lyrics~

Shhh everyone quiet
I’m screaming for help but, to you, it is silent
Each day my rage keeps getting more violent
The voice in my head says to try suicide and
I am not frightened of death so fuck it I might
Cuz my purpose feels worthless here in this life
I want to riot for those traumatized
I’ll make it bloody bitch where is my scythe 

BITCH FUCK THIS
I’m out of options

You don’t fuck w me? Guess we gotta problem
Bitch you should kill me, before I can profit
You don’t know the real me, I am a prophet
King of my pain, always fuckin exhausted 
I’m not the same Riley, he fuckin lost it
All the heart break, is what fuckin caused it

Bitch it’s explicit, I can’t fuckin feel shit
Numb from the pain, that I fuckin create
I love pushing my limits, how much can I take?
Ive gone insane, but they made me that way
Yes I might cave, but I can’t fucking break
I should go to hell, for heavens sake
But I think that it’s fake, so why should I stay?

Shhh everyone quiet
I’m screaming for help but, to you, it is silent
Each day my rage keeps getting more violent
The voice in my head says to try suicide and
I am not frightened of death so fuck it I might
Cuz my purpose feels worthless here in this life
I want to riot for those traumatized
I’ll make it bloody bitch where is my scythe 

Watch my hate build up
Ain’t afraid? You should still run
I wanna see real blood
To see if I will feel sum
I do not fucking feel love
My blade, wants to feel ya
If you can get touched
I might fucking kill ya

Bitch I am Damian
Im the insane within
Causing the caving in
Thoughts you can’t make of this

Making you break again
Keeping you caged in sin
Why would I fake this shit?
You don’t know me bitch

I make the room quiet when they see im silent
I’m trying to hide all of the hidden violence 
Don’t ask, “are you okay?”, I’ll say that “I’m fine” and
Really im lying, think soon, i am dying
I wonder why I should I even try
Insanity’s taking away my damn mind
All of the pain that I’ve felt, I can’t cry 
But even when finished, I’m crossing the line 

Enraged, then I blackout
Don’t care if you tap out
I Let the blood drip, bitch I want it to stand out
It’s best not to get up, you shouldn’t go that route
The screaming, I love, let’s hear his grown ass pout 
I’m on my own, I don’t need fuckin handouts
Imma mess, yes I know, but I can’t stand down
Dragged ya dead body across the damn map now
You have gone missing, I wonder what thats bout

All I see is fuckin red
I’m Alive but fucking dead
I have words that go unsaid 
But I’ll bleed till there’s nothing left 

I’m so fucked up 
I’ve been corrupt
I’m still so young
But this life’s, been a rough one
I say fuck love 
Some think that it’s stuck up
But no one knows what’s up
You don’t know what I once was

Damian (prod. DarkHeart)

Produced by Raspo.
Lyrics~

I can’t lie 
sometimes i might 
Get lost in my mind
It’s so dark, where’s the light 
I’ve gotta heart but it hides 
Behind walls I’ve built inside
I just wanna do right
Cuz every wrong brings fright

I’ve been gone outta sight
Im enough, I’ve realized
So I’m spending more time
Getting my shit in line
It’s ok, yeah I’m fine
I’ll figure out this fucking life
So my best I’ll try
To get through another night

I’m still finding myself
Got my mind in a cell
I stopped crying for help 
In this fuckin iced hell
Like fuck it oh well
These thoughts I can’t tell
Cuz no one can handle it 
Cept my damn self

Feel like I’m stranded in 
Oceans, no land in it
Stuck fuckin paddlin
Endlessly battlin
Depths where I haven’t been 
Don’t know what’s happenin
Demons might drag me in 
Deeper, I’ll manage it

Seems I can’t sleep
I’m afraid of my dreams 
Everything that I’ve seen 
Keeps on fucking with me
You won’t believe
Oh the ways I would bleed
Was the pain they can’t see
I just want to be free

From all my problems
Im fucked up from trauma 
I don’t know what caused It
Shit maybe it’s karma 
Can’t talk to my momma
Or dad, they don’t wanna
I’m out, fuck the drama
I’ll be where I’m wanted

No one cared to fuckin ask and 
No one cared to understand and 
No one cared to have my back
No one cared for who I am

I can’t lie 
sometimes i might 
Get lost in my mind
It’s so dark, where’s the light 
I’ve gotta heart but it hides 
Behind walls I’ve built inside
I just wanna do right
Cuz every wrong brings fright

I’ve been gone outta sight
Im enough, I’ve realized
So I’m spending more time
Getting my shit in line
It’s ok, yeah I’m fine
I’ll figure out this fucking life
So my best I’ll try
To get through another night

Why do I feel numb? 
Where did this come from?
What have I become
I think I’m a demon

overflow

prod. sorrow bringer & 80root

Lyrics~
Overflowing I want to feel the 
Emotions in me cuz they feel numb
Oceans of demons from my spilled blood
Motions make it feel like they still cut 

