HYPERPOP 2

https://soundcloud.com/surg3on
https://soundcloud.com/0arid
https://soundcloud.com/victxrw
https://soundcloud.com/ev333


me:

dont wnna talk
im waiting for the winter
every1 arnd me feel so cold
like a sinner

i try to see the picture 
but i cant seem to figure
bruises only heal 
when it feel like sumn missing

carrying this burden by urself 
like a mission
i feel so alone
i cant overcome this issue

turn my back to the knife
cut up my tissue
i try to fight my feelings
but i cnt deny i miss u 

struck by limerence 
covering my face again
im faded off a percocet 
wish i could hold ur hand again

arid:

i wanna hold ur hand again
i find it harder to pretend
i just need another reason why
keep myself distracted it all goes by
as soon as i open up u leave
i swear that it all goes back to me
i need a reason why
i dont even know if i should try
try again

victxrw:

if i go try ill die again
and i dont wanna see u leave from my eyes again
it all goes back 2 the times tht we met
if i ever get a change yea ill do it all again

yea ill do it all again
take back wht i said
waking up tomorrow
n ur still in my head
trapped up in my mind 
im still stuck in bed
if i go and try ill die again...

dont wnna talk
im waiting for the winter
hell is all around me
and its like im at the center
dont know if ill make it
im never the winner
dont know if i cn take it
im never the winner

try again + arid + victxrw (surgeon)

produced by @sanriorose
mixed and mastered by @emorave

on and on (dolly)

produced by @kggn @resolve1k / mastered by @blushxoxo

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lyrics:

you can hurt me all you want
tear me apart
i think shes blind because she cant see my scars
you said you hate me so im slicing my arms
iwanna run away escape from the harm
i gave you everything it wasnt enough
you said you love me and im calling your bluff

i make them feel the pain
to see how it feels
its all so hurtful its painfully real

you can break me down
hate when youre not around
quiet! dont make a sound
do you think we'll turn this around

find me laying dead on the ground
i was lost i thought i was found
talk to you i slip and i drown
wonder if she'll come around

it doesn't hurt so bad these days
i think that i've grown used to the pain
if you would talk to me i'd explain
walk away from me forget my name

in pain and youre always the one to blame
i quit this fucking game
and youre fucking up
i cant take this much
make me wanna run
throw away whats left of us

(because thats the way its meant to be)

blame game

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blame game (kuru & inno)

biichftt - flashbang (prod pearlblade x lily forest)

ricochet w/ blackwinterwells (kintsugi + taylor morgan + 4evr)

nuulls [1shield2wings]

https://sickofthefake<3.com

vocals and lyrics by bella lugxsi, @blackwinterwells, and stellathepixie. prod. bella lugxsi, additional production by @stellathepixie.
art by @sparklecats2009

bella lugxsi, blackwinterwells, stella the pixie - to the grave

𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚍. 𝚎𝚡𝚙
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[𝚕𝚢𝚛𝚒𝚌𝚜]
𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚖𝚢 𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚖𝚢 𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚝 
𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚒𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚍𝚒𝚍 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍𝚗𝚝 𝚍𝚘 𝚒𝚝 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 
𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚒𝚏 𝚞 𝚍𝚒𝚍 𝚞 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚍𝚘 𝚒𝚝 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚖𝚎 
𝚢𝚎𝚊 𝚒 𝚋𝚎𝚝 𝚞 𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚝 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚖𝚎 

𝚒 𝚖𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚜𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚌𝚑 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚜 𝚒 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚋𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚜 
𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚟𝚎𝚗𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚊𝚗𝚗 𝚠𝚎 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚖𝚊𝚍𝚎 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚝
𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚖𝚘𝚗𝚢 𝚍𝚒𝚟𝚒𝚜𝚒𝚘𝚗 𝚠𝚎 𝚊𝚍𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚖𝚞𝚕𝚝𝚒𝚙𝚕𝚢 
𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚖𝚊𝚍 𝚒𝚍𝚔 𝚠𝚑𝚢 
𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚜𝚊𝚍 𝚒 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚝𝚘 𝚌𝚛𝚢 
𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚗𝚊𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚊𝚕 
𝚒 𝚍𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚠𝚑𝚢 𝚠𝚎 𝚊𝚌𝚝 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚏𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚞𝚊𝚕 
𝚖𝚢 𝚏𝚊𝚌𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚗 𝚜𝚗𝚘𝚝 
𝚖𝚢 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚋𝚛𝚘𝚔𝚎 
𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚖 𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚙𝚙𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚒𝚗 𝚊 𝚋𝚊𝚝𝚑 𝚛𝚘𝚋𝚎 

𝚠𝚒𝚜𝚑 𝚒 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚕 𝚖𝚢 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝙲𝚑𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚘𝚜 
𝚒 𝚖𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚍𝚛𝚘𝚙 𝚊𝚗𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚗𝚘 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚘 
𝚒 𝚍𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚝 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚒 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚍𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 
𝚒 𝚍𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚘𝚗 𝚖𝚢 𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚍𝚘 𝚒𝚝 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚖𝚢 𝚑𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚜 𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚒 𝚛𝚘𝚕𝚕 

