There's a job to do, but sometimes it's hard to hide a soft spot for those affected.  Game face.

What Have We Done

Space Grocked

Showtime is a hip-hop/trap song.  The song is about searching deep within to find hidden talents and then showcasing your work to the world. It's about finding the creative divine spark and figuring out a way to make your art unique and true to who you are.  The song uses the performing stage as an analogy to life itself being a stage. The song touches upon the concept of stage fright when performing live, dealing with criticism, and the stress of perfectionism and imposter syndrome;  but letting go of the fear of judgment can alleviate the artist's dilemma.

Showtime

" HEAVY LOVE "studio"

The Land of Children's Dreams sung by the child narrator.

1. The Land Of Children's Dreams

We used this track to do a costume change at our 2024 Vampire Ball show!

All keyboards and vocals performed by C. Riggalls

Original song Pimpf written by Depeche mode
© 1989 Sire Records Company

Pimpf (Vampire Ball '24 Mix)

Just a strange conversation I had on Twitter/X and a few other concepts rolled together:

Note: I am in nowhere near this dark a mood it's just the direction writing the poetry dragged me in.

my main website:
http://exedexes1.com

itch.io page:
http://exedexes1.itch.io

Lyrics:

As my prospects generally began to sink
I became a master of the slow blink
It seemed a better expression of calm
Than the tried and true facepalm

Every day i get closer to understanding
why Nietzsche went insane
He failed to last until the serum
of Gödel's incompleteness theorem
Or maybe it was just cancer of the brain

While nibbling on my picky bits
I stumbled into mumbling fits
Around the looming dilemma that sits
On the horizon just ahead 

Lucidity deploys a myriad of suns that melt one's mind
And then one day you wake to find
How badly you'd been left behind
Which only increased my dread

Starting as a sort of joke
I decided to invoke a sort of chant
To break me of my internal rant

Like lobbing coconades at a deka wall
I blazed a path through it all
I found my self devolving
On a hackneyed tool of problem solving

"Yes/No column, come to life"
Rectify my grum moment
By serving up the missing component
To wend my way out of the mess

Every day it's more demanding
Increasing my chances of landing 
At a place of inability to maintain
The trick's to master fear of
People that I'd rather not hear from
Or maybe it's just answering that's a pain

Insatiable truths that devour
Like maggots eating flour
Snap at my heels every hour
The trick's to find a state of grace
In weathering what i'd rather not face
Before it grows beyond what I can tame

"Yes/No column, come to life"
Resolve my little internal strife
Rid me of the pitfalls that are rife
And cut this gordian knot like a knife
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When I catch myself being a try-hard
Or an insufferable grognard
It helps to pass the time
By flattening the occasional taxi lime
But eventually I return
To suddenly learn
How to break this paradigm

310: Yes-No Column, Come To Life! released July 7, 2024

Feature.fm link to this track:
https://ffm.to/yes-no-column

SoundCloud for this track:
https://soundcloud.com/doug-stoothoff/yes-no-column-come-to-life

Spotify for this track:
https://open.spotify.com/track/6b8PnBAjLrRvNQUHYQGpSL

Bandcamp for this track:
https://dougstoothoff.bandcamp.com/track/yes-no-column-come-to-life

Douglas P Stoothoff main site:
https://exedexes1.com/

itch.io profile link:
https://exedexes1.itch.io/

Feature.fm overall Artist Bio link:
https://ffm.bio/dbx6kbg

Master Track List on SC:
https://soundcloud.com/doug-stoothoff/tracks

Artist page on Spotify:
https://open.spotify.com/artist/7EuvIQRQESX9WFtwI6GqWB

Artist page on Apple:
https://music.apple.com/us/artist/doug-stoothoff/1687430940

Artist page on Amazon:
https://music.amazon.com/artists/B0C4YK678Y/douglas-p-stoothoff

Youtube Artist Topic Channel (autogenerated):
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC4WSgBZCySWQ-wAQ0GMtXag

Artist page on Bandcamp:
https://dougstoothoff.bandcamp.com/

Artist page on Tidal:
https://tidal.com/browse/artist/39485859

Artist page on Beatport:
https://www.beatport.com/artist/douglas-p-stoothoff/1155579

Artist page on Boomplay:
https://www.boomplay.com/artists/70114948

Artist page on Pandora:
https://www.pandora.com/artist/douglas-p-stoothoff/ARjZ7nth7x9xvpg

Artist page on Qobuz:
https://www.qobuz.com/us-en/interpreter/douglas-p-stoothoff/18758728

Artist page on iHeart Radio:
https://www.iheart.com/artist/douglas-p-stoothoff-40424070/

Ešrā

Yes-No Column, Come To Life!

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Nonstop

Rabbit Under A Fuzzy Storm

I stare, through the window, at the streets
Watching them go, like little bees.
Nowhere to go.

They seem to be pretty busy
But they must be as bored as me.

I go to the kitchen, slowly.
I want to make a cup of tea.
I can't find another thing to do.
I've been like this, since I broke up with you.

If I could go back to the shore
I would stop being bored
I could breathe and run to the sea
I'm busy being bored

What is the real purpose of this?
Sadly, I can't find my way in this mess.
Instead I drink a cup of tea.
And damn it, I will let it just be.

If I could go back to the shore
I would stop being bored.
I could breathe and run to the sea.
I'm busy being bored.

Rabbit Under A Fuzzy Storm

The Fall of Saigon