I’ve been going through changes
I know I can’t cave in
My hearts used to breaking
Only I can save me

Can you see through all my scars
They cut deeper than the marks
I know imma make it far 
I’ll show the world my Fucking heart 

Alone, I bled for so long 
I know it’s all my fault
My pain continued to go on
Love is why I held on

I thought i deserved it all
That ledge, I almost jumped off
Iced rain numbed my bad thoughts n
Burnt blades paused what wouldn’t stop
Cuz
I only felt alive when I’d want to die
Screamed to the sky and wondered why
Everything tried can’t get me by
I just want to live my fucking life

Can you see through all my scars
They cut deeper than the marks
I know imma make it far 
I’ll show the world my Fucking heart
X2

Overflowing I want to feel the 
Emotions in me cuz they feel numb
Oceans of demons from my spilled blood
Motions make it feel like they still cut 

I’ve been going through changes
I know I can’t cave in
My hearts used to breaking
Only I can save me

changes

prod. EGGACION

Lyrics~
What are you here for?
What do you cry for? (Cry for)
It’s now or never
Gotta keep it together
It’s taking over me
Cuz I got enemies, I got enemies 
But nobodies there for me, so

What do you live for?
What do you die for? (Die for)
Hate when I get worse
I just wanna get better
It’s hidden underneath 
I gotta let it free, gotta let it free
Cuz no one can help but me

what do you live for?

Prod. Walk Amongst Kings

Lyrics~
Theres a demon that resides deep inside this angel 
See him in the night, with his horns through his halo
He likes to hide but will arise when he feels betrayal
The choice is yours to decide how this may go
Fuck with me, I can’t lie, the results are fatal
Hell is freezing, when you die, yeah you will decay slow
Fake bitches in disguise man I fuckin hate those
I walk my talk got bodies chalked up on the fucking paved road

Fuck em’ up
Put ‘em the dirt
Imma shut him up
Bitch I am the worst Mufucker to have problems with 
Bitch ya luck is up
Bloody shirt 
Fuckin tummy tucked 
Think I won’t run up If I hear that you’ve been talkin shit
Thought your ass was tough
Soon you’ll learn 
You been fuckin up
I see you’re the cause, all these problems I am solvin bitch 
Shit I’ve had enough
You ain’t worth
Fuckin nothin bruh
Take this fuckin loss, yeah I know that you don’t want it bitch

Haunted with trauma it
Makes me fuckin wanna split
Don’t know what I’ve gotten in
Stuck inside this fuckin pin 
I’m the only resident
Hellishly heaven sent 
My depths I’ve been diving in
That’s why I’m so quiet bitch

I hear voices snickering
In my head they’re whispering

You’re fucking weak 
Deep underneath 
Can’t fucking see
A fuckin dream
I’m fuckin beat
Been stuck it seems
Enough to bleed 
Up on the sheets 

Pain I’m the epitome 
N I ain’t fucking kidding g

Back down muhfucker
I cannot lash out
Fore’ I lose track now
I use to be a class clown
Only cuz I’d stand out
Never fit in that crowd
Never had hand outs
A shadow in the background

Spaz out 
On these muhfuckers yappin that mouth
Thats how 
I discipline these muhfuckin brat childs 
Laugh out
Loud to this lil bitch let’s see what that’s bout
Flat out
Told that bitch to die won’t be no hats down

Bastard

Prod. CADENCE

Lyrics~
When I die I’ll be flyin with the stars
Steady vibin, I been off the radar
I been quiet but still goin hella hard
I ain’t quit bitch this the fuckin start 
The storms rising and it’s gonna leave a mark
Feelin low so I get higher when I spark
To find light when my mind gets fuckin dark
I can’t tell if I still gotta fuckin heart

In this hell, I’m the king, ring the bells
On the cell, hear it ring, but oh well
I set sail cuz I know I won’t fail 
Imma demon if you couldn’t tell

It’s explicit bitch 
Watch just how I rip this shit
Up
I ain’t giving in
Y’all should know that I don’t give a 
Fuck
If I really did
I wouldn’t be testing my 
Luck
With this music shit
I’m just tryna fuckin find love

Full of pain in my muhfuckin brain 
Got emotions I can’t let escape 
I think I might be little bit insane 
By the way I think that it’s okay 

It ain’t my fault these muhfuckers wanna play
All these games im like fuckin no way
Here’s my blade watch em all run away
Damian wants to show em all his rage

When I die I’ll be flyin with the stars
Steady vibin, I been off the radar
I been quiet but still goin hella hard
I ain’t quit bitch this the fuckin start 
The storms rising and it’s gonna leave a mark
Feelin low so I get higher when I spark
To find light when my mind gets fuckin dark
I can’t tell if I still gotta fuckin heart

Muhfuckin run it up 
Auras gonna shut em up
120 I don’t buckle up
I don’t need a double clutch
Make em all fuckin jump
Like it’s fuckin double Dutch 
I’m just havin fuckin fun
I don’t need no petty love

