IF I EVER WONDERED WHY

Amy Stevens vocals
John Russell guitars, bass, keys, drums/drum programming
Recorded at PORKCHOPS! III September 2025
Produced by John Russell and Amy Stevens
All songs written by Amy Stevens and John Russell c/p 2025 Solstice Music INC/The Chocolate Era LTD

Best Of Me

Looking back on my life,
Know I didn’t do right,
Wishing I had a second chance,
I watched da world turn on me.

Still falling from a high,
I’m gone i won’t lie,
And I’ll never land,
It’s killing me

Why lie (why lie)
Why (why)
I tried (I tried)
I did
Why lie (why lie)
Why (why)
I tried (I tried)
I did

That crazy thing happened again I can't help but wonder why
Got the craziest feeling wondering if I died
It happens every time I look up to the sky
Yeah I , I must’ve died

I’m in a old city with no friends
Your right beside to hold me still no one knows me
Positioning my phone, when you and it are alone
Come back and its moved, like why are u so nosy

Blame after blame after blame
What’s to gain from your game
Driving me out my own skin
I will not go insane

Still falling from a high,
I’m gone i won’t lie,
And I’ll never land,
It’s killing me

Why lie (why lie)
Why (why)
I tried (I tried)
I did
Why lie (why lie)
Why (why)
I tried (I tried)
I did


Stuck

Gamma Hell

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Musique et chant / Music and vocal : Ootol
Paroles, chant et jaquette / Lyrics, vocal and artcover : Lukowig

Paroles / Lyrics :
Où est ce ciel ensoleillé,
qui est venu nous le voler,
pourquoi ces nuages masquent-ils
ce soleil qui nous réchauffait ?

Une couleur manque à ta palette
le mauve que je t’avais donné
sans elle je ne pourrais te peindre
les paysages que tu aimes tant.

Loin de toi
comme je suis loin de toi
comme j’ai froid loin de toi
tout est gris loin de toi
Loin de toi
comme je suis loin de toi
comme j’ai froid loin de toi
tout est gris loin de toi


Tu me dis de ta douce voix :
« Je t’en supplie dépêche-toi
Reviens-moi vite je m’ennuie… »
et cet appel hante mes nuits.

Alors j’attends le jour béni
où nous serons réunis
je suis aussi impatiente que toi
je voudrais tant que je sois…

… près de toi
mais tu es loin de moi
je ne dors plus sans toi,
ne vit plus loin de moi.

Loin de toi 
j’ai peur que tu prennes froid
je veux que tu sois là
pour te serrer dans mes bras.

Loin de toi 
pourquoi n’es-tu pas là
comme je suis loin de toi
quand seras-tu près de moi ?

Loi de toi
comme je suis loin de toi
comme j’ai froid loin de toi
tous mes cris vont vers toi…

Jardin suspendu

Loin de toi

Sommet Factice

This music is the soundtrack to the film "L'aranya teixeix llum" (The Spider Weaves the Light).

It is therefore advisable to watch the film directly on YouTube, as the images and music complement each other, forming a superior whole (unfortunately, SoundCloud does not allow films), so it is better to watch the film than just the music:

https://youtu.be/qCwEE9YSpgE?si=YLXvYaRxxbW1Uosd

This is a locally produced film centered on the Ripoll River, a small river that runs through the outskirts of Sabadell, a city near Barcelona (Spain). It is a short film (13') with a documentary approach but with a "artistic" style. We made it together with Nativitat Ayala and it is based on a poetic text written by her (with the same name as the film). She was primarily responsible for the plot idea and the script. I was in charge of the technical aspects (filming and editing) and, of course, also the musical composition.

The overall intention of this film was to highlight this river and its natural and wild environment, which is still preserved today and is currently in danger given the latest proposals to modify its industrial and tertiary uses by the City Council (which are not at all appreciated by most of the opposition and citizen movements).

Also, in the first part of the film, we sought to emphasize that the harsh conditions that the working women endured in the warehouses of the old factories of the last century are also part of the history of this river.

Thus, in this first part, we sought to create, both with the images and the music, a more somber and despondent atmosphere, which gradually transitions to greater luminosity and serenity, eventually achieving, in the final section, a liberating effect by showing that the natural and wild nature of the river ultimately prevails (at least for the time being). And all of this using a "poetic-artistic language" and modest and simple technical means.

Below are two PDF files, in English and Spanish, that explain the characteristics of the music:

In English:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1v3DmQEQuOaz4SPXjXkHfyO_RhxSJiIVr/view?usp=sharing

En español:
https://drive.google.com/file/d/1nHrU8rSyndgxS0izdofu8tQoiJcrJ_Xs/view?usp=sharing



The film's soundtrack

The Leverage

cover of a Noel Gallagher demo "just let it come down over me"

just let it come down over me (cover)

My latest work in progress :D

im really happy with the mixdown from the recording sessions, i just need to work on a few things that are still muted in places certain things will be swapped out eventually very small things mainly the atmospheric sounds and effects and hi end percussions, theres still a nice ride ive yet to mix into it

im really proud of this one its a good translation of what i had in my head something that throws you into new motions in a blink like alternating tracks yet cohesive as one? if that makes sense lol

Usual suspects on the bus, Satson channel, Kratos maximiser there so damn transparent yet give the busses such a fuller sound with more body its unreal

TC Finalizer on limiter duties as usual :D 

enjoy guys, its not the final arrangement but will be pretty much the same just slight variations and some other sounds that ive not got enough channels for on my desk so im having to sum them together and then stich the recordings, Peace out

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