𝚒 𝚍𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚜𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚜 𝚒 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚖𝚢 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚛𝚍 𝚎𝚢𝚎 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠𝚜 
𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎 𝚒𝚜 𝚊 𝚋𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒𝚖 𝚝𝚛𝚢𝚗𝚊 𝚜𝚊𝚢 𝚒 𝚠𝚛𝚘𝚝𝚎 
𝚒𝚖 𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚔, 𝚒 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚢 𝚘𝚏𝚏 𝚖𝚢 𝚒𝚙𝚑𝚘𝚗𝚎 
𝚒𝚝 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚌𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚔𝚎𝚍 𝚖𝚊𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚜 𝚜𝚘 𝚠𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚒 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚟𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚝 𝚒𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝 𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚋𝚕𝚊𝚌𝚔 
𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚊 𝚜𝚙𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚛𝚞𝚖 𝚘𝚏 𝚌𝚘𝚕𝚘𝚛𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚊𝚝 
𝚠𝚎 𝚜𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚎𝚊𝚌𝚑 𝚘𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚗𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔 
𝚠𝚎 𝚍𝚒𝚍 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚎𝚟𝚎 𝚍𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚠𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔 
𝚠𝚎 𝚒𝚜 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚎 𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚛𝚊𝚌𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 
𝚠𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚎𝚜𝚌𝚊𝚙𝚎 𝚏𝚊𝚌𝚝𝚜 
𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚜𝚌𝚊𝚙𝚎 𝚟𝚊𝚜𝚝 
𝚠𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍𝚢𝚊 𝚕𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝

𝚕𝚢𝚔𝚎 𝚖𝚎𝚎

oh ye.
im falling in love i just dont show ya
and my thoughts i cant control ye
all this shit im falling off, falling off

shits so toxic cant keep my mind straight
all these toxins coming my way
all mistakes i've done
for the one i call my love

i've been waitin for the call
ive been winnin oh i thought
downward spiral guess i fked it up
wasting time on these useless talks ye

oh i got enough got my mind spinning
i got got got enough, ye i think im finished
i've tried tried so long but you never listen
i think im all by myself its been a minute

minute (prod. recyclebin)

i dont wanna try anymore i dont
bloody nose when i wake up
reach for the pills on the shelf i know
i cant do it alone
wish for a castle on the hills
where i am unknown
visions of death when i sleep
i cant do it alone
do it alone
i cant do it alone
do it alone
i cant do it alone
again again
im on my own
again again 
cant do it alone
no one there for me when i wake
is this all a waste
when will i be saved
im out of time
im out of life
when will i be saved
in the end i hate
what ive become

spotify ^-^

i cant do it alone.. (syringeangel unnholy)

a fan w/Kite

cool song from the time where i was always really manic and jd was there to keep me sane. 
recorded by jd 2021-08-08
@jdjd52 @lllovbug
---
[kx]
living really late now
but im okay
i dont gotta tell you
burn me down with propane
i dont gotta tell you
cuz u hate me
cutz all on my wrists now
kisses on me
living really late now
but im okay
i dont gotta tell you
burn me down with propane
i dont gotta tell you
cuz u hate me
cutz all on my wrists now
kisses on me

i dont like to cut but
i wanna feel the pain
i dont like to feel it
but it reminds me
that i am alive and
that im okay
am i really okay
i dont know yet
everyone just sleeps so
im so used to it
i feel like im deceased the way that they all just look past and
i dont really get it
why cant you just look at me
and i dont really get it
why cant you just talk to me

living really late now
but im okay
i dont gotta tell you
burn me down with propane
i dont gotta tell you
cuz u hate me
cutz all on my wrists now
kisses on me
living really late now
but im okay
i dont gotta tell you
burn me down with propane
i dont gotta tell you
cuz u hate me
cutz all on my wrists now
kisses on me

[jd]
you told me that i talk too much
or i thought too much
or i love too much okay
had your trust n then i fucked it up
i dont trust enough
id do anything to be okay
n to be honest ya i need u now more than ever
n truthfully it sucks that we cant be together
i wish i could make you stay
i wish i could make you stay
or just had another day
or just had another day
ok like fuck it im the bad guy
i dont even care anymore
i did that thing again where i lied
think ive become to much to bear anymore
---
i struggled with this track, mixing jds part originally, which is why i didnt post our version together, we joked around and i poked fun at his og mix lmaoooo, thought i'd post now that i know roughly how to mix. releasing this version on user because I broke things off with his friends awfully and don't want to be disrespectful by posting on my page. originally off my ep shattered tears, long gone now though. ill probably release the solo version on my page later though. just wanted this up here cuz i love his verse. 
EDIT: i probably wont drop the solo version, its not the same w/o him

cutz (ft. jd) [prod. lovbug]

In da city

Married2the$ | Prod. (Astro)

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