Fake shit I hate it 
I’ve seen how the snakes bit 
I’m muhfuckin dangerous 
I’ll be your last day bitch
Show that you ain’t shit
Make em all cave quick
Put ‘em on the pavement 
Tell me how the grave is

Wrote these songs for when I’m gone
If you want, you can sing along
Im not wrong, Im my own god
Seen a lot, so I cannot stop

If I did then I’d be a bitch
Who tried but then fuckin quit 
The storm, there’s no stopping it
Seen this shit since I was a jit

Stars

prod. thelewis

Lyrics~
Pussy bitch talkin shit, when I ran him up
He said he aint mean it, I said bitch ya outta luck 
Imma put ‘em in a ditch if I fuck him up
Fuckin catastrophic yeah I fuck shit up
Fuckin on a bad bitch, and I love her yuh 
Imma fuckin savage, how I put it in her guts
All of you could hate me n I wouldn’t give a fuck
You dont want the damage that could be done

Took becoming my worst, to know I’m the best 
I’ve been born with a curse, I am not like the rest
There’s some blood up on my shirt, on my hands and my chest
I know my fucking worth, bitch don’t put me to the test

Don’t unleash the demon in me
In the shadows, they don’t see me
He likes dripping from the bleeding 
Gettem seized up from the screaming
All these bitches, I’m deleting
Fuck I make it look so easy
Gotta see it to believe it
If I think it I can bring it 

To Life in my reality 
Stayin Lowkey knowing they all still know me 
When I die I’ll have my satisfactory
I can’t lie, sometimes I’m so unholy

Pussy bitch talkin shit, when i ran him up
He said he aint mean it, I said bitch ya outta luck 
Imma put ‘em in a ditch when I fuck him up
Fuckin catastrophic yeah I fuck shit up
Fuckin on a bad bitch, and I love her yuh 
Imma fuckin savage, how I put it in her guts
All of you could hate me n I wouldn’t give a fuck
You dont want the damage that could be done

Think I’m living life 
So that I can find some peace of mind
I just can’t decide
What to do to make my dreams align
I can’t fuckin lie
Think bout death like all the fuckin time
Darkness still resides
I got demons that don’t fuckin die

unholy

Prod. Setpfree

Lyrics~

I got some demons deep down
And They won’t let me go
I feel like I’m gonna drown 
My Dark thoughts over flow
My mind is so fucking loud
I Don’t want you to know
But I won’t make a sound
How the fuck do I cope?

Break down
It’s too much to take now
Waves drown 
I cannot fake how
I’m fucked 
Cuz All i see is rain clouds
Wake up
It’s getting too late now

I’ve been tryna make it in life 
If I don’t make it up imma lose my mind
Being stuck in cycles of time
I know it’s up to me to fight

For what I think is Fucking right
When its dark I shine so bright
Imma man won’t run from life
I’ll crash out though I ain’t shy 

If I do say your last goodbye
I won’t let you do this shit twice
For too long I’ve been the nice guy
Now I let my demon ignite  

He’s been Patiently waiting
Every time someone betrays me
I cant run from or escape these 
Thoughts so I been fuckin pacing 

Back and forth 
I slam the door
I’m on the floor
Can’t take no more
What is this for?
That dirty whore 
Or lying pork
I fuckin scorched

What about what they did to me
On some shit you couldn’t think
Fucked with my head n fucked with me
I hope they all fucking bleed

Slowly 
For everytime they left me lonely
At least darkness would hold me
When they all fucking ghost me
This is why no one know me
Near me, if you listen closely
You’ll hear my demons below me
Filled with rage they been holding

But it’s too late
Can’t run away
From fuckin fate
My feelings break
My mental state
I’m not okay
They’re fucking fake
They won’t escape

The pain they caused
Blood on the wall
The cliff I thought
I would jump off
I hope my thoughts
Speak through your walls
And just like mine 
Won’t fucking stop

Every time
I fucking thought
They’d stay this time
But then walked off
I’d go insane
I felt so lost 
Why was it me
I had no one

Betrayal

Old song I made in tribute to Jahseh Dwayne Ricardo Onfroy, LLJ⚡️🖤🕊️

Prod. S1N7H

Lyrics~
I’ve been so 
Damn alone
For so long 
I don’t know

What I did
So damn wrong 
As a kid
Always been

Different
Nobodies 
Listening
To the shit

That I say 
By the day
It’s Getting worse 
But it’s ok

All along
I knew I 
Don’t belong
In this place

They call earth
Universe 
Why do you
Want me to hurt

You should know
What I hold 
I can’t control 
Then I explode 

Self destruct 
I cut up 
All the words 
I got but love

When it was 
All I want 
Instead of blood 
On the walls

Tried to talk 
About it all
But nobody 
Picked up my calls

Didn’t know how else to feel
I bled so much it came out still
I just wanted to fucking feel 
Myself I wanted to kill
Cuz

