Romantic (EM Project 2)

song from 'caribou killer', which will be out reasonably soon

i'm gnashing teeth on bent knee
there are two rooms and only one of me
the context is lost in what you speak
stage blood all over the back seat

i've got your high beams in rearview
i can't see a thing
dust clouds form near you
the road is starting to sink

i'm scared that i am missing out
i've known the words but haven't said them aloud
in some facets that i hardly know
rust in my eyes, fingers, and toes

it feels so strange, just an inkling
dry in my mouth
what the fuck were you thinking?
what are you going on about?
the ropes are tightened up
and you're pulling on the ends
it's time i lightened up
walking under the edge

i know how i harshly press my eyes
but i don't know why-
something just feels right
within some conduit through which we rationalize 
the nameless guilt on our back all of the time
"do i have to do this for the rest of my life?"
i have to do this until the day i die

conduits

dark, mysterious, and possibly deadly (lol)
WEEPINGWALL
This one is my favorite example of my own “cluelessness”
and the wonders of the subconscious mind, revealing itself slowly and over time.
The power of denial...
I didn’t have a clue what this song was about until about ten years after I wrote it.
I remember tho that I labored over it- each phrase, each word had to feel right —
conjuring lyrics from a field of mystery
The music is almost funereal, especially the coda.
The lyric is perhaps prophetic at “knows what to do whenever I’m wanting to write
the end”
(sex=death) in that in less than five years time,
the AIDS epidemic would be ravaging New York and then Boston,
San Francisco and LA on the west coast, like waves it fanned out,
wherever people travel and yes, people traveled.
This recording is a 292 Shawmut Avenue revisitation,
some time in the early ‘90’s, new harmonies and guitars, bass
WEEPING WALL
In the face of the man, I could see
that he wanted attention from me.
He began to begin, he told me:
I can show you the end of your plans
-but I cannot tell you who I am-
We went out, he showed me new rooms
He showed me things I’d known all along
Inside we witnessed the waiting of everyone
A hammer, a mirror, and a mattress-
You gave me the key to the fortress
The marbles that rolled - they’re just making their way to the door
I followed and fell back to the back room
He gave me the key to the men’s room
‘Said whenever you want some, you will come and get some from me.
I have found my own weeping wall
Knows how to stand, knows how to fall
Knows what to whenever I’m wanting to write the end

Weeping Wall

song off of a currently untitled album, which will be coming out eventually, hopefully sooner rather than later.

in passenger

nothing changes sometimes

A half-improvised piano piece. You can watch a video I made for it here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SRsw41BS5n0

Piano 1 - Demo

All This Is Over

The second single 'Double the Body V: Escape the Body,' which can be downloaded for free here:
https://slavebeaverrevolt.bandcamp.com/album/escape-the-body

John - Art, Vocals, Lyrics, Music, Mixing

Lyrics:
I'm always shocked the first time
Less the next time
Then I do it all the time
I'm shocked I cared the first time

It's good to see you, but I'm tired
I know what you've done
Be seeing you alone getting pissed on

Do I even know you anymore?
You won't notice if I lapse
I'll just slip through the cracks

'Hello,' and, 'how are you?'
To a look, and, 'who are you?'

Depraved, corrupt, marred, malignant 
Eat me up

Life's gone 
Lived long
Way beyond 
Itself

Drowning
Take it all, take it all
And choke on it

This heat is numbing
Elbows rubbing
Burning pressure
To be fine

I watch as the stain dries in
Our heroes are dead
None of us are fine
Time will kill again

Drowning
Take it all, take it all
And choke on it

What's burnt is dead
Less and less and less

Deluge

Single for 'Lone Songs', available for FREE here: https://martin-nilsen.bandcamp.com/album/lone-songs

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BANDCAMP
https://martin-nilsen.bandcamp.com/
YOUTUBE
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCEZXImNHjUgOwV_LZlR3iAQ

Wishes

Cover Art by Jack Corkery
Music by Me



(sample from MDE)

nothing changes sometimes

thistle street