fawm 2023

I hope 
it’s not insensitive
to want to be done with this
it has me by my throat
I really oughta go
but I’m drawn
to the middle of
the superstition so
bleed the circle closed

make it address me by a name
that I wouldn’t give myself

it pulses because it loves us
bear witness to it
full-throated spirit
it pulses because it loves us
this is the end of the time
of our lives

it was fine, it was fine
the door darkened briefly
I was wondering if you would notice it
there was time, so much time
extending past the limits of our sight
the stone melts while we admire it
and what better way to
end unpleasant days
than to pull the curtain back and show you
how little remains to be seen?

It Pulses Because It Loves Us

There's a forest near my house and I can smell when something dies there

there is a sound
to the panic-stricken lower bound
convinced I’m pulling, 
you’re just plunging down
the backwater you have waded into
is waiting for you so it can freeze
i’m standing on the surface
so you can witness me

but I shouldn’t compare
the chill in the air
to the sound of you shivering

you will give me your attention
I know how to take from you
you think you can cast a stone and be done with me
but you don’t understand, you foolish little child
I’m here to bore a hole in your head
and I will not be calm
and I will not be reasoned with 
you’re gonna have to deal with me

a vessel seldom knows what it contains
a pickled brain, I am the dowsing rod
that’s picking up your pulse
and you can hope discerning eyes
of observant passersby
can spot the difference
but indifferent gods are
plucking you from here

you shouldn’t complain
the thoughts from the day
have a way of fogging up the air

I'm here to bore a hole in your head

You begged me 
take it to the grave
and I held my tongue
but I can not relate
I hope you resolve it
before it dissolves you

whom among us here  is being honest?
Whom among us here is being honest?
Because I can give you what you want
but you, you had better want it.

Did they found you cowering?
What a coward you must be then
you will never find me shivering
I’m wrapped wrapped in fur like a heathen
on cold night it pays
to be a beast

wrapped in fur like a heathen

Tourniquette

outpost
peeled away
barren of worth
we’re taunting in your direction
find us
delegate a hunting party
waste away listening for me

separate the hair from the hide
and hide 

I have closed
brighter eyes than yours
I have better things to do
than wonder who you are
cut it close
or I will cut it off
let me put this in your ear:
you’re the one who’s being watched
I’m the one who keeps the pulse

goodbye
terraformed
angular stone
eat and become sedentary
outlast 
delegate a hunting party
compromise but never with me

separate the jaws from the beast
 at least

I have closed
brighter eyes than yours
I have better things to do
than wonder who you are
cut it close
or I will cut it off
let me put this in your ear:
you’re the one who’s being watched
I’m the one who keeps the pulse

welcome home
spectre at the door
I have better things to do
than wonder who you are
 cut it close
or I will cut it off
let me put this in your ear: 
you’re the one who’s being watched
I’m the one who keeps the pulse

delegate a hunting party

it’s minuscule
down to the easiest ask
enough of rolling your eyes
and batting your eyelashes
word’s out
the wrong people know and they have our addresses
what was that safehouse you told me about
do we need to call in advance

yes i’m tired 
but i’ve done this dozens of times
relax and keep your voice low
keep your head down and study your lines
too bad
sometimes things get out of hand
there’s no predicting the plan
we’ll get em next time
are you ready? I am
 
if you weren’t so hard to figure out
and easy to pick apart
we’d have the hard part done by now

just watch
these situations have a tendency to cascade
from my experience sitting in the mess I made:
the makeshift hatch I made over us
will suffice in the place of a fire in a cave
till we pass where the barricades are
but no one knows where the barricades are
when they discover us
I hope they discover us
looking down where the barricades are

newsflash
it’s vital you never ask
we could be digging a grave or a garden
knowing which won’t make the job go faster
get down
it’s like you wanna get caught
we changed your name and colored your hair
and I didn’t learn how to do that for nothing

good job
I don’t get to say that a lot
so focus on your heartbeat, slow it down some, now it’s your turn
shift’s up
it’s time that you get some rest
close your eyes and think about the future but don’t count on it

barricades

Legally Blonde the Musical JR. (Guide Vocals)

To Callahan's Office

I made a name
In the intervening years
Took care of some things
And started to forget
The songs that I wrote
I must have stood by cause
I scrawled them in my blood 
And we’re still catching up
And the size of my heart
That is caught in my throat
Didn’t shrink like i thought it would 

