its late at night
did some things that i regret
now im just thinking about you constantly in my head
i think my emotions are becoming attached to you
even just after these few times that we met

i dont know if i should accept these emotions that take over me
or cease the energy from flowing in the same cycles
so many different times [?]
i dont want to listen [?] freedom
resentment 
this is rejection and resentment 
this is depressing [?] im flexing
im standing alone [?]

im resenting it back, sending it back, sending it back
its late at night
did some things that i regret
now im just thinking about you constantly in my head
i think my emotions are becoming attached to you
even just after these few times that we met yuh x 2

met BUT IT DOESNT EVEN FUCKING MATTER CUZ YOU DONT FUCKING LOVE ME (pitched down moan) YOU FUCK fuck fucking EVEN CARE YOU KNOW WHAT IM DONE WITH THIS LOVE SHIT LITERALLY THE SAME SHIT FUCKING HAPPENS EVERY GOD DAMN TIME NOTHING ELSE FUCKING WORKS i want this fucking emotion ripped out of my fucking body FOR FUCKING REAL (sigh) fuck love man fuck it FUCK ITTT (tries turning off the light i think) why won't it turn off :/

Love, A Broken Dream

The Last Crush

Production by LordQuan

yeah uh ay
i found this beat on youtube just typed in like travis scott type beat
noccanism

ay ay ay ay
there's this new girl that i have met
i think ive become to emotionally attached
ay ay ay
when i see her with another guy
anger and sadness leak out the dispatched
i dont know if its a sign that my higher cells have sent me
or if its something that will detriment me
she spent 4 nights in everything
nice, beautiful, vibrant, ginger hair cute little freckles on her face everywhere
she's an amazing drawer and painter
no type of challenge could restrain her
she says that she likes my art to
which gave me a boost 
to creatively push through
but she's kinda hard
so im just talking nonsense 
knowing that it makes my hate for love more immense
but its not her fault its not mine
i guess the universe just doesn't want us to line
but i wanna be alined
we get along so well and have so much in common
i think about her all the time while eating ramen raaaamen

[?]
it doesn't matter because in the end she has a boyfriend
[?]
i dont even know anymore ill just leave society 
where nobody cares about me 
go its my inner core (core)

you're just being over dramatic
the energy between me and her is fucking V E G A S  S T A T I C
she dont even care about me
i asked her what's wrong one time
and she said nothing
when she obviously showed me signs of drowning

i could tell by how she looked
not by empathy
i can't really feel for humans
i feel like most have resented me
so ill just distance myself from her
so when she thinks of me
all she'll see is a bur 
and my heart [?] imbalance 
i need to heal this show this energy and talent
we were never really meant to be

Too Attached

oh yeah, oh yeah yeah

this girl is so far away
but i still confess everyday 
everyday
we found each other alive
but when i try to talk to her i chicken out every time
every time 
and i finally did and it was the biggest moment in my life 
life

there's a girl that i dont love
it was such a big adventure
us smiling at the thing you said 
and i said to her

this girl is so far away but i see her face everyday 
everyday
we found each other alive
when i tried to talk to her i chicken out all the time
all the time
and i finally did and it was the biggest moment in my life 
life

there's a girl that i dont love
it was such a big adventure
us smiling at the thing you said 
and i said to her
but it didn't work out us together
it didn't work out
it didn't work out
you just curved me
[?]
it didn't work out (repeated)

Distance Doesn't Work

The Training EP

Intense Day Training (Prod. Exit through the Drome)

Lorem Ipsum

-lyrics-

you hide for the last time 
lucid eyes on my down time 

oh my god it’s for real
we running round like people on a field 
your daughter was gonna play a thing 
i wander to your house what you bring 
your husband was at work your kids were not home 
invited me inside the two of us alone 
your words were nothing but normal 
but the moves in your body weren’t formal 
you had inside your mind what you really wanna do
why you grabbing my hands and putting them all over you 
heart start racing people at the door
you told to come over tomorrow at four

you can’t keep doing this

hide&seek (prod. drylids)

