat me alive [+ michael harrison]

The Dichotomy

Darkerside

Love Is Going To Kill Us

Heaven Sees

California Nights

porch lights (treez x ryan kelly)

LES GO! #NOAH808 + VEIL

prod by me and jacob vallen

wont eat for a while
my stomaches been aching
and im not myself 
not as of lately
few months ill heal right? im hardly inpatient
its not feeling real, counting cracks in the pavement
takes all i have to pull my anchor out
i dont know who i am, know everything about u
takes all i have, to make the words come out
im making nothing last, im pretty anxious now
 
dont tell me "people change" like you look down on me
you always said "its nothing" its alot to me
started turning heads, wont look back at me 
was just more of the same a little differently
giving nothing back 
its not important now
things u take for granted 
let my anger out 
i just cant grasp it
nah, its not important now

takes all i have to pull my anchor out
i dont know who i am, know everything about u
takes all i have, to make the words come out
im making nothing last, im pretty anxious now

for a while

closed off (nihil2free x woahsxda)

prod by melon @melonsly <333

i think its wise
to let it go unsaid
theres words that dont sit right
dont know if id regret em
but youve been so unkind 
were signs i just misread em
these feelings tucked inside 
only show through if i let em

why do i
feel so replaceable 
wonder why
thought i could wait for anyone
this might come back to bite me
if u listen at all
at every step know youl fight me
wont get far at all

u dont understand
i cant talk to u
say it all in ur absense
if i wrote a letter id find it in half 
i thought it'd be better when i got attached
u dont understand
i cant talk to u
say it all in ur absense
if i wrote a letter id find it in half 
i thought it'd be better when i got attached

i think its wise
to let it go unsaid
theres words that dont sit right
dont know if id regret em
but youve been so unkind 
were signs i just misread em
these feelings tucked inside 
only show through if i let em

unkind

Ladders and tables
I can hear them crashing all around me
Like stories and fables
This is what my dreams are made of

Cash in, cash out, cash in, bring the cash back out yeah
Maybe my time has left me 

But you’re the gold and you’re the prize 
And I’m always gon climb, yo, yo, yo 

But the fall is lethal

Ladders and tables
I can hear them crashing all around me
Like stories and fables
This is what my dreams are made of

Cash in, cash out
Cash in, bring the cash back out, yeah
Feel like a jobber man I’m losing every week 
And I know the spirit willing but this title reign is finished, yo, yo

I’m about to hang my boots up

Back in, back out, 
Back in, back in, back out, yeah 
You could never make your mind up

Back in, back out 
Back in, back in, back out, yeah 
You could never make your mind up

Fall is lethal
Fall is lethal
Fall is lethal

You could never make your mind up 

Hall: Okay, your middle name is “Macho,” but I’m wondering if you ever cry. Has Macho Man ever cried?

Savage: Yeah, uh huh, it’s okay for macho men to show every emotion available, because I’ve cried a thousand times, I’m gonna cry some more — but I’ve soared with the eagles and I’ve slithered with the snakes, and I’ve been everywhere in between and I’m gonna tell you something right now: There’s one guarantee in life — in that there are no guarantees, yeah. Andddd-uh understand this; nobody likes a quitter, nobody said life was easy. So if you get knocked down, take the standing eight count, get back up and fight again! And you’re a Macho-maniac. Dig it!

ladder match (prod. liminaldream)

Breathe In, Breathe Out

AMV:

https://youtu.be/lQ3M2R9Vzhk

Lyrics:

i luv you, i'll miss you
is it true?
when i cry, an angel does too
when i die, i'll see you

might crash my car today and blow my brain on the fuckin' highway
i know we'll be okay when i'm no longer breathing
i had a death wish for myself, ain't have a fuckin' reason
i left my mom all by herself and now she's stuck in grieving
i took my life, they took my soul, and now my dogs are bleeding
what's the reason? (what's the reason?)

i left this earth, now i can't even hold your hand
you're too weak, you can't even stand
with all of the trauma, i'm sorry mama
i made you bleed, i made you bleed
i made you bleed like me
i made you bleed like me
a dog is dead, under autumn leaves
calling me, calling me
a dog is dead
i luv you, i'll miss you
it's the end

Credits:

Art: s0ftskelet0ns
Production: s0ftskelet0ns x ryan kelly
Mix/Master: yunny goldz

i left this earth prod. s0ftskelet0ns x ryan kelly

prod. oliver01

lyrics:
yea
i look up
at the sky
i don't feel like anything
compared to all the stars tonight
and if we really came from them
maybe that's why we come 2 life
i'm so full of inspiration
i'll give you my heart tonight
i hope that you get me

I’ve been working so damn hard
she went and stole my heart
I really try my best 
But I didn’t make it far 
I’m really tryna be the one 
Tryna come back to life 
Steady grippin’ on this gun
Feel like they threatening my life

Be like hold up, we can roll up 
We can smoke up out the O
We can pour up, till we throw up
That’s all I know
I only feel alive when you be next to me 
Baby I’m confused the way you texting me

Hop in the whip and I’m pulling up 
I got your back got a hold of you
You so damn perfect I hope that you know it
She said she got insecurities 
Baby stop the please
Let me be the one you love 
Bae you got me on my knees

i'll never give it up, give it up
i need that encore, encore
but i can't feel enough, feel enough
i think i want more, want more

come2life ft. treez (oliver01)

I know that you hate me, that's been on me since you've been gone
feeling regret, nicotine of my breath, i hate what what I've become
wish i could of been a better man for you, wish i could do all things to bring heart in bloom 
now you're gone, i'm facing the abyss alone
i don't want to be alone
i miss your long brown hair falling down upon my chair, i still keep all of your trinkets
to show you that i still care
i'll be waiting in the rain, swallowed whole consumed by pain
and if never get to see you, i hope that never have to feel this way

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nicotine

Free Download

Nicotine (prod. Nexeration)

Lyrics :
Hook:
I feel like my life is crashing down
All of my friends are strangers now
I just want to fly into the clouds
And hopefully make everybody proud

Verse: 
Its hard when nothing will ever change
When it rains all we feel is pain
And everyday we act the same
The only ones that we can blame
Are ourselves
I understand you cant ask for help
That's how I felt

PROD : FLEX
ARTIST: ILUVTRAGEDY