Kerosene keeps me warm

Kerosene keeps me warm
I’ll burn until it’s gone
The years cascade I’m overfull
The runoff is lapping at your door
Eulogized and atomized you
For the sake of song
Kerosene keeps me warm
I think I’ll hold out  until the storm is gone
Then i’ll be out for more

You should see what I am writing about now

The endless thrum
Has just begun
In the mountains
That i met you in

The walls closing in
Are a part of my skin
It’s been a while since i
Embarked into the wilderness  

I was Bitter i thought
For a justified cause
Because  taste in my mouth
Never sweetened enough
And the shift in perspective
That i thought wouldn’t come
Didn’t hurt like i thought it would


 

Kerosene keeps me warm
I’ll burn until it’s gone
The scars are healed a decade in
I couldn’t see the future then
An eternity of knowing me
Feels just a little long
Kerosene keeps me warm
And to burn it all down
By this point feels wrong

Kerosene Pt. 4

Join in!
Revelation now
Hierophant in tow
I offer up a sacrifice
Of all the words I know
You know the truth is it only feels
Like knowledge gets revealed
Keep it secret they still think 
We’re more than animals.

I am different than I have been
You shouldn’t treat my presence lightly
There are

Beasts
Waiting for me
I clean between their teeth
We preserve a legacy
None of us will live to see
Beasts
Waiting for me
I clean between their teeth
You can feign your agency
But I dare you to move your feet.

I’ve got a 
Favored set of facts
I am stocking up
Take a few if you 
Aren't convinced enough
You know the wait was long but
I’m a patient man
I carved the days into your palm you can
Feel the grooves to keep in touch
They’re in the throng 

Did you pick this place on purpose?
Did you think that I deserve this?
There are

Beasts
Waiting for me
I clean between their teeth
We preserve a legacy
None of us will live to see
Beasts
Waiting for me
I clean between their teeth
You can feign your agency
But I dare you to move your feet.

There’s so little that we can do
So I dare you to do
Anything.

Hierophant

多聴多読マガジン2024年04月号

26 [Step3] Section1 Interview with Emma Stone

AI英作文

Track 045

Divided and Conquered

“Why God, Why Me?” is a song born from the breaking point — the moment where faith meets fear, where strength collapses into honesty, and where a man finally admits he can’t carry everything alone.

This song came out of a season where business pressure, debt, failing health, and broken relationships all collided at once. It came from feeling powerless, from watching life tighten faster than you can breathe, and asking the question nobody wants to admit:

“God… why am I the one being tested this hard?”

It’s the cry of a man who feels empty, yet still reaches toward heaven.
It’s the prayer of someone who feels blinded in the maze, chased by demons from the past, fighting battles in the dark with no roadmap and no strength left in his hands.

But even in that darkness, even in that pleading, this song holds onto one truth:

God hears the broken.
God sees the exhausted.
And God does not abandon His wounded warriors.

Why God, Why Me?

Baha’i Blog Studio Sessions is an initiative where we invite Baha’is and their friends from around the world to come into a studio and share the Baha’i Writings put to music.
 
In this Baha’i Blog Studio Session, we’re in Helsinki, Finland with Mona Frooghi, Dibo Akale and Nachidah Frooghi who sing “O Dieu, mon Dieu (O God my God)” in French, from the Writings of the Bab and Baha'u'llah.
 
You can also watch the recording of this song on Baha’i Blog’s YouTube channel here: 
 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lXKkD_kBs6c
 
This song was filmed and recorded in Helsinki, Finland, November, 2016.

Discover more Baha'i-inspired content on BAHAIBLOG.NET

Here is the quotation used for the lyrics in French, followed by the English translation:

French:

"O Dieu, mon Dieu..." 
"Mon adoré..." - Baha'u'llah

"Désir de mon coeur..."  
“Glorifié sois-tu O Seigneur mon Dieu. Tu es en vérité le Roi des Rois." - Le Bab


English:

"O God, my God..."
"My Adored One..."  - Baha'u'llah

"My Heart's Desire..."
"Glorified art Thou, O Lord my God! Thou art in truth the King of kings." 
- The Bab

Tourniquette

GUIDE DOG

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