I don’t feel no pain 
I Wanna sleep not be awake
I’ve been full of hate 
I know they won’t stay

Cuz they can’t
Understand 
My dark thoughts
That I have 

Everyone 
Fuckin ran
When they saw
Blood on my hands

So alone 
Where I stand
Know you don’t
Give a damn

But I hope
I can cope
As I walk
This lonely road

King

Prod. aureola

Lyrics~

I walk down this road alone
There’s nobody I really know
Yeah Maybe I’m just too damn cold
When I get hot I just explode 

Like laundry bitch I’ll make you fold
I got some hate I will unload
From fucking pain I keep down low
Don’t make me show how this will go

Cuz I feel no pain
From all my burnt blades
I might be insane
But they made me this way
Loose screw in my brain
What else can I say
Without sounding the same
For somebody to relate

I’ve been lost tryna find 
Pieces dropped in time
Of me that reside 
In the depths of my mind

Sick of being on my own
I don’t got nowhere to go
So I walk down this road
Till I see the crossroads 

Then I choose a different path
Without ever fucking looking back
Cuz the past i know I can’t change that
But I won’t live my life in black 

I walk down this road alone
There’s nobody I really know
Yeah Maybe I’m just too damn cold
When I get hot I just explode 

Like laundry bitch I’ll make you fold
I got some hate I will unload
From fucking pain I keep down low
Don’t make me show how this will go

I walk down this road alone

Prod. p4ra x ellegante

Lyrics~
It seems I have an electric presence 
Deep inside bitch I’m heavenly hellish
Lost in time, fuckin learning my lessons
What resides in me needs some correction

I cannot sit in this
Daily repetition 
I’m fucking sick of this 
Grave that I’m sitting in
Regrets diminishing
Things I envisioned and 
My soul goes with it 
It’s truly explicit but

Nobodies gives a shit
Nobody gives a fuck
Worlds got some hate within
But where’s the fuckin love?
Excuses so paper thin
Burn em n rip em up
We all go through some shit
Why don’t you give it up

Don’t tell me this is fake
You don’t know me at all
Deal with it every day
I cannot turn it off
Cauterized hurt away
Everyone fuckin saw 
Showed all my fucking pain 
Nobody cared at all

Left so I could escape 
Then I heard something call
Went up the stairs with rage
Broke every light I saw
Darkness made me feel safe 
It didn’t fuckin stop
Blood like some fuckin paint
Splattered all on the walls


It seems I have an electric presence 
Deep inside bitch I’m heavenly hellish
Lost in time, fuckin learning my lessons
What resides in me needs some correction

Patiently waiting
For the day I may be 
Able to break free 
Of this cage they placed me
So Fuck if they hate me
All of them are faking
But I’m sick of breaking 
And Im sick of caving

Heavenly Hellish

Prod. lxst ghxul

Lyrics~
If I die tonight
Will you be alright
Look to the night sky
And See me fly by 
Free in the universe
I know this shit hurts
It couldn’t be more worse
But I’m still here

Please love don’t fear
I’ll always be near
From you I won’t steer 
I’m yours my dear
It’s so hard to hear
We break down in tears
After all of these years 
You’re my favorite chapter

I know I’m a disaster
I don’t know what happened 
To me in the past years
I’m sorry for my actions
I just want you happy 
I’m so fucking sad these
Problems that I’m causing 
Aren’t from you they’re all me

My demons been talking 
To me said I’m nothing
I can’t run from these
Thoughts that keep on coming 
I’m so fucking numb see
My emotions fuck me
Up and keep kicking my guts 
I just wanna be enough

I want to be something 
But nobodies loved me 
Since I was a young seed
Except for my lovely 

I’ve been so damn alone
I am so fucking cold 
What do I call a home 
In this realm that I roam

if i die

Prod. akassshhhiii

Lyrics~

I’ve been so fuckin lost
I been so fuckin gone
All I do is fucking wrong
Then I write it in a song
I dont wanna fuck this up 
But I’ve been fucking up
So I pour up my cup
Because I been fuckin numb

Ive been alone
For so fucking long 
So Where do I go 
When I don’t wanna go on 
Losing my hope 
It’s been getting harder to hold on
I hope you know that
I never meant no wrong

I just wanna be 
Fucking something 
To somebody 
But I’m nothing 
A nobody 
To everybody
When I’m crumbling
Who gon love me 

Where my heart is
I put walls in
Demons guard it 
You won’t harm it
In the darkness 
Where I carve in
My catharsis 
Isn’t harmless 

I was to blame 
For everything 
I loved the pain 
From my burnt blades 

There is no one that can save me
If you try you’ll fuckin hate me 
You’ll just end up fucking breaking 
In my mind that’s fucking fading 
Is a maze that’s ever changing 
And there’s isn’t no escaping 
Overthink n I start shaking 
All my walls are fucking caving 