its nothing a few words cant fix 
but i’m still stuck with my tongue between my lips 
if i can’t stand i’ll try and sit 
if i can’t breathe i’ll just, stop
my thoughts are on me like skin 
but i can’t say them without feeling worn thin 
the same things get told to me 
one side one sided 
dissociate when scold me
one side one sided 
its nothing a few words cant fix 
but i’m still stuck with my tongue between my lips 
if i can’t stand i’ll try and sit 
if i can’t breathe i’ll just, stop
my thoughts are on me like skin 

you never wanted out but a knew a place to go 
i find the way you waste and now you wanna roll
like down the windy road
all my dreams are like water on skin
now just wash it away 
got you crawling out my skin 
wash it away 
got you crawling out my skin 

in my fucking feelings since a stupid younger me
i couldn’t stop was blind to see
i couldn’t be in my own skin 
was always misunderstood 
and i’m still missing it now
never where i want to be 
and then you dap but i don’t know how to roll to act to look 
i was always fucking judged like the cover of a book 

now just wash it away 
got you crawling out my skin 
wash it away 
got you crawling out my skin

SKINS - (PROD.KAMATAYAN)

prod: @zukixoxo
art: @ghostwheeel

LYRICS:
ME AND ZUKI WE BEEN GLICKED UP SINCE THE JUMP
GOT YO BITCH IN THE BACKSEAT PRESS MY DICK AGAINST HER TONGUE 
AYE AUXXI I WAS OFF AN AUXXI
HITTIN LICKS WITH BDDLY
THAT HOE FUCKIN TRASHY 
THROW HER IN A DUMPSTER 
BITCH I BEEN CRAWLIN THRU A GUTTER
YEAH I FEEL LIKE KAMATAYAN HOW I ALWAYS KEEP A CUTTER
YEAH YEAH
PUSSY WANNA FUCK WITH ME THEN WE CAN RUN THAT
PRESS HIM LIKE A THUMB TACK ARTS AND CRAFTS
I WHIPPED OUT MY DICK SHE STARTED SUCKING ON THAT
BULLET HOLES IN YOUR FUCKIN WHIP AND YOU DONT WANT THAT
I WILL FUCK YOU UP IF WE EVER COME IN CONTACT
BLADE ALL ON MY HIP IM ALWAYS READY FOR COMBAT
PUNCH BACK PUSSY I SAID PUNCH BACK
I FEEL LIKE MEPHISTO HOW IM RAISING HELL ON ALL THESE BITCHES
NOW KEEP YO BODY STILL THAT BOY MOTHA FUCKIN TWITCHIN 
FRANKENSTEIN HIM WITH THE STITCHES 
LEAVE HIS CARCASS IN THE KITCHEN
JUMPIN BACK IN THE SEWER SO I GUESS IM FUCKIN SWIMING 
UH YEAH LIL CUTTER ON ME 
IM A GUTTER ON GS
THINK THAT WE SMOKIN FOR FREE?
FUCK NO
GOT YOU TIED DOWN
TORTURE YOU ON LIVE NOW
I FEEL LIKE THE PREDATOR I’LL FUCKIN RIP YOUR SPINE OUT
BITCH CALL ME ERNIE CAUSE I ALWAYS KEEP A 9 OUT
BITCH ON A GERNIE RIGHT AFTER WE FUCKIN FIGHT IT OUT
GHUUHIGUHISBVUHISD
(AYE YUH) X3
BRAINS ON MY BOOTS
I BE STEPPIN WHEN I SHOOT
I BE CRUSHIN FUCKIN HEADS I BE STOMPIN UP ON YOU (UP ON YOU)
LIL BITCH IM SORRY THAT MY BULLETS DON'T MISS
GOT YOUR BITCH ALL ON HER KNEES I TOLD HER SHE CAN DRINK MY PISS
[TOP 10 REASONS TO DRINK MY PISS]

CRAWLIN THRU A GUTTER [PROD. ZUKI]

idk
Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8v5LNp2clJs
Download: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/no-theme

Time isn't real
its faker than the meat in a happy meal
I wanna fuck myself, the only love i feel
The nightmares up and arise, trapped in my own silent hill
Or the Dark Side Of Nature, and i will rule till killed
I cannot coexist with my cerebrum
Overthinking till hurts, cause implosion
Communication death, no oxygen
Primal state once again, I'm only semen
And whats the reason
You live in treason
There are no seasons
I cannot a ask of thee of what you really want from me
I am a degenerate, I'm straight edge but I'm edgy
Chanting through the woods and screaming that i want to be free
The universe shows it, it disintegrates my body
Shattered my reality
Atom to a galaxy
That into a universe
Im more worthless than a fucking germ
Chanting through the woods and screaming that i want to be free
The universe shows it, it disintegrates my body

Special snowflake fucking dead (repeated)

No Theme

Shattered Reality

The Young Demigod Begins His Next Chapter....

