love song 




lonely
you are so lonely
bury
all of your worries
you are
so close to caring
for me
one day you'll see

you shot me
straight through my heart
i wait for
your love to start
i hate that
im so afraid
you're not there

push back
why won't you push back
see me
reciprocate me
hanging 
from under your tree
dangling
one day you'll see

straight through my heart

my walls my canvas
my guns my brush
if i knew, itd come to this
i wouldve stayed of touch

i mustve said
about a thousand times
i still need you
but you, cut my throat

i thought itd be easy
just give my love
i never expected 
you to strike that low

I
Hate
that you torture me
i 
hate
the things youve done

i bought some flowers
but theyre not for you
ill make sure
ill get a gift
up on my headstone
to make it look
like youre there for me
it cant
be that hard
to stop hurting me

and when its said and done
you wont hear from me again
ill buy a shotgun
with 1 shell
and put it to good use

the 
sheets
are stained, with regrets
cant
forgive
what you have 

my head is boiling
got wire round my neck
and everynight
im still dreaming 
about the past
i wanna love you
youll have to love me too
is that a promise you can keep
or will you break that too


big flats community park and my ability to love

miss america

w/ my friend @roadkill777

shes always online
cause shes so fucking stupid
says she likes anime
but she cant fucking prove it
i dont wanna know 
what youve got going for you
cause you got nothing
you are nothing
and i hope you die

you buy some new clothes
and think youre beautiful 
but you are not
you will always be a fucking troll

but its alright
just lay down
chug down the whole bottle
and take some pills now

shes a jirai
nothing behind her eyes
shes a jirai
fucked over a hundred guys
she always cuts herself
and posts that shit on twitter
but no one fucking cares
i love to watch her wither

(roadkill)

twisted perversions
of something 
once beautiful
i dont know
what the hell is
wrong with your soul

its in your eyes
you cant hide the lies
your a washed up whore
who cant have fun no more
seeking validation from losers
piece of shit, abuser

Jirai (ft Roadkill)

need to kms

why
did you lie
say goodbye
to this life 

why
do i grieve
my nose bleed
you hurt me

why did you have to say those words
knowing that they would make me hurt
when soon soon you’ll have to leave 
oh god how i was so naive

looking at the barrel of my gun
without you this life is so unfun
falling apart at the seams
oh how i want to scream

why
did you say
such sweet words
i never heard

why
do i care
you’re not here
was all fake

why did you have to say those words
knowing that they would make me hurt
when soon soon you’ll have to leave 
oh god how i was so naive

staring at the end of a empty bottle 
it’s not stopping all my trouble
knowing how much you mean to me 
oh how i want to scream

god
why 
do i feel this way
it’s so strange

god
why 
do i feel this way
it’s so strange

the words you say hurt me

You made me happy yea that’s a fact
And now you’ve gone away and now I’m sad (so sad)

Gone away yea she’s gone away

goneaway.mp3

im gonna upload this on spotify soon

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saw my face in a discord call, closed the app, couldnt take it all
i grew up online, and now im weird offline, cant look ppl in the eye
i googled how to fix my face, now all my ads know im a disgrace
just be yourself, yeah okay, which version tho, i got like 8
i don’t wanna play the villain
don’t wanna play the saint
i’m just tired of being trapped
inside my own fucking hate
i dont wanna be a monster
dont wanna be like them
i just wanna be with someone
who stays when i break down again

i grew up online

your love was fake
pills i had to take
your lies were tough
i need to forget you though

i miss our good old times
but i know this will never go back
i miss your good old mind
but now you hate me and theres no going back

you just
LOVE BOMB
LOVE BOMB
love bombed me

you just
LOVE BOMB
LOVE BOMB
love bombed me

i was always, your second option
i gave you all you needed
but my best 
wasnt enough

youre a selfish person
and you really cant see
i got depressed 
and you left me in the dust

you just
LOVE BOMB
LOVE BOMB
love bombed me

you just
LOVE BOMB
LOVE BOMB
love bombed me

#LOVE BOMB

instrumental

lyrics:

One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme to explain in due time
All I know time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day, the clock ticks life away

It's so unreal, didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Tryna hold on, d-didn't even know
I wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end, it doesn't even matter

One thing, I don't know why
It doesn't even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme to remind myself how I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mockin' me
Actin' like I was part of your property
Rememberin' all the times you fought with me

I'm surprised it got so far
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then, but it all comes back to me in the end

You kept everything inside
And even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end, it doesn't even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this, there's only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this, there's only one thing you should know

I tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter
I had to fall to lose it all
But in the end, it doesn't even matter



failing a class and its 100 percent my fault.mp3

rubs me wrong

THERE IS MUSIC

Heres to all your dead waifus you lonely fucks
Musika para mis amigos solitarios
I was wrong
9thdeadcowboy
@realdoomersgobeachwalking

failing a class and its 100 percent my fault.mp3

Wagon Boy