I just wanna be 
Fucking something 
To somebody 
But I’m nothing 
A nobody 
To everybody
When I’m crumbling
Who gon love me 

Where my heart is
I put walls in
Demons guard it 
You won’t harm it
In the darkness 
Where I carve in
My catharsis 
Isn’t harmless 

Just wanna feel somethin
Ive always felt nothing 
I’m numb from the cutting
Pain left when my blood did
This hell i been stuck in
Its whatever, fuck it
When I get to the summit 
Imma fuckin jump in

Lost

Prod. Wolet Beats 

Lyrics~

Covered cuts under my hood
Cuz i don’t want you to look 
I would change if I fuckin could
It’s the same n I am no good

All my feelings misunderstood 
No one cared, I thought that they would
But they weren’t there, maybe I should
Fall to the dark where the light stood

Cuz 
I got some friends I won’t see again
N I built a bridge to burn it again 
I got some sins that I can’t repent
I don’t know where the fuck time went

Inside my mind is fucking stormin
What is this world I was born in
I wonder what the fucks my purpose
Cuz Im fucking sick of the torment

I live each day and it’s always the same
I feel the pain it gets to my brain 
Thoughts tell me that I won’t escape
All the shit that I keep beneath

All the blood bled on my sheets 
I still feel, it’s haunting me
Walls cave in talking to me
Its ok, I wanna believe

All these things, don’t want you to see
From every time that I’d fuckin bleed
All of the fakes put on a scheme so 
Don’t try to stay yeah I know you’ll leave 

Cuz 
I got some friends I won’t see again
N I built a bridge to burn it again 
I got some sins that I can’t repent
I don’t know where the fuck time went

Inside my mind is fucking stormin
What is this world I was born in
I wonder what the fucks my purpose
Cuz Im fucking sick of the torment

torment

Prod. p4ra x luffy 

Lyrics~
I’m numb
From all the burnt cuts 
I Bleed love 
I know I’m not enough
I Don’t trust 
Muhfuckin anyone
I’m Fucked up
I’m not what I was 

So cold 
As I walk in the snow 
I Don’t know 
Where the fuck I’m gon go
I’m Alone 
I don’t got no one to hold 
So Behold 
A burning Angel 

Step back 
You don’t wanna get me pissed 
If I’m mad 
I’m self destructive 
I hold back 
All of my emotions 
My minds black
Cuz my hearts broken 

I’m Numb to the pain 
I won’t ever be the same
All the words I’d engrave 
Only had my burnt blade

Every time I got betrayed 
Every lie to my face 
Every night lied awake 
Wonder why this my fate

Can’t get out 
Of this muhfuckin maze 
I’m breaking down
Watch my walls cave
And As I drowned 
They all walked away
My thoughts are loud
Telling me death awaits 

Save me
You muhfuckin can’t 
I got blazing
Fuckin knives in my back
Fuckin Breaking
Hate was all that I had
Fuckin fading 
Where it’s darker than black

I’m deep in the muhfuckin depths
Of my fuckin stormy ocean 
Where I wont let nobody in
Cuz theyre gonna get lost in it 

I wanna change 
Cuz each days the same 
Still feel the pain 
And it’s not going away 

I’m numb
From all the burnt cuts 
I Bleed love 
I know I’m not enough
I Don’t trust 
Muhfuckin anyone
I’m Fucked up
I’m not what I was 

So cold 
As I walk in the snow 
I Don’t know 
Where the fuck I’m gon go
I’m Alone 
I don’t got no one to hold 
So Behold 
A burning Angel

burning angel

Prod. ildmkkk

Lyrics~

You won’t notice when I’m not around
I been lookin for the better days
But I think I’m gonna drown
I get pulled under by all the waves
I been tryna fuckin get out
But I can’t fuckin escape
My thoughts fuckin so loud
I know I’m 

Fucked up 
In my head 
I can’t fuckin feel
Numbed cuts 
From tough love
Don’t fuckin feel real
Enough of
This regret 
Im just tryna heal
Loved none
For so long 
Its fuckin surreal

Know I Say the same shit
But I cannot take it
Bitch I been breaking 
Constantly caving 
I just wanna make it
To a fuckin haven 
But I prolly ain’t bitch
So my demons raging

You won’t notice when I’m not around
I been lookin for the better days
But I think I’m gonna drown
I get pulled under by all the waves
I been tryna fuckin get out
But I can’t fuckin escape
My thoughts fuckin so loud
I know I’m 

Too much to handle
My mental dismantled
I blew out the candles
Cuz My hearts too fragile
I been at a stand still
Because I been scrambled
My emotions trample 
My head into shambles

I don’t need companions
They’re misunderstanding 
I can’t fucking stand it
Making my soul dampen 
Always am abandoned 
Maybe cuz I’m stagnant 
But they always laughed at
The blood that my hands had

not around

Prod. Matrac

Lyrics~

Lately I’m so fucking numb
Far away I want to run 
When all I wanted was love
All I ever got was blood
Why can’t I just be enough
This road Im walking is rough
I know I’m not what I was 
Cuz now I’m covered cuts