I guess I'm grown now since I've turned 18
But i still feel like a degenerate teen
And between these grown folks what's the difference
I dont wanna be apart of the system
(x2)

Delay... now back to what i say
18 years up on this planet and I've barely made a change
But the small things turn out great
So i guess ill just wait
But I've waited my whole life and now my life has been a waste
So im honing for the kill
Going back to the age of six
When i was outspoken
Not a pessimist, nihilistic bitch
Fucking signed up for the draft
They only see me as digits
Now I'm coming for their life
Hurl them down to tartarus

I guess I'm grown now since I've turned 18
But i still feel like a degenerate teen
And between these grown folks what's the difference
I dont wanna be apart of the system
(x2)

I am the night (repeated)
It's time to go (repeated)

Ay this beat is happy
I am not so happy
Only for a bit
Then depression fucking snatch me
(x2)

Dying of uncertainty, Im dying of uncertainty (repeated)

REBIRTH 18

18 BIRTHDAY

The Young Demigod Decides To Leave Home
Download: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/departure

The Young Demigod:
All you soundcloud rappers make the underground too toxic 
Threw your brains out window where the fuck the logic
Imma just make noise music till im fucking dead b
Experiment all the way to the end cause
I am Johnnascus
And Imma Demigod
Yes im asexual
That means i have no cock
Sneaking under your radar
Search me and i won't be found
Then i rise and rip your bloody spine and fucking take your crown
All you soundcloud rappers made the underground too toxic 
Threw your brains out window where the fuck the logic
They don't see the music just the praising and the profit
They just want acceptance, in their life they never got it
Oh no, hit a nerve that is so low
Deep up in the psyche
You wanna go aggro
Quickly lose your energy
Hit a point, you lose hope
Then i give you advice that brings you back to flow
Now you wanna worship me
Your life now i own
Meditate and do as i say you rajnee clone
Fuck around and start a cult then change my name osho
I'll change your life then ill give you false love and hope

Jboogie:
I AM NOT A DEMIGOD BUT BITCH U BETTER KNOW I AM A DEMON, SWALLOW ALL MY SEMEN, BUT AYE YOU KNOW IM CHECKIN ID’S, ATLEAST I GOT SOME MORALS G. FUCK U AND YA STEEZ WHY U LOOKIN LIKE A FULL CREEP. I DONT NEED TO FIGHT ALL YOUR BASE BELONG TO MINE. GO AHEAD AND CRY AND TALK ABOUT HOW VICTIMIZED YOU ARE, YALL AINT SHOOTING STARS, IVE SEEN BETTER WARS, THIS AINT SHIT THIS BORES, ALL YOU GOT ARE CARS, YOU AINT EVEN OWN THEM CARS WHY THE FUCK U FLEXIN CARS. GOOGLEY EYED FUCKAS LOOKIN LIKE THEY COMIN STRAIGHT OUTTA CARS.
WHAT THE FUCK.
I DONT KNOW, WHAT YOU DO, TO CONTRIBUTE
LOOK AT THE FOOLS, IGNORANCE RULES, 24 7
AINT SHIT, 13 ETERNAL, ITS OUR BUGGY KERNEL,
AYO JOHN HOW BOUT WE START THE INFERNO
FEEL THE DESERT
SAUNA WEATHER
YOU JUST BEWILDER
SWEAT OUT YOUR KILLER
FEEL ALL THE HEAT
TEXAS DEFEATS
ALL OF THE FLEETS
OF THE FUCKIN LEECHES
(X2)

Distance Doesn't Work

JOHNNASCUS