Alone I sit in the dark
In search of what I have lost
The pieces to my damn heart
Cuz I been so fuckin off

Fucked up from from heart break
Off the edge I steer
Guess I learned the hard way
That I don’t belong here
Im controlling my fate
Death I don’t fear
So get outta my face
My demon might appear

Because all he loves is blood 
And hate that’s caused by love
The pain from every burnt cut
Betrayed, there’s no one I trust 

When I unleashed all my rage
I made em all run away 
Don’t wanna talk anyway 
Don’t wanna be in this place

Lately I’m so fucking numb
Far away I want to run 
When all I wanted was love
All I ever got was blood
Why can’t I just be enough
This road Im walking is rough
I know I’m not what I was 
Cuz now I’m covered cuts

There’s nothing to see in me 
Except how much I can bleed 
And think it’s all thatI need 
So I can fuckin be free

Black Rose

prod. loneliness孤独

lyrics~
I been drowning in my loneliness 
And all my emotions that I’m holding in
Just want somebody to hold me bitch
But no one cares or notices 

Everybody left me all alone 
But I still sit up on my throne
I just want a place to call my own 
As I walk down this lonely road

Will anybody ever fuckin know
Who I am, 
All of the darkness that I fuckin hold
I don’t think
That I can ever fuckin show
Every thought that was never told

Burnt blades I used up on my skin
Cuz I don’t fuckin feel nothin
I just wanted to fuckin feel somethin
I don’t know if I can forgive

Myself for what I did
Ever since I was a kid
I was told I’m nothin
Imma demon
Full of sin 
Know I won’t ever win
What I want
I won’t get
So this hell 
Im raging in
I just keep on
I’m raising it

Fucked up 
In my head 
Only want
To be dead 
I don’t got
Fuckin friends 
Every bridge 
I burned em 

But I don’t fucking care
I called for help
N they weren’t there
To the moon I would stare
Asking why I’m fucking here

I been drowning in my loneliness 
And all my emotions that I’m holding in
Just want somebody to hold me bitch
But no one cares or notices 

Everybody left me all alone 
But I still sit up on my throne
I just want a place to call my own 
As I walk down this lonely road

loneliness

Prod. rx808

Lyrics ~

Feeling fuckin worthless
Death might just be worth it
Sick of fucking hurting
I still feel the burning 

I can’t fucking sleep 
I don’t wanna fucking eat
I might wanna bleed 
But I won’t let you see

All the scars underneath 
I cut so fucking deep
For help I would plead 
But they called me a freak

But I just wanna be 
Livin life fuckin free
So I’m gonna reach
For all of my dreams

Cuz im ashamed 
Of what I am
I have no name 
I’m just a man
Trying to escape 
What wasn’t planned
Walk with my wraith 
Blades in his hand

If you cross a line
Then cross my path
Don’t wonder why
You should’ve ran
Because I
Don’t give a damn
If you cry or
If you’re sad

All I see is black
Ain’t no light in my path
I can’t change the past
But I ain’t going back

Evaluating 
All of my sins
And what I did
To deserve this
All the hating 
I don’t miss
But I’m still caving
So I’ve been

Feeling fuckin worthless
Death might just be worth it
Sick of fucking hurting
I still feel the burning 

I can’t fucking sleep 
I don’t wanna fucking eat
I might wanna bleed 
But I won’t let you see

All the scars underneath 
I cut so fucking deep
For help I would plead 
But they called me a freak

But I just wanna be 
Livin life fuckin free
So I’m gonna reach
For all of my dreams

look my way

Prod. JpBeatz 

Lyrics~

All my emotions got me in a vortex
Drowning in oceans, deep in my dark depths
Nobody know me or what I’ve bled 
Baby just hold me I feel so exhausted 

I regret some of the shit that I’ve said 
But They were fake so that’s why I left
Only need me for what is up next 
Imma create until my last breath

Its sad to see
Everyone fuckin leave
With my trust deceived 
Like that shits fine to me
Nothing is what it seems
Lying right through their teeth
Quiet but wanna scream
But I can’t fuckin breathe

Silently suffering 
Burns hidden underneath
Of whats been done to me
Meaning so fucking deep

Is life a game
I feel so damn  insane
how much more can I take 
Before I break from pain

Life’s fucking got me stuck in its cyclone
My mind is racing as I see time go
Faster than ever, I feel like I’ll die slow
Hell is too hot so that is what I froze

They all left me alone
What do I call a home
In this realm imma roam
Until I feel comfortable 

Or until I fucking cave
Cuz I know I can’t be saved
A mistake you can’t erase
Mom this never was a phase

That’s why they all ran away
Cuz my words they couldn’t take
All those games I don’t play
That’s why I pushed em’ away

I got no friends 
N I don’t regret
Anything that I said
Cuz I Wont forget
All the shit That they did
They can all suck my dick
Then go drive off a cliff
I’m so sick of this shit

Someone lit the fuse, I’m about to blow 
Where am I going? I wonder when I’ll know
Lost in the dark but the lights my hope
But I’ll keep on searching cuz imma lost soul

lonely thoughts

Prod. Septfree 

Lyrics~

I been tryna hold it back but I’m breaking
Waiting for the day the reaper fuckin takes me
Bitch I’m nothing you can’t fuckin save me 
Don’t say that you love me
If you fucking hate me

My emotions, they’re always mistaking
Deep inside my ocean, is where I’ll be fading
Where’d you go bitch what happened to staying?
I can’t fucking cope with, 
Scars that I would make bleed 

My walls cave in
Baby I can’t take this 
Lately you been changing 
Baby make it make sense 
I been patient 
My hearts fuckin aching 
Sick of fuckin faking 
Baby girl I hate this

All alone, there’s no one I know
I’m finding a home, but got no where to go
I’m In the cold, blood drips in snow
Pains all I hold, can’t take no mo

I’ve been tryna hold it back but I’m breakin’ 
I can’t do this on my own 
Anymore I can’t take it
They just hear these songs and 
They think that I’m amazin’
They don’t know the real me
They don’t know I’m fakin’ 

You tell me you love me but I 
Don’t know what you’re thinkin’
Happiness is fleeting
I’m tired of chasin’
I’m still bleeding 
Baby I can taste it 
You don’t need me 
Baby girl I hate it 

Used to wake up think bout getting faded 
Don't tell me what I mean to you
I don’t care you can save it
I don’t want your love 
It’s more than that baby I crave it
You’re the only one that can help me
Girl you’re my haven 

I’ve been tryna hold it back but I’m breakin’ 
I can’t do this on my own 
Anymore I can’t take it
They just hear these songs and 
They think that I’m amazin’
They don’t know the real me
They don’t know I’m fakin’

beneath the surface ft. unknxwn.

Prod. S1N7H

Lyrics ~

Do you ever want to just disappear?
I do, I’ve done it
Sometimes the idea of being away sounds great
So yes, I’d love to be able to disappear 

Alone 
Don’t know
Where to go
Down this road

What I hold
I Can’t control 
So You can go cuz

Imma Disappear 
In the dark where my demons appear
Death, I don’t fear 
When my times near
Imma stand clear 

Cuz my life here
Isn’t fuckin right my dear
So Don’t shed no tears
When Off a cliff I’ll steer
After all these years 

Being broken 
Hopeless
Choking while smokin
Myself I’m ghostin
While I am scolded
Bridges I folded
I tied the rope with 
There ain’t no copin 
With what I’m alone in 

My souls torn
Why was I born
I’m nothing that
You should adore
Don’t come back
Blood on the floor
I’m in the past 
So please don’t mourn

disappear

prod. p4ra

Lyrics~

I can’t fucking let this out 
But I’m fucking breaking down
Depths get darker as I drown 
My demons are fuckin loud
Quiet but I wanna shout 
I won’t fucking make a sound
I’m just tryna make it out 
Guess I’ll take a different route

They say time heals but I’m still fuckin copin
It’s hard to heal when I’ve always been broken
I can’t explain the words I’m fuckin chokin
It’s hard to feel emotions that I hold in

There’s too many what ifs 
I can’t fuckin trust it
I’m not good at trustin
Everybody crushed it
Sat there as my blood dripped 
Rivers from my cut wrist
Loved you but you love him
Honestly bitch fuck this 

My tears don’t fall
They fucking crash around me 
Gave it my all 
But I’m still fucking drowning 
My demons call 
N they fuckin surround me
Blood on the walls 
Is how they fuckin found me 

You can’t hurt me 
Cuz all I fucking know is pain 
All of the burning 
Won’t ever fuckin go away
It was deserving 
N that won’t fuckin ever change
Tossing and turning 
My dark thoughts don’t go away

tears dont fall

Prod. Puhf

Lyrics~
I’ve been fucking fallin through
All My scars and my cuts 
I’ll be in the dark until 
I know true love
I don’t think that I can feel
For so long I’ve felt numb
Didn’t know what was real
I don’t know who to trust

Thoughts are attacking me rapidly 
All of my demons are constantly mad at me
Causing the wars that I’m constantly battling
But I been shattering Everythings blackening

Every friendship 
A matter of seconds
Are put to an end quick
They’re Nothin but lessons

Leavin me breathless
I gotta death wish
What is this message
I dont fuckin get it

I just can’t escape 
Out this fucking cage
All I’ve felt is pain
That shit made me change

Reached for a hand
Dripping my 
Blood on 
The floor
Fucked it up again
Don’t wanna 
Go on
No more
Cuz

I’ve been fucking fallin through
All My scars and my cuts 
I’ll be in the dark until 
I know true love
I don’t think that I can feel
For so long I’ve felt numb
Didn’t know what was real
I don’t know who to trust

ambience

Prod. YUNGFVCE 

Lyrics~

Run it back 
If you talkin shit get fuckin slapped 
I don’t need a clip
Drag that body cross the fuckin map
Run it back 
Run up on a bitch like a runner back
Hunnid stacks 
I throw on yo bitch, she ain’t coming back

Dive in 
Right into the mind of a tyrant 
Bitch I reside in the dark where no light is
Dyin
Fuckin lost in time feelin lifeless
Demons rip apart my heart 
Then they’re like bye bitch

Hatred 
Seems to be what I was made with
Sacred
What I keep beneath ain’t painless 
Make sense?
Prolly not cuz you don’t know real pain bitch
Faceless 
Hollowed out my mask now I’m dangerous

Bankai 
Bitch I’ll turn yo ass to small fry 
Won’t lie 
Imma take ya bitch n fuck her all night
Hog tied
Cuz that dirty bitch wants a dom guy
Alright 
I fucked shawty good now she can’t walk right 

Fuck all these bitches on that bullshit lately 
I don’t give a fuck I’ll make all of y’all hate me

Run it back 
If you talkin shit get fuckin slapped 
I don’t need a clip
Drag that body cross the fuckin map
Run it back 
Run up on a bitch like a runner back
Hunnid stacks 
I throw on yo bitch, she ain’t coming back

Heartless 
Imma put you down if you barkin 
Darkness 
Where I used the blade to carve in
Starvin
Demons full of rage rip you apart quick
Harness
Every bit of pain this the sharpest 

Cut to yo soul 
Muhfucker you ain’t getting up
Fuck up a hoe
Ain’t the type to fuckin let em run
Bitch I’m on go
Muhfucker you can’t set me up
Watch that bitch fold
When I hit him with a tummy tuck 

Outta fucks 
Outta love 
Now I’m fuckin pourin up 
All the cuts 
Full of blood 
They got fuckin borin bruh
Not enough
Sparkin up 
Makes my fuckin mind go numb
Park it up 
At the club
Now we fuckin turnin up

run it back

DEAD (prod. aquinaswc)

Some fire w/ unknxwn. 🤮 enjoy
(prod. Explicit)

The Storm ft. unknxwn.

Im now 19. This is a song about me letting go of the past. Ive evolved yet again and will continue to become stronger⛓

Die, Self (prod. emal)

straight spitting w my druh 🌩
(prod. Explicit)

Lunar

Lunar ft. unknxwn.

Damian goin hard w Detmer😈 

Lyrics~

Feelin like I’m fuckin lost
If I took my life would you care when I’m gone?
I try to write out what I feel in a song 
But whenever it’s on, who sings along?
I feel like I’m so fucking lonely
Nobody knows me
Does anyone here give a damn?
I don’t know what the fuck broke me
They say find a coping
Im reaching for help, theres no hand

All of my demons 
Know all of my weaknesses
They keep on creepin in
Shit is so frequent and 
I keep believing them 
Saying I’m weak as shit
I’m just a piece of shit
Constantly seeking bliss

At the end of the day, i won’t find it
At night I debate, should I keep tryin
Life’s full of pain, death stop hidin
I’m going insane, don’t know where my mind went

Falling apart more and more every day
Im just a memory, soon to fade

Whats my purpose? I only feel worthless 
What in the fuck, have I been cursed with 
I always wonder if im just a burden
I don’t know but I am sick of the hurtin 
Inside i am nervous but calm on the surface 
I know im a fuck up but nobodies perfect

Who can save me, I don’t know
Im slowly breaking, im so cold
I’ve got scars that I cant show
The darks where i will, die alone


Sober me woke up the demons in me
I'm fucked up without a drug, a cup, a pill to cut
I'm numb inside, don't feel the love
Red in my eyes, I feel the rush
I'll beat a fucking mountain with my hands until it falls to dust

We need a new fucking song
Why ain't you rapping about what is wrong?
I swear it's okay if think you're alone
Cause you got us, you don't need no one

You get plays, you don't need that love
The shit you say makes me feel loved
But I can't go to sleep and hold my stats
If I went big, I'd break my plaques

Cause all of the time that I spend talking bout all the shit in my life
I could change my life
I always miss where I been my mind is not right
Honestly I don't see why try
I hate the place that I'm in, shit I could die right now
I can't say when but I just know when I'm 6 in, that you'll forget

So don't come at me talking about what I have
And everything that I could gain
Cause I swear to god if I could get love in place of my dreams
I'd wake right away

But at the same time sometimes I'd trade my soul for cash
I like to say I'm a pretty good person but honestly it just depends on how bad
The place I'm in is, I'm not as mended as I may seem to be
I just got good at pretending, I'm really sickened, you shouldn't cling to me

I can switch face in a minute, I might get wicked, if I see need to be
You might just think I'm a misfit dumb fuck dimwit but you ain't